【Kaiyuan】Shewu Blurred

[I think you are the candy that I sweated in my hand when I was a child, and I was reluctant to eat it. 】

The phone rang three times before answering, adjust your breathing, don't sound too happy.

Holding the mobile phone, Wang Yuan suppressed his overjoyed mood while complaining about being too hypocritical.

"Hey……?"

"Wang Yuaner." Wang Junkai's voice came over, with the unique hoarseness when he lowered it.

Wang Yuan lowered his eyes and drew circles on the window with his fingers: "What are you doing?"

"Did you eat well?" The question was checked successfully.

"have eaten."

"Where's the milk?" Question [-] punched in successfully.

"Drinked."

"The temperature is cooling down, remember to add clothes." Question [-] has some new tricks.

"Okay mom, got it mom." Wang Yuan couldn't help rolling his eyes.

In fact, he has long been used to Wang Junkai's nagging every day, but...he just thinks that after doing this and that in the stairwell of Wang Junkai's house last time, the two of them should have established a certain relationship...

However, this guy Wang Junkai treats him no differently than before. He still coaxes him like a child when he calls every day. Even he can tell that Wang Junkai is not in a good mood recently, but the other party still hasn't told him at all. the meaning of.

Maybe falling in love with a friend who grew up together is like this?Is it flat before you get excited?

Wait a moment!What the hell is love?Wang Junkai didn't mention anything like dating at all, did he?No, no, why did Wang Junkai have to say it?Brother Yuan is not a little girl!

As if sensing his dissatisfaction, Wang Junkai chuckled twice on the other end of the phone, and then went out to a quieter place: "Wang Yuaner, I miss you."

Just one sentence can make his face hot and panicky, Wang Yuan felt that Wang Junkai should be nagging: "I know."

After thinking about it, I couldn't help asking: "Wang Junkai, have you been busy recently?"

"No." The voice raised an octave in vain, which was really suspicious, "Why do you ask like that?"

Wang Yuan frowned lightly: "Liar."

"I didn't lie to you," Wang Junkai coaxed him, "I'm really tired from running around the school and company these two days."

Such an unconvincing reason, Wang Yuan didn't even bother to expose it.

Wang Junkai suddenly smiled again, and said, "If you're worried, come to Beijing to watch me quickly, okay?"

"Cut, who wants to look at you!" Wang Yuan was lucky to be across the phone, otherwise his blushing face would be lost, "How is school? You missed a lot of classes a while ago? Does it matter?"

"It doesn't matter, although the attendance rate is not high, but the credits that should be taken are enough." Wang Junkai thought of the entanglement in choosing courses and felt a little unbearable looking back, but he didn't intend to burden the kid in high school too early, so he still announced the good news but not reported it. worry.

"University is great..." Wang Yuan stretched his tone and sighed, "The teachers in the third year of high school are like crazy, and it doesn't matter what you want to test in the future, if you can put pressure on it, you can put pressure on it, I wish I could move a mountain for you to carry. "

Wang Junkai imagined the laziness of the child on the other end of the phone, and said with a smile: "The third year of high school is very important...Have you thought about it?"

"I..." Wang Yuan knew what he was asking, "Not yet..."

"Well, take your time, don't worry about it."

Wang Yuan hugged the phone and smiled, but didn't say anything.

Don't worry, it's easier said than done.

Just like at this moment, even if he could feel that Wang Junkai had something on his mind, he couldn't rush to Beijing to force him to speak out, and Wang Junkai's sentence "don't worry about it" could not make him feel relieved at all.

It's not that he didn't think about it, he didn't dare to say it.

More than a year ago, he didn't understand Wang Junkai's decision well, and he didn't seriously ask him what he really thought, which caused the two of them to stumble to the present.After more than a year, he did not have the courage to tell Wang Junkai his inner feelings. He was not afraid that Wang Junkai would not understand, but he was afraid that Wang Junkai would be distressed because of his distress, and he was afraid that in the end he would give in every bit until he accepted it completely.

Because once he speaks out, the whole world will be against him.

It turned out to be true, the older I get, the lonelier I get.

Hug, kiss, and say love.

But are they getting closer or further apart?

Rather than saying that Wang Junkai's emotional intelligence is too low to think of a suitable reason to explain the recent low pressure, it is better to say that he has too many things and is so messed up that he has no energy to think about it.

He knew that with Wang Yuan's sensitivity and intelligence, he probably didn't take his bad reason seriously, but he really had no better way than pretending to be calm.

There are too many troubles in my head, and one head and two big ones are really not an exaggeration.

Sometimes he would feel that it was wrong to like those secondary characters when he was a child. It is good to be talented and willing to work hard, but it often takes a long time for these to be transformed into strength. How the imitated person stumbles and stumbles.

Just like now, he has never hated his uselessness so much.

He has been in the company for more than eight years and debuted for more than five years, but he is still as weak as a child. Facing the imminent real problems, he only has indignation and defenseless helplessness.

Wang Junkai, what have you been doing all these years?

He remembered that he had been asked about growing up many times. At that time, he said shyly that he was mature, but now he thought it was ironic—no matter how mature his mind was, he could only be slaughtered by others, and he was still an incompetent person. Child.

He needs strength.

Desperately needing strength.

Hearing Wang Yuan's voice on the phone every day not only allows him to breathe under the tremendous pressure, but also makes him firm in his determination to pursue strength.

Wang Yuan said that he hadn't thought about it, but he knew that the kid had planned it long ago but he didn't dare to say it - he felt a dull pain in his heart, which was the result of their dependence on the company for growth.

Unable to protect oneself in case of trouble, unable to chase dreams.

There is really a lot to maintain.He hopes that he can do what he wants to do. He hopes that Wang Yuan can say his goals out loud and work hard. He hopes that the two of them can be together when they want to be together.

I really want to become stronger.

This feeling is not new.

He once imagined that he was really an older brother when Wang Yuan was having a bad time at school, and he could justifiably rush into school and beat up those bastards all over the place.

He also imagined himself as a bodyguard when Wang Yuan's safety was threatened, and he could hold Wang Yuan tightly in his arms to avoid any harm.

But in fact, at that time, he couldn't do anything except think about growing up quickly.

Probably all children have been so stupid, thinking that growing up means being strong.

I didn't realize until I grew up that 1.8 meters tall does not mean strength. The adult world never relies on brute force to operate.

He is still that child now, his life and future are not under his control.

Including the matter between him and Wang Yuan.

Holding hands, hugging, kissing, confessing.

Although the order was a little messed up, everything that should be done has been done, but he hasn't said the word "together".

At that time, I was too excited and forgot to say it, but now I don’t know what to say.

Let's say we are together, but the road in front of us is clearly a fork in the road.

And it is a long branch road that is different from the previous high school entrance examination and college entrance examination, and there is no intersection point.

Taking a step back, he was powerless to protect Wang Yuan's safety, and further, he was powerless to protect the relationship between the two.

dilemma.

He was really...too weak.

Although Wang Yuan's affairs were always in his head, but Wang Junkai didn't see Wang Yuan immediately, but ran into Tang Yu on a certain TV station.

Tang Yu and Wang Junkai were at odds, and originally nodded to signal that Quandang was about to leave after saying hello, but noticed that Wang Junkai was looking at him with an inexplicable look, and finally couldn't hold back the urge to speak: "I said Wang Junkai, not all The world revolves around your Wang Yuan, and I also have jobs other than "Northern Spring", is it so strange to see me here?"

Wang Junkai was taken aback for a moment, realizing that his probing eyes were quite impolite, and quickly apologized: "Sorry, I didn't mean that."

"Well," Tang Yu replied, but recalling the message Han Weiru had sent before, and the rumors that he had accidentally heard recently, he still felt a little uncomfortable, and said, "I hope you can take care of yourself."

However, when Wang Junkai thought of the matter between him and Bei Jianing that Wang Yuan mentioned before, he obviously misunderstood: "Tang Yu, I think you seem to have misunderstood me. Bei Jianing and I are just a purely cooperative relationship. The previous relationship The news is also for publicity, you don't need to..."

"Bei Jianing?" Tang Yu suddenly realized that he was preoccupied with Wang Yuan's affairs recently, and almost forgot the previous episode, "Who told you about Bei Jianing? I'm talking about Wang Yuan."

Only then did Wang Junkai's expression change. Remembering that Han Weiru was Tang Yu's boss, he couldn't help asking, "What do you mean? What's wrong with Wang Yuan?"

"I don't mean anything," Tang Yu looked at his momentary ugly expression, knowing that his guess at the time was probably right, "Wang Yuan is fine, but he was stupid at the meeting in Shenzhen two days ago. Tell me that you are in a bad mood recently, I wonder if it is because of too much work pressure."

Wang Junkai felt as if he had been stabbed, and felt a dull pain, but he remained calm on the surface: "Oh, it's fine, I know he's a little uneasy, but I also told him that he's been busy recently."

"If you just tell him something on the scene, he will definitely feel uneasy." For some reason, Tang Yu felt that he couldn't understand Wang Junkai's appearance. At first, he just realized that Wang Yuan treated Wang Junkai unusually, and later recorded the program I met it once and Wang Yuan often mentioned it, so I realized that Wang Junkai actually cared about Wang Yuan, but these two people always seemed to be going around and couldn't grasp the point, "I don't mean nothing, but it doesn't mean I don't know anything. , Wang Yuan is going to take the college entrance examination next year, so don't always affect his emotions."

"Since you know that he will take the college entrance examination next year, don't talk nonsense to him no matter what you know." Although Wang Junkai doesn't want too many people to know about his plan, he also thinks it's best to talk about it, "It's all for He is good."

Tang Yu looked at him with some amusement: "Wang Junkai, do you really not understand or are you deliberately avoiding the important things? You might as well think about how you would feel if Wang Yuan didn't tell you about something important?"

"...This matter is different." Wang Junkai said lightly.

"What's the difference?"

"What do you think?" Wang Junkai clenched his fists and then relaxed, "If he knew that he had become a target this time, what would he do? Would he still have the heart to prepare for the college entrance examination?"

Sure enough... Tang Yu once again verified her guess: "So what? You're going to use yourself in exchange for him to escape completely?"

"It's not exactly like this," Wang Junkai tried his best not to look so embarrassed, "I also have what I want."

"But if you really know him well, you should be very clear that Wang Yuan never liked being weak, but now you are portraying him as weak and in need of protection."

"If you really know him, you should be more aware of what he will do when he knows this situation. I won't let him give up himself every time for the two of us to adapt to the circle. Of course I know he doesn't need my protection... ..." Wang Junkai managed to persuade himself with all his strength, but now he really didn't have the energy to persuade Tang Yu again, "Just treat me as if I insist on this."

Tang Yu didn't like Wang Junkai very much from the beginning, and now seeing his stubborn look, he wanted to turn around and leave, but the affairs of these two people always reminded him of some of his own memories, so he still didn't hold back much. Nosy, and said: "Wang Junkai, I just want to remind you - don't alienate the people you care about for the sake of protection. Once the distance is far away, it will be difficult for you to get closer. Personal experience is for reference only .”

Tang Yu pretended to finish and walked away, but the words kept ringing in his ears. Looking at his back, Wang Junkai felt that this person was really against him.

Wang Yuan traveled five or six cities with the crew of "Northern Spring" before returning to Beijing. He got off the plane at ten o'clock in the evening, and after a long day of tossing, he arrived at the company dormitory by midnight.

He didn't tell Wang Junkai that he would be there tonight. He was afraid that Wang Junkai would not go to bed early to wait for him. He didn't expect to hear the low guitar sound coming from Wang Junkai's bedroom as soon as he entered the dormitory—that guy was still not asleep.

He tiptoed to the door of the room, just about to knock on the door but was attracted by the melody played by the guitar——

It was a feeling that was hard to describe. Although it was not a complicated melody, it gave people the illusion that every time they played it, it took a lot of effort, as if the person who played it had a heavy burden on their shoulders.

It seems... It's really not as simple as being busy with work and study.

He knew that Wang Junkai was repeating the same old tricks and adopted the cheating policy of reporting good news but not worrying him. In the past, he could comfort himself while being dissatisfied and leave him alone, but now it is different. He and Wang Junkai are not just friends or colleagues, they are ... For a very close person, it is necessary for him to bear some pressure for Wang Junkai, at least to relieve the pressure.

So he knocked on the door softly and rhythmically, and sang in a playful tone: "Little rabbit, please open the door, open it quickly, mother is back..."

He sang three times in a row, and when he stopped, he heard the deathly silence inside. Just as he was thinking about what happened, the door suddenly opened.

Wang Junkai stood at the door with a dazed expression and did not respond.

Wang Yuan didn't expect that he didn't react at all, and suddenly felt super ashamed, and was thinking about how to win the round, but Wang Junkai suddenly dragged him into the room——

The moment the door closed, Wang Junkai pressed the man into his arms.

Whether it's a phone call or WeChat, even a video can't give him such a sense of reality.

Wang Yuan really felt the reality of being beside him.

His head was buried in Wang Junkai's arms, the tip of his nose was filled with the familiar smell and the smell of body wash, the dizziness that he would not have experienced on a plane flooded Wang Yuan's brain at this moment.

When he became conscious, Wang Yuan found that he had already imprinted his lips on Wang Junkai's Adam's Apple.

He clearly felt the movement of swallowing, and before he had time to tease shyly, the big tiger lowered his head and kissed him in the next second.

It turns out that movies and TV dramas are all deceptive. When you really long for someone, how can you just touch them lightly and leave?

In fact, Wang Junkai was also deepening the kiss, and the momentum was getting stronger and stronger. Wang Yuan felt that his breathing was not smooth, and his body began to go numb. The whole body seemed to be thrown into a hot pot, and the temperature continued to heat up.

But even so, I still feel unsatisfied.

Both of them underestimated their desire for each other, Wang Junkai only felt that during the sucking and entanglement, there was a cluster of small flames rising in his heart, seductively stroking and kneading his hands along Wang Yuan's neck and shoulders until he grasped Delicate waist.

Wang Yuan felt that there was fire in Wang Junkai's hand, and he would light it wherever he moved it. In the end, he was running a fever all over his body, and he was so thirsty that he could only hook his neck and not let go, and the tip of his tongue was led by restless stirring advance and retreat.

He stood on tiptoe for a long time and was a little unstable, and his ups and downs made both of them a little dissatisfied. Wang Junkai simply bowed slightly to support him.

Wang Yuan's face flushed instantly, he was so ashamed to be hugged by Wang Junkai like a child in this posture, he struggled quickly, he didn't expect that Wang Junkai just exhausted his strength and couldn't stand still, and was shaken by him like this After a while, they didn't dare to let go for fear of throwing him in a daze, and the two of them fell on the bed together just like that because of their unstable center of gravity.

"Does it hurt?" Wang Junkai was startled, and quickly left his lips, raising his head and asking.

It's just that he didn't expect that the moment he looked up, he would see such a scene——

Wang Yuan's cheeks were red up to the ears, his eyes were moist, covering the stars, his lips were wet and swollen from his kiss, with a confused expression, the whole person looked like a small animal that had just been abused.

The shirt was unbuttoned two times, exposing the beautiful collarbone and fair neck.

His fingers climbed up the skirt of his shirt almost uncontrollably, touching the third button.

On an autumn night, before the heating came on, his skin felt a little numb when exposed to the cold air, but Wang Yuan didn't feel cold.

On the contrary, he felt as if he was sick, and his whole body was feverish.

Wang Junkai's kiss fell on his neck and collarbone almost uncontrollably, igniting a small flame.

And his expression was confused, his head was tilted back, he hugged Wang Junkai's arm tightly like a drowning person, he pursed his mouth to suppress the voice that was about to blurt out, his head was in a daze, he couldn't understand anything, the only thing he understood was But that doesn't seem to be enough.

So he stretched out his hand to Wang Junkai's T-shirt, and pulled it off with a little effort——

The intimate contact of body skin is too different from holding hands or hugging. During the friction, a groan leaked from Wang Yuan's lips. The short sound was like a fuse, and the two of them suddenly became eager and caressed carelessly. The upper bodies that were not exposed to each other bumped into each other uncontrollably.

Wang Yuan felt like he was going to faint. He could sense his reaction that cannot be ignored. He could even sense Wang Junkai's reaction... This kind of primitive impulse from body to mind made him even more flustered. Panicked and at a loss, he could only hug Wang Junkai's neck even more tremblingly.

what are they doing?What does he want to do?

Wang Junkai has never been out of control like this before, but the strange thing is that even if Wang Yuan just lay there helplessly, it can have a huge temptation for him, making him indulge in that happy and shy expression, unable to extricate himself, hands and lips They were unwilling to stop, just wanting to lure Wang Yuan into more panting and moaning and more unbearable expressions.

So his hands wandered down from the back of Wang Yuan's neck, along the sunken spine, stroked the smooth and thin back, stroked the slender waist, and then went around to the front and covered the belt——

"Wang Junkai, Wang Junkai..." Wang Yuan's voice suddenly became flustered, "Don't, don't..."

Wang Junkai was taken aback for a moment, then suddenly realized what he wanted to do, and withdrew his hand like an electric shock.

There was obvious panic in Wang Yuan's expression in front of him, as if he wanted to say something but couldn't even utter a complete sentence.

What is he doing?

Although the two have been together for a long time, it is only a recent matter to confirm the relationship, let alone Wang Yuan is not yet full...Wang Junkai, Wang Junkai, what the hell do you want to do? ?

Pulling the quilt in a hurry to wrap the child in, Wang Junkai was full of apology when he opened his mouth: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, Yuaner, I'm not clear..."

Having said that, the high desire just now is not so easy to calm down, the sweet breath close at hand is simply the most poisonous aphrodisiac, Wang Junkai scolded himself thousands of words in his heart, quickly let go of Wang Yuan, turned and left Room.

Wang Yuan was in a daze from the beginning to the end. He didn't realize what happened just now when he heard Wang Junkai locked himself in the bathroom. His body temperature slowly dropped, and he felt angry and funny——

What he wanted to say just now was clearly "don't turn on the light"...

Fortunately, everyone else was asleep at this point. Wang Yuan touched the door of the bathroom, knocked on the door softly, and said, "Wang Junkai, come out."

"Wait, wait a while." The people inside were still flustered.

"You come out." Wang Yuan repeated. In fact, he didn't know why he asked Wang Junkai to come out, but he felt...he felt...they are already the closest relationship, right? Even if there are some things that shouldn't be done, but There are still some things that are better, better...

But he can't say such words even if he is killed, and the people inside are notoriously stubborn. After this round of estimation, they dare not even touch him for a while.

Thinking about it made me feel depressed, so I called again: "Wang Junkai, come out!"

"I'll be out, out in a while...you, go to sleep!"

"..."

Wang Yuan was silent for a moment, then turned and went back to his room——

Wang Junkai, you should follow your right hand for the rest of your life!

I don't know how long it took, so long that Wang Yuan was already in a daze and was about to fall asleep, only then did he feel that someone was carefully lying beside him, hugging him from behind.

"Are you willing to leave your bathroom?" Wang Yuan mocked inarticulately.

Wang Junkai didn't speak, but put his forehead on the back of his neck.

"Wang Junkai..." Wang Yuan sighed in the dark, feeling that there are some things that need to be clarified, he dislikes misunderstandings the most, "I'm not unwilling."

"I know." Wang Junkai's voice was hoarse, "But I can't bear you."

After waking up, he realized that his self-control was actually not that bad, but the recent incidents really affected him, and he couldn't wait to do something to Wang Yuan, as if he wanted to prove something.

Fortunately, fortunately, fortunately, he was able to restrain his irrationality in the end.

But there are things he can't restrain himself, for example, he hugged Wang Yuan tightly at this moment, and whispered in his ear:

"Wang Yuan'er, let's go, to Northern Europe, to Iceland, wherever we want, just the two of us, okay?"

"Wang Junkai..." Wang Yuan turned over to face him and looked at him, with mixed feelings in his heart...Touching the corners of his eyes lightly with his fingers, the eyes were a little wet, "Are you stupid? What are you doing?" so stupid?"