【Jiguo Brothers Rihei】Asagiri

The child knows that he was born without anyone's love and expectations, that half of his blood comes from the person he should call "father" did not want him to be born.But he was born so fast and suddenly that his "father" didn't realize what was going on.Afterwards, "father" didn't expect him to live either, but he heard that unfortunately there was a thick fog at dawn on the day he was born, and the sun failed to wipe him out.

...Although there is no way for him to be wiped out even if there is no fog and sunshine.

The child was born with ghost fangs, a human reddish-brown eye, and a ghost eye with obviously abnormal irises and pupils. The little monster that is half human and not ghost cannot use the mimicry that ghosts are good at, so His "father" took some gauze and wrapped his eye tightly, pretending to be born with a disability and missing an eye.

The child's "father" is a ghost, with six eyes the same as his left eye on his face. Occasionally, he will be seen as a human being and lead him through human towns. The human face is a face that will make women turn their heads frequently. faces of young people.

"Father" told him so, he has the blood of human beings and ghosts flowing on his body, and he was born in violation of ethics and common sense without the same kind of life.There is no intention to belittle or condemn, his "father" is just stating a fact to him in a very ordinary way.

After all, no human has such weird eyes and unnecessary fangs, and no ghost can eat human food and spend time in the sun with nothing but itching and burning skin feel.

His "father" used to be human too, but now he is a ghost, so the ghost part comes from "father", what about the human part?His "father" expression was very subtle, and then he said this to him.

— from the sun.

They are always traveling, and they will leave after staying in one place for a long time. The child vaguely remembers that he was grabbed or carried by his "father" when he was not very good at walking. After the jump, he lost this treatment. His "father" would rather wait for him to rest and continue walking when he was tired than to carry him away.

His "father" didn't want him to approach and touch him, it must be because he hates it.

He can understand and agree, so no matter how slow he walks every time, he is only two steps behind "father", which is the shortest distance he thinks he can maintain with "father".

Where to go, where to go will stop, the child does not know, his "father" does not know, "father" is used to traveling, but his world is not big enough to hold the world during the journey, so he With the only exposed right eye, he stared at the "father" walking ahead, followed the footsteps of "father", and the room he stayed in was his world.

...But his "father" didn't want to do this either, it must be because he hates it.

The child is sure of one thing, that is, "father" does not like him, after all, his birth and growth are not expected.

It's okay, he's not upset, he accepts the fact and understands it.

After all, he was a monster—this was his own conclusion.

It doesn't matter, the monster doesn't matter, after all, he was born with such an identity, if he has a complaint in his heart, it means that he is complaining about the "father" who gave birth to him, the blood of the "father", and the blood of the other half .

He didn't want to do this, so even if he forced himself, he had to force himself not to resent or complain about anything. It wasn't that difficult to understand and accept. He had never encountered any excessive or harsh treatment. Although life was not easy, it shouldn't be called that. It's painful, so it can't be considered unfortunate.

The most important thing is that even if "father" doesn't like him, he still cherishes the time spent with "father".

... If there is anything that makes him feel disappointed, it is probably that his "father" does not allow him to call himself "father".

It doesn't matter... It's just a little thing, it can be tolerated, it can be tolerated, it can be understood, it can be accepted.

...Although somewhat lonely.

But as long as the "father" is still there, it is far from being lonely.

They will not move during the day, because ghosts cannot bathe in the sun, and they will spend the day in places where the sun cannot reach, sometimes in deserted houses, ancient temples, shade trees and caves in the mountains. They try to avoid living in people's places for a long time, but occasionally they have to live in small town houses.

The child can move in the sun, but it is not completely fine. After a little longer, the skin will itch and hurt. If it is in the sun at noon, the skin will sometimes fester and bleed, which is very troublesome and will stain the "father" clothes given.So he wouldn't go under the sun if there was nothing to do, but stayed in the dark and slept like "father".

When staying in the accommodation, he would occasionally hear the voices of other human children outside. At this time, he would wake up, make sure that the sunlight outside would not shine on "father", and then carefully opened the paper window, through a narrow slit Take a sneak peek at the outside world.

Jumping grid, flipping rope, double six and kite, everything is fun in the world of human children, and rolling a mud ball can also compete with who can make it rounder and brighter.

"Go if you want."

His small actions are generally not hidden from "father", the ghost who leaned against the wall and closed his eyes to recover his strength told him so, because he lived in a residential house, it is rare to see "father" mimicking at this time, although it is very difficult for children It doesn't matter what kind of appearance it is, whether it has six eyes or two eyes, it is "father".

"..." The child closed the window silently and sat back in his original seat, with no intention of going out to join.

"When you're hungry, go find something to eat yourself."

"..." The child nodded, but still didn't make a sound.

"Reply." "Father" opened his eyes and stared at him.

"... I see." The child could only speak, proving that he was not dumb.

His "father" is a man who doesn't talk very much. It shouldn't be because he hates talking to him, but it has been like this since before.The child didn't talk much. I heard that he didn't cry when he was born, and his desire to survive was extremely low. When he reached the age where he could talk, he didn't speak or make a sound. Everyone who saw him thought that the child was not only missing one eye, but also dumb. They were very pitiful. he.

The child doesn't mind being thought dumb, although he just doesn't want to talk and doesn't know what to say.

But his "father" minded, that person seemed to know that he could speak from the very beginning, and when he saw him trying to pretend to be dumb, the "father" always looked at him with disgust and nostalgia that the child could not understand, in short That person didn't want him to keep his mouth shut and say nothing, so he always forced him to speak.

Yes, the first time a child spoke in his life, the first sentence he said was forced out by his "father".

At that time, the child was in a hurry, and under the face that always showed no expression, he was in a panic. He felt that he should respond to the request of "father". That should be the answer.But on the one hand, he doesn't know what to say, what can he say, what can he say so that he won't be hated.

He didn't have anything in particular to express, he thought his "father" wouldn't want to listen to him, but the child didn't know that his expressionless and silent appearance would make his "father" crazily recall his childhood I am afraid that this little guy will say "I want to be the second strongest warrior in this country" as soon as he opens his mouth.

The child was in a panic. His not-so-intelligent mind was trembling as he thought about what he should say. He felt that no matter what he said, he would be hated even more.

In the end, my brain finally overheated, and I said the only sentence that I wanted to say but I said it clearly, and I would definitely be disgusted.

"--Father."

"…………"

"…………"

The moment the child blurted out, he regretted it very, very much, thinking that it was over.

He knew that this was something that should never be said, and he was prepared to hide it in his heart and only shout it secretly in his heart, but maybe he was really a fool and said it as soon as his head got hot.

"Don't call me that."

Then the first sentence of his life was answered in this way, no surprise at all.

When "Father" said this to him, his voice was suppressed, and there were many things in his eyes that young children could not understand. It may be different from the disgust he thought. It was an emotion he had never experienced, so he couldn't understand it. .Maybe when he grows up, he will understand.

Oh no, he won't be able to stay with "father" when he grows up.

"……sorry."

At the thought of this, the child's heart died a little more, along with his eyes.

The young child regained consciousness from memories that were not so long ago. The windows had been closed, and the sounds of human children playing outside gradually faded away. He had no chance to play with Shuang Liu or kites, and had no chance to play with children of the same age.

The time has not yet reached noon, the day is still very long, and there is still some time before I am hungry.The child lay back wrapped in "father"'s haori, tightly wrapped from head to toe like a small cocoon. This is the special treatment he occasionally gets. At this time, he will be very satisfied. The taste of "father" is close to He will easily fall asleep in close proximity, and then comfort himself in his heart.

It would be a lie to say that he is not envious at all, but what this child is best at is to comfort himself and tell himself that it doesn't matter.

When I woke up, I found that it was almost dusk, and the child accidentally slept through the lunch time. The "father" on the other side of the room still had his eyes closed, although he should have woken up.

The child got up half asleep and half awake, and thought for a second that he should go find something to eat. He was probably very hungry, but he still had no appetite, but at night it was time to go on the road. Although they didn’t know where the destination was, they were always there. Traveling, he still needs to eat in order not to be too hungry to walk.

The evening sun was not as glaring as before and easily burned his skin. The child vaguely remembered that there was a shop next to the hotel where he was staying that sold soba noodles. If he was just eating, he should eat that.

He wanted to go out wrapped in "father"'s haori, but he was too young, and the black and purple haori of "father" would be dragged to the ground, so he had to take off the haori and fold it neatly, and put it beside "father" .He tidied up the black hair that was curled up all over the place because he slept wrapped in feathers. It was very similar to his "father", the black hair would curl up no matter how he was groomed or even tied up. It will be a little bit more rolled.

"Father" has taught him etiquette, taught him to straighten out his appearance, even if he wants to pretend to be dumb in front of others, he must pretend to be a polite dumb. There is a trick to pretending to be a polite dumb, that is, you must write It looks better, so he learned beautiful calligraphy from his "father".

The soba noodles in the store next to the hotel smelled very good, and there were not too many people there, and the smell could arouse his appetite a little.But after the food enters the mouth, the poor little appetite will be wiped out immediately, and the aroma in the nasal cavity and the tasteless food in the mouth form a huge gap.

The child has no sense of taste, and his tongue cannot taste.This may be some kind of equivalent exchange. With half of the blood of ghosts on his body, he can be full without eating people. The price is that he cannot taste the ups and downs in human food. Eating is really just for him to fill up. Belly, there is no pleasure and contentment.

But compared to other troubles, this is almost negligible. His "father" has never eaten since he was with him, or he has never indulged his instinct to hunt humans once he became a ghost. Rely on not long or short sleep to restore physical strength.So he thought he must have had a better life than his "father".

Moreover, he always remembered the bowl of udon noodles that "father" bought him when he took him to town for the first time in the past. Although he couldn't taste it, it was one of the few "fathers" who would sit very far away Even if you eat at a nearby location, even if you are the only one eating, "Father" just looks at him, and he is very satisfied.

——That bowl of udon noodles must be delicious, and I want to eat it again.

Mechanically stuffed all the food in the bowl into the stomach, the hunger warning in the stomach has been lifted, and paid the bill with the money given by "father". He seemed to stuff two golden flat candies in his hand, and he felt very sorry for the people who had good intentions for him. Even though he has good eyes and can speak, he always deceives people.

After collecting Jin Pingtang and leaving the store, he looked up and saw that the sky was completely dark. The night that belonged to him and the ghost had arrived. In the direction of the hotel, "Father" was already standing at the door, probably waiting for him.

"gone."

Seeing him coming, "Father" turned around and prepared to set off. All he needed to bring on a journey without a destination was the simplest salute and "Father"'s sun wheel knife. As always, he followed "Father" silently at a distance of two feet. The distance of walking is the closest distance to "father", and you can see the tall back when you look up.

"Reply."

"……I am here."

His "father" didn't want him to go all the way on the road of being silent and autistic. Obviously "father" himself didn't like talking, but he always forced him to say something, or just hum.

His "father" didn't want him to call himself "father", although the child secretly called "father" over and over again in his heart.

The child wants to be with the "father" all the time, but that seems to be something that is not allowed. When he grows up, he will leave the "father", and that is the end of his journey with the "father".

"Father" did not give him a name, nor did he have a surname, or maybe there was a name in his heart that called him, but he never told him.

"Father" said that when he grows up, he will give himself a name, and the last name is the same.

But the child wants the name "father" takes, and the same last name as "father".

But he didn't even know the first and last name of his "father".