Crush Diary

114.

I was already planning to leave.

This change made me freeze in place, unable to move.

115.

As I said, God has never favored me one point.

The things I prayed for never came true.

116.

Far away, I saw Wang Xuan was frowning and talking to Li Ranxing.

Wang Xuan's eyebrows and eyes were full of sarcasm and disgust.

He held the card, as if he was holding something extremely stinky and disgusting, and tried not to let himself throw the card away.

I couldn't hear clearly what Wang Xuan was saying to Li Ranxing, and the people around him had already begun to faintly become agitated.

"That kid is a bitch, he is not a good guy, don't tell me you really know him?!"

Among the noisy human voices, only this sentence seemed to hit my ears straight.

I can't help but look up.

117.

Across the crowd, I met Li Ranxing's eyes.

At that moment, I just felt that my whole heart was tightened.

I can't see the look in Li Ranxing's eyes clearly, after all, the distance between me and him is too far.

He stands on stage.

And I'm in the audience.

He is surrounded by people.

And me, I've felt the people around me who deliberately stay away from me.

I can't see his expression clearly, whether there is sarcasm and ridicule on his face, whether he is the same as others...

I don't know what Wang Xuan said at the beginning.

The disgusted eyes around him already showed that what Wang Xuan just said was definitely not a good thing.

118.

A long time ago, when Wang Xuan slandered me and slandered me, I tried to resist.

But the result without exception is that I failed miserably.

Slowly, I didn't bother to refute anything.

I'm tired.

Anyway, everyone thinks so.

Everyone will feel that what Wang Xuan said is right.

After all, in everyone's eyes, my mother is the vicious mistress who broke up other families.

Perhaps, in their eyes, Wang Xuan was the weak and the victim.

No one cares what I think.

What's more, Wang Xuan's family is powerful and powerful, and he is a good student with excellent character and academics in the eyes of his teachers and parents. I am just a bad boy with a history of theft.

The lights were too bright, and I could only see a faint circle of light behind Li Ranxing.

118.

He is a star.

119.

I said this to myself in my heart.

120.

But he will never be mine.

He is everyone's star.

His brilliance never flickered for me alone.

121.

For a moment, I thought I was ridiculous.

All the bitterness and joy I have experienced these days, in the final analysis, only I know it.

What does it have to do with him.

122.

Everyone saw me.

Wang Xuan naturally saw me too.

I don't know how he slandered me in front of me.

But at this moment, the original fear and fear in my heart completely disappeared, and I suddenly calmed down.

Wang Xuan met my eyes through the crowd.

I seem to be back in that alley.

The cold abuse around, those fists and feet like raindrops.

Those gray mocking and vicious laughs whose faces could not be seen clearly.

I looked at Wang Xuan's cold face, and the sounds of small discussions around me came to my ears.

I stood where I was, as if I had returned to when I was very young. I covered my face, and when I was being bullied, I waited hard for someone to rescue me.

But the heroes in those stories are fake.

There will not be such a person.

I suddenly recalled my deep disappointment and sadness at that time.

I cried a lot, and my grandma couldn't stop it no matter how much she persuaded me.

But it's no use crying.

No matter how much you are sad, no matter how much you cry, there will not be such a person.

The only one who can save me is myself.

123.

I stood where I was, looking at the distance between me and Li Ranxing, looking at his face blurred under the light, I was silent for a long time.

For a long time, I felt a lingering sadness.

The expression on my face gradually turned cold and became hard.

Just like I protected myself before.

124.

I've been through this situation too many times.

I didn't look at anything else, I turned around and left the restaurant.

125.

I found that I am not such a brave person.

I always thought I wasn't afraid of anything.

It wasn't until now that I realized that I was actually a very timid person.

I am afraid of many things.

When I left, I didn't even dare to see the expression on Li Ranxing's face at that time.

I am afraid.

Afraid he would hate me too.

126.

After I went out, I didn't know where to run for a long, long time.

He didn't stop until he was almost exhausted.

I leaned on a tree and gasped for a long time.

I stayed where I was for so long that I didn't even want to go back to school.

I have long since hated that place.

I sat down limply under the tree.

My stomach hurts so badly that I can barely stand up once I sit down.

The icy wind blows on my face.

I sat under the tree for a long time, and my whole body was frozen.

127.

I looked at the black night sky, and my stomach was filled with pain. I suddenly remembered a sentence I had read somewhere before.

Loving someone is like experiencing calamities.

128.

When I woke up, I found that Li Ranxing was calling me in front of me.

His pretty eyebrows frowned slightly.

The sky was still dark, except for a slanting light not far away.

Only then did I realize that I had fallen asleep leaning against a tree like this.

I just had a severe pain in my stomach, but now it almost hurts so much that I feel in a trance.

Li Ranxing looked at my pale face and pursed his lips lightly.

I found that he is also very good-looking like this.

When I wanted to say something, I couldn't hold on anymore, and immediately fell into darkness and lost consciousness.