hold you in my arms tonight

Xie Yuan and Jiang Xun stood in the atrium and looked around. It was hard to imagine that there would be such a nunnery in modern society.

"Are you okay?"

Xie Yuan and Jiang Xun looked over and saw an elderly nun in a gray gown, much shorter than them, with a somewhat desolate voice.

Xie Yuan bowed slightly to salute. In such a place, etiquette is more appropriate. He said, "I'm looking for Ms. Song Yin."

"What are you doing with her?"

Xie Yuan said truthfully: "Please tell her, Xie Yuan is looking for her."

The man turned and entered the backyard.

Xie Yuan and Jiang Xun sat down at the stone table in the yard, neither of them spoke, they waited quietly.

About ten minutes later, the nun came back, followed by Song Yin who was much taller and thinner than her.

It is a cruel thing for a beauty to be late, but Song Yin is actually not considered late. After careful calculation, she is only fifty this year, but she is much older now.The once black hair has been completely shaved off, and the pretty face is now covered with wrinkles.

Xie Yuan turned his head and saw her, he got up hastily, then stood and watched her approach.

Song Yin was a little hunchbacked, and when she walked over in just a few steps, her waist had never been straightened.She was pale and had tears in her eyes.

It took a long time before she said to the young man in front of her with a crying voice, "I'm sorry, Xie Yuan."

Xie Yuan asked: "Did you abandon me just to live the life you have today?"

Song Yin clasped his hands together and said: "These years, I have been praying to the Bodhisattva every day to bless you to be safe. I have nothing else to ask for in this life, I only hope that you can live well."

The woman in front of him is completely different from the vague impression in his memory. Xie Yuan can still think of his mother's white dress back then, not the nun in front of him who looks down on the world.

Xie Yuan suddenly laughed, he didn't want to laugh, but couldn't find a suitable expression.He looked away, and asked after a long time: "You...why don't you love your child?"

Xie Yuan really wanted to ask why you don't love me, but he felt sad and he was unwilling to use such words.Xie Huaisheng's unfeeling comes after hatred, but what about hers?

Why don't you love your child?

Song Yin's body has been weak these years, and he couldn't stand after standing for a while, and sat on the stone bench, tears fell like broken threads again.

She said: "I didn't abandon you on purpose, I really didn't abandon you on purpose, I thought your father would pick you up, I called him..."

Xie Yuan answered: "You bet that he won't refuse to answer, and he bet that you won't ignore me, and then you will really ignore me, right?"

Song Yin suppressed his crying and sobbed, "I'm sorry."

"Where is the person you love?" Xie Yuan asked.

That person, Zhou Boan.

Song Yin has not heard this name for many years.

Back in [-], Song Yin met Zhou Boan for the first time in Zhou Boan's private psychological counseling center.

She used to be the envy of all the women in the imperial capital. A woman from a small place, she married the most talented and capable heir of the Xie family in the imperial capital. She even appeared in the newspaper at one point, fulfilling the favor of the popular Cinderella.She used to love Xie Huaisheng very much, that was the first man she loved, and she gave birth to a child for him.

But Cinderella is sick.

When Song Yin gave birth to Xie Yuan, he bled heavily and almost died on the operating table, but was rescued overnight.She was suffering from Sheen Syndrome, which Xie Huaisheng never knew.

Sheehan's syndrome shattered all her pride as a woman. She was faced with out-of-shape figure and dark yellow complexion, and her body was getting worse day by day.The physical illness finally brought about psychological distortion. She found that she was afraid of her child, and when she saw Xie Yuan, she would feel that everything she was facing was due to this child.

Song Yin felt that she was sick, both physically and mentally, and she wanted to ask Xie Huaisheng for help, but at this time she found that Xie Huaisheng had an extramarital affair, and the son he raised outside was only two years younger than Xie Yuan.Song Yin felt that her marriage had come to an end.

When she was almost desperate, she met Zhou Bo'an. That unattractive but extremely gentle man held her hand. The warmth in his palm was something she hadn't felt for many years.

Song Yin's frozen heart beat again.

She proposed divorce, but was rejected by Xie Huaisheng countless times, and later directly locked up by Xie Huaisheng in Xie's villa.She felt that Xie Huaisheng didn't love her because he loved her, but the shadow of Song Yin back then.And she is no longer that Song Yin.

Zhou Bo'an was suppressed by Xie Huaisheng and left the imperial capital in desperation.It was a long time before Song Yin contacted Zhou Boyan. He told her that he was in S city and he could take her away.

That's why she brought Xie Yuan back to Liucheng.

Zhou Boyan said that he could take her away, but he could not accept her child. He said that they would have their own child in the future, and Xie Yuan was Xie Huaisheng's child.Song Yin agreed, so she left Xie Yuan in the park in Liucheng.

She cried all the way when she left the park. Normally, she didn't feel that she cared much about this child, but when she really left him, her heart felt like a knife was twisted.

She regarded Zhou Boyan as the only life-saving straw, and when she came to Liucheng Railway Station to call Zhou Boyan, she heard Zhou Boyan on the other end of the phone saying, I'm sorry, I think we are still not suitable.

Zhou Bo'an explained to her that she is Xie Huaisheng's wife, she is the wife of Xie's family, Xie Huaisheng will find them sooner or later, and by then, it will not only be as simple as suppressing them.

He said sorry, he said he hadn't considered it when he took her away.He regretted it, and he will not contact her again in the future.

Song Yin was in a mess, she suddenly understood that Zhou Boyan was just playing with her.After being stunned for a long time, she ran back to the park in a panic, but Xie Yuan had disappeared.

She cried all night in the park, and at dawn she already had the heart to jump from the artificial lake.

It was the early summer of [-]. Song Yin walked aimlessly on the streets of Liucheng for a long time, and he seemed to have lost his soul.

Finally she stopped and stood at the door of the nunnery.

She walked into the nunnery, knelt down in front of the Bodhisattva statue and wept bitterly, feeling extremely ashamed.It was also that day that the beauty who had been beautiful for half her life shaved off her hair and decided to spend the rest of her life praying for the child she had abandoned.

Song Yin slipped off the stone bench suddenly, and she knelt down in front of Xie Yuan, crying, "I beg you to forgive me, forgive me..."

Xie Yuan stood dumbfounded, this was a situation he did not expect.Jiang Xun, on the other hand, hurried over to help Song Yin, saying, "Ms. Song, get up first."

Song Yin shook her head suddenly, she didn't want to get up, she wanted to get Xie Yuan's forgiveness, she had been thinking for too long.These years, she has been in prison and tortured herself for too long, only Xie Yuan's forgiveness is her salvation.

Xie Yuan said with a hoarse voice: "You...are you trying to shorten my life? If I knew this before, why did I do it?"

Song Yin said: "I'm guilty, I'm sorry for you, but I still want your forgiveness, I want to be freed, I'm such a selfish person, I don't deserve to be your mother. But in this life, please forgive me. "

Xie Yuan asked: "If I don't forgive you, won't you get up?"

Song Yin lowered his head and did not speak, and pulled Jiang Xun's hand away.

Xie Yuan's eyes were red, he took a step back, he almost gritted his teeth and said: "Then...you can kneel."

Xie Yuan grabbed Jiang Xun's hand and ran out like fleeing. He heard the woman behind her suppressing her sobbing, which stabbed him like a needle and gave him a headache.

I don't know how long he ran before Xie Yuan stopped. He said: "I did something wrong and still want to be forgiven and relieved. How can there be such a good thing in the world."

Jiang Xun didn't deny it, he was the one who stood by Xie Yuan's side unconditionally to accompany him against the whole world.

Many years ago in Lanlin Lane, Xie Yuan saw his parents in dreams countless times. He is not someone who has no expectations for his parents since he was born. He has had them before, but in the end he was discarded and left behind.It turns out that all brights have shadows, and all times have failures.

Xie Yuan didn't know why he came here, maybe he just wanted to make a break with himself.From then on, forget those things that you can't get, and let go of those things that used to be.

"Wait a minute!"

The nun chased after her. She was a little tired from running, panting, and she calmed down before she said, "Your mother is not in good health. When you come next time, maybe..."

Xie Yuan said, "I won't come."

The nun froze.

Xie Yuan breathed a sigh of relief, calmed down, and said lightly: "Please tell her, I hope she will have a good life in the future, don't wait for forgiveness, just pretend that she...has no children."

Just like, never did.

Xie Yuan and Jiang Xun left the old city and returned to the orphanage. After staying for more than ten days, they returned to the imperial capital.

Xie Yuan and Jiang Xun didn't go back to Nanshan Yun District, but directly went back to their rented house.

Xie Yuan was not in a good mood for several days, Jiang Xun wanted to make him happier, so he pulled him out to participate in the fluorescent night run organized by the business school for college students.

There were free fluorescent T-shirts at the event, Xie Yuan and Jiang Xun each took one to change into, and ran along with them.This activity has aerial photography, and the patterns are deliberately formed when running, which is very interesting.

Some people are taking pictures during the run, and after the whole run is over, they will ask everyone if they would like to make a poster of the photos and advertise the fluorescent night run next year.

Xie Yuan and Jiang Xun happened to be in the camera, they looked good, and they were full of youthful vigor. The girl who took the photo hurriedly came over and asked them if they would like to make a poster for next year's promotion.

Neither Xie Yuan nor Jiang Xun had any objections, so let them do it.

The next day, Xie Yuan went back to Nanshan Yun District, specially to play chess with Mr. Xie.

When Xie Yuan went, someone was playing chess with Mr. Xie.

Seeing him coming, Mr. Xie happily called him over and introduced him: "Come on, Yuan'er, recognize him, this is the eldest son of the Liang family, Liang Shaoting."

Xie Yuan went around to Mr. Xie's side to see Liang Shaoting's appearance clearly. His serious smile was as cold as ice, and Xie Yuan smiled gently: "Hello, I'm Xie Yuan."

Mr. Xie laughed and said, "Young Ting, my grandson, the number one student in the college entrance examination, is talented in everything. Fortunately, he is ten years younger than you. If he were as old as you, the two of you would be able to compete."

Liang Shaoting has a cold temper, but he respects his elders very much. He said calmly, "I have heard that Xie Yuan is indeed excellent."

Xie Yuan said politely: "I've heard about it for a long time, Brother Shaoting is outstanding among the generation in Yun District."

Liang Shaoting looked at Xie Yuan, he has always been very accurate in seeing people, this person, as Liang Shaoyun said, is definitely not something in the pool.