deepest in memory

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Book Title: In the deepest memory

Author: Lost Rain Sail

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Time flies, alone, with a glass of water, in a quiet environment, looking in the mirror, only to realize that I am still me, always here.I still feel that I am a bit handsome, and I am still a bit lazy. I don’t want to move when no one is rushing me. I still like playing basketball so much, and I still like listening to Jay Chou’s songs.But the traces of the years left on the face are so obvious, the youth that can't go back has gradually moved away from me, and some things deep in my memory should be let go.So, despite the tears streaming down my face, I have to take great strides forward!

Content tags: Sadomasochism

Search keywords: Protagonist: Zhu Xiaofan, Lin Xue┃Supporting role: Ding Xiaoguang┃Others:

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☆、Preface

The night is very dark and quiet; a breeze blows in, bringing a burst of coolness, a feeling of icy cold, chilling to the bone.I don't remember how many nights like this I have spent, lonely, cold, and shivering to light a cigarette, which gave a ray of light and warmth to such nights.Maybe my world has been dark and cold since I was born, but the light that appeared in my memory made me feel light and heat, and illuminated my world; now that light has disappeared, my world has returned to darkness, It just left an indelible trace in the deepest part of memory. It is bright and can warm me; but it is also like the sharpest blade, stabbing deeply in my heart, leaving a wound that cannot be healed .

I don't know how far the future is, and I don't know whether those indelible things in memory will slowly fade away with time; but what I once had, I know very well that it is youth, that is "love", and it has always been sealed Deepest in my memory!

☆、The Boy in the Sunset

Many years later, when I returned to the gate of X County No. [-] Middle School, I felt afraid to step in. This is about her starting point, and it is also the beginning of all the beauty and happiness in the past. It is a pity that I come back here again When I was left alone!The afterglow of the setting sun stretched my figure for a very long time, everything was over, and my eyes were red unconsciously, but the things hidden deep in the memory became more and more clear, as if I went back to five years ago in an instant.. ....

What kind of person am I? At the age of 19, I kept asking myself, I have no beliefs, no specialties, and no very distinctive personality; I am not very good at anything, but I am not very bad, easily influenced by external information, and my willpower is not firm; ordinary Ordinary people among people.

I am born in the 90s, a child of a very ordinary Chinese rural family.When I was young, there was a boom in migrant workers in my hometown, and my parents were one of them.So I am a typical left-behind child, growing up with my grandma.My dad is grandma's youngest son, so grandma was very old when she brought me up.In my memory, my grandma has always had silver hair, a stooped body, and the wrinkles on her face left by the years.

Grandma is very kind to me, she is my dearest person!But as a left-behind child without parents around, insecurity seems to be a common problem for us, and I am no exception.I grew up without a sound family environment, and I have always had psychological shadows. I grew up with various negative emotions such as timidity, low self-esteem, and easy panic, so I also had a very rebellious adolescence.

I don't know whether to be thankful or sad. When I grew up, I learned to disguise and put on layers of protective coats for myself.In the words of my former classmates: I never realized that you are such a funny guy.At that time, I became very cheerful, I liked to play tricks, I was a bit "cheap", and I clearly understood what to do and what not to do. It was not easy to learn to understand my parents, and I no longer resented them for not growing up with me. Chat with dad like a friend, and no longer quarrel with mom.Of course, I would also light a cigarette in the middle of the night to put myself in the darkness and blend with the darkness, as if the whole world had quieted down and only myself was left.At that time, I never seemed to be really happy.

When I was young, I especially liked the sunset, because it looks beautiful. Of course, the most important thing is that the sunset is at a good time, which means that after school, I can say goodbye to annoying textbooks and fierce teachers.The first time I heard the poem "The sunset is infinitely good, but it's just near dusk", I was particularly impressed. Of course, I didn't understand it very well at that time, but I just thought it was very artistic, and I remembered it after listening to it once.Therefore, the process of growing up is inseparable from the sunset, running home with a schoolbag in the sunset, strolling lazily back to the dormitory in the sunset, and galloping on the basketball court in the sunset.

I like the beauty of the sunset, which has a hazy feeling; I also like the temperature of the sunset, which is not hot, but very warm; I prefer the meaning of the sunset, which is shining even when it is about to pass away, and it is not dazzling.Different ages have different feelings when looking at different sunsets. I like the sunset when I was a teenager the most. At that time, I fantasized that I was the unrivaled hero in martial arts novels, and I was very energetic.You don’t have to worry about your grades, you don’t have to think about whether you can’t grow tall, or you don’t have to think about your future.I really like myself at that time, a little melancholy, with killer hair, and a very chic personality.

It's a pity that people will always grow up, and some things are destined to remain in memory forever, staying in the time and space that we can never go back to.I have thought about how to sum up my youth for a long time, because there are many beautiful and painful things that I dare not recall, and I dare not recall. Many things are still vivid in my mind today, and the pain in my heart is like a knife. .I often think about what it would be like without you in my youth.Maybe I will be very lonely to this day, and I don’t know the taste of love; maybe I will meet another girl who loves each other, who has the same view of love, is very gentle and can understand everything about me, and then we will walk to the end together; Several girlfriends have become a so-called scumbag, but they are still alone.But no matter which one, it is estimated that it will not be as painful as it is now, but it will never be able to experience this kind of unforgettable.

I have been thinking about how my story should start, as if I really don’t know where to start, because my youth is really ordinary.Of course, for me, this is my entire youth, the only pure and desperate love in this life.So let’s start from the deepest part of my memory—the boy in the sunset!

☆, starting point

My name is Zhu Xiaofan. At this moment, I am once again standing at the gate of X County No. [-] Middle School. I am about to enter this school and fight for another year. No, it should be another year, because I am returning to repeat my third year of high school.More than a month ago, I would not have believed that I would be standing here today even if I was killed. For the first time, I felt that the feeling of slapping myself was as "hot" as the current weather. In the third year of high school, the life of repeat students is more difficult and stressful, and my heart is inexplicably irritable!

A person, pulling a suitcase and carrying a bag, slowly walked into this place that he thought he would never enter again.The weather was very hot, and I felt like I was sweating every step I took, and the playground was empty. It was summer vacation, and the only people in the school were almost repeaters like me.Since I had already contacted the teacher in charge of the previous senior year, I also saved a lot of troubles in enrolling, so I went straight to the dormitory.

What were the first three years of high school like for me?To put it simply, "I don't feel much". The only thing I have is a few good friends and basketball. I have never been someone who will please the teacher. Of course, my academic performance is also the kind that the teacher will never pay attention to. Human beings, so I have no liking and gratitude for teachers, nor can I say that I hate them.This is the reason why I don’t feel anything after the college entrance examination, I don’t feel youthful, I don’t relax like crazy, and I don’t feel a lot of regrets.I just feel that it is over, as simple as finishing a question or a test.

Our dormitory is on the sixth floor. Although the floor is high, we only need 8 people in the original 4-person dormitory because of the preferential treatment for our tutoring students.After looking at the admission information, my dormitory is 602. As soon as I entered the door, I saw Brother Chun and Brother Bo (we were popularly called Brother at that time, very kind). They were both my classmates in the third year of high school. familiar.I was really happy to see them, and I felt sympathy for them. I quickly and enthusiastically hugged them, and then said with emotion: "It's really brothers, the three of us will fight together for another year."Looking back now, if I didn't have them around, I don't know if I could have persisted.I was the last one to arrive at the dormitory. The other roommate was transferred from No. [-] Middle School to repeat his studies. His name is Leng Wen. We all call him Awen. He is also a good-natured person, and No. [-] Middle School is close to my home. I have many junior high school classmates. We are both in No. [-] Middle School, so we have many mutual friends. We are easy-going people, and Ah Wen got along with us very quickly.Let me briefly introduce our small group. Brother Chun is a very down-to-earth person with good academic performance and is particularly hardworking.But he is not that kind of nerd, sometimes he will talk a lot, and he is very interesting.The relationship between Bogo and me is mainly due to basketball. We both love basketball and have often played together before.As for Ah Wen, just two words describe "Men Sao"!

After the college entrance examination, Zeng told himself coolly that he would never come back to this broken place after leaving.So the first thing I did after the exam was to casually throw away my meal card (student ID card), shake my hair, whistle and leave without looking back.well!As the saying goes, what kind of cause is planted in front, what kind of fruit will be born later, so at this moment, I am basking in the sun and queuing up to reapply for a meal card. Those mistakes made because of youth must be repaid after all!Although I sighed, there were still [-] grass-mud horses floating in my heart.

Because it is an environment I am familiar with, the things in life are quickly dealt with, and the preparatory work is basically completed, and now there is one most difficult thing to do.Or because I was too handsome at the time, almost all the textbooks and materials were packaged and sold to scrap collectors, and I exchanged for a meal. This matter also made me brag for a month, and now it is a bit troublesome... ...

I borrowed all the textbooks from my former classmates, and then bought all the necessary materials for ten times the price when the books were sold. It was basically done, and then I started my painful life of repeating.Since I came relatively late, those who come to repeat the study are basically "good students" who love to study, or who are inspired to be admitted to a better university. There are still very few strange things like me who were cheated by my father "a gamble" Yes, so I was honored to sit where I wanted to sit the most, the back corner.What surprised me was that my deskmate turned out to be Ah Wen. This kid didn't look like a good bird at first glance, and he was like me, so he was still very happy.Ah Wen's hair is rough, but not tall, about the same as me, and one of the few students I have met over the years with "body hair" who can compete with me.Of course, I am much more handsome than him.Exclusive VIP novel resource group, the original price is 108, now the special price is 44 yuan, the resources are updated every 1-4 every week, the radio dramas you want, calcium tablets, Begonia, Liancheng, and Jinjiang are all available!Join the group and add WeChat lyx775153909, the monthly renewal fee in the group is 4 yuan, if you are not satisfied, you will not be refunded if you leave the group. ???? Note, this group is not the main attack group!

Let me add to the bet I made with my dad. After the results of the college entrance examination, my score was still 17 points away from the second line (the score line in my hometown). At that time, my hometown was more traditional. I really got admitted to the university, and my dad was no exception. He insisted that I go to the second class, even if it was a lower-ranking admission (some poorer second-tier schools will lower their scores because they cannot recruit the target number of students).I disagreed to death at the time, just kidding, old men, I said I would never go back.Besides, at that time, university was like a paradise for us, nobody cared about us, we could skip classes, play games unscrupulously, don’t worry about exams, just get 60 points in the exam and don’t fail any subjects, and there are countless beauties ( At that time, the teacher described the university life to us every day in this way, so as to stimulate our desire to learn).Dad is pushing me into the fire pit, I don't agree with it.I really can't screw it up later, after all, it's my father, so I called my homeroom teacher and asked, with my score, is it possible to get a second degree? .At that time, my head teacher patted his chest and assured me that it was okay, and recommended several schools to me.Then I confidently made a bet with my dad that I would go to college if I got the second grade, and go back to repeat the grade if I couldn’t get it, and that’s how it is now.well!This is really a Qing Festival that I really don’t want to recall. I feel that there is no love in this world. What about the warmth between people?What about the most basic integrity between people?Forget it, don't mention it, a bet changed my life, and my life is also very helpless!

In this way, I became an honorable repeater, carrying the whole family's expectation of a big school at home, and stepped into this pit of no return!

☆, she

I thought about it for a long time, and maybe my story will never be able to avoid her, because she was the only heroine in my youth.Maybe it's too important and caring too much, maybe it's too much about her, or there are too many regrets, but many, many memories about her are gradually blurring!Her name is Lin Xue, a very common name, but I like it very much. I like the word "Snow" in girls' names, because I think "Snow" is pure white and flawless, and "Snow" is extremely beautiful.I always called her "Xiaoxue", the only heroine in my story.

I have known her since junior high school, and we were in the same class in the first grade of junior high school.It's just that at that time, it was just an acquaintance, that is, there was such a person, but there was no intersection.At that time, how should I put it, I was really "handsome", at the peak of my appearance; I was very thin at that time, with a well-defined face, sharp edges and corners, deep brown eyes, and long flowing hair. The main thing is that there is no beard, and the skin is also very good, very delicate.In the words of a girl who once had a crush on me, it is "Little Zhengtai"!At that time, in my impression, she was a woman who spoke loudly, was a little dark, and was a little tall, which did not meet my aesthetics at all.So, at that time, I definitely avoided her.

Later, I don't know how I became good friends with her, but that memory seems to be lost.It should be when I was in the first or second year of high school that I really started to get acquainted, and I can't remember clearly.I fell in love with her out of nowhere. At that time, I felt very close to her, and soon became a good friend who talked about everything. I often talked on the phone for an hour or two every day, so that my roommates at that time thought she was my daughter. friend.Looking back now, I don't understand why I got along so well with her back then, and I can't get back the feeling I had for her back then!

Although we were not in the same high school during that time, and we were separated by dozens of kilometers, it felt like she was by my side.I can confide to her the depression and unhappiness of reading, I can have her company when I am lonely, and I can be my listener when I am confused; and she is the same, all things are willing to share with me, all I will complain about my troubles.However, the good times didn't last long, I didn't expect that she would even talk to me about her having a boyfriend, and now looking back, I feel very helpless! "There is no pure friendship between a man and a woman!" I have always believed in this sentence, so I have always refused to go deep with any girl who has a boyfriend.The moment I found out that she had a boyfriend, I admitted that I was jealous and jealous. I sat alone at the door of the dormitory and smoked a pack of cigarettes. I was lost for a few days and didn't take the initiative to contact her in the next six months.Later, she just contacted me proactively, but I didn't pay much attention to her. Maybe even now she won't understand why I was so indifferent to her during that time.

What is youth?Youth is sometimes the ambiguity at the beginning of love. Those who have the courage to take a step will achieve puppy love, and those who do not have the courage to shrink back will become regrets!I think I was very regretful at that time. I liked it, but I didn't understand it, and I didn't confess it. I didn't protect her by her side when she needed it most. After all, I was one step ahead of her.But although I regret it, I don't regret it. I can only say that fate is like this. There is no fate. Life is so fucked up. At that time, I comforted myself like this!

Maybe the two of us were destined to love and kill each other from that time on, and the hand of fate pushed us together again. In 2012, the year of the end of the world in the legend, I was looking forward to it at that time, life was indeed boring, and the end of the world was quite exciting (watched too many doomsday movies at that time).This year is the most difficult year for me, a turning point in my fate; this year is also the happiest year for me, because of her.

The first time I saw her in X County No. [-] Middle School, I was very pleasantly surprised. We both fell into the sky, and we both failed the exam. We came to repeat the exam together, and we were filled with emotion!After finishing the pretentious words, I still have a deep memory of her at that time. She had simple black long hair, a slightly baby-fat face, no makeup, a slightly fat body, and a sportswear, very pure and pure.Of course, she didn't have a boyfriend at that time!

We are in the same class, and she is not familiar with this place when she just came here, and I have been in this place for the fourth year, so as a "good friend", I should take care of her more.kindness!That's what I said to myself at the time.So, I started to take her to eat together, take her around the campus, introduce my friends to her, and accompany her to continue working overtime after finishing the evening self-study.

She is a very hardworking girl, at least more diligent than me. She is very stubborn, very proud, and has strong self-esteem; of course, she is also very cute and lovable.My relationship with her is still so good, my brothers all defaulted to her as my girlfriend, although we didn't pierce the window paper, maybe I thought so in my heart at the time.People say that the best moment of love is the ambiguous period before the relationship is confirmed. I think I was extremely happy at that time. After all, first love is always so beautiful and unforgettable.

In fact, looking back now, I really miss myself at that time, carefree, high-spirited, a bit arrogant, and I have an inexplicable confidence in her.I just feel like she belongs to me, likes me, and will always like me.Maybe at that time I was a qualified lover, because I would not hurt the one I love because of my inferiority complex, cowardice, and possessiveness.

It's easy to like someone, and it's easy to fall in love with someone, but it's really hard to keep love!Especially for people like me who are naturally insecure and defensive, once they have something, they will be extremely afraid of losing it.At that time, I really liked her, really loved her, and of course, I also had a strong possessive desire.I don't know if every man is like me, but I just think that people like me must be like this, because they have no sense of security, so they are very sensitive and afraid of losing.And once you give your heart to love someone, you must love very passionately and stupidly; and correspondingly, you will demand more from the other party, not every woman can bear this kind of love.

The story between me and her is very long, because of her, I have experienced the happiest moment of my life; also because of her, I have gone through the darkest time of my life.There were laughter and tears on the road we walked together. Although it was rough, I never regretted it.It's just that people will grow up and change after all. The road of life is a straight line that keeps going forward. Because they have crossed before, once they separate, they will gradually drift away!

If possible, I want to go back to the original us.At that time, I was handsome and charming in her eyes. At that time, she was pure and lovely in my eyes. At that time, we shared similar interests.She was so beautiful at that time; we were so good at that time!

☆, small light

During that time, there was another person I had to mention, his name was "Xiao Guang", my best friend, a classmate in the first year of high school, played basketball and summer jobs together, and then followed my steps and entered the re-reading process together. Shenkeng, no matter how shameless, became my roommate and tablemate, which led to the combination of our "Three Musketeers of Waste Materials".

After the repeating life began, I felt like I was back in the third year of high school in an instant. I woke up groggy at 06:30 in the morning, listened to the extremely annoying "getting up", brushed my teeth and washed my face in a daze, and then hurried to the classroom to start a new class. one day.In the morning, I memorize words that I will never remember, and in class, I listen to the textbook knowledge repeated over and over again. If I can understand it, I will understand it sooner, and if I don’t know it, I will never teach it; , as soon as the class was in the afternoon, Ah Wen and I sat on the floor with a newspaper and "listened to the class", drowsy; but at night, the whole person was refreshed. Although the evening self-study was very late, it was also the most awake of the day time; you can do your favorite mathematics, physics and chemistry exercises, you can secretly read novels, or you can be in a daze and have some unrealistic dreams.

After two days of living like this, I met a man who broke me down. How would I describe him? He is five centimeters taller than me, and looks similar to me. , and very cheap, this is probably everyone's first impression of him, he is "Little Light"!Please allow me to describe him like this. Although we are iron brothers, the words I just said to describe him are really not an exaggeration, because he is really wretched, born with a hopeless kind.

That day is still unforgettable to me. I saw a big bald head (inch flat head, we used to call this hairstyle a big bald head) walking towards me, so tanned that I almost didn't recognize it!Seeing me, he rushed towards me with a yell, "Brother, do you miss me? Hahahahahaha, I'm here to accompany you, are you touched? Hahahahaha, I'm so happy."He hugged me so hard I couldn't breathe. "Heaven, earth, why can't I escape his clutches!"

In other words, why can't I stand him, because he is a "cancer", wretched, cheap, shameless, all can be used to describe him, these are not terrible, what is terrible is that he has these "advantages" of himself Always proud, narcissistic to death.So he naturally became my other tablemate (we sat in a row of 9 people, and every 3 people sat next to each other), and he became my roommate without any embarrassment, let us The dormitory that originally only needed four people was crowded with five people, and he didn't think there was anything wrong with his approach.

People are sometimes very strange. According to my personality at the time, I was quite disgusted with such a person, but why I became good friends with him, until now I can't explain why.Maybe I am not a serious person in my bones, or maybe I envy him more, because people like him don’t care too much about other people’s eyes, and they don’t suffer easily. They live happily, which is the opposite of me. .So since he was in high school, he has never been short of girlfriends around him (because of his thick skin). Although there are some looks that I can't compliment, he will always come anyway.In his words: "Every girl needs love and care, and I can give them love when they need it, and leave silently when they don't need it. I am so great!" Sneering, no one can find such a noble excuse for his shamelessness.However, in the first three years of high school, he was indeed fed a lot of dog food.However, people like me who have a sacred pursuit of love will never meet one and love the other like him. It has always been my life principle to prefer lack to excess, so I have never formally made a girlfriend until I resumed my studies.Although there used to be many girls who liked me, but I rejected them all because I had no feelings for them.For this point, Xiaoguang never agrees with my opinion, he just thinks that anyone who likes me is too ugly, so I don't like it.Maybe, he's right!

But at that time his girlfriend was really nice, I knew he was very serious that time, and his girlfriend was also very kind to him.After all, one is re-studying in his hometown and living a depressing high school life; the other has just entered the colorful world of university, faced with so many temptations, and is still in a long-distance relationship, it is really rare to have the courage to persevere.Therefore, they did come to the end, and they have already obtained a marriage certificate. Of course, these are all things to come!

However, the days with Xiao Guang were indeed a lot more exciting. He was in the same situation as me. He came to repeat because of his family, and he didn't want to come.Of course, in his words, he wouldn't come if I wasn't there to kill him.So, since then, our "Waste Material Trio" has officially launched.I have always felt that the word "waste material" is not suitable for me. I was implicated by the two of them, because they were always sleeping during class. A row of corners, covered by piles of books higher than mountains on desks.These two guys really broke my heart at that time!

Of course, I was not born so great. In fact, I am very sleepy in class every day, and I also want to sleep. It’s just that I have a habit. I can’t fall asleep even if I lie on the desk.I suddenly remembered a joke my cousin told me when I was young. He was good at studying in elementary school, but one day the deskmate on the left smiled at him, and he held back; then the deskmate on the right smiled at him again , he couldn't hold it back, so the three of them laughed together, and then the study went away from him.It's a pity that now the two "sleeping fairies" are beside me, but I am still indifferent, as immovable as a mountain, and I really admire myself!

Although Xiaoguang is very wretched, he is really loyal to his brothers. I am very grateful to have him fighting together during that time, which added a lot of color to the depressed life of repeating studies.After so many years, Xiaoguang is still the same Xiaoguang, and has not changed at all.I still envy Xiaoguang very much, his character is still so optimistic, his face is still so thick, and his wretchedness is not less than before, so he has a good life.I also wish him sincerely, and wish him and his lover happiness forever!He has fulfilled the dream I have been longing for but not fulfilled: "long-distance love running for many years, from school uniform to wedding dress"!

☆, Lao Liang

The head teacher in high school is undoubtedly a crucial role, and the most influential person in my high school career is the head teacher "Lao Liang" of our repeat class!

Lao Liang's surname is Liang, and we usually call him Teacher Liang, and we call him "Lao Liang" in private.

Lao Liang taught us "Chemistry". He is a very experienced senior teacher. He has won countless honors in our county. He is one of the teachers who stand at the top of the pyramid in X county.He was originally a teacher in a private middle school, and he was a director, a big leader of the school. According to him, the reason why he came to our school was because the principal of our school personally poached him from a private high school (our school is a public school).He is not tall, his hair is always messy, and he never takes care of it. What is very rare is that he does not wear glasses, and his eyesight is very good. At that time, there were very few teachers at his age who did not wear glasses; He looks very serious at ordinary times, but he is very interesting. He wears old-fashioned shirts and slacks all year round.Because he loves drinking, he felt like his face was always red like Guan Gong.

Lao Liang's teaching level is indeed not boastful, it is very professional, he never brings textbooks to class, everything is in his head, very organized, but Mandarin is a bit unflattering.Of course, for me, these are not very important. I myself have good grades in "Chemistry", and because I have not had a good relationship with my teachers throughout middle school, the greatest ability I have learned is self-study, and I never rely on teachers.What interests me the most is when he comes over to tell us his stories when he is drunk (usually during night self-study), about his unrestrained and unrestrained student days, his smooth career later on, and some amazing things he brought out. Very good seniors and sisters, and his love story when he was young.At that time, I listened with great interest, not because the story interested me so much, but because the study life was too boring!

"Wine" is an indispensable daily necessities for Lao Liang. I still remember the most classic sentence he said: "Wine is more important to me than oxygen. I can do without oxygen, but I can't do without wine!" At that time It's hard to understand how much a person likes to drink. I also drink, but I don't like it. I don't think it's delicious. It's just for social needs, or for the sake of face when I was young.Old Liang who was drunk was the most interesting, with a red face, swaying all over, his eyes narrowed into a slit, showing a very meaningful smile, a bit like Xiaoguang.Every time this happens, Xiaoguang and Awen will smile knowingly, "Safe time, sleep!" I can't do anything about these two powerful brothers of mine. At that time, I nicknamed them "" "Sleeping Fairy", "Sleeping God"!

In the hot summer, the boring and stressful study life makes people very irritable, but in August, because of Lao Liang's "super high teaching level", it caused us a lot of distress!There is a custom in our hometown. Once admitted to a university (especially a good university), there is usually a "study banquet", and this meal is indispensable to thank the teacher.Based on Lao Liang's qualifications and teaching level, he has always taught the best classes in the school. The students in the entire class are almost all admitted to "one" and "prestige universities". There is almost no time for normal class, and after a few minutes of speaking, students will come to send invitations, treat the teacher to dinner, thank the teacher for his cultivation, etc., and then the class is gone.Of course, for people like me, I don't care whether I can take classes well, it's just "jealousy", after all, they used to be in the same class as me.Now, I have to go through the "senior senior year" that is more painful than the senior year (repeaters we laughed at ourselves at the time as the senior year), but they are going to enter a university like heaven, and I feel heartbroken thinking about it!Whenever this happens, I have to envy the two people around me. When I am thinking wildly and regretting the original, they just feel that the opportunity to sleep has come. I especially don’t understand what makes a person so sleepy. This ability is simply enviable Not coming.

Of course, Lao Liang was naturally happy, and he did not forget to stimulate us with a red face: "This is a so-and-so classmate from my previous class, who has been admitted to such-and-such university, you have to work hard, you are already a year behind others It's gone!" This kind of bloody fight never worked for me, because whenever he told us this, all I could think about was how to cheat my "Admission Notice" and then run away with my luggage Here, the urge to run to my dream university.After all, it was indeed feasible to do so during that time period, because there was no deadline for university registration, although I was admitted to a "three-book" college.At that time, there were still many students who could not persist in doing so.

Perhaps the school also took this into consideration, fearing that we would not be able to resist the temptation and persevere, so after obtaining the consent of our parents, it was decided that our admission letter would be sent to us after the registration deadline for freshmen.This trick is really vicious, and it cuts off our thoughts of running away, especially those who are reluctant and weak-willed like me.I have to mention here that generally, no matter how much we score in the test, we will basically fill in the university volunteers. Since we can fill in volunteers for undergraduates and junior colleges, so