【Kaiyuan】Shewu Blurred

[Speak out or keep it secret, that is a question. 】

When I looked up, I could only see the window and the dark curtains that were vague.

It is obviously not a high floor, but it looks too far away to be scary.

Sometimes distance is really not measured by distance, because it is not only a long way to go, but also countless mountains in front of you.

As in life, so are feelings.

When they come to them, life seems to be exciting but full of ups and downs, their relationship pretends to be blank but they have a special liking, and they don't know whether it is luck or misfortune.

When I came here, I took Wang Junkai's car. At this time, Wang Yuan wandered around the community for a long time, and he didn't dare to run around or take a taxi casually. Finally, he sent a message to Han Weiru.

"Why didn't you call Xiaotong to pick him up?" Han Weiru didn't know where he came from. It was a miracle to show up in Beijing in twenty minutes.

"Sister Wei Ru's car is more comfortable," Wang Yuan said to her with a smile, "Why don't you give me another car?"

Han Weiru was a little helpless, but accidentally caught a trace of loneliness on his face, and did not avoid asking directly: "This is where Wang Junkai lives, right? Didn't you say that you have no schedule this afternoon and tomorrow morning? Why did you just leave? He Is something wrong?"

"His mother is here." Wang Yuan didn't hide it from her, he lowered his head while speaking, and unconsciously unlocked and locked the phone with his fingers.

Han Weiru froze for a moment, she rarely saw Wang Yuan showing such an expression - lost, uneasy, bewildered, and even a little bit wronged, like a child who did something wrong.

Such an expression on the face of a person who is full of confidence and knows how to hide his emotions, I have to say that it is a bit surprising.

But she also knew why this expression was - Wang Yuan hadn't seen Wang Junkai for more than a month, and he didn't know when he would meet after today. The scene of the two meeting was rehearsed in her mind over and over again, but at this time, not only did it fail, but the appearance of the parents raised an unsolvable problem, and even she felt a little pitiful.

"So you ran away?" Han Weiru felt sorry for the child, but he didn't spare him. "Why were you so confident with me before? You can't do it when you see the parents?"

Wang Yuan kept her head depressed and said nothing, so she said again: "Have you never considered this issue before?"

"No..." Wang Yuan shook his head, but he didn't know how to express his entanglement.

He who was at the door of Wang Junkai's house just now was so flustered that he didn't look like him.

He didn't know why he reacted that way.

Kai's mother is as familiar to him as his family. It has not been a day or two since he and Wang Junkai have been so close. Going to Wang Junkai's apartment is a very normal thing.

But at that moment, there was still a slightly emotional look on the faces of the two people, and their fingers were intertwined in an overly ambiguous way. Even though Kay's mother's eyes fell on them without probing or doubting, he still felt like He was stripped naked and thrown on the street, and all the secrets were exposed in broad daylight.

So even though he felt that Wang Junkai froze obviously at the moment when he withdrew his hand, he still pretended to say "Hello, Auntie" calmly, and then said abruptly: "I have other things, I'll go back today first."

Confusion and surprise flashed across Kay's mother's face: "Why are you leaving in such a hurry? Auntie's meal is almost ready, let's eat together!"

"No, no, no, I'm just sending Xiaokai back. I really have something to do. Let's do it another day," he said with a smile on his face, but he twisted his clothes behind his back. "Auntie finally came to have a good reunion with Xiaokai Let's get together."

As he said that, he turned his head and smiled at Wang Junkai, then turned and left very quickly.

Really run away.

Wang Yuan knew that his performance was terrible, but he had never felt that kind of cowardice before.In the past, getting along with Wang Junkai unscrupulously in front of parents and everyone seems to have become a long and distant memory. The influence of everything around is subtle, whether it is the distance or the eyes of others, when everything emphasizes that they should not get too close , he might really not be able to be that unmoved saint.

What's more, they really have a guilty conscience.

"Sister Wei Ru... Do you know that feeling..." Wang Yuan thought for a long time, and finally said, "That feeling of not being able to find a way out?"

Han Weiru looked at him, nodded, but didn't say anything in detail, she knew that what Wang Yuan needed now was not her to share some unpleasant memories.

"Because I couldn't think of any good way to solve the problem or avoid it, I just buried my head like an ostrich and avoided the problem." Wang Yuan lowered his head and said, "You don't even know how cowardly I was just now...the problem I've been avoiding all of a sudden suddenly Appearing in front of my eyes, I ran away subconsciously, really, just like instinct."

Han Weiru showed a thoughtful expression: "If I remember correctly, you two have been together for a long time, right? It should have happened before you signed the contract. Didn't you hide it from your family at that time? Why can't it work now?"

"I don't know...Actually, we haven't been together for long before, I don't know if we haven't had time to think about these issues...Anyway, I really can't do it now if I hide it as if nothing happened. I feel that this is a kind of deception... ..." Wang Yuan is rarely troubled by words that don't express his meaning - he and Wang Junkai have established a relationship, and they have done everything that should be done and should not be done. If they still pretend to be good brothers and friends in front of their loved ones, it will be tragic It's not just lies, but also their future with no way out.

Han Weiru looked at his rather heavy expression, took a long time to look away, and said slowly: "Wang Yuan, you are serious."

"What?" The words came so suddenly that he was a little confused.

"Maybe it's because you're mature, I'm not sure," Han Weiru smiled and restarted the car, "Although I'm against it, I still have to tell you the truth. You used to be young, maybe it was just a youthful hormone or something. , It’s enough for two people to be together, and there are some things for the family to get by... Why is it different now? Because you are serious, you have started to plan for the future of the two of you, so there is no way to ignore these problems. "

Han Weiru said, with a hint of sigh in his eyes: "You are serious about this relationship, so you don't want to use an evasive attitude to perfuse it, at least you don't want to perfuse your relatives and people you care about."

This kind of thinking was accurately described by others, and Wang Yuan felt more and more difficult and painful. He didn't know what to say, but Han Weiru said again: "Do you know why you chose to run away?"

"Because you can't judge at all, which is more difficult to tell or hide."

The back of the child running away was too panicky, which made Kai's mother a little confused for a while, but the next moment her son's preoccupied and slightly embarrassed expression fell into her eyes, and the woman's sixth sense and the tacit understanding as a mother suddenly spread a little wantonly up.

Is it a bit strange for two children to go home hand in hand when they are so old?Why do you want to let go when you see her?

The child is holding a shopping bag in his hand, and it is vaguely visible that there are some ingredients or something. He bought the food together and gave one back, but he didn't stay for dinner?

Or did he not stay because he met her?

I just saw two toothbrushes stuck in the mouthwash cup in the bathroom, and I couldn't help but guess for a long time whether the little brat secretly fell in love before he turned 25, but it's a bit unreasonable to only have toothbrushes and no skin care products.

Now seeing the situation of two people again, and the doubts that I had not had before, all of them came to my mind and became a tool to pierce the window paper.

"Xiao Kai..." Mother Kai watched her son enter the door and put down the things in his hands, with a nonchalant expression, but her body involuntarily leaned towards the door—for a person who is not very good at express expression management, his body language is even more obvious—let her Can't help but want to test, "Xiao Yuan doesn't look very happy, did he quarrel?"

"No, how can it be..." Wang Junkai raised the smile on his face, trying to change the subject, "It smells so delicious, spicy chicken?"

"Then why did you run away as soon as you saw me?" It's a pity that Kai's mother was not fooled by him.

Wang Junkai said in his heart that he was not frightened, but he was quite calm on the surface: "How could it be... He really has something to do, let's get together next time, there will be opportunities in the future."

"Didn't you guys quarrel all the time last year, and when you reconciled during the Chinese New Year, you will often see each other?"

"No, I'm so busy that I don't have that time..." Wang Junkai walked into the kitchen to distract his mother, "There's so little chili... But forget it, I have to record in two days, mom What do you think of my new song?"

Kai's mother stir-fried the spicy chicken in the pot, and said casually: "I think Xiaoyuan is thinner than during the Chinese New Year. Is it because he is too busy with work?"

"Really?! I also think he's lost weight again! He still insists on telling me that he's fat. He doesn't have any flesh on his body. He keeps saying that he eats well, but he doesn't know if it's true or not. He probably eats all of that." Snacks. Their company is also disgusting, the schedule is so full, and every time they call after work, it will be in the middle of the night or early in the morning. I thought I would do something good today...that..."

Halfway through the conversation, Wang Junkai realized that he was too excited and said what he shouldn't have said because of this ten-thousand-year-old topic. He had no choice but to brake too late, and he was powerless to get back together. There was only one thought in my mind besides a thud——

Older gingers are more spicy.

"Xiao Kai, tell mom honestly, what's going on with you and Xiao Yuan?" The guessing in her heart pointed to a certain answer, but Kai's mother still couldn't ask the word "association".

Wang Junkai put down the chopsticks in his hand, turned around to face his mother for a moment, and suddenly understood the reason why Wang Yuan ran away just now——

speak out?Or hide it?

There seemed to be only these two options in front of him, but they both seemed wrong.

Are you going to lie?Leaving aside the calculation of the possibility of deception, is he really going to lie?

How much of Wang Yuan's panic and bewilderment was caused by him?If he had told his mother earlier, at least hinted at it, so that the family could be psychologically prepared and Wang Yuan could feel at ease, the situation just now wouldn't be so bad, right?

The most important thing is that few people know about this feeling, and most of them are against it. Will he even deny it now?

Are you going to lie?

If Wang Yuan asked other about today's situation later, and asked if his mother had any doubts, what would he say?

If he lied, how would he tell Wang Yuan?

Will Wang Yuan feel at ease because he kept the secret from the past, or is he upset because he chose to keep the secret?

"Mom..." The voice didn't sound like his own, "Wang Yuan'er and I...we are together..."

"Okay, don't talk about it!" Kai's mother interrupted him abruptly before he finished speaking, "Let's eat first when the meal is ready."

"Mom! You won't let me tell you what you asked?!" His mother's evasive attitude made Wang Junkai more desperate in his uneasiness, and his tone became urgent, "I'm with Wang Yuaner, We're dating!"

In the next second, Kai's mother's slap fell on his face: "Do you know what you are talking about?!"

"Mom, you guessed it a long time ago, didn't you? You want to ask me, don't you? Is it so difficult to accept? You won't let me say it?!"

Seeing her son covering his face with an expression of grief and indignation, Kai's mother was also anxious and uncomfortable: "Is this something that can be said nonsense?! Don't you want to think about the consequences?!"

"I didn't talk nonsense! I also want to get the consequences! But I like him, what do you want me to do?" Wang Junkai put down his hand and stretched out the other side of his face, "Go ahead and fight! You beat me to death and I like him too, you say what to do?!"

Unexpectedly, Kai's mother really slapped him again involuntarily: "How many times have I hit you when you grow up so old? It's fine if you don't learn well! And dragged Xiao Yuan along! I really want to beat you to death!"

"I like him and he likes me. What's wrong? Why didn't you learn it?! You'd better kill me today! Otherwise, I'll still be with him!"

Mother Kai raised her hand but dropped it in the eyes staring at her son without the slightest hesitation, and finally covered her face and cried.

Wang Junkai was originally in a hurry, but he was startled when he saw this sudden change, and hurried forward to hug his mother's shoulder: "Mom, don't cry, why are you crying...I beg you, please don't cry..."

"Xiao Kai, why are you so uneasy?" Kai's mother cried even harder, shaking her shoulders like a little girl, "If other people find out about this, what will happen to you and Xiao Yuan?" Do it..."

"Mom, don't cry, okay... so what if you know, we can just stay together... Isn't that how so many people come here?"

"Are you two like ordinary people? How many people look at you every day and you don't know? Now if you don't pay attention, you will be said so badly. If people find out, you two won't be drowned in saliva? Why are you not good? Don't do this..."

"Mom! Why don't you understand?" Hearing what his mother said, Wang Junkai became anxious, "It has nothing to do with homosexuality, I like him, I like Wang Yuaner, do you understand?"

He said he liked it, with indescribable emotions and an irresistible sense of destiny in his voice, hitting the hearts of those who listened hard, as if he had been hit by a heavy hammer.

Mama Kay was silent for a long time—this matter was unexpected, but it was forced. People have noticed how good the two children are after so many years. I didn't let anyone else come closer to me, but it's just that things like feelings can't be forced, whether it's the object or the direction, all the confusion and unbelievability of others, for the person concerned, maybe it's really A kind of letting nature take its course——finally said slowly: "You two shouldn't be so close...you shouldn't be together for so long."

"But for me, meeting him is the best thing that has ever happened in my life." Wang Junkai calmed down and said softly, "Mom, if you love me, you are not me, and you won't understand him." meaning to me."

"Xiao Kai... It's not that mother doesn't understand you, nor does it mean that mother doesn't accept you... There is no parent who doesn't want their children to be happy, but you don't know how heavy the burden will be in the future. Mom hopes that you can live a little easier, you know ?"

"Everyone wants to live an easy life...but without him, I'm afraid I'd be wandering like a ghost all my life..." Wang Junkai thought for a long time before finding this inappropriate metaphor, "We It's not that we haven't been separated, the year before last... But the feeling of being empty physically and mentally is too uncomfortable, really uncomfortable, I don't want to experience it again for a moment."

"I'm afraid you will regret it later..."

"I've already regretted it. I regretted it when I told him to break up the year before last, and I don't want to regret it a second time." Wang Junkai begged, "Mom, I don't ask you to accept it right away, but I beg you not to veto us, can you You don't know how difficult it is to get to this point..."

Kay's mother thought for as long as a century, and finally said hesitantly: "Well, I don't deny it, but you have to promise me that both of you should pay attention to everything, and you are not allowed to do anything out of line, and don't give it to me suddenly." We made a big news or something, I know it, your father and your aunt Zhou will be scared to death if they don't know..."

"I understand, but I don't want to keep hiding it like this. Rather than being discovered one day, why don't we take the initiative to confess?"

"Don't worry, tell your father when I get back. If he doesn't fly over and kill you, I'll go to your Auntie Zhou to mention it..." Mother Kai said it easily, but her brows kept furrowing. Suddenly remembered something, stretched out his hand and patted his son's back gently, "I warn you, don't do anything excessive to Xiao Yuan, otherwise I'll see how you explain it to Aunt Zhou!"

Wang Junkai's calm heart immediately lifted up, and he forced a smile in embarrassment: "That...excessive thing...doesn't refer to..."

Mother Kai was stunned for a moment, and seeing her son's complicated expression, she suddenly understood something, picked up a big white radish, and hit him on the head and face——

"Forget it if I beat you to death! If I can't beat you to death today, then your Aunt Zhou will have to kill you too!"

After walking around restlessly for nearly three hours, Wang Yuan finally got a call from Wang Junkai.

"Hello? How are you? Auntie didn't see anything, did she?" After Miao answered, he quickly asked a series of questions.

Wang Junkai only had a wry smile on the other end of the phone: "Are you waiting for my call?"

"Otherwise? It's not easy for me to call you." Wang Yuan spoke quickly when he was nervous, "Quickly answer my question, where's Auntie?"

"She went to take a shower, so I was free to call you."

"Well, the aunt didn't find anything, did she?"

"Wang Yuaner." Wang Junkai called him suddenly.

Wang Yuan keenly sensed something was wrong: "What's wrong?"

"I told my mother." For fear of scaring the children, Wang Junkai tried to make his voice sound calmer.

For a moment, his heartbeat and breathing seemed to have stopped. Wang Yuan covered the phone receiver and patted his chest vigorously before recovering: "...and then?"

"She beat me up," Wang Junkai smiled, skipping over the tangled parts, "and then it will be fine."

"You lied," Little Scorpio was so easy to fool, "Wang Junkai, tell the truth, what is Auntie's reaction?"

Knowing that he was very disturbed, Wang Junkai said in relief: "I really didn't lie to you. The reaction was quite big at first, but then I just let it go. I told her that I will accept it immediately if I don't ask her, but don't hold back." Veto us... don't worry, let's do it bit by bit, okay?"

"...Okay." Wang Yuan felt a little hot in his eyes, he regretted running away today instead of staying with Wang Junkai to face it, "I shouldn't have left, I'm sorry."

"Come on, what are you staying for? Are you going to be beaten for me?" Wang Junkai smiled, "We will only add fuel to the fire when we are together in front of my mother. When I want to tell Aunt Zhou, I will accompany you."

Wang Yuan also smiled, didn't answer his words, just asked: "Did you really get beaten?"

"Really! Just take that big white radish! It hurts me to death!" Wang Junkai immediately complained, "I was seriously injured, and I need Xiao Yuan to kiss me to heal."

Wang Yuan ignored his indecent words: "Is it serious? Did you say something radical? Auntie is so angry?"

"Ah... I didn't say anything..." Wang Junkai tried to get away with it.

"What did you say?"

"That's it... what's wrong with us..."

"What's the matter?" Wang Yuan immediately understood as soon as he asked, and almost dropped the phone in anger, "Wang Junkai, are you sick?! What nonsense are you talking to your aunt??"

Wang Junkai quickly explained: "I didn't take the initiative to say it, but she asked! You don't even know that my mother beat me badly..."

"Why don't Auntie beat you to death? If my mother finds out, she will kill you too!" Wang Yuan's face was burning, and his tone was pretending to be vicious.

"Hehehe... You and my mother have a tacit understanding on this point... You are indeed a family..."

Wang Yuan was very speechless about his indecency: "Don't laugh, I didn't joke with you, my mother will probably beat you up then."

"Although it's okay to be beaten for you...but why do you always beat me??" Wang Junkai said that he is also a cute kid.

Wang Yuan suddenly smiled, his voice was a little gentle: "Because you are an older brother."

The last time I heard Wang Yuan say this seemed to be a long time ago. After the kid grew up, he rarely said that he was an elder brother in a serious manner except joking. Wang Junkai felt itchy in his heart: "What did you say? Say it again. "

"I didn't say anything." Wang Yuan didn't like him, slandering that this guy is really perverted and actually likes this kind of brother play... But maybe he felt a little more relaxed in his heart, and the corners of his mouth finally curved up.

Wang Junkai didn't deliberately tease him anymore, he just asked: "Wang Yuaner, shall we go back to Chongqing together in a while?"

"Why did you say this suddenly?" Wang Yuan was stunned for a moment, "You mean..."

"Well, let's go back and make it clear to the family, shall we?"

Say it or hide it?

In fact, these two options are not both wrong, but very difficult.

Since they are all difficult, why not choose the right one?

After a long time, Wang Yuan's answer finally came from the other end of the phone——

"Okay, let's go back to Chongqing."

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ps The attitude of Kai's mother in the article is an extension of my mother's feelings for them, so it is not completely idealized.