Crush Diary

63.

Li Ranxing's birthday is in November, and I actually started saving money for it from a very early age, but I haven't thought about what to buy.

I haven't seen Li Ranxing for a long time.

He seems to have started to get busy recently, and I have a lot of homework in the third year of high school, so I have to spend a lot of energy on it.

He is such an excellent person, if I can get into a good university, can I get closer to him.

If I can grow up to be as good as him in the future, will I understand his troubles?

If he is the same as that noon next time, I may be able to comfort and enlighten him.

I used to study only to make money later, but now my goal seems to be a little clearer, I hope to be as good as him, to be able to stand by his side and give him support when he is distressed.

64.

Everything was going on without a hitch.

That brother of mine had troubled me a few times before, but he doesn't bother me much now.Maybe it's because he became busy in the third year of high school?

I don't know, but everything seems to be getting a little bit better, and maybe fate decides to treat me better from now on.

65.

That day, I passed a store.

A gray cashmere scarf hung in the window.

It was a very high-end store, and the scarves looked very soft and felt as soft as clouds.

Gray cashmere sounds warm.

Under the warm light of the window, the warm gray scarf reminded me of Li Ranxing's eyes.

It must have gone well with him.

Because sometimes there will be such a gentle look in his eyes, which makes people feel as if they are trapped in soft cashmere.

The idea in my mind was so strong that I bought the scarf that cost me a month's living expenses without thinking too much. When I realized it, I realized that many people around me were looking at me.

Some were students from our school, some of them knew me, and I knew that I was out of place in this shiny store, and I left before the sneers and jeers entered my ears.

66.

I haven't seen Li Ranxing for a long time.

I miss him very much, but I am trying to get closer to him in another way.

I thought about it, if he wants to go abroad in the future, I will definitely not be able to pursue him in the short term, after all, it will require an expensive fee.

But in the future there will be exchange students in the university, I can fight for the relevant places, and I can save money after I go to university. As long as I want and persist, I will always have a way to follow him.

I comforted myself, and my heart gradually settled down.

67.

I counted the days for a long time, and finally it was his birthday.

I thought for a long time and still didn't send the gift in person.

I secretly put the gift in his drawer on the first day, thinking that he would be able to receive my gift the next day, and I was a little happy in my heart.

Even if I have to eat pickles and steamed buns for a long time for this, I am happy.

68.

Many people gave presents to Li Ranxing on his birthday.

The presents he received filled his entire table.

When I went to take a peek at him, he was sitting next to a hill of piles of presents, unwrapping a present.

The overly delicate packaging and the gorgeous English on it all showed how expensive a gift it was.

I couldn't help but take another look. My little dusty bag was buried under a mountain of presents. Compared with other presents, it looked like garbage that was thrown there casually.

But that's about as good as I can give him.

69.

Li Ranxing had a birthday party at night, in a restaurant near the school, he booked the whole party, it was very lively.

Li Ranxing invited many people, almost the entire second graders went.

In fact, I secretly thought in my heart, would Li Ranxing suddenly think of me, think that he and I are also considered friends, and then come to invite me, his birthday party is not only attended by those rich and powerful children, but also many other people ordinary students.

I waited quietly for a day, and after school in the evening, he never came to me.

Even though I knew this was going to happen, I couldn't help being a little disappointed.

70.

In his eyes, it turned out that he and I were not friends.

71.

The news of Li Ranxing's birthday party has spread throughout the school, and the location of the party is very simple.

The restaurant is located in the bustling area near the school. It has three floors. It is a well-known restaurant for rich people in the downtown area. Everything in it is frighteningly expensive. To me, the money needed to buy such a restaurant is astronomical. , but it may be very common for Li Ranxing.

I wandered around for a while.

The restaurant is very lively.

I can hear the music and laughter inside across the street, which one of these voices belongs to Li Ranxing?

Li Ranxing's voice was covered by the noisy crowd and loud music, so I couldn't tell the difference.

I glanced at the bright lights and candles in the restaurant, and I walked back slowly.

72.

It's winter, and the night wind is very cold.

I wrapped my clothes and walked back step by step with my schoolbag on my back.

I feel cold and hungry.

This is the most prosperous area nearby, the lights are feasting, and all kinds of lights and shadows shine on my face.

I found a bench and sat down.

There was a leftover steamed bun in my schoolbag, so I took out that steamed bun and bit into it.

The steamed buns have been cold, and now they are a bit hard after being left for a day.

I buy four steamed buns every morning. The steamed buns made by the auntie in the cafeteria are big and white, and they are very hungry.Sometimes I have a bowl of porridge with pickles at night.This has been my daily meal for a month.

I was facing the shop window, and the bright glass vaguely reflected my embarrassed figure.

I'm wearing my best outfit today, the padded jacket is the best looking of my bloated winter coats, and my sneakers have been wiped clean with a new pair of white socks underneath.

Still, my padded jackets looked ugly compared to those trendy trench coats.Although my sneakers have been polished well, but the spring style of the year before last, they are snow-white and snow-white. I seldom take them out to wear them, but they are not warm, even if I wear thick socks. There are also old creases that cannot be erased.

I had well-arranged hair before I went out, and now it is messy even after being blown by the wind.

I have nothing to do with good looks and fashion, and I'm not in the same world as the guys at the restaurant across the street.

The excitement is all theirs.

I was biting a steamed bun, and people were coming and going in front of me. I sat on the bench, but the circles of my eyes gradually turned red.

The oncoming wind was so cold that it seemed to blow the flesh off a person's face.

I fantasize that I can drink a bowl of hot porridge from the cafeteria, and there will be free pickles.

I felt too cold, and my stomach was throbbing with pain from the long-term cold.

If I'm in the cafeteria, I can warm up the steamed buns.Now I can only swallow it with the cold wind, and my stomach is getting more and more uncomfortable.

I suppressed the tears in my eyes, put down the steamed buns in my hand, and put the leftover half into my schoolbag.

Clutching my stomach and leaning on the bench for a while, I gradually recovered a little.

73.

Sitting next to me was a couple, they were talking affectionately, and a family of three on the other side of the street was walking happily, arm in arm.

On this night, everything in the world seems to be happy and happy, it seems that I am alone and lonely.

I was wondering if there are girls who are as close to Li Ranxing as the couple next to them.

I know someone wrote a love letter to Li Ranxing on this day to confess to him, I can't imagine what would happen if he agreed...

My heart throbbed with pain.

I bent over and covered my face, thinking for a long time.

At this moment, I felt abandoned by everyone.

74.

I can't find Li Ranxing, he has his excitement, but that excitement is not mine.

75.

I blew the cold wind on the bench for a long time, and my whole body was frozen.

I finally remembered the scarf I gave him, so soft and comfortable, he would be warm and comfortable if he wore it.

I thought of his gray eyes, soft and beautiful.

On this night of his birthday, I thought, at least let me say happy birthday to him.

76.

I walked back slowly, I don't know how I got there.

I never thought about what if I can't see Li Ranxing?

He didn't invite me, and I didn't even know if I could go in.If I can't get in, how can I see him.

But when I got to that restaurant, I actually saw Li Ranxing outside the restaurant.

He was on the corner, with his coat on, and he seemed to still be warm from the radiator.

He is now on the corner of the street, with a dim light cast by a lamp above his head, his handsome face still has some youthful innocence, but that does not diminish his current handsomeness in the slightest.

He saw me right away.

He didn't seem to expect to see me here, and he called out to me.

"It's you, what a coincidence."

He didn't know that it wasn't a coincidence that I was here, or that I had to think about it for three hours in the cold and windy wind to be here.

Except for those few meetings, I basically had no interaction with him. Perhaps in his eyes, I was just a familiar student from the same school.He didn't think about inviting me, which is actually normal.

He doesn't know how I miss him, doesn't know how much I like him, doesn't know how sad I have been for him.

My heart was a little sour, but then when his gray eyes looked at me, those sourness gradually faded away, turning into a little bit of very faint joy.

"Well... I came here for a casual stroll."

I looked at Li Ranxing, he didn't seem to think much about my statement.

I smiled at him and said, "It's your birthday today, I wish you a happy birthday."

He looked at my face and bent his lips: "Thank you."

There was a gentle smile in his eyes when he said this.

My whole body seemed to gradually warm up with his smile.

At this time, someone inside seemed to call him.

He hurriedly responded, as if he was going back, thinking he should have come out to get some air just now.

77.

After I finished saying happy birthday to him, I seemed to let go of a huge obsession in my heart. I was slightly relieved and was about to walk back when I heard Li Ranxing calling me.

"Why don't you go in and sit down? Today is my birthday party."

He stood at the door with the light of the lamp still shining in his eyes.

I stopped, feeling a little nervous for a moment.

But he looked very calm, as if he casually invited a friend to dinner.

78.

Of course I couldn't refuse him.

"...Okay...Okay."