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It's incredible.Cheng Ji smiled unconsciously and then was stunned, his eyes lowered slightly, and they all passed by.

Cheng Ji went to bed early that night, unaware that it snowed at night.

This snow fell intermittently into January, and the temperature suddenly became much colder. Many people in the circle of friends shouted that winter is really here.The new year of the Gregorian calendar has also come.

The snow stopped on January [-], which happened to be the first day of work after the three-day holiday on New Year's Day.Cheng Ji put on a newly bought black down jacket and took the subway to work.

Before he got out of the subway station and walked to the office, the mobile phone in his bag vibrated and rang suddenly, and there was a call.She immediately took out her mobile phone, but was stunned for a long time because of the name of the note.

grandmother.When she left Fan's house, she left her number. Later, every time she changed her number, she would send group messages and copy the address book, but this number had never been called.When passers-by saw her in a daze and did not answer the phone, they all looked at her once or twice, before Cheng Ji came back to his senses and pressed the connect button.

Putting the phone to her ear, she didn't speak.

An old man asked from over there: "Hello? Miss Cheng Ji?"

"Grandma Li." Hearing the address, Cheng Ji knew who was on the other side, and she asked, "What's the matter?"

Granny Li choked with sobs: "Miss Cheng Ji, the old lady is dying, can you come today? She has been reading your name since last night. I am afraid to disturb your rest, so I called you now."

Is it for fear of disturbing her, or is it because grandpa doesn't allow to contact her?Cheng Ji's first reaction was to refuse, but her words got stuck in her throat, which made her voice a little unnatural, as if she was sad.

"Okay, I'll go today."

After hanging up the phone, Cheng Ji called Mi Ping to ask for a day off, to deal with Mi Ping's questioning of what she called "a relative", and returned to the subway station, without thinking about anything along the way.When she got home, she sat on the sofa that made her feel safest, leaning on her favorite tapestry, holding the mobile phone in her hand, dazed and dazed again.

The phone rang again suddenly, Cheng Ji was startled, feeling a little scared in his heart, he looked down and was relieved, and answered: "Hello, Manager Song."

"Manager Cheng." Song Sihan said, "Huayue's vacuum cleaner is about to launch a new series, which is the main product in February. Your company will try to plan a small event. This time, it should occupy a smaller area and have a higher degree of participation. When the plan is out, send it to my email first, and I will help you take a look, how about it?"

"Okay." Cheng Ji agreed, "I'll make a plan and send it to you as soon as possible."

"Well, I won't waste your time." Song Sihan said.

Cheng Ji politely waited for her to hang up first, and after waiting for two or three seconds, a hesitant question came from the phone: "Cheng Ji, are you in a bad mood?"

Cheng Ji was stunned and didn't speak for a long time.

"Cheng Ji? What's wrong with you?" Song Sihan asked again.

I... Cheng Ji made a mouthful, but couldn't make a sound, and her eye sockets gradually became hot.Seeing that the caller ID was not from grandma just now, she was relieved, thinking that fortunately it was not a funeral call, and she still had time.That's when she was sure she wanted to see her grandmother one last time.And when she saw clearly that the three characters were "Song Sihan", she was completely relaxed.After five years, she still believed in Song Sihan instinctively, so much so that when she spoke, she was emotionally unprofessional, and Song Sihan noticed something was wrong.

"My grandmother is seriously ill."

Pause for two seconds: "Where are you?"

"I'm still in Jingzhou."

Song Sihan: "Which city is your grandmother in, do you want to rush there now? Is there any difficulty?"

Cheng Ji said the name of the place involuntarily, and immediately reacted, she stabilized her voice: "I'm booking the ticket now, there is no difficulty, you don't have to worry about it if you are busy."

"I'll go with you." Song Sihan said suddenly.

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☆, present continuous tense (19)

"No, no need." Cheng Ji resolutely refused, she paused, and then said, "Song Sihan, you have no responsibility to me, don't always try to help me. If you give me convenience in work, I will repay you. Forget about anything else."

There was no reply for a long time, Cheng Ji said in a low voice: "Thank you, goodbye." Then hung up the phone.

The nearest flight departs at [-]:[-], and it is now [-]:[-], which is just the right time.Cheng Ji booked the flight, packed some things, and took a taxi to the airport.

After passing through the security check, Cheng Ji found a seat and opened his laptop to send and receive emails. He kept his mobile phone by his side to answer and make calls at any time, and dealt with some of the work that was originally planned for today.

When the sound of running came, she didn't pay attention.People running to the gate are common in airports.

The voice was getting closer and closer, Cheng Ji was still thinking about work, and without taking a second look, suddenly a familiar voice panted and said, "I'm sorry."

Cheng Ji's eyes widened, and when he turned around to see Song Sihan's face flushed from running, he was speechless for a while.The little brother standing behind her took a step back and said, "Are you late? Fortunately, you can catch up. Come on, you two stand together."

Song Sihan only had a backpack on his back, thanked his little brother, and stood silently behind Cheng Ji.Cheng Ji didn't look back.Song Sihan's appearance was too unexpected, but to say she was shocked, she was a little bit short. In her heart, Song Sihan was a person who would do such a thing.

why apologize?Cheng Ji thought, you have never been sorry to me.

The two slowly followed the team forward one after the other, and boarded the plane from north to south.Their seats were not together, and no one proposed to change seats.The plane began to taxi, and the noise made Cheng Ji's heart beat faster.She took a deep breath, closed her eyes, and floated into the sky in an uncomfortable weightlessness.

After a two-hour flight, the plane landed and they came to this southern city.Song Sihan walked beside Cheng Ji without saying a word. Both of them had serious expressions. Although they were a little far away and had no communication during the whole process, they looked like they were together.Cheng Ji didn't ask someone from the Fan family to pick him up. He booked the car in advance with the software. When getting in the car, Song Sihan took the initiative to sit in the front seat and gave her the back seat.

When the car drove out of the airport, Cheng Ji said the first sentence: "Have you booked the return ticket?"

"No."

"Book it, the nine o'clock shift tonight."

Song Sihan froze for a moment, then took out his mobile phone to book a ticket.

Cheng Ji dialed the phone and told Granny Li that she was already on the way. Granny Li's voice on the receiver was crying uncontrollably, expressing emotion indiscriminately, and telling her anxiously that her grandma was hanging on her breath. very critical.

After hanging up the phone, Cheng Ji's face became more and more ugly.After a long time, she asked Song Sihan: "You ask for leave temporarily, is it okay to work? Fan's family is on the mountain, you can find a place to rest at the foot of the mountain, I will call you when I leave."

"I've already assigned the work and handed it over to the two team leaders. It doesn't matter. They are competing internally and obey the arrangement. I will accompany you up the mountain. I don't need to go in and wait for you outside the house."

Cheng Ji thought of the distance from the gate of the Fan family to the gate of the villa, and then thought of the distance from the gate of the villa to the room. He felt that Song Sihan was a bit miserable no matter which "outside the house" he stood on. Go in together and wait for someone to stop you."

Now she is confused because of the matter of Fan's family and grandma, and she has no time to think about the cut and reconnected relationship between her and Song Sihan.And Song Sihan was as considerate as ever, didn't ask any more questions, and was as quiet as air.

The trees are withered in winter, and the desolate and decadent atmosphere permeates the entire road up the mountain. Even the driver is infected, and the speed becomes much more cautious.Sitting directly behind Song Sihan, Cheng Ji saw Song Sihan turned to the car window, showing a side face from the side of the car seat.Song Sihan's nose is straight and beautifully shaped, her eyes are always focused, and her upper and lower eyelashes are very thick, so the side profile is very beautiful.

Cheng Ji only took a few glances before Song Sihan's body straightened.In silence, the car drove to the gate of Fan's villa. The gate was half opened. Cheng Ji asked the driver to drive in and parked outside the gate of the villa.

The driver asked: "Your flight at night will leave in the afternoon, right? I'll go back empty-handed. How about I wait here for a few hours and place an order for me to pick you up when you leave?"

Cheng Ji looked at the time: "Okay, it's three o'clock now, we'll leave around six o'clock, please."

There was already a servant waiting outside the car, and when they saw them get off the car, they asked, "Is that Miss Cheng?"

Cheng Ji: "I am. How is grandma doing now?"

The servant frowned and said, "The old lady's condition is not very good, you'll know when you go and see." The servant didn't ask the identity of the other person, and they went inside, and no one stopped them all the way to ask.Fan's villa was more damaged than last time, and areas that were not used frequently were closed and no longer cleaned.In the past few years, the Fan family is still going downhill, and it will decline in less than ten years.Cheng Ji walked to the door of his grandparents' bedroom on the second floor and said to the servant, "Take her to find a place to rest."

The servant subconsciously agreed.Song Sihan nodded to her and said, "Go in quickly."

Cheng Ji ignored her and hurried into the room.The bedroom was open in all directions, and when she walked in, she saw many people around the bed, and she saw three uncles and aunts, and several young people.There was a teenage girl standing on the far side. When she saw her, she pulled the clothes of the person next to her, and several people next to her looked over.

Cheng Ji called out: "Grandma Li?"

"Hey!" Granny Li, who was next to the bed, got up immediately and said, "Miss Cheng Ji, come here soon, the old lady has been waiting for you for a long time."

Cheng Ji walked over, only to see grandma's appearance.The old man on the bed had his eyes closed and was breathing weakly. When he heard Granny Li calling out Cheng Ji's name, he barely opened his eyes and looked over.Granny Li said in a low voice, "The old lady can't see clearly, please come closer, Miss Cheng Ji."

Cheng Ji sat on the edge of the bed and leaned over to look at grandma.After seven years, grandma was aging too fast. Anyone who saw it would know that the old man had reached the end of his life and was about to bid farewell to this world.

"Grandma." Cheng Ji called her.

"Hey, hey." Grandma agreed, calling her vaguely, "Mengmeng, you're back."

Cheng Ji was startled, and said, "Yes, I've come to see you."

"You don't blame me, do you?" Grandma tried to raise her hand, but Granny Li supported her trembling arm. Granny Li looked at her beggingly with tears in her eyes.

Cheng Ji took a deep breath, swallowed her saliva, clasped her hands together, and replied, "I don't blame you."

"Hey, hey..." I don't know whether to agree or groan in pain, the corner of grandma's mouth is raised a little, "I know, you won't blame me. I'm all for your own good, all, for your own good. "

Cheng Ji's throat moved again: "I know everything."

"Mengmeng, I'm going to see you. Mom has missed you for many years, my Mengmeng..." Grandma's eyes didn't know where to look, and her consciousness began to slacken.

The uncle pushed the young man standing at the end of the bed, and said eagerly: "Quick! Go and invite your grandpa! Go!"

The wrinkled palm that Cheng Ji held in both hands gradually loosened, and suddenly he struggled again. Grandma shouted to her with clear eyes: "Cheng Ji."

"Yes, grandma, I'm Cheng Ji, and I'm here." Cheng Ji quickly clasped grandma's hand, stared into grandma's eyes, and waited for the next sentence.

Tears welled up in grandma's dry eyes, and her gray lips were pursed, as if smiling at her.Cheng Ji also smiled, and her eyes became moist. She watched her grandma slowly close her eyes. In her hand, the cold hand finally lost its strength.

Grandpa came over, and seeing this scene, he was stunned for a while, without words, and stood with a somewhat hunched body.

Cheng Ji shook that hand for a while, then let it go gently. She lowered her head and blinked a few times, but did not let the tears flow.

Granny Li held back her grief and probed her grandmother's breath, and said in a crying voice: "The old lady is gone." Weeping sounded in the room one after another, Cheng Ji heard the mixed crying around him, his heart ached, and he looked at him blankly. After sitting for a while, I looked at grandma several times, as if I was still not sure that the old man who cared for her had really left.

When she left here seven years ago, she thought she would never come again.But just like she returned to Jingzhou, today she came to grandma's bed again and saw the death of a relative with her own eyes.The relationship between them was nothing more than Fan Meng, and she couldn't even tell whether she wanted to see her when grandma called her over in the end, or if she wanted to see through her face the daughter who had unfortunately been buried in a foreign country.But she knew she didn't regret coming here.In the final analysis, after her grandma passed away, she was completely alien to the Fan family in her heart.She can forget this address, delete that number, and she will never, this time really never come again.

Cheng Ji glanced at grandma's remains for the last time, and left the room silently.Likewise, no one kept her.The servant didn't know where she went, she found Song Sihan in the dining room on the first floor.

"Let's go." Cheng Ji said.

Song Sihan's expression was a little dazed, and he stood up silently.Walking into the living room, the crying on the second floor became obvious, Song Sihan looked up, and walked out of the villa with Cheng Ji.Cheng Ji knocked on the window to let the driver unlock the door and sat in the back seat.Song Sihan still sat in the front row and said to the driver, "Go to the airport."

"So fast." The driver said casually and started the car.

The speed at which the car went downhill reflected the driver's impatience.He also felt the rotten smell of this place, making it difficult to breathe and depressing himself.

This time they checked in at the same time, and the seats were connected together.The boarding gate was still uncertain, so they went through the security check into the departure hall, and first found a random place to sit side by side.There was no earlier flight to change and they had to wait four hours.

"Thank you." Cheng Ji said.

"You're welcome." Song Sihan replied.

"I never told you my past, who I am, why I was in the Cheng family, and why I left the Cheng family." Cheng Ji said, "Why did I break up with you."

Song Sihan turned around in surprise, facing her.

"Do you want to know?" Cheng Ji asked, meeting Song Sihan's eyes.

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☆, present continuous tense (20)

Never opened up his past to anyone, never gave [-]% trust.Cheng Ji knows how she got along this way, so she doesn't criticize herself too much, and lives peacefully with her character flaws.

She only felt sorry for one person, but today she remembered the inner distress she felt when she was kept in the dark and knew nothing about it many years ago. around.He traveled thousands of miles silently without asking a word, and even apologized to himself.

Cheng Ji's conscience was awakened.

There was hesitation and doubt in Song Sihan's eyes.Cheng Ji could see that Song Sihan didn't have a strong desire to explore her past experience, but was a little worried about her revealing her scars, and was very concerned about the sentence "Why did I break up with you", and her eyebrows were bent into It's like a question mark.

"Listen to me." Cheng Ji was the opposite of Song Sihan at the moment.She decided to tell it all, and she didn't feel anxious in her heart, and she smiled.

Song Sihan nodded, and adjusted his posture so that he could face her for a long time: "Okay, tell me."

In the waiting hall, the area they were in was very empty, and there were only the two of them sitting side by side in the corner.The noise of the airport lost its aggressiveness in front of them and made them feel relaxed.

"From the beginning, whose child am I?" Cheng Ji said, "My biological mother's name is Fan Meng. We just left the Fan family, which used to be a wealthy family in the south. My biological mother married Cheng Xian. At the same time having an affair with her lover, I am an illegitimate daughter. I don't know who my biological father is, neither the Cheng family nor the Fan family told me, and I don't care. Fan Meng died when I was more than two years old, Gan Yue and Cheng Yifu entered Cheng's house. Gan Yue is Cheng Yifu's mother and Cheng Xian's former lover, so Cheng Yifu is two years older than me."

Cheng Ji saw Song Sihan's expression shocked and confused, his eyebrows tangled.

"Aren't you wondering why I stayed in the Cheng family after Fan Meng passed away? Because the Fan family didn't want me, and the two of them wanted to continue working together and decided to put me in the Cheng family. It's ridiculous, right? What about normal people? Will you do such a thing? My grandfather is a person who seems to have lived in the last century, and I still can't understand his thoughts."

Cheng Ji thought of the grandfather he met at Fan's house just now.Grandpa is also much older. He is over 80 years old, his back is a little hunched, and his face is covered with grooves carved by the years, making him look even more stubborn and unreasonable.

"The last time I went to Fan's house was seven or eight years ago, before I reported to Cheongju University. I remember seeing my grandfather on the last day of Fan's house. What he said made people unbelievable that they were living in modern times. He said parent-child When the appraisal results came out, when the Cheng family called the Fan family, he proposed to 'dispose' of the wild species, but the Cheng family disagreed. He criticized the Cheng family for being 'a woman's benevolence'. I was admitted to Cheongju University and decided to leave the Cheng family , he said that I was 'as useless as your shameless mother'. He also scolded my grandpa to me, but it was actually Cheng Yifu's grandpa, do you understand?"

Song Sihan nodded heavily.

Cheng Ji: "He said that Cheng Maode is a treacherous old man who sucked up the Fan family's blood all these years. He said that I am also a blood-sucking worm raised by the Cheng family. I want to come to the Fan family to continue sucking blood. I am not worthy of being part of the Fan family. He really I thought the Fan family was a golden house that everyone envied, and it was like a crazy dream."

"In those days when I was in Fan's house, I felt that my whole body was rotten. When I came to Cheongju University, I thought I could grow a new body, but I met you." Cheng Ji laughed, "At that time, I thought , My luck is really bad, and I can’t find a new start.”

After she said this, she tilted her head and looked at Song Sihan, and was surprised to see two lines of tears streaming from Song Sihan's eyes.Cheng Ji was too stunned to speak, and stared at her blankly.

Song Sihan cried extremely sadly, at first she shed tears quietly, then took a deep breath and raised her head as if trying to stop the tears, but failed, she couldn't even close her mouth tightly, leaking the crying in her throat, she lowered her head and cried again , the sound never stopped.

If people who don't know the situation see it, they will think that Cheng Ji has bullied Song Sihan severely.

"You..." Cheng Ji was a little at a loss, and a little bit dumbfounded, "Why are you crying?"

Song Sihan swallowed a few times in his throat, and barely uttered a few words: "I'm sorry. I'm sorry."

Every word has a painful tone, and Cheng Ji's eyes are inexplicably hot.She said helplessly, "Why are you apologizing to me again? You haven't done anything."

Song Sihan nodded and said, "Yeah, I didn't do anything. I didn't give you anything when I was with you. I'm sorry."

She was blaming herself, very much.Cheng Ji understood, but it was difficult to understand.Song Sihan didn't know anything because she didn't say anything, and what's more, Song Sihan had already given her a lot.

Cheng Ji deeply knows that everyone is selfish.So she never takes others' concern for her for granted.In the first 18 years, the place for storing love in her heart was empty, and no one came to love her until she met Song Sihan.After that, the stream continued, and Song Sihan filled that position during the year and a half of their love.It was Song Sihan who let her know what love is, and it was Song Sihan who let her know how it feels to be treated tenderly. Song Sihan is the guide of her feelings. She even imitated Song Sihan subconsciously, so she learned a little tenderness.

"You are not wrong." Cheng Ji said.

Song Sihan shook her head and said, "No, I did a lot of things wrong." She looked at Cheng Ji with guilt and distress, and stretched out her arm with a questioning look.

Cheng Ji understood that she wanted to hug and comfort herself, but Cheng Ji felt that she didn't need it now.Cheng Ji took the initiative to lean towards her, put his hands around her shoulders, and gave a friendly hug: "Thank you, Song Sihan, you have done enough for me and you are good enough."

When Cheng Ji let go of his hands and returned to his original position, he saw Song Sihan's breathing slowly calmed down.

Song Sihan raised her hand to wipe her face twice, and a new drop of tears slid down, she said: "I have made too many mistakes. I only have myself in my eyes, you were so sad at that time, I didn't know anything, how could it not be My fault? If I cared more about you and thought about how you felt, I should have found out. I should have found out."

Cheng Ji's heart beat slightly faster, but she didn't notice it.She said: "You are wrong. What I wanted at that time was not comfort and understanding. I needed you to tolerate me. Don't ask me anything. You have done it. You have seen my eight-year-old, but you have not mentioned a word Yes. You know that I stay in school every holiday and cut off contact with the Cheng family, so you help me find part-time jobs, internships, and spend money on shopping for me. You are very considerate, but there are many things that you have never experienced and can’t think of. .”

Song Sihan was still downcast, and asked: "Then before we broke up, your emotions suddenly became very intense. Is it because I said that you will go back to Jingzhou to work in the future, and you don't plan to go back to Jingzhou, and you don't want to have a long-distance relationship? So I'm in a bad mood? I didn't find anything, I only thought about the present, I didn't plan for the future of the two of us, and I didn't comfort you, let you down? In the end I even mentioned breaking up, I'm such a jerk. "

Cheng Ji was speechless.Song Sihan found a reasonable and comprehensive reason, and put all the responsibility on her head, she didn't know how to tell the truth.

"Why did I break up with you?" Cheng Ji said awkwardly, "You mentioned the word 'breakup', but I was the one who thought of breaking up first. It does have something to do with your going back to Jingzhou."

Song Sihan's tears had just stopped, but now there were still tears on his face.Seeing Song Sihan's pitiful appearance, Cheng Ji couldn't bear it.She thought about it, and decided not to say it directly, and wait until Song Sihan's mood calmed down a bit.

Cheng Ji: "I've been looking for an answer for so many years. Who am I? I don't belong to the Cheng family, nor to the Fan family. My biological father has disappeared and my biological mother passed away. What is the real relationship between me and this world? I Like an orphan, no, I am an orphan. I decided to leave the Cheng family and the Fan family because I wanted to find who I am and find a way that belongs to me. Others have a place at birth, and I exhausted All the hard work is just to be able to stand in this world in a legitimate way. In the five years since I broke up with you, I have a career and friends, and I can settle down and live alone. This is the path I want to take. "

Cheng Ji observed Song Sihan's state, felt that it was almost done, and said, "You are blocking my way."

Looking at it again, there was no adverse reaction, and Cheng Ji continued: "When I entered Cheongju University, I was eager to form a new sense of self, but I met you, and you recognized me. At that time, I was full of hope , but I didn't know what I was going to do, what to do, in fact, when I thought about it later, I felt that I was dazed and afraid before I met you. You pulled me back to the past that I tried to get rid of, but you gave me a lot of help And suggestions, let me survive the confusion period of facing the world for the first time, I have very complicated feelings about you. Until we developed a relationship later, I was still conflicted when I faced you. "

Seeing self-blame in Song Sihan's eyes, Cheng Ji emphasized: "I like you. I promised to be with you at the time, and I really liked you. You are different from others in my eyes. You are not as selfish as they are. Gentle and kind. I am very happy when I am with you, but I have too much stuff in me, so there is more than happiness."

Song Sihan's tears were still wet, and he frowned: "Wait, are you very gentle? Very kind? How come I don't sound like me."

Cheng Ji was slightly stunned, and with an equal attitude, he asked her to make revisions: "Then what is your impression of yourself at that time?"

"Very chic, very handsome." Without thinking, Song Sihan added his shortcomings that he had only realized in recent months, "I think I am a selfish and snobbish person who only cares about my own feelings and doesn't care about what the other person thinks. "

The discrepancy is too large, and Cheng Ji does not accept the modification.

Song Sihan discussed peacefully: "My impression of you in college was that you were shy and shy when I met you the first few times. Later when we got together, you were still very shy and very cute."

Cheng Ji: "... Have you misunderstood me?"

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Sihan: Ji is the cutest!

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☆, present perfect tense (4)

When entering the university, Cheng Ji's backpack and suitcase contained all her wealth.There are documents and wallets in the backpack, and clothes and shoes in the suitcase.

Unlike other students, she has no home, no place to go back to during the holidays, and nothing to leave somewhere because she can't move to school.

From birth to adulthood, everything about her was provided by the Cheng family, and those things did not belong to her.The Fan family allowed her to stay temporarily, which was already the most generous charity.Before she left, grandma wanted to give her some money, but she declined, but she did not return the lucky money given by her uncles that she had saved over the years, and she already understood that she had exchanged for it with the meager use value of herself.

At the beginning of September, the sunshine of Cheongju City was generous and fraternal, warmly basking her, dispelling the decaying smell of the Fan family attached to her body, making her skin feel warm, with a strong "alive" feeling.She didn't deliberately choose to walk under the shade of the tree like many students, she just faced it calmly, walking in the sun as if she was embracing or chasing something.

This is the first September of her new life.She wants to feel it fully.

The campus was bustling with freshmen and their parents. Cheng Ji found the welcome point of the School of Economics and walked over with his suitcase.She filled in the major when applying for the exam, and the conditions she considered were very practical: scope of employment, average salary.In short, it is to make money as quickly as possible.

Before reaching the welcome point, a senior sister warmly greeted her, her whole body seemed to be covered with the sunshine of September, as soon as she got close to her, she radiated heat.Although Cheng Ji made preparations, he was still not used to it for a while.Before applying for the exam, she inquired about the characteristics of each major and saw the description of the major. She said that after professional training, students' personalities would become outgoing and socially active through multiple teamwork.

Sure enough, very outgoing and active.

Cheng Ji also wanted to cooperate with her, but she had been so reticent and silent for so many years, it was difficult for her to mobilize her emotions immediately, so she had to listen to her senior sister's guidance and follow her to get things.Cheng Ji didn't think much when she heard the senior sister pronounce her name. Her social circle in the past was so narrow that it was impossible for her to meet someone who happened to know herself in a distant place.

As a result, the senior sister repeated again in shock: "Are you Cheng Ji?"

At that moment, Cheng Ji felt the heat injected by the sun quickly subside from her body, and the cold wind suddenly poured in, and she felt a sense of suffocation that could not be hidden.

She stared fixedly at him, holding back the negative pessimism in her heart, trying her best to recognize this strange face.Who is it?

Time quickly turned back in her eyes, year after year memories swept through her mind like a storm, all of a sudden!Set in ten years ago.

"Song Sihan."

A name that should have been eroded and blurred by time appeared so clearly in my mind.The person who once made her see hope, now destroys her hope.At this moment, Cheng Jiduo hoped that Song Sihan had already forgotten himself, and there seemed to be regret in Song Sihan's silence.But none of them could fool themselves.

Cheng Ji didn't know at the beginning whether Song Sihan was genuinely enthusiastic or lacking in heart, maybe both.Facing Song Sihan, she couldn't say no to it, the request to cut off contact was simply unreasonable, and as time went by, she found that it was a lot of benefits to have Song Sihan, the vice president of the student union, who was responsive to every request and took the initiative to care for her. .

The most important point, Song Sihan never asked, never mentioned, and never deliberately reminded her of the past.With such a gentle person, Cheng Ji didn't want to refuse at all. The light and warmth she longed for were found in Song Sihan.

At that time, Cheng Ji did not admit the fear in his heart.After she broke up with Song Sihan, in the process of forcing herself to grow up quickly, she was gradually willing to admit that she actually had a lot of fear in her heart when she first entered school.

Ever since she heard from Cheng Yifu that she was not Cheng Xian's child, she felt that there was no place for her in this world.

In her dream, the world is always expanding infinitely, but she can only curl up and hug her knees, feeling that the outside world is getting more and more empty, she can't fall to the ground, and she can never touch anything with her hands.Sometimes in her dreams, the world would shrink infinitely, until she could not breathe, every inch of her body was wrapped up, like a packed garbage, she didn't know where she would be thrown.

It took her many years to slowly dispel the extreme and hopeless sense of loneliness and isolation, but it also left a long-lasting sequelae in her heart - a lack of sense of belonging.

After Cheng Yifu went abroad to study, she had room to breathe in the Cheng family. Only then did she feel that she was like a late-ripening crop. She shriveled while others were ripening. It was not until she was 16 that she suddenly began to grow up. After growing and developing, she finally woke up, set her only goal, and left.

Fortunately, learning this matter, if you put in the effort, you will see the rewards. The two years of studying hard are only for this sole goal.In short, she has nothing to worry about, and has no contact with Cheng's family or Jingzhou. She can float anywhere as high as the mountains and as wide as the sea.

The admission letter of Cheongju University is the source of her confidence. The thin piece of paper is like a button with two words written on the button: start.

She left, fulfilling her only goal.

She started, with the posture of a newborn, with a weak body, she suddenly faced the whole unknown world.She returned to that dream again, quietly suspended in the vast and boundless universe, she couldn't touch anything with her outstretched hands, and couldn't even make a sound when she shouted, so she had to curl up.

So, how could she not be afraid?Just never dared to admit it.

At first she planned to hold on by herself, and then Song Sihan came, even though she didn't know anything, she just helped her through in the way she needed most.Cheng Ji loves and...not hating her, even though Song Sihan's existence made it impossible for her to completely cut off the past, she couldn't bear to blame Song Sihan.

Cheng Ji has a good memory. She can always remember clearly how a relationship started and ended.

She remembers the first long vacation in school, Song Sihan took her shopping, invited her to dinner, and played various game consoles with her in the video game city.It was Song Sihan's birthday that day, but it was like her birthday, or her imagined birthday, because no one in Cheng's family celebrated her.That was the happiest day since she started school. The four little white cat dolls caught in the claw machine followed her every time she moved.

At the end of autumn that year, the temperature changed rapidly, and many people in the school caught colds, and Cheng Ji was also infected.When she first had symptoms of a cold, she met Song Sihan and was told by Song Sihan. Two days later, when Song Sihan came to her again, she had already caught a solid cold.Cheng Ji fell ill for the first time when he came to Cheongju University. He was very sick. He had a runny nose with countless students, and the back of his head was heavy every day.

Song Sihan has her class schedule. She has two days a week when she has no class in the first and second periods of the morning. Because the temperature is low in the morning, Song Sihan told her not to go downstairs to buy breakfast. During those two days plus the weekend, Song Sihan gave her four breakfast.

Only then did she believe that Song Sihan's kindness to her might have nothing to do with true enthusiasm or lack of heart, but just wanting to be kind to her.Because I witnessed her most embarrassing time ten years ago, because I met unexpectedly a thousand kilometers away ten years later.

Kind and gentle, Cheng Ji is attracted to her uncontrollably.Realizing her liking, I was also happy.

Song Sihan trapped her in that dark and lonely dream, and became the only firefly that illuminated her dream. He could touch her with his hand and feel the other person's temperature.

"Cheng Ji, I like you. Do you feel it?"

"And you, how do you feel about me?"

I like you too.

Give Cheng Ji a hundred more chances, she will never reject Song Sihan once, she longs for the light, and at that time, Song Sihan is the light.

The winter vacation after falling in love was the first time for them to live apart from each other for a long time. She stayed at school, worked part-time during the day, and missed Song Sihan at night.Song Sihan sent her a lot of messages every day, knowing that she was very busy, and didn't ask her to reply in time, and never lost her temper because of this.At night, Song Sihan would call her and ask her how her day was. She didn't have much to say, but Song Sihan still asked and listened carefully every time.

Although she was alone in Qingzhou that winter, she felt very happy.Song Sihan's temper is too tolerant, he will depend on her for everything, even if she is not unhappy, he will coax her.Hearing Song Sihan's voice, she felt happy and wanted to laugh, but when she saw the photo Song Sihan sent her, she thought of Song Sihan again and felt uncomfortable.

After the Chinese New Year, Song Sihan suddenly appeared and mentioned a few days before the start of school.Cheng Ji never mentioned this. She knew that Song Sihan had a good relationship with her parents, and she had never felt the warmth of a family, so she did not ask Song Sihan to leave her parents and come to her.But Song Sihan came as soon as the school dormitory opened and gave her a surprise.

The winter vacation is over, and the summer vacation is coming again.

Song Sihan flew to South Asia with her for a trip, and Cheng Ji knew that Cheng Yifu often traveled or participated in overseas study tours organized by the school.Cheng Ji had never signed up for a study tour. She knew that if she signed up, the Cheng family would pay for it, but that meant she was going to find Gan Yue. She didn't want to hear Gan Yue's giving in a gentle tone, and her relationship with her classmates Not close either.

She didn't know how much fun traveling was until this summer.She saw the sea, stepped on the beach, woke up with Song Sihan every day, opened the window, and was embraced by the salty sea breeze, and then Song Sihan would hug her from behind.She put aside all her worries here, cherished every day, and really wanted to record it for aftertaste.The presumptuousness of the past few days made her feel happy throughout the summer vacation.

In the next winter vacation, they have been in love for a year, and Song Sihan still treats her just as well, contacting her every day, and returning to school early.

When Song Sihan came to her again, Cheng Ji began to think about breaking up.

So they have no next summer vacation.