Those who are close to you are sweet

Bai Leyan's condition was really bad.In such a short day, he was haggard for more than one degree.

He was lying on the table, his face was pale, without a trace of blood, he looked like a vampire who had just crawled out of a coffin in the Middle Ages.He had no appetite, couldn't eat anything, and Leng You couldn't force food into his throat,

Leng You even thought: If Bai Tiantian needs blood, then he is willing to stretch his neck and expose his throat for him to bite.

Unfortunately not.

What Bai Leyan needed was not something as simple and superficial as blood.

Leng You held Bai Leyan's hand at the side, that hand was icy cold and could not be warmed up.

"You'er?" Bai Leyan rested his head on his arm and turned to look at Leng You.

Leng You has been thinking about how to help Bai Leyan, how to make Bai Leyan not feel so uncomfortable. At this time, when he heard Bai Leyan's voice, although it was hoarse and dry, he had spoken anyway. Shi Shi's eyes widened with excitement: "Hey! I am here!"

When Bai Leyan heard Leng You's panicked voice, he suddenly laughed.

The kind who laughed so hard that they couldn't lift their heads "hahahaha".

Leng You was like a fawn who was startled by the sound of dead branches falling to the ground. Looking at Bai Leyan's eyes blinking and blinking, he slowly approached, as if he wanted to see the "hahahaha" Hidden emotions.

Isn't this...stupid?

"You're so funny, you're so cute!" Bai Leyan buried his head in his arms and couldn't stop laughing.

"Hi sweet, goodbye sweet."

"Don't." Bai Leyan picked up Leng You's hand and squeezed it, "See you again?"

Leng You "hummed", turned his face away not to look at Bai Leyan, but did not withdraw his hand, and quietly put it in Bai Leyan's palm, allowing him to pinch it back and forth.

"Just now you were like a cat whose tail was trampled on, and a deer in danger!" Bai Leyan rubbed Leng You's palm, "You just don't have a cat's pad."

"Hmph!" Leng You said disdainfully, "You are the one who stepped on my tail, you are dangerous, and you still dislike me for having no meat pads!"

"Hahahaha, why are you so cute!" Bai Leyan held Leng You's hand to cover his eyes.

"Hmph!" Although Leng You looked awkward, he was still very happy in his heart - as long as he could make Bai Leyan smile, he would be happy to pretend to be a wolf with a big tail, let alone being arrogant.

Bai Leyan said, "Will you go outside with me?"

"Okay, okay!" Leng You, who had turned his head "angry" just now, turned his head back in an instant.

"Don't worry!" Bai Leyan looked at Leng You who jumped up and was about to rush out the door, and grabbed him back, "Put the scarf on."

How can this person really be so good!

Even though he was on the verge of collapse, he still gave Leng You a trace of his spirit.

Leng You took the scarf, which was soft, but wrapped it around Bai Leyan's neck.

"Huh?" Bai Leyan didn't understand.

Leng You smiled and pecked the corner of Bai Leyan's mouth: "I want to take care of you."

Bai Leyan's body froze, and he covered his face with his hands in embarrassment: "I have to take care of you."

"This is your fault." Leng You abruptly tore off Bai Leyan's hand covering his face, and solemnly corrected Bai Leyan's wrong thoughts, "Why should you only take care of me, of course I I can take care of you too, and I can take care of you very well!"

"Okay, okay!" Bai Leyan looked at Leng You who was so serious and taught others, "Wai Wai Wai!"

Leng You wrapped the scarf around Bai Leyan's neck - I'm really embarrassed, not only a bit ugly, but also...

"Do you feel that your neck... er... is a bit constricted?" Leng You blinked his eyes and tilted his head with an innocent expression.

Bai Leyan nodded seriously: "It's not just a little tight, it's very tight."

Leng You smiled, and untied the circles of scarves embarrassingly: "It's the first time to take care of someone, and I'm not skilled at it. Please take care of my family, Bai Tiantian."

"Aren't you sure?" Bai Leyan smiled, with a super gentle smile, "Thank you...for taking care of me."

thank you for loving me.

Thank you for loving me like this.

Thank you for loving me who is homeless like this.

……

During the winter vacation, the campus was quiet and quiet, and the playground was even more empty, and the trajectory of the wind could be seen at a glance.

"You'er, I want to talk for a while, I really want to talk..." Bai Leyan and Leng You circled the track of the playground, round and round.

"Speak." Leng You reached out his hand and waved Bai Leyan's mouth, "Okay, the seal is lifted, we can talk!"

Bai Leyan walked in front of Leng You, turned around to look at Leng You, and walked backwards with his back to the front: "Did you ever play such a game when you were young, that is, in autumn, the leaves will fall from the branches On the ground, pick them up, tear off the leaves except for the middle stem, and you can use it as a weapon to compete."

Bai Leyan looked over Leng You, and looked behind Leng You. When walking backwards, the scenery in his eyes was different from usual.He looked at the white line of the stretching runway, at the white clouds in the blue sky that were blown by the wind, "I want to be a cloud."

"Don't, if you become a cloud, where can I find you?" Leng You grabbed Bai Leyan's hand, and the two of them walked hand in hand, one front and one back, one front and the other reverse, "When the time comes The sky was full of debauchery, and I was crying on the ground."

"It sounds a bit miserable..." Bai Leyan commented.

"Yes——" Leng Youzheng'er persuaded, "If you become a cloud, I will be miserable, so you won't let me be so miserable, right?"

"Hmm..." Bai Leyan was persuaded by Leng You, "I won't be a cloud anymore."

"Good!" Leng You praised, and continued the previous topic, "How to make weapons with the stems of leaves? I have never played..."

Bai Leyan explained to the Lengyou kid who had never played this kind of game before, "It's just two people, each holding the leaves and stems, putting them together, and pulling them on both sides to see whose leaves and stems break first."

"..." Leng You shook his head, "I don't really understand..."

Also.

After Bai Leyan finished speaking, he felt that it would be incredible if Leng You could understand it like this.

Bai Leyan took out his phone and clicked on "Notes". One of the functions was to draw pictures.

Leng You drew two lines: "Suppose these are two leaf stems."

"Ok!"

"Then overlap them like this." Bai Leyan didn't bother to draw a cross, "The horizontal leaf stem is held by a person's two hands, and the vertical leaf stem is also, In this way, is it set up?"

"Correct!"

"Then pull them sideways and see who breaks first."

"Hmm..." Leng You probably understood, "Whose leaves and stems are stronger and tougher?"

"Yes." Bai Leyan sighed, "Did you know? Others will be super happy if their leaves and stems are not broken. After all, I won... and I will only breathe a sigh of relief when I see others win."

"..."

"I don't like games like this, but I have to play them in order to fit in with the group." Bai Leyan said, "I don't want the people who adopt me to think that I'm useless and that I don't get along well with children of the same age."

"At that time, I just came out of the orphanage, and my adoptive parents sent me to the third grade of elementary school. The life outside was very different from that in the courtyard. Everyone was laughing and making noise every day, and even studied how to avoid being picked up at the school gate. The parents who went home laughed when they saw that the parents couldn't find them."

These behaviors, in the eyes of the little Bai Leyan, are simply unreasonable.

But while feeling unreasonable, the little Bai Leyan felt great envy.

I really envy them for having such courage and capital.

He didn't dare, even in class every day, he was worried about whether his adoptive parents would reject him and send him back to the orphanage.

"Ah, it's getting too far..." Bai Leyan lowered his head, "Let's talk about the game."

"At that time, I knew what kind of person I am." Bai Leyan said, "When someone wins me and laughs happily, I will relax. When someone loses, I will be very nervous. I was worried that others would not want to play with me anymore and would exclude me. I was originally a transfer student. In the days before, no matter if you were a boy or a girl, you had your own circle of friends, and it was really difficult to integrate.”

"But it's easy to blend in." Bai Leyan smiled, "As long as you follow their wishes all the time."

"You can let them do whatever they want. You can play a clown to make them laugh, you can play a game and deliberately lose to make them happy. In short, it's like this..."

"I'm just a hypocrite."

"It's been a long time, and I don't know what I should look like, what my emotions should look like."

"I only think about other people's thoughts, and I only think about what kind of expression I make to make them satisfied."

"However, it's not selfishness, it's selfishness, huge selfishness, because of me, it's just because doing so will meet my expectations, if I lose in games, I'll get friends, if I follow others' wishes, I'll be accepted, obediently Qiaoqiao will be praised by her adoptive parents..."

"Even now..." Bai Leyan raised his head and looked at Leng You, his eyes were filled with mist and frozen in the cold winter wind, "If I tell you these things and start crying, I won't I know if it's because of my true feelings, or because I want to get your sympathy, so that you feel pity for me, and then you can't bear to leave such a miserable me..."

"I'm good or bad, I'm good or bad..." The mist in Bai Leyan's eyes turned into a water curtain, "They will say that I am a good person, that I am good at caring for others, and that I am so gentle, kind, and helpful." Le, but these, these are the appearances I pretended on purpose."

"The real me, will anyone like me? Will someone like me unconditionally?"

"My biological parents, will they like me? No way... After all, they have already abandoned me once, let alone like me unconditionally, but they came to me, came to me, yes Doesn't it mean that they finally want me?"

"What kind of me do they want, and what kind of appearance should I make to please them?"

"I'm so tired...I don't want to pretend to be something other people would like..."

"I want to be myself, but what is my original appearance? I don't know..."

Leng You was in the cold wind, tightly hugging Bai Tiantian who was crying with tears all over her face, she was really exhausted.Hot tears fell from the sockets of the eyes and then became cold...

"I love you, I love you no matter what you look like..." Leng You touched Bai Leyan's trembling back, "You can cry, you can get angry, you can lose your temper, these are not bad things, they are all normal vent your emotions, don't keep them in your heart, you cry, you get angry, you lose your temper, I won't leave you, you are already great, my Bai Tiantian, you have worked hard enough, a little Take a break..."

Bai Leyan, who was curled up under Leng You's embrace, cried uncontrollably.He was like a trapped animal, crying out bursts of cries that echoed deep in his heart.