i can't like him

Sheng Xinghe didn't know He Qinian's mental activities at this moment, he only knew that he was a kid with strong adaptability and very easy to coax, a few words of encouragement could filter out his fear of going to the provincial team for special training .

Athletes who are sent to the provincial team need to meet a lot of conditions. As soon as the school sports meeting is over, Sheng Xinghe sorts out the materials and certificates of the players and sends them to the provincial team leader, waiting for the review and confirmation there .

During the meeting, the director said that he would arrange for a coach to lead the team and send them there safely, Sheng Xinghe took the initiative to take on this task.

There was a light rain on Saturday night, and the temperature dropped slightly on Sunday. The south has entered a short transition period from summer to winter. When you go out, you can see people wearing T-shirts and sweaters at the same time. When you look at each other, you think each other is a fool.

Sheng Xinghe was eating out at noon, and received a notice from the director, saying that all the inspections of the provincial team have come down, and he can leave early tomorrow morning.

Sheng Xinghe posted an announcement in the newly created group.

[Everyone go back tonight and pack your luggage. Gather at the school gate on the west side at [-]:[-] tomorrow morning. The school has arranged for a minibus to take you there. If you have any replies, please tell each other. 】

Not long after the information was released, I received a private message from He Qinian.

[N: Do you have a bigger suitcase, can you lend me one? I accidentally broke a corner and bought a new one online, but it will arrive the day after tomorrow. Please help me pick it up from the property. Let's go. 】

[Sheng Xinghe: OK, no problem. 】

Back at the apartment, Sheng Xinghe dug out the suitcase and wiped it briefly, ready to help He Qinian pack things together.

When he went up to the second floor, he saw a woman standing in front of He Qinian's house.

The woman was tall and slender, with curly curly hair, black hair hanging down to her waist like a waterfall, her hair looked carefully groomed, smooth and elegant, exuding a soft luster under the light.

She was wearing a dark embroidered dress, a mask, sunglasses, and stiletto heels. She had a slender figure and looked young in appearance.

"Xiao Nian, open the door, I rarely have time to come over, and I have to catch a plane later."

He Qinian's voice came from the room.

"You go and do your work first, I can't afford to waste your time."

"Hurry up and open the door for me!" The woman knocked on the door a few more times.

She heard footsteps in the corridor and turned her head to take a look.

Sheng Xinghe carried the suitcase and walked to the door, the woman took a step back with a bit of wariness in her eyes.

"He Qinian, I brought you the suitcase, do you want to help pack it?"

He Qinian sat up from the sofa when he heard Sheng Xinghe's voice.

Come sooner or later, why not come at this time.

He sighed and got up to open the door.

Sheng Xinghe turned his head and glanced at the lady at the door, "Are you also looking for He Qinian?"

He Zixin nodded and asked curiously, "Who are you?"

"I'm his coach and I live just across the street."

"Teach high jump?"

"Correct."

"Then it's you I'm looking for."

"Ah?" Sheng Xinghe was stunned.

He Qinian invited the two into the house together and closed the door.

The woman took off her mask and sunglasses, Sheng Xinghe finally saw her face clearly.

The facial features are very delicate, the bridge of the nose is high, the lips are thin, the makeup is light, the skin is so tender that water can be squeezed out, it is difficult to tell her real age, but Sheng Xinghe guesses that she is about forty, because the fingers The skin is a little loose.

Exquisite makeup, outstanding dress, sunglasses and masks, rare time, and a flight to catch...

Sheng Xinghe made a rough guess by summarizing these pieces of information.

"Are you He Qinian's aunt?"

He Zixin was a little surprised, "How do you know?"

"I heard from He Qinian that you are usually busy flying around, so why did you come here on purpose today?"

He Qinian answered coldly, "If there is any good thing, I won't be allowed to join the provincial team."

He Zixin poked him on the shoulder, "You're ashamed to say that you haven't mentioned a single word to me about such a big matter. You think you are an adult, your wings are hardened, and you can make your own decisions about everything, right?"

He Qinian asked back: "Isn't it?"

Sheng Xinghe was terrified to hear the conversation between the two, always feeling that they were going to quarrel in the next second.

As an outsider, he felt suffocated in this place.

He really used the money from selling cabbage to sell white powder. He felt that he was almost becoming an aunt of the neighborhood committee.

"That..." He really didn't know whether to call Auntie or Sister, he hesitated for a while, "Auntie, please sit down and have a sip of tea first, let's talk slowly if you have anything to do."

Sheng Xinghe's attitude calmed down He Zixin's excitement a little, and she sat on the sofa.

"I came here mainly for Xiaonian's entry into the provincial team. He didn't discuss this matter with me from the beginning to the end. I haven't agreed yet. You are his coach, can you take care of this matter?"

Sheng Xinghe frowned slightly, "I don't quite understand what you mean, do you want him to give up his chance to enter the provincial team?"

He Zixin nodded, "Yes."

He Qinian raised his voice, "Stop coming! Impossible!"

Sheng Xinghe gave him a wink, "Go and boil some hot water to make a cup of tea."

He Qinian curled his lips, feeling reluctant in his heart, but he did as he did.

Sheng Xinghe then turned his head to look at He Zixin, "He Qinian's performance has been improving at this stage. He was selected only after winning the provincial games. This kind of opportunity is very rare, and it is very precious for athletes. Every step, It will also have a great impact on his future career."

"I know, but to be honest, I don't want him to be in the high jump industry." He Zixin looked slender, but her voice was extremely loud, and there was an unquestionable determination between the lines.

Sheng Xinghe originally thought that He Zixin planned to let He Qinian graduate from college before becoming a professional athlete, but it seems not.

"why?"

"It's just not necessary. Being an athlete works so hard and doesn't make money. Why waste time? There are many paths he can go in the future."

The kitchen was open, and He Qinian stood by the sink and listened to their chat, and the water from the faucet poured into the kettle.

He felt that He Zixin's words not only hurt him, but also indirectly hurt the coach, so he was inevitably a little angry.

"Is it only meaningful to make money? You haven't tried it, so you don't understand at all. I chose high jump because it can bring me a great sense of honor and make me feel fulfilled."

He Zixin retorted: "Now you think the high jump is interesting and can give you a sense of honor, but have you ever thought about how long you can jump? After the golden breakout period, what awaits you is declining grades and a life full of injuries." Body, when you are really sad, it is too late for you to regret it.”

"As I get older, my physical condition is getting worse day by day. Since I have chosen, I will definitely not regret it." He Qinian said.

He Zixin's eyes were like copper bells, her eyes fixed on him firmly, and her voice became louder and louder.

"You haven't lost anything now, and of course you won't regret it, but when you dedicate the best time of your life to the most boring training, give up studying abroad, give up socializing, and give up various job opportunities, what you get in return is nothing. Tell me you don't regret it?"

He Qinian lowered his eyes, and the consequences that He Zixin said cruelly attacked his inner line of defense.

It is impossible to say that you are not afraid at all. Stepping into the sports circle is to bet on your youth.

The reason why he is so brave is not only because of love, but also partly because Sheng Xinghe is in the national team.

"Why are you so sure I'm going to get nowhere?"

He Qinian's voice was very soft, so soft that it made people feel distressed.

He Zixin knew that children of this age must be confused about the future, so she attacked him forcefully and decisively.

"The top high jump athletes of the national team may not be able to advance to international competitions, let alone win the championship. Do you understand the interest chain in the sports circle? Let me put it bluntly. If you don't make it to the competition, no one will watch it. No endorsement, no advertising, no income, the money you earn is just enough for daily food and clothing, but what about when you retire? What are you going to do with all the pain?"

He Zixin's experience made these words seem very real. He Qinian believed it, but he said stubbornly, "It's not as scary as you said."

"Your aunt is right, the high jump business really doesn't make money." Sheng Xinghe said.

"Look, that's what the human coach said."

He Qinian frowned and looked at Sheng Xinghe.

"However, the definition of success is not just making a lot of money, right?"

Sheng Xinghe was calm, with a faint smile on his lips, "Perhaps success in the eyes of most people is fame and fortune, but I still think that success is a process of constantly approaching the goal, and the sense of happiness and satisfaction gained during the process , is far more important than a result."

"There are too many careers that don't make money in this world, but there are still people who are willing to fight for it all their lives. Everyone's dreams should be respected, instead of using money to measure whether it is worth it. You just said that he practiced high jump. Wasting time, so let him do something he doesn't even want to do, is it to cherish time? Will he not regret it in the future?"

He Zixin choked, and paused for a few seconds before saying: "Then you can choose a less difficult job. He is young and his vision is not wide enough. There are many interesting things in the world."

"Do you know how many people there are in our school?" Sheng Xinghe asked.

He Zixin didn't understand why, so she shook her head.

"Our school is divided into 16 colleges and 48 departments. The total number of students in the school exceeds 3. Let's count in half. There are 1.5 boys. Among these people, how many of them are over 1 meters tall? "

He Zixin frowned and didn't speak, but she knew it in her heart.

That's almost a [-] in [-] chance.

"So I think, maybe it wasn't him who chose the high jump, but the high jump chose him. The most terrifying thing in this world is the blessing from God, because it is there, and it separates people from each other, but you can't do anything about it. "

He Zixin was stunned again, choked speechless.

He turned his head to look at the head that was almost reaching the ceiling.

In fact, she had planned to let He Qinian enter the showbiz before, but after entering middle school, his stature was like a weed, growing wildly, and every time he met, he grew several centimeters, which was a bit scary.

It is very inconvenient to be tall and act with an actress, and it is difficult to accept the role, so I had to let him go.

One thing she often said was "what's the use of being so tall", and she never thought that in a certain industry, such a height would be an advantage over tens of millions of people.

"Many sports students have spent several years jumping to a height that they can't jump. He can cross it after a while of practice. He has already won at the starting line. Are you really sure you want him to give up?"

The arrogance in He Zixin's eyes weakened, "With these advantages, what can we guarantee?"

"If people see what they will look like in 30 years, the next 29 years will become boring." Sheng Xinghe said with a smile, "I am part of the national track and field team, and I have never regretted practicing high jump."

In his eyes, He Zixin read pride and faith, those things she once had but lost, drifting with the tide in the entertainment circle, she has long forgotten what her original intention was.

She suddenly felt that this person's eyes were like pure animals, clear and bright.

Perhaps only those with a pure mind can see a beautiful world.

He Zixin sighed softly, "I really don't understand, what is there to be proud of in practicing high jump, each of them, working so hard, just for a medal?"

Sheng Xinghe glanced at the child, his eyes were full of firmness and anticipation.

"Of course there is nothing to be proud of in the high jump, but he is He Qinian. If one day you are willing to take the time to watch a game, I think he will definitely become your pride when he shines on the field."

Of course, practicing high jump is nothing to be proud of.

But he is He Qinian.

Sheng Xinghe's last few words kept circling in He Qinian's mind.

again and again……

It was as if someone had shot an arrow in his chest.

After the conversation ended, Sheng Xinghe and He Qinian sent He Zixin out of the apartment together.

A white commercial vehicle turned around from the intersection and slowly drove towards them.

"Walk slowly."

He Zixin nodded, looked at He Qinian, "Don't answer my phone."

"I know—" It sounded a little impatient, but Sheng Xinghe knew he would be obedient.

Although He Zixin has left, she still left two requirements. The professional courses can't just be mixed up like this. If she can't enter the national team within one year, she has to prepare well to go abroad for further study.

"Do you feel a lot of pressure on your shoulders now, little friend?" Sheng Xinghe squeezed He Qinian's shoulder.

"quite big……"

"This is the world of adults. You have to start to adapt slowly. There will be more choices and challenges in the future."

He Qinian nodded, but compared to these, he is most concerned about one issue right now——

"Will you send me to the provincial team tomorrow morning?"

"……Um."

After Sheng Xinghe left He Qinian's house, he went to the supermarket to buy a large can of fresh milk. Last time, He Qinian praised the yogurt he made was delicious, and he planned to make another cup for him to drink there.

It's good to have a sweet mouth, and you can take advantage of it everywhere.he thought.

...

Early the next morning, everyone gathered at the school gate.

People in the track and field team often train together. Even if they don’t know each other’s name, they have met each other. Young teenagers and girls start chatting when they get together, and the team is noisy.

As soon as Sheng Xinghe passed by, his voice gradually weakened.

"Everyone check your belongings carefully to see if there is anything left behind. After checking, we will set off."

"It's all checked."

"Sure?"

"Sure!"

"Then get in the car."

With a bit of excitement, anticipation and apprehension, everyone got into the car one after another.

There were a lot of empty seats in the car, but He Qinian and Sheng Xinghe were squeezed together. This was probably their last time together this month.

Last night, I clearly thought about a lot of things to say, but when I actually saw it, I didn't know where to start.

Sheng Xinghe took out a notebook and several boxes of Kinesiology stickers from his bag.

"The training of the provincial team is much more rigorous than that of the school. I guess you will not be able to handle it when you first pass. I bought this muscle effect myself. It must be more effective than the ones issued by the team. I don't know how to cut and paste various parts. Write it down in the notebook, and if some team members feel uncomfortable later, you should post it to them to avoid injury.”

He Qinian took the things, mixed with joy and a little bit of disappointment, "I thought you prepared it for me."

Sheng Xinghe smiled, "Aren't you a team member?"

He Qinian was a little distressed, what he wanted was special care and limited preference, but Sheng Xinghe was always jumping on the edge of the boundary.

The reluctance in his heart made this originally long journey very short, and the closer he got to the destination, the more violent this emotion became, and he even wanted to hug the people around him fiercely.

Then whisper in his ear, I will miss you.

But nothing happened.

He was chatting with everyone about the dormitory allocation. As soon as the driver stopped, he picked up his luggage and followed the team to get off. Sheng Xinghe walked at the end, ready to go in and hand over to the coach of the provincial team.

The training base of the provincial team is magnificent. There are sports venues one after another. There are all kinds of sports. The playground is much larger than the school. Every time you pass a venue, there will be a burst of exclamation in the team.

"Fuck! The swimming pool is so big!"

"The air here is different from that in school."

This is a place full of sports atmosphere, and you can see athletes with tall horses and exaggerated muscles everywhere.

The coach of the provincial team led everyone to briefly visit the track and field training center, and then the athletes' dormitory.

"You can draw lots to decide how to arrange the room." The instructor said.

The dormitory is a double room, each room has its own bathroom and balcony, and the environment is not bad.

He Qinian shared a room with Yu Shunping from the long jump team.

Yu Shunping simply packed his luggage and went to visit the next door.

Sheng Xinghe stood at the door of the dormitory and took a look, "It's not bad. When I came to the provincial team before, the conditions were not so good. There are four people in one room, and I have to wait for a long time every time I take a shower."

He Qinian pushed the suitcase to the room, and reluctantly leaned against the door, "Would you like to come in for a while?"

"Stop sitting," Sheng Xinghe raised his hand and looked at his watch, "I have to go back, it will take more than two hours to go back by car."

"Oh."

He Qinian grabbed the doorknob behind his back, moved his lips, and was about to ask if I could give you a hug, when Sheng Xinghe suddenly took off the backpack on his shoulder and said, "Oh, by the way, I have something for you."

He Qinian's eyes lit up, "What?"

Sheng Xinghe handed over his thermos.

"I made too much yogurt last night and couldn't finish it. I brought you a cup. There is no refrigerator here. You should drink it quickly. It may be broken by tomorrow."

His personality and experience determine his current way of speaking. It seems that he will never learn to be honest, and always understates or even skips his feelings, but He Qinian still took the thermos with ecstasy.

The joy of youth often comes from a word of concern from the one he loves, and he can even read [-] messages from one look in the other's eyes.

He Qinian couldn't bear the throbbing in his heart, reached out his hand to wrap his shoulders, and moved forward.

Sheng Xinghe was unprepared, he leaned forward suddenly, and fell into He Qinian's arms.

The athlete's body is tight and full of strength.

The arms on the back are getting tighter and tighter, as if to vent something.

"Thank you, I'll finish it." He Qinian said.

Sheng Xinghe raised his hand and rubbed the back of his head, it was a little prickly, but it was still very comfortable to touch.

"Then I'm leaving, you take care of yourself."

He Qinian didn't let go, his chin rested on Sheng Xinghe's shoulder, his ears were close to his ears, and a scent of fragrance surrounded him.

This is an unprecedented close distance, strictly speaking, it is an unprecedented closeness when Sheng Xinghe was awake.

"I……"

He Qinian's breath was right next to his ears, Sheng Xinghe's chest was hot, and his fingers clenched into fists nervously.

"My suitcase, remember to help me get it."

"........."