【Kaiyuan】Shewu Blurred

[You make me feel that our relationship is more than this, and it can only be this way. 】

"I'm not happy, can't it be because I don't want to be separated from you?"

This sentence was blurted out because of boredom, and Wang Yuan regretted it in the next moment—he felt that he was really selfish, and he knew that Wang Junkai had made a lot of determination to make this decision. Say something like this.

He has always been very good at controlling his emotions, but suddenly he was the only one left in everything about two people, which made his life unbalanced and made him lose his sense of security, so he couldn't help but say willful words.

Feeling guilty in his heart, Wang Junkai's silence on the other end of the phone made him even more uneasy, Wang Yuan could only try to recover: "Sorry... don't worry about it, I didn't mean that, I just... I'm not used to it."

"I know..." Wang Junkai didn't seem to know how to comfort him, and he said after a while, "Wang Yuan'er, it's only been two years, and besides, we have so much work now, it might be more difficult if we don't want to see each other? This way, we will be separated occasionally. Maybe you won't think I'm long-winded when we meet for the first time."

Hearing what he said, Wang Yuan didn't feel relieved, but he still tried his best to smile: "Impossible, you are just a nagging old man."

Although he couldn't see anyone, Wang Junkai felt a smile from that sentence, and showed his small canine teeth as if infected: "How dare you think I'm old?"

"You are old." Wang Yuan followed his words.

The two chatted for a few words, and the atmosphere on the phone line finally felt normal. Only then did Wang Junkai dare to mention his original purpose of making the call: "Wang Yuaner, it's okay to separate when there is no work, right?" He knew he was a bit selfish, and he asked this question just to get Wang Yuan's comforting answer.

Sure enough, Wang Yuan said without hesitation, "It's okay."

It's okay, but not okay.

"Then... it doesn't matter if it's not Yang Yin?" Wang Junkai asked tentatively.

"It's okay, haha," Wang Yuan's voice suddenly sounded more cheerful, "Wang Junkai, can you imagine that we are in the same school?"

Wang Junkai couldn't help laughing: "That must be such a crazy and cool scene."

"Still laughing? Are you tired of being in school now? If we were in the same school, we would have to multiply this situation by two. It would be terrible to think about it." Wang Yuan speculated solemnly, and then concluded, "So, this is pretty good. OK."

"Well," Wang Junkai responded, and then suddenly said, "Wang Yuaner, have you thought about it? What would it be like if we were in the same school and were ordinary students?"

Wang Yuan was stunned for a moment, not understanding why he thought of this: "Maybe... like Karry and Ma Siyuan?"

"How is it possible..." Wang Junkai got goosebumps when he thought of those shameful characters and lines, "It should be more ordinary."

"Well, it's better to be more ordinary," Wang Yuan thought for a while, "We usually have classes, tutoring, etc., and when we have time, we can play basketball, swim and play games. During holidays, we can also hang out with classmates."

"Go wherever you want, and do whatever you want," Wang Junkai said, and suddenly thought of an interesting thing, "Haha, Wang Yuaner, if that's really the case, you have to call me senior."

Wang Yuan couldn't help but also laughed: "What the hell... Can we call everyone Shige in our school?"

When these words came out, both of them were taken aback, and fell into silence at the same time.

I have also talked about this topic before, if we are not idol stars, but just ordinary boys, what would life be like?

Secretly send each other WeChat messages during class, sweat profusely on the court between classes or PE class, study in the study room or library at night, and doze off with their heads leaning against each other on the bus in the morning.

Go to eat supper together, climb the mountain to watch the sunrise together, and ride a bicycle from one end of Nanbin Road to the other end together.

Let's talk about the love letters we received together, talk about the future and ideals together, and spend the long years together.

Even imagining such a picture makes my heart throb.

It just suddenly occurred to me now that between ordinary Wang Junkai and Wang Yuan, such a thing might not happen.

We are two grades apart, we are not in the same school, we were originally far away.

If singing hadn't become an opportunity, I'm afraid that we are still like two planets in different galaxies, revolving around their own trajectories, and there will never be a day when they meet in this life.

These things can only belong to Karry and Ma Siyuan, and cannot become Wang Junkai and Wang Yuan.

Thinking about it this way, I even felt a little scared in my heart—fortunately, fate favored us and arranged a meeting.

"Actually..." Wang Junkai thought for a while and said, "This is pretty good now."

Wang Yuan smiled, guessing in his heart whether Wang Junkai thinks being a star is good or meeting himself, maybe it's evenly divided?Can't help but ask him: "Do you still remember? Those days when we sang in squares and underground passages?"

"How could I forget it?" It's been a long time since those things happened, recalling them made Wang Junkai sigh, "When I sang, I never thought that today would be here."

It's like when I first met you, I never thought I would like you so much.

"Two days ago, I saw a new batch of young juniors singing in the square, this time at Sun Moonlight." Wang Yuan recalled how he foolishly went to watch the juniors singing, and saw the sadness in his heart. "Just like we did back then."

Wang Junkai said "hmm": "I know, I saw the video, but it's not the same as us."

"I also think we sing better and look more handsome," Wang Yuan pretended to be silly, "Hahaha, aren't we too narcissistic?"

"It's not that it's different," Wang Junkai said seriously, "I really want to sing with you."

Wang Yuan didn't expect him to say that, he was taken aback for a moment: "What, what are you doing? Suddenly so... sensational?"

"Then did I incite you?" Wang Junkai didn't answer, but deliberately teased him.

Wang Yuan shrank even tighter under the quilt and didn't speak.

"Wang Yuaner," Wang Junkai didn't really wait for him to answer, and suddenly changed the subject, "Be confident in yourself, you can be fine even if I'm not here."

Wang Yuan lifted the quilt, took a deep breath, calmed down the ups and downs caused by Wang Junkai's words, and then said: "I know."

I know, I know all.In this world, no one really can't live without another person, and you and I are not an exception.

"I have some confidence in me and us. Even if we are not together for two years, we will be fine." Wang Junkai continued.

Wang Yuan felt that the stagnant breath in his chest was not really relieved, so he said softly, "I know."

No one really can't live without someone, but there will always be one person who misses each other when we part, and feels lonely when we're not around.

After hanging up the phone, Wang Junkai was distracted for a long time before slowly putting down the phone.

The call was obviously to ease the miss, why did my heart feel even more empty after the call?

it's wired.

Instead of resting immediately, he picked up his phone and clicked on the cached video.

That's the tidbit that the home page gentleman just released today. As usual, he edited the materials from the two places together, but this time, he is not in the part of Chongqing.

He has long been used to watching Wang Yuan on the screen. He will carefully watch every performance, every shooting, and every program in the past several times, find out the parts that need to be improved, and sometimes pay attention to Wang Yuan. Yuan even surpassed himself, making the two of them better and better together has always been the greatest responsibility in his heart.

But for some reason, watching Wang Yuan in the behind-the-scenes video this time, I have a different feeling.

Wang Yuan is taking vocal music lessons.The voice is so beautiful, the expression is so focused, Wang Yuan is also serious when they are in class together, but he rarely shows such a look in his eyes, the sense of distance does not make him indifferent, but it is more attractive.

Wang Yuan is taking a dance class.His leg press is no longer like the sky is always falling, his movements are proficient with some unique feeling, although the dance is still not particularly good, but his wrists, ankles, shoulders and neck... ...every part of the body moves so beautifully that people's eyes can't help but linger.

Wang Yuan came to watch the training of the juniors.He sat quietly on the side, sometimes smiling, sometimes lost in thought, sometimes frowning, the obviously noisy practice room was quiet in his corner.During the break, the juniors all surrounded him to make trouble for him, he smiled happily and felt a little helpless, obviously he was very salty in private, obviously he had matured a lot, but he still made the people around him want to get close to him.

Every frame on the screen can remind Wang Junkai of many past memories, singing together, dancing together, playing together... He suddenly understood why looking at Wang Yuan on the screen felt a little different this time, because he watched At that time, Wang Yuan was not by his side.

He began to doubt his original decision a little bit.

Not the part about future development and work plans, but the part about leaving Wang Yuan.

That's right, the decision to leave Chongqing and give up Yangyin was not only due to his consideration of his identity as an artist, but also because he felt that he should be separated from Wang Yuan for a while.

He has never doubted that he and Wang Yuan are the best brothers, partners and teammates, but this time he has other doubts to verify.

He wanted to know how much he liked Wang Yuan.

He wanted to know how he liked Wang Yuan.

He also wanted to know... Wang Yuan's real thoughts.

The most important event in September is undoubtedly Wang Junkai's birthday. Wang Yuan rushed from Chongqing to Beijing the day before the birthday party.

In fact, the whole process was quite boring. First, Wang Yuan inexplicably remembered the phrase "closer to the hometown is more timid" on the plane. While laughing at himself and using allusions, he found that this sentence could not be erased from his mind, so he had to let it go. Circling until he landed.

Later, when he got in the car sent by the company to pick him up, Wang Yuan didn’t want to admit that he was a little disappointed when he didn’t see Wang Junkai coming to pick him up with the car. Thinking about it carefully, he felt funny. The birthday star is the protagonist, and he must be busy with his birthday party now It's hard work, how can there be this American time.

Seeing Karry Wang at the rehearsal site, the two were urged to walk on the stage before even saying hello. While Wang Yuan was directed by the choreographer to move around, he watched Karry Wang speak to the host on the other side of the stage.

For the first time, he felt as if he accidentally went to the wrong set and was out of place.

The on-site staff were very busy and in good shape. His teammate was very skilled in the first row because he was in Beijing, and he seemed calm and unhurried. He was the only one who was a little tired just after getting off the plane, but he had to receive a lot of information from all sides. Everyone is getting used to singing and dancing, why don't you think about Wang Junkai's polite greeting just now...

This is really a bit difficult.

Fortunately, after the rehearsal, Wang Junkai drove back to the dormitory with him.

Wang Junkai looked tired, but he didn't ignore his state. He asked before he got into the car, "What's the matter? Are you tired from flying?"

"No," Wang Yuan evasively said, "How are you preparing?"

Wang Junkai looked at his face, then lowered his head and smiled: "It's okay."

Wang Yuan nodded, but didn't know what to say next—outsiders thought he was quite eloquent, whether it was recording programs or interviewing, he could answer any questions fluently, but in fact sometimes he didn't know how to provoke a New topics to continue the interrupted dialogue, such as when he and Wang Junkai were awkward in the past, such as now.

But Wang Junkai didn't leave him enough time to think about the topic, probably because he was too tired. When he remembered that he should ask some questions about the university, he found that Wang Junkai had already closed his eyes and rested.

Seeing the familiar side face fluctuating due to the shaking of the car body and the rhythm of breathing, Wang Yuan suddenly felt a little sour-Wang Junkai was very tired, but he could only guess the reason. between them.

Of course he didn't believe that they would become strangers after not seeing them for twenty days, but everything in front of him now made him feel uneasy.

He knew the theme of Wang Junkai's birthday party, but he didn't know how much thought was put into presenting it.

He knew what song Wang Junkai was going to sing, but he didn't know what arrangements he had made for it.

He knew that there would be a beautiful birthday cake on the spot, but he didn't know the taste and color of the cake.

……

Those things that Wang Junkai would always discuss with him in the past, and he would always help to prepare, now because of the distance of more than 2000 kilometers, it has become someone else's job.

He is lost, he is really not used to others being more familiar with Wang Junkai than himself.

This loss reached its peak on Wang Junkai's birthday.

After all, it is the birthday party of the leader of the popular group. There are many people in the circle who send blessings, and the guests who help the venue are also very famous. Naturally, the company dare not be perfunctory. After the work on the table is finished, it will be held in the hotel after the birthday party. A small birthday party.

It is said to be small, almost all the staff of the company in Beijing were present, plus those who came from Chongqing to join in the show, there were no. 80 people crowded together, and it couldn't be more lively.

Wang Junkai looks no different from 17 years old, but this legally special age is undoubtedly a watershed. At this moment, he is surrounded by a group of people, sending blessings, persuading him to drink, joking... Those who can usually protect them from some The adults of Dongxi are now pushing him in the so-called mature direction, and they don't feel contradictory or abrupt at all.

The whole night, Wang Yuan hid in a far corner and watched quietly. It wasn't that he didn't want to join, but that he somehow found it difficult to join the lively crowd.

In his eyes, Wang Junkai's appearance is no different from before, he is still so dazzling on the stage, he still smiles with a silly smile, and he still often answers questions early.

But at this moment when he was sitting next to Wang Junkai wearing a birthday hat for him in previous years, the group of crowds and booing people reminded him that Wang Junkai is gone. He may not have changed a lot, but the people around him can use the banner of adulthood To impose some changes in his life.

For example, congratulations, you are an adult, you can drink in a fair manner, and today is your birthday, drink a few more drinks.

For example, congratulations, you can accept romance films, and the company no longer needs to be so careful in selecting resources.

For example, do you have a girl you like? Now falling in love is not considered puppy love.

……

Those words came through the noisy atmosphere, making Wang Yuan hesitant to go over to send his blessings. He felt that the blessings he originally planned to say seemed too childish and unrealistic, and joining in forcefully would only make the scene turbulent. Embarrassing, today is a lively day, it is better not to say anything that is out of place.

It was almost twelve o'clock, and there was still no tendency to calm down around Wang Junkai. Wang Yuan remembered that he hadn't posted on Weibo today, and if he didn't post it, he would probably be sprayed with confusion tomorrow, so he quietly retreated from the party scene and returned to the own room.

The hotel rooms have balconies, and Wang Yuan was very satisfied with this. He dug out a few boxes of fireworks sticks called "Sparklers" from his schoolbag, and put them together in the shape of "Eighteen".

It was a bit difficult to ignite together. It took several attempts before I succeeded. I hurriedly took a picture and posted it on the blog——

"My captain, my eldest brother, my senior Karry, must be happier than 17 years old! Happy birthday!"

You're done and satisfied.

Wang Yuan threw himself on the bed and patted his heart hard, the feeling of something stuck there didn't go away.

If you think about it carefully, your blessing is really naive.

It's okay, it's okay, I'm only 16 years old, and I'm already very naive.

……

and 16 years old, Beijing and Chongqing.

Really far.

I lay on the bed for a while and didn't bother to wash up, as if I was about to fall asleep in a daze.

Hearing someone knocking on the door while half asleep and half awake, Wang Yuan thought he was dreaming.

When knocking on the door turned into smashing, he finally came to his senses, muttering in a daze about who it would be at this time, while dragging his feet to open the door.

When he saw Wang Junkai through the door mirror, Wang Yuan felt his heart skip a beat, and he didn't have time to think why Wang Junkai didn't come to his room at the party, so he opened the door quickly.

Wang Junkai's cheeks were red, his eyes were bright, but his eyes were a little lax, his body was swaying, obviously he had drunk too much, Wang Yuan hurriedly helped him in: "Why are you back? Can't drink anymore? Wait a minute and I'll give you a drink." Pour a glass of water, do you want to wipe your face?"

"I'm not happier." Wang Junkai drank until his tongue was so big that he couldn't articulate.

Wang Yuan was taken aback for a moment, not quite believing his ears: "What?"

"I said," Wang Junkai sat on the edge of the bed and looked up at him, his eyes fluctuating, "I'm not happier."

Only then did Wang Yuan realize that he had seen his Weibo post, and quickly smiled: "Why are you unhappy? Didn't you feel fine just now?"

"You didn't bring me a birthday hat, so I'm not happy." Wang Junkai grabbed his arm and stared at him blankly. "You didn't sing me a birthday song, so I'm not happy. You didn't give me a birthday present. So not happy."

"Wang Yuan'er, you didn't even say happy birthday to me."

Wang Yuan looked into his slightly moist eyes, didn't know whether he was talking drunk or the truth, but felt his heart beating, he pulled his hand away from his wrist at a loss, pretending to turn around calmly. Turning around to look through the schoolbag: "Who said there are no gifts, just wait a moment, wait a moment."

But before he found anything from his schoolbag, Wang Junkai suddenly stood up and hugged him from behind.

At that moment, it felt like those fireworks sticks just exploded in my head.

A flash, a spark.

He felt Wang Junkai's breath rushing behind his ears, causing a burst of numbness and heat.

He heard Wang Junkai whispering softly.

"Wang Yuaner," Wang Junkai said, "I miss you, I really miss you."