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The north wind was biting, sharp as a knife.

The cold spring is expected to be cold, and it is the most difficult to stop when it is warm and cold.

The cold wind from Siberia seems to blow the icy air into the bones of people.

Spring in Beijing has never been so cold.

The thin drizzle slowly fell from the sky, and the hair of the two of them was soon stained with moisture.

The young man is thin and half-sitting on the edge of the 500-meter-high rooftop, as if a gust of wind could blow him off.

He even has a slight fear of heights. Usually, he would act like a baby with him on the next slope with a higher arc, and only dare to go down if he holds hands.

But today, he doesn't seem to be afraid at all, and there is no need to be afraid.

If a person even has the courage to die, what else is there to be afraid of?

Lin Junchuo wished he could pull the boy back immediately, drag him directly to Qingpingyuan for a beating, and teach him not to make fun of life and death, because no matter how serious it is, life and death are inevitable. There are many people in this world who are more miserable than him.

But he knew it in his heart.

No one can empathize.

What's more, Dong Jianing died in front of Lin Muting, but the whole world can't give Dong Jianing a justice, an explanation.

That's not someone else.

That was the mother who gave birth to Lin Muting, taught him to speak, helped him walk, sang to him, held parent-teacher meetings for him, bought clothes, taught Lin Muting to count and write from breastfeeding to complementary food to rice, and taught him to count and write for 17 years.

What does mother mean?

You'll only know what that means when the woman is your own mother.

For many people, they are willing to exchange their own lives for the life of their mothers who are already old.

This is not worth it, nor is it the category of economics, but the instinct of human beings, the conscience of human beings.

There are so many things in the world that cannot be measured by success or failure.

Lin Muting stands here, there are too many people who are sorry, and there are too many people who are sorry.

The world treats me with eternal suffering, and I may not be able to accept it with a smile.

Lin Junchuo was silent for a long time before he could speak, "Do you still remember that we watched Sanmao together a few days ago, there was a saying, if you even have the courage to die, why are you still afraid to live?"

"Because it's harder to live than to die, sir."

Lin Muting seemed to smile, like a butterfly constantly being hit by raindrops on its wings in the rain, so fragile that it would fall to the ground every minute, "If I don't die, what will they use to send it to Moments and Weibo?" What about showing off? They broadcast me jumping off the building live on the live broadcast platform, and they have never photographed how people died? This is such a rare thing, it is enough for them to brag about it for a lifetime! They are waiting for me to jump off the building and watch this scene. Waited for two full hours!"

Lin Muting's face was stinging from the blowing, tears fell on his skin, and he could feel being dried bit by bit, and then wet again by the drizzle.

For a long time, I can't tell the difference between tears and rain.

Lightning started from the end of the sky, drawing hideous scars on the entire gloomy sky. The blue and purple light made the whole world seem like a hell on earth.

Lin Muting is not stupid.

From the moment he set foot on this rooftop, he knew very well that he had no way out.

He exposed what his father had done in front of the whole world. Although Lin Mingcheng was indeed shameless and corrupt, as a son, he was definitely not without fault.

He is sorry for his father.

In fact, he came here to feel sorry for those grandparents, uncles and aunts who treated him so well.

In 17 years, they raised a white-eyed wolf.

Most importantly, he was about to commit suicide, but he survived in the end. What was waiting for him?

Acceptance from society, tolerance from school, understanding from family, tolerance from friends, understanding from strangers?

Can anyone believe it?

I can't even dream of doing this!

He was about to jump just now, and passers-by said why he didn't jump, they were still waiting to post on Moments, they still applauded, and they said he was grandstanding!

If he survived, if he didn't die, wouldn't he be sorry for these people?

The success rate of the first suicide in the world is less than 70%, but the success rate of most second suicides is over 90%.

why?

Because they committed suicide, even though they failed, the world no longer accepts them.

Some people even say: "Don't you want to die? Why don't you die?"

What's more, Lin Muting still adopts the method of live broadcasting on the whole network.

He can imagine that if he leaves here alive, how netizens will say that he is hyped, wants to be popular, and commits suicide as the No. 1 internet celebrity.

His father and grandparents would never accept him innocently.

Even if he survived, what's the point?

"Sir, I'm only 17 years old and have no power. My mother has said countless times that I am a useless person who accomplishes nothing."

Lin Muting's expression was extremely calm, and every word he uttered was thought over for a long time, "What I have been looking forward to is to be able to look at you secretly, and to be able to say a word to you occasionally, it is enough for me to think about it for a lifetime.

"The days with you are happier than the most beautiful dream I have ever had.

"Huang Liang has a dream, and he will wake up eventually. If you don't like me anymore, if you like someone else, if you're going to get married and have children... what do you want me to do?

"Sir, mom is gone, dad can't want me anymore...I have nothing...you go back and leave me alone..."

Although he was able to re-enter the liberal arts experimental class by virtue of his own efforts, and was able to enter the top three in the class, this did not change the difference between him and Lin Junchuo in the slightest.

Right.

If the family is not in the right place, it not only means that the social status of the two people is different, but also means that the choice and leeway of the two people in this emotional marriage will be different in the future.

A person with a net worth of over [-] million and a person who is poor and white, can they be equal?

He and Lin Junchuo's life experiences are too similar. If similar encounters lead to an unhappy future and an irretrievable ending of hurting each other, it is very likely that they will really tell Lin Junchuo's father that they will die together in the end. .

So why bother?

The future is too long, and no one knows what the future looks like.

Waiting for leisure to change but the old people's mind, but the old people's mind is easy to change.

If Lin Junchuo changed his mind, what would he do?

He is not dead, how can he continue to get along with his father, grandpa, and grandma?

Can he go back to No. [-] Middle School to study?

The Internet can forget what happened in just a week, but his relatives, friends, and classmates will not.

He could think of how the classmates next to him would look at him carefully and look at him with special eyes if he went back to school.

Maybe someone will say to him, "I don't dare to talk to you. If you commit suicide one day and say that I did it, what can I do?"

If his grandparents, aunts and uncles, or even his father had a fit one day and scolded him, "Why didn't you die then?"

How is he going to answer?

After his mother's death, his grandparents, grandparents, and grandparents almost tore all their faces, and they couldn't wait to compare who was more stinky, rotten, shameless, and despicable.

Not only did he despise any of them, but he felt that they were dirty and dirty all the time.

His grandparents have seen with their own eyes how his mother has lived for more than 20 years, how to please his father, how to treat his father like an emperor, and how to please everyone in the in-law's family, and his father not only dismisses it, but also does it every day. fuck his mother.

His father even said that he didn't touch his mother because she had stretch marks on her body and sometimes leaked urine because her skin was wrinkled after giving birth to him.

If it was any wife who was accused by her husband like this, let alone believe it, she would definitely fight with her husband.

But his silly mother just endured it like this.

And his grandparents even said that his mother didn't know how to take care of herself and how to dress up, that's why her husband would rather have a man than a woman.

If he counts on his grandparents, uncles and aunts to help his mother, wouldn't it be a dream come true!