you hit me in the eye

-where?

A text message from Lin Zhan.

Shen Kai looked at the phone, then put it back, he didn't want to return it, didn't want to talk, he panicked.

After a while, the phone rang.

Shen Kai lay on the bed, glanced irritably, and when he picked up the phone, Wang Yu began to yell, "Master Shen! What's wrong with you, you suddenly missed class?"

"I can skip class even if I have nothing to do, why?" Shen Kai didn't want to go back and forth on the issue of absenteeism.

"All right, all right, I'm afraid of you, let's eat □□. Lin Zhan asked the teacher for leave and said you were sick, so I called you specifically to tell you, remember to collude tomorrow." Wang Yu finished speaking, Shen Kai heard the class bell ring on the other end of the phone, and Wang Yu hung up the phone in a hurry.

Shen Kai buried his head in the pillow and couldn't fall asleep at all, his mind was full of the pictures that Zhang Xinyu showed him at noon today, as well as what the troublemaker said in the morning.

Lin Zhan!Why don't you tell me!

-come to my home.Shen Kai couldn't hold it any longer, and waited until 4:[-] to send Lin Zhan a text message.

--it is good.

Ding dong, the doorbell rang.

Shen Kai glanced at the phone, 4:50, tsk, Lin Zhan left early.

Shen Kai opened the door, Lin Zhan carried a bunch of snacks, "Didn't you eat lunch?" and handed the snacks to Shen Kai.

"Yes, do you smoke?" Shen Kai sat on the sofa and asked hoarsely.

"You?" Lin Zhan was stunned, took out a pack of cigarettes from his pocket, and gave it to Shen Kai, "Aren't you a non-smoker?"

"I'm annoying." Shen Kai lit up a cigarette, took a few puffs, and coughed, "Damn, it's so choking."

"Little kid, smoking is harmful to your health." Lin Zhan snatched the cigarette out and opened a bottle of yogurt for Shen Kai, "Quick, take a few bites."

"Brother Zhan..." Shen Kai lowered his head, cleared his throat, and rubbed the edge of the sofa with both hands, "Zhang Xinyu came to see me at noon."

"What? Confession for the second time?" Lin Zhan didn't take it seriously, walked up to Shen Kai and sat down, persistently handing him the yogurt.

"She showed me a picture," Shen Kai took the yogurt, took a sip, pursed his lips and continued, "Your dad...with another man..."

"..." Lin Zhan froze all of a sudden, and didn't turn his head to look at Shen Kai, his eyes dodged a little, and he didn't respond to Shen Kai.

"Brother Zhan..." Shen Kai patted Lin Zhan on the back, "What's going on?"

Lin Zhan stood up suddenly, his eyelids trembled, Shen Kai felt that Lin Zhan was a little excited, and grabbed his wrist suddenly, "You, what's wrong?"

"I..." Lin Zhan paused and sighed, "I want to go home first, I'm worried about my mother."

Shen Kai hesitated for a while, let go of his hand, saw that Lin Zhan walked out the door without looking back, and finally said, "Brother Zhan, don't worry too much, it's fine."

"En." Lin Zhan nodded and left.

After closing the door, Shen Kai sighed, he still didn't feel relieved, he still had many problems that he didn't say out loud, he didn't even figure out the reason, so he told Lin Zhan about it beforehand, he felt that he was stupid to help I can't be busy, and I can't share.

However, he still felt vaguely uneasy, and he didn't know what to say, just feeling awkward in his heart.

As soon as Lin Zhan came home, he saw his mother sitting in the living room, neither cooking nor watching TV, which was very different from usual.

"Mom." Panting a little anxiously, Lin Zhan walked gently to his mother and sat down, "Where's my father?"

"Zhan Zhan..." Lin Zhan's mother trembled a little, looked at him, her eyes turned red, "Your father and I should be getting a divorce."

"..." Lin Zhan was stunned for a long time before his eyes widened, "Divorce? Why? Your body."

"Maybe it's because my health is much better, and the cancer cells are under control, he..." Lin Zhan's mother started crying again before finishing her sentence.

"Isn't it, it's that man again!" Lin Zhan clenched his fist excitedly, "Where is he?"

"I was afraid that you would be angry, so I told me on the phone that the man also came to this city. I was afraid of affecting you, so I never dared to tell you." Lin Zhan's mother wiped away her tears, and reached out to hold Lin Zhan, " Zhan Zhan, in fact, before you go home, I figured it out, and I have agreed to divorce."

"..." Lin Zhan was stunned, looked at his mother, and spoke after a long time, "Why, why?"

"Because, I don't want to do this again." Lin Zhan's mother squeezed a hard smile, "You know, before the cancer was diagnosed, they were cured, and because of my illness, they separated again, but what I want is A person who loves me, not a carer. I don't care if he feels guilty or blamed himself, but I don't want to be sloppy and hesitant. He says he is responsible for me, but he doesn't use love. On this point, I just Don't want to see him again..."

Lin Zhan's mother gently wiped away her tears, eased her emotions, and pulled Lin Zhan back to the sofa, "Maybe he didn't have the courage to be with men in the past, so he chose to escape and choose to marry, but after living for so long, maybe After I got sick, he also saw clearly, if he never lived for himself in this life, would he have any regrets? Zhan Zhan, I hate him, but I don’t want to hate myself, so I let him go, I don’t want a few people I've been tied down for a lifetime. Now the doctor says I'm fine, just take medicine, and you see, my hair has grown." Lin Zhan's mother took off the hat and let Lin Zhan touch it, and put it back on with a smile, " I am also tired, and in the face of life and death, nothing matters. I let go."

Letting go of this sentence made Lin Zhan stunned on the sofa for a long time. For a long time, he didn't let go of his father's affairs. Ever since he knew his father had a male companion in junior high school, he hadn't let go.

Lin Zhan once felt that his father was trash, sorry for his mother, sorry for this family, and also, he couldn't hold his head up in front of his classmates.

However, seeing his mother's attitude now, he was also tired for a moment.

Is it because I have been afraid?He was afraid of anyone or anything that could destroy his family, just as he was afraid of his father being exposed to everyone.

Lin Zhan closed his eyes, leaned on the back of the sofa, and let out a long sigh of relief.

The author has something to say: continue tomorrow.