i can't like him

Sheng Xinghe is a typical person who prefers softness to toughness, and when He Qinian acts like a baby, he will be fine.

That night, the two lay on the same bed again.

After tossing and tossing all night for no reason, Sheng Xinghe didn't feel sleepy, and Zhao Tianyu's face with open teeth and claws unconsciously appeared in his mind.

——He had a criminal record before!What can't he do to win?

He desperately told himself that this was just Zhao Tianyu's nonsense.

But it didn't work.

The brain still thinks of many things uncontrollably.

Once the stereotype is formed, it is difficult to change. In the eyes of most people who don't know the truth, he is just an athlete who was found to be taking illegal drugs and banned for more than a year.

The pace of everyone's life is so fast, and this information is fixed in the minds of a group of people. No one wants to know why he was suspended, what the past and future are like, whenever someone mentions Sheng Xinghe, there will always be Someone answered, "Oh, the one who got suspended."

As for the reason behind it, no one knows and can't dig deep.

Just like what everyone talked about when he first entered the campus of T University, everyone thought they knew the truth, spread the truth, and upheld justice.

He dare not imagine that if he can't jump over the 2 hurdle in this life, what kind of mentality he should have to retire, how to face the side coach who sacrificed so much for him, and how to spend the rest of his life.

Since the end of the international competition at the beginning of the year, my mentality has been in a less than ideal state, and I have questioned my level time and time again.

Is it really impossible to jump over?

In fact, many people have attacked him before, trying to analyze it from all directions and levels, just to tell him that it is difficult to make a big breakthrough after a certain age, but he didn't pay much attention to it.

It wasn't until he was suspended, until his physical condition changed significantly, and he didn't start to panic until he passed his 28th birthday and still had no progress.

If someone can tell him clearly that you can jump 2 meters, he doesn't care how much he suffers in the middle.

But there won't be.

Is it really impossible to jump over?

There is never an answer to this question.

He could only grope his way forward in a haze and fog.

Probably because of the cold weather, the old injury in the lower back was always aching, he turned on the air conditioner, and He Qinian came out of the bathroom.

He Qinian took a shower, got into the bed smelling all over, and squeezed against Sheng Xinghe's side.

"I'm almost being squeezed down by you," Sheng Xinghe put his elbows against him, "Go over."

"I'm cold..." He Qinian pulled the quilt up to the bridge of his nose, revealing only a pair of eyes, "Hiss, why is winter in the south so cold, every time I take off my clothes, I need great courage."

Sheng Xinghe responded lightly, "I don't know, I don't like winter either."

He Qinian turned to look at him.

No matter how well a person's emotions are hidden, they will be released inadvertently. In addition, He Qinian is a very sensitive person, so he can immediately detect that his emotions are not right.

"Are you unhappy? Is it because of Zhao Tianyu's affairs?"

Sheng Xinghe hesitated for a while.

Although he didn't reply directly, He Qinian had already received the signal.

"He just has a cheap mouth. You can see that a few of his words are true. Don't take it to heart. When the report comes out tomorrow, you probably won't be able to see him."

Sheng Xinghe suddenly remembered something, "Did you tell me last time that he could only jump 2 meters in the Provincial Games, but only 13 meters in the National Grand Prix?"

He Qinian nodded, "Yes, that's him. I was quite surprised at the time, but because the drug test passed, this idea was suppressed. He said before that this is a new drug, and it may not be detected. Stimulant Development is much faster than the update of detection methods, and there will always be medicine first and then discovery."

Sheng Xinghe recalled Zhao Tianyu's performance at that time, and felt that this possibility was unlikely, besides, if there is such a medicine, the price must be high, just for such a small bonus, it is not worth it.

"Or there is another possibility." Sheng Xinghe frowned, "Someone was helping Zhao Tianyu behind his back before."

The eyes of the two met.

Thinking hard.

The detection steps are sampling, transportation, and reporting.They can tamper with any of the three links and replace the normal samples that have been prepared, and it is not like this has happened before.

It's just that the Internet media was not as developed as it is now, and few people knew about those news reports.

"Then Zhao Tianyu acted so hard to say that the thing was a new drug, just to deceive us?" He Qinian now thinks it is a little scary when he thinks back, "Why is this person so scheming?"

Sheng Xinghe really wanted to say that there is so much darkness in this world that you can't imagine, and there is no absolute fairness and justice. The higher you go, the more it is like this.

A medal can bring out huge commercial value and benefits. There are always people who will keep groping and looking for loopholes where you can’t see. Huge benefits drive some people to do whatever they can. They are like mice in the dark, waiting for opportunities , and those who are in the light are invisible.

When everything was not exposed, everyone thought they were enjoying the fairest treatment.

But he didn't want to say those words.

He Qinian's heart is very clean and pure, and only such a person can always maintain his original intention with optimism and maintain a good attitude to meet every day. Sometimes the more he knows, the more disappointed he will be.

Sheng Xinghe said, "I don't think so much anymore. Anyway, we still stick to the bottom line and do whatever we want. Those who use those improper means to win will be discovered sooner or later. Have you watched the 08 Olympic Games?"

He Qinian shook his head, "I'll be busy with interest classes then."

Sheng Xinghe sighed, "Generation gap..."

He Qinian was in a hurry, "I can go back and check! Then there must be a video record of the big game."

Sheng Xinghe said: "At that time, there was a 4x100 men's relay race. The Jamaican team broke through the human limit and won the championship with a time of 37 seconds. It was not until 10 that the Olympic Committee took out the samples at that time for review and found that one of the members had The sample contained banned drugs. For eight years, the news broke out and shocked the entire sports world, and the medals at that time were withdrawn."

He Qinian was also shocked, "Can it still be like this?"

"Well, the supervision of various departments is constantly increasing, and there are always people on the side of justice."

If you believe that the world is dark, then it is dark, if you are willing to believe that the world is light, then it is bright.

That night, the two had a long-distance discussion on this topic.

Sheng Xinghe didn't remember why he fell asleep, he only remembered that he had a dream, and it was a rather subtle dream.

He dreamed that Lin Jianzhou asked He Qinian to transfer to the national team, and he was assigned to the same dormitory with him.

There are two beds in the dormitory, He Qi climbed onto his bed in the middle of the night, and whispered in his ear, "Brother, can I hug you to sleep?"

Before he had time to refuse, He Qinian's arm was already inserted into his pajamas.

The air in the whole room became hot and dry.

Sheng Xinghe's limbs curled up without moving, and his back was pressed against He Qinian's body, as if against a wall that automatically dissipates heat.

Warm palms went all the way up his lower abdomen.

"You are so warm." He Qinian stuck out his tongue and licked his earlobe.

...

After waking up, Sheng Xinghe really found himself being hugged, but it wasn't as exciting as in the dream. He Qinian's arms were wrapped around his neck, and he slept like a dead pig.

He wanted to turn over, but suddenly felt something strange in his lower body, he stretched out his hand to touch it, his limbs were stiff, and he wanted to cry but had no tears.

The blush spread from the tips of his ears to his chest. Before He Qinian woke up, he tiptoed to the toilet to change his underwear.

As soon as the door was closed, he squatted on the ground, pulling his hair to reflect.

Why do you have such a dream?

He must have gotten too close to He Qinian recently.

Another voice came out of my mind: "Can you get close to Qin Hexuan? You two get together to train and eat every day."

That's different.

"What's the difference? Aren't they all good brothers? Why didn't you dream about him?"

Qin Hexuan is not gay...

"So because He Qinian is gay, you can flirt with him?"

I didn't mean it! ! !Dreaming!Can dreaming be controlled? ?

"If you don't want to, why would you dream of it!? Huh?"

Ahhhhh! ——

how so! ?

He growled silently.

"Brother, what are you doing?" As soon as He Qinian opened the door, he saw Sheng Xinghe squatting by the sink pulling his hair constipatedly, with a pair of underwear lying on the toilet seat.

Before he could see clearly, Sheng Xinghe jumped up from the ground at the speed of the Flash, without saying a word, pushed the person out of the door with one palm, closed and locked the door, all in one go.

Sheng Xinghe lowered his head, his face was as red as pepper, and he felt that his brain was not infected with a virus, but was directly tripped.

He was even thinking, it would be great if he could travel to a parallel world along a certain seam.

He Qinian didn't know why, touched his faintly sore chest, stood back to the bathroom door, and asked with concern: "What's wrong with you?"

"Wait! I'll be fine soon!" Sheng Xinghe's voice sounded extremely anxious and burning.

In an instant, it was as if a bolt of lightning had struck the back of his head.

He Qinian suddenly opened up.

——The coach also has physical needs, no wonder I got up earlier than him today.

In fact, in He Qinian's eyes, this kind of thing is nothing. How normal is it for a man to move his fingers?

But Sheng Xinghe is a thin-skinned person, the last time he was seen changing clothes, he would give him a hammer. It was really embarrassing to be bumped into this kind of thing, and it would be the best of humanity not to smash him into corpses on the spot.

"I'm sorry," he apologized in a low voice, "That, that, then I won't bother you, I, I'll go buy breakfast first." After speaking, he rushed out of the room, forgetting to take his coat.

It would be fine if he didn't apologize, this apology made Sheng Xinghe want to stab himself in the chest.

A frightening morning.

He Qinian went back early after shopping, only to find that Sheng Xinghe had already left, leaving a message on WeChat.

[I'll go to the track and field hall first, see you later. 】

Sitting on the small sofa, He Qinian grinned, and unknowingly finished two breakfasts.

...

One name is missing from the high jump finals list.

Zhao Tianyu retired.

He Qinian only heard someone discussing the fact that Zhao Tianyu was reported for taking drugs when he was warming up.

When everyone talked about this topic, there were not many surprises, because there was a big riot in the hotel last night, many people witnessed the incident, and everyone had a premonition.

Once a person is found to be taking drugs, his past achievements will inevitably be questioned.

"His last grand prix championship was probably won by cheating. How dare you believe that he can jump to 2 meters."

"This kind of person is too disgusting."

"He said the coach forced him."

"Who knows, did the coach force him to use it? They're all the same. I'll never look down on drugs."

"That's right, insulting the field..."

When Sheng Xinghe walked by, the group of people suddenly became quiet again.

Everyone froze for half a beat, and started to do their own things again, but some people would sneak a peek at him from time to time.

Sheng Xinghe took a deep breath, and told himself not to worry, the game is about to start, and he should concentrate on it.

"elder brother."

He Qinian came out of nowhere and startled him.

The two were doing warm-up activities on the track together, chatting about the order of the race, and the embarrassment in the morning gradually dissipated.

Sheng Xinghe noticed that He Qinian was still wearing the pair of spikes he gave him.

"Why do you wear these shoes all the time? It's been more than half a year, and they haven't broken yet."

"The quality is pretty good, and it always brings me good luck."

"Is it?"

"En." He Qinian nodded firmly.

"Do you want candies?" He Qinian took out some colorful fruit candies from his pocket.

Sheng Xinghe pinched a red one and peeled it off.

He Qinian smiled and said, "I guessed that you would choose this color."

"Why?" Sheng Xinghe stuffed the candy into his mouth and took a sip, a very real strawberry smell permeated his mouth, he even thought he smelled the aroma of strawberries.

"Because I like blue ones." He Qinian bit the blue icing, pulled it hard, and the candy rolled into his mouth.

Sheng Xinghe was a little confused, "Why do you like blue and I like red?"

"Hey, anyway, I just know!" He Qi Nian happily ran away, and turned around before running ten meters and shouted, "I have hot milk in the cup, drink more! You can grow taller! "

Sheng Xinghe looked at his back, bit the candy into pieces, and a stronger fruity aroma filled his mouth.

The displeasure in my heart gradually subsided.

There are many bad people and things in this world, but there is still a ray of sunshine that will shine in and warm him who is tired.

The game starts on time at two o'clock.

There is no live TV broadcast of the National Indoor Championships. Only some media reporters will take pictures or interview. There are some people sitting sparsely in the stands, many of whom are school leaders or relatives and friends of the contestants.

决赛的高度是从2米开始往上加，每过一轮增加5公分，2米25以后增加3公分。

这次比赛大多数人都是从2米的高度起跳，秦鹤轩和盛星河选择2米15，贺琦年选了2米10。

"It's amazing. I was still watching your game last year, and now I'm in the same arena as me this year." Sheng Xinghe said with a smile, "Time flies so fast."

I am getting closer and closer to you.He Qinian answered in his heart.

Perhaps because of the low temperature, many athletes failed to perform at their usual level. At the height of 2 meters, there were only five people left on the field.

2 meters is still very easy for Sheng Xinghe, and he can run up and take off once.

Behind him is Qin Hexuan.

Sheng Xinghe noticed at a glance that there was something wrong with his jumping movements, but after asking, he found out that the back of his foot was accidentally injured by a suitcase, and the back of his foot is still swollen.

"It's not serious. If it's not enough, don't hold on. There will be a big competition afterward. The key is to heal the injury first." Sheng Xinghe said.

Qin Hexuan waved his hand, "It's fine."

When the crossbar reached a height of 2 meters, only He Qinian, Sheng Xinghe and Qin Hexuan were left on the court.

Sheng Xinghe still jumped through, and the audience applauded enthusiastically, while Qin Hexuan was stuck at this height and did not pass.

Even the coach reminded me not to jump if the pain was severe, and save my energy for the next game.

Neither He Qinian nor Qin Hexuan had done the first two jumps of 2 meters. In the third jump, Qin Hexuan chose to abstain.

When He Qinian was at a height of 2 meters, he dropped the pole twice, while Qin Hexuan did it once. This means that if He Qinian can jump over 20 meters, he will be the runner-up. runner up.

Coach Kong encouraged from the side: "This is a rare opportunity, take it well."

He Qinian nodded.

But he didn't want the medal color to look better, but thought about his own PB.

"Come on." He heard Sheng Xinghe shout from the side.

Looking back, the two smiled knowingly, as if the time had been pulled back to the midsummer full of cicadas and sunlight last year.

However, this time Sheng Xinghe stood in the waiting position of the arena.

The high-spirited boy in his eyes grew taller, became thinner, changed his hairstyle, and his running and jumping posture became more and more beautiful.

The run-up looked very relaxed, the knee of the left leg was slightly bent, and the ground was pushed hard, and the slender body jumped up——

The picture miraculously overlapped with last summer.

Arms, shoulders, back, thighs, over the bar in turn.

He suddenly felt a tingling sensation in his scalp.

He remembered that the sun was very strong that day, and He Qinian looked at him with confident eyes.

——When you are here, I may perform supernormally!

Everyone's breathing and eyes are still, expecting.

The crossbar shook several times, and finally miraculously stopped in place.

"Beautiful!—" Following Coach Kong's roar, the auditorium burst into enthusiastic shouts and applause.

He Qinian got up from the mat, the two looked at each other and smiled on both sides of the crossbar, Sheng Xinghe gave a thumbs up.

In this competition, Sheng Xinghe won the championship with a height of 2 meters, and He Qinian won the runner-up with a height of 28 meters.

"It's only 3 centimeters away," He Qinian said, "You have to work hard, I will catch up to you soon."

Sheng Xinghe turned his head and whispered, "I'll slow down and wait for you."

The surroundings were a bit noisy, and He Qinian even suspected that he had heard it wrong, and wanted to make sure, when he heard the announcement of the final results of the men's high jump group on the radio, and invited them to the podium to receive the award.

The podium of the arena is often the place with the largest number of media and spectators. Cameras are facing them, and flashes are constantly on.

The three of them stepped onto the podium one by one, and the award presenters hung medals on Sheng Xinghe, and then two little girls sent flowers to congratulate Sheng Xinghe.

"Thank you..." Sheng Xinghe bowed slightly.

"I've liked you for a long time, and I've been looking forward to watching your game." The little girl was obviously a little excited, with tears in her eyes and a trembling voice, "You're really handsome, I wish you a better performance in the next game Good result. Ah! This time is also great!"

Sheng Xinghe laughed, held the flowers in one hand, and shook hands with her, "Thank you for your support, I will continue to work hard..."

He was still talking, when suddenly he felt a hand stretched out from the left side, wrapping around his waist. With several bowing movements, the position of the hand gradually moved down to the more sensitive buttocks.

Sheng Xinghe held that big hand and moved it to his shoulder, while turning his head to look at He Qinian, with a calm and harmonious smile on his face, his eyes full of murderous intent.

—Do you want to die?

With innocent and blank eyes, He Qinian moved his hand to his waist again.

- What's wrong with me?This is a big occasion, you think about it before throwing me over your shoulder.

Sheng Xinghe could only grind his back molars.

Then came the photo session.

"Take a look at the camera, please." The photographer clicked to take a picture.

In the confusion, Sheng Xinghe felt the hand grabbing his waist.

He turned his head, He Qinian raised his eyebrows.

All the scenes were frozen in the camera.