Scumbag, wait for me!

What does it feel like to be out of love?

There was a whole piece of cream cake in his heart, and someone took a sharp knife and forcibly dug out a piece.

Chen Fan clutched his half-missed heart and slept at home for two full days.

During these two days, every time he woke up, he asked himself: Is there such a love?

He doesn't know how much there is love, but he has thoroughly experienced how much sadness there is.

After another two days, Xiaomei finally called: "Brother Fan, if you don't come back, all I will have is a corpse!"

"Well, the road is easy." Chen Fan threw away the phone and continued to sleep with his head covered.

buzzing-

The phone rang again, Chen Fan picked it up and took a look, then muffled "Hello".

Xiaomei's howling voice came from the receiver: "Brother Fan! Have you had enough rest? As a leader, shouldn't you also care about the hard work of the little people like us?"

"I'm on annual leave, I'm hanging up!" Chen Fan wanted to hang up again after finishing speaking.

"Don't, don't, don't... Brother! Uncle! Dad!!! I know, I used to rely on you to support the stalls during the New Year and holidays, but...but tomorrow night is a weekday

An Ye, how can we fight this tough battle without you!Count on that big female mouse, the guests will leave nothing left of my gnawing! "

Chen Fan didn't speak, bit his lower lip in embarrassment, and said, "I'm going to celebrate Christmas, bye!"

"Don't don't! Grandpa, grandpa, grandpa!!! How about this, you help us set up the stall until twelve o'clock, and then go wherever you like, okay???"

Chen Fan sighed and said, "Well, that's it..."

"What does that mean? Are you coming tomorrow? Brother Fan..."

Chen Fan hung up the phone before he finished listening. He stretched out his hand, threw the mobile phone on the bed, pulled up the quilt and continued to sleep.

As soon as I closed my eyes, it was like watching a movie in my mind. The scenes in the park that night began to appear one by one.

He muttered impatiently: "What the hell are you living?" After nagging, he finally got up cruelly.

Brush your teeth, take a shower, change your clothes, water the flowers...

The leaves of spider plants and green radishes on the windowsill have begun to turn yellow due to long-term lack of water.These two pots of flowers were brought over by Wang Xiang, before he insisted that his place is gloomy...lack of popularity.

Chen Fan cleaned up the yellowed leaves and sat on the balcony blankly.

Christmas Eve……

Couples celebrate the New Year, single dogs go to funerals!

Before, Wang Xiang mentioned that he wanted to give him a surprise.It is less than a week now, and the surprise has not come, and I have properly reduced from "Chinese New Year" to "Funeral".

Oh shit!Even if they run, labor and management will also have a happy funeral.

Chen Fan picked up two pots of flowers, turned and went downstairs, and went straight to the reception room at the door.

The old man who read the newspaper pushed his big black framed eyes, glanced up, and said, "Have you gone on a trip? Why haven't I seen you for a few days?"

Chen Fan put the flower pot at the door and said, "No, I slept at home for a few days... This is for you, I can't support it..."

The uncle stood up, squinted his eyes, stretched out his hands and pulled the leaves away, saying: "There are worms here, and there is still a lack of water. I will kill the worms for you, and you will be green back in half a month. Then you can hug them back..."

"Hey..." What else can the uncle say, Chen Fan has already run away, he curled his lips and muttered, "Children nowadays, how can you be in the mood to grow flowers? You can't raise flowers yourself..."

On a winter night, the air is cold, and even the sky is gray.

The smoke from cooking at the aunt's house on the first floor floated in the air, making Chen Fan seem even more lonely by himself.

Standing in the empty yard, Chen Fan took out a cigarette and lit it.He smoked very slowly, taking each puff extremely deeply, as if he intended to let the breath of the smoke penetrate deep into his internal organs.

Chen Fan pumped harder and harder, and gradually his eyes turned red.Enduring the sadness in his heart, he took two more puffs until the whole cigarette was gone, and his expression returned to normal.He pinched his cigarette butt, and when he entered the corridor, he could finally tell himself calmly: It's all over!

One of the great benefits of being busy is that you can think less.

On the afternoon of December 12, Chen Fan has been concentrating on his work since entering the store.

When it was almost nine o'clock, all the dinner guests left to look for new programs, and the one in the middle of the night hadn't shown up yet, so he could finally breathe a sigh of relief.

Xiaomei saw that Chen Fan had been silent all day, and he didn't even eat two bites of food, so she cared, "Brother Fan, remember to eat something, you have to be busy at night!"

Chen Fan replied: "I'm fine, you go to rest..."

Xiaomei hesitated, "But..."

Chen Fan took the plate from Xiaomei's hand and said, "Go."

"Oh... I'll come as soon as I drink my saliva." After Xiaomei finished speaking, she walked towards the back kitchen.

Scan code, prepare meals, serve meals...

"Hello..." Chen Fan lowered his head slightly, looked at the screen, and said indifferently.

"A crispy chicken leg, plus a Japanese-style chicken burger..."

Chen Fan frowned when he heard the sound, and when he looked up, he saw Meng Xin and was immediately stunned.

In the past few days, Meng Xin has been sending him messages, and he replied one. Meng Xin asked him, "Are you still alive?"

He replied: "Okay..." and continued to play Missing.

Now, when he suddenly saw Meng Xin, he was a little embarrassed and said, "Why are you here?"

Meng Xin wore a knee-length black down jacket and a long brown scarf, wrapping herself airtightly, and said, "Let's see if you're really living a good life, or are you lying to me? By the way, I want a glass of wine." But, an ice cream, strawberry flavored." After he finished speaking, he was about to reach for his phone.

"No, I'll treat you." Chen Fan bowed his head and ordered quickly.

"Then I'll add another hamburger and a crispy chicken steak." Meng Xin said quickly.

Chen Fan raised his head, looked at him helplessly, and said, "Are you sure you have eaten?"

"Dinner and supper, enough to eat."

"Night snack?"

Meng Xin said: "You can get off work at twelve o'clock today, so let's spend a holiday together?"

"Brother Fan..." Xiaomei walked over.

"Who told you I'm twelve o'clock..." Chen Fan suddenly thought of something, and turned to stare at Xiaomei.

Xiaomei immediately said: "I still have to go to the toilet..." After she finished speaking, she immediately retreated with her head down.

Chen Fan turned to Meng Xin and said, "I don't need you to accompany me..."

"Who is with you? Don't be so sentimental, you are with me..."

"you……"

The young man behind Meng Xin obviously got impatient, he turned his body and looked at Chen Fan suspiciously.

Chen Fan didn't say anything more, took the meal, served it, and when he handed it to Meng Xin, he gritted his teeth and said, "I wish you a pleasant meal..."

Meng Xin raised his eyebrows, with a smile in his eyes, and said in a low voice: "MaryChristmas, seeyoulater..."

Chen Fan looked at Meng Xin's leaving back and shook his head helplessly.

At this moment, the number of people gradually increased.The busy time flew by, and just after eleven o'clock, Xiaomei pulled Meng Xin's tray and said:

"Coach Meng is almost falling asleep, you should go..."

"Can you do it?"

Xiaomei blinked her eyes and said, "Where in the world is there no grass? A spring night is worth a thousand gold!"

Chen Fan glanced at his mouth and said, "It's really cultured."

Xiaomei elbowed Chen Fan and said, "Sisters can only help you so far! Do your best!"

Chen Fan raised the corner of his mouth and shook his head helplessly. He didn't know what to say, and in the end, he just said a half-threatening sentence: "Thank you for your hard work!" Then he walked out of the counter.

Xiaomei shouted excitedly, "You're welcome!"

He changed into a thick down jacket, put on a baseball cap, put on his backpack, and left the locker room.

Meng Xin was sitting in the corner by the window, looking up all the time

Chen Fan walked over, sat down and said, "Are you sleepy?"

Meng Xin turned her face away, shook her head and said, "I usually go to bed late and get up early, six hours of sleep is enough..."

Get up early, go to bed late, and one day can be broken into two days.

Chen Fan stretched, rubbed his neck and said, "What's the plan?"

Meng Xin said: "I haven't thought about it, let's go to the pedestrian street first."

"Do you have something to buy?" Chen Fan asked.

"Isn't Christmas Eve just a shopping festival?" Meng Xin stood up, picked up her bag and scarf and said, "Do you have other arrangements?"

"No……"

Meng Xin said bluntly: "Then don't ask, where am I going, where are you going!"

"Oh……"

Chen Fan followed Meng Xin to the door, and as soon as he opened the door, the cold air of midnight hit his face, and Chen Fan couldn't help shrinking his neck.

Meng Xin turned her head and glanced at him, then raised her hand and took off her scarf and wrapped it around Chen Fan's neck, saying, "Let's go."

Chen Fan glanced at Meng Xin's back, froze for a moment and quickly followed.

The south corner of the square is connected to the pedestrian street. When the two of them turned a corner, they saw bright lights of various colors. The whole street was getting more and more crowded and people were coming and going.

They brushed shoulders with countless men and women as they walked toward Main Street.

The crowd was wrong, Chen Fan suddenly felt a little dazed, and lost his mind unconsciously.

Four years ago, he was also taken along this street to spend Christmas together.

"Chen Fan..."

When Chen Fan heard someone calling him, he was stunned for two seconds before looking up.

"Chen Fan?" Meng Xin came over and grabbed his wrist and said, "There are so many people, be careful. What were you thinking just now?"

"No... nothing..."

Meng Xin said, "Wait here for me, I'll go buy something to eat."

"Oh……"

As soon as Chen Fan looked up, he saw Meng Xin entering a dessert shop. After a while, he came over with two cheese-baked bread slices, handed one to Chen Fan, and said, "Eat it, it's delicious!"

Meng Xin has always liked sweets, cakes, ice cream, and milk tea. The more colorful and finely crafted, the more he likes them.

Chen Fan took it and found it was still steaming when he held it in his hand. He took a bite, and the aroma of cheese instantly filled his mouth, sweet but not greasy.

"Is it tasty?"

Chen Fan nodded and said, "What do you want to buy?"

Meng Xin raised his mouth and said with a smile, "You'll know soon?" After speaking, he continued to walk forward alone.

Chen Fan took two quick steps, caught up with him and asked, "What the hell?"

Meng Xin didn't speak, and glanced at him mysteriously with complacency, and Chen Fan looked at him suspiciously.

Meng Xin turned her head and continued to walk forward.

Chen Fan took two more steps, and finally couldn't bear it anymore and said, "You're so weird today, what exactly do you want to do?"

Meng Xin finally stopped, pointed to the window behind Chen Fan, and said, "Your Christmas present."

Chen Fan turned his head in doubt, and when he turned around, he saw a brown bear with a height of one person, with a red bow tie hanging around its neck, sitting softly on the green lawn.

Chen Fan blinked in surprise, and said, "You want to give me this?"

Meng Xin nodded, smiled and said, "Every time you see the doll's eyes light up, how cute is this..."

Chen Fan pursed his lips and said nothing.

Meng Xin raised his hand and patted Chen Fan's forehead, saying, "What are you doing? Let's go!" After speaking, he took the lead into the shop.

Chen Fa raised his head and stared blankly at the man's back.

He loves dolls, always has.

Even though he understands...

The past "lost" is unforgettable, but I still can't help but continue to like it.

He forgot Luffy in his own trash can, and let Crayon Shin-chan sit in the corner of the sofa in the living room. Those countless memories that were left in the bottom of his heart, how disgusted and wronged he was, were unforgettable in his heart.

man!Everything that is sincerely hated is everything that has been passionately loved.

But at this moment, he suddenly felt that years of paranoia began to shake.Especially now, the warmth thrown by Meng Xin recklessly made tears well up in his eyes.

He wanted to laugh, but also wanted to cry...not all because he was moved...

He glanced at the window, and the price of 2188 yuan was really complicated.

As soon as Chen Fan entered, his eyes widened when he saw Meng Xin swiping his card and paying in a smart way.

He suddenly felt the pleasure of being taken care of, and finally understood where the girls' declaration of fighting came from.

Even if she shed tears while sitting in a BMW, it was Qian Xiangxiang's tears. Thinking about it this way, it's really refreshing.

The waiter's little sister struggled to pull the brown bear out of the window, panting and said, "You two are... really discerning. This is a limited edition for Christmas."

She breathed a sigh of relief and said meaningfully to Chen Fan, "Sir, you are so lucky. If anyone in this world is willing to spend thousands of dollars to buy me a doll, I will immediately..."

Meng Xin raised his head and glanced at the girl, who immediately shut up knowingly.

Chen Fan was in a daze until he took the bear into his hand.

He felt that everything around him seemed unreal, so he muttered, "It's not...that..."

Meng Xin patted him on the shoulder and said, "What are you in a daze for? Are you happy and silly?"

Chen Fan looked at Meng Xin, blinked, and said, "Meng Xin, are you sure you want to buy it? It's really too expensive, or we..."

"The money is paid, what do you think?"

Chen Fan hesitated and said, "Didn't you give me one last time..."

Meng Xin put his hands on Chen Fan's shoulders, smiled and said, "Can it be the same? This is a Christmas gift. Although Santa Claus will not come tonight, but..." He turned his head and looked at Brown Bear, and said, "Luck is always by our side." After he finished speaking, he patted Meng Xin's head.

Chen Fan's eyes were slightly red, and he said, "I... It's the first time I'm accepting a Christmas gift in such a formal way, and it's still such a big one!"

Meng Xin nodded at him and said, "It's worth it." He glanced at Xiong hesitantly, and said, "But we may have to work hard to carry it back tonight, and we can only get a car when we leave the pedestrian street."

"Ok!"

Chen Fan lifted the bear's head, Meng Xin protected the bear's buttocks, and the two went out the door one after the other.

As soon as they stood at the door, the men and women around them automatically slowed down, observing the two strange men and the big bear in their hands.

At this moment, there are more and more people on the road, and midnight is approaching, and everyone is rushing to the main street at the same time. Someone is wearing a Santa Claus hat, with a big horn on his waist, and "Jingle Bells" is playing , handing out candies along the road.

The more Chen Fan and Meng Xin walked forward, the more strenuous they became.

Meng Xin said loudly from behind: "Chen Fan, should you wait a bit, there are too many people right now, it's hard to leave."

Chen Fan didn't seem to hear it, he just walked forward with his head depressed.

Meng Xin stopped, pulled the bear's butt in his hand, and shouted: "Chen Fan! It's time to ring the bell, there are too many people!"

Chen Fan finally stopped, but he didn't turn around, he just shrunk his shoulders and lowered his head.

clang... clang... clang...

The twelve o'clock bell finally rang, and all the people on the street stopped at the same time and looked up to the sky.

bang bang bang...

Christmas fireworks flew up instantly, lighting up the entire sky in colorful colors.

All the people looked at me and I looked at you, with expectant and happy smiles on their faces.

"Woooo..."

Shocking cheers came one after another, strange, familiar, affectionate, warm, and all kinds of people gathered on the street to hug each other intimately and welcome the joy of the festival together.

The road became crowded all of a sudden, Meng Xin quickly brought the bear over and threw him down beside Chen Fan.

Beer and candy were flying in the air, Meng Xin stepped forward to protect Chen Fan, and said, "It's too messy around, be careful, don't get squeezed."

The two of them huddled against the wave of the holiday.

The carnival atmosphere finally receded, and Meng Xin let out a sigh of relief. He looked down at the person in his arms. Under the crumbly bangs, Chen Fan's eyes had already been flooded with tears.

"What's wrong? Why are you crying?"

Chen Fan sniffled and said tremblingly, "Meng...Meng Xin...No one has ever treated me like this, why are you being so nice to me!"

Meng Xin looked at Chen Fan, and unconsciously his eyes were red. He raised his hand to help Chen Fan wipe away his tears, and said, "Fool, what are you talking about? Don't you like this gift?"

Chen Fan shook his shoulders and said, "I like it..." After he finished speaking, a smile instantly appeared on his tear-stained face, and the man continued to shed tears while laughing, and the tears continued to flow more and more.

"Just like it." When Meng Xin spoke, his eyes were filled with tranquil relief. He looked at the big bear in his hand and said. "Let's go?"

"En." Chen Fan nodded vigorously.

Meng Xin said: "I thought of a good way, let's raise this big guy a bit higher..."

The two of them held the bear above their heads one after the other, and countless crowds rushed past them, all looking at them with surprise or envy in their eyes.

Chen Fan had no time to pay attention to the curious eyes around him, his mind went blank, his limbs were stiff but he didn't know it.All over the body, only the eyes seemed to be conscious. Tears kept bursting from the eyes, covering the whole face. The cold wind blowing through at midnight made it astringent and painful.

The air is getting colder and colder. I don't know when it started, and it smells like water vapor.

Pieces of snowflakes drifted through the air, and within a few minutes, they became denser and fell on the heads and shoulders of the two.

Meng Xin looked up and said blankly: "It's snowing." Then, a smile of excitement suddenly appeared on his face, and he said loudly, "Chen Fan! It's snowing! The first snow this year .”

Chen Fan said silently: "It's snowing, it's so good to snow!"

"Chen Fan, Merry Christmas—"

Chen Fan bit his lower lip and said, "Meng Xin, you are so kind!"

The fireworks sounded, covering Chen Fan's voice.

"What did you say?" Meng Xin asked.

Chen Fan said loudly: "Meng Xin, Merry Christmas!"

And... thank you...

The numb arms, the coldness in the air, and the crowd at midnight all lost their meaning at this moment.

In the vast sea of ​​people, as long as you meet, no matter right or wrong, you are always worthy of a "thank you".

Thank fate for allowing you and me to be lucky enough to leave a mark in each other's lives.

Those memories of crying, laughing, warm, or cold will one day become the glimmer of light in your life, rekindle the fire in your heart, and make you willing to live proudly for the splendor of life all your life...