What is it like to find someone for your ex?

"Can you not apply for Professor Wang's graduate student?"

Guan Qing was frozen by the too cold eyes in the memory.

The details that he ignored at that time emerged one by one, and countless threads emerged, but he didn't know which one to grasp for a while.

"What's wrong?" Ye Zi asked.

Guan Qing looked up at him.

Ye Zi frowned, her expression as gentle as ever: "What did you remember? Did someone take the USB drive, or did it leave it somewhere?"

"It didn't land anywhere." Guan Qing looked at Ye Zi and said, "Three days ago, the U disk landed at Xie Xu's place."

He carefully observed Ye Zi's expression.

Ye Zi pushed his glasses and smiled helplessly: "Xie Xu wouldn't do such a thing."

Ye Zi's expression was extremely natural, showing no flaws.Guan Qing looked away, but he always felt that something was wrong.

It seems that all clues are pointing to Xie Xu, as if someone is guiding him...

Xie Xu's lies before, the frequent contact with Jiang Lu, the lost USB drive, the virus that suddenly appeared——

The sudden ringtone interrupted his thinking.

"mom?"

Ye Anxian and her husband were on vacation abroad, with a six or seven hour time difference, it was too quiet there.

Guan Qing had an ominous premonition.

"Mom, what's wrong with you?"

Ye Anxian took a breath over there, Guan Qing felt that she was trembling.Guan Qing stood up holding the phone, anxiously: "Are you crying? What's wrong?"

"It's okay," her voice was very relaxed, maybe it was just Guan Qing's illusion, "Mom is fine, I saw a doll in the market here, thinking of the past, I feel uncomfortable."

When Guan Qing was a child, there were no toys at home, only a little doll that Ye Anxian bought in the market, which was Mickey Mouse.That was his only childhood playmate.

"...It's really just like that?" Guan Qing doubted.

"Well, by the way, let your Uncle Xu tell you a few words."

Xu Liang answered the phone and said a few words to Guan Qing.Xu Liang is a professor, he is very polite and treats Guan Qing very well.Guan Qing repeatedly confirmed that everything was as usual.

"Qingqing, mom loves you. I have to go to the show later, so I'll hang up first." Ye Anxian said.

"Okay." Guan Qing always felt that something was wrong, but couldn't tell for a while.

Ye Zi asked, "Why, Auntie is still in the Czech Republic?"

"Well, I just arrived in Prague and I was shopping at the market." Guan Qing pressed the phone absently.

Xie Xu's phone call is still unavailable, and the financial crisis of Xie Qing's company is raging.

"Ye Zi, I have to find Xie Xu." Guan Qing stood up holding the phone.

"Just right," Ye Zi picked up the coat hanging on the coat rack, "I know where he is, I'll take you there."

"Thank you, Xu." Wang Yun held the photo that was divided into two halves, and Ye Anxian's gentle smile was cut off from it, looking weird and hideous, "I don't see many people like you? You say your love is noble, but in fact ...

"—totally vulnerable."

"Well, dare you bet? Do you think he will choose his own future, his mother's safety, or you?"

Xie Xu clenched his fists, his fingertips clenched so tightly that they turned white.

From August this year until now, he has had nightmares every day.Every dream ends with Guan Qing's turning around, and every night, he repeats the disbelief, anger, and pain at that time.

Maybe it was too painful, his memory of that day was already very vague, but he still remembered Guan Qing's expression at the moment when he turned around.

The afternoon light outside the window printed his eyes, clear and gentle, like a beautiful dream in the cool breeze in late summer.His brows are stretched, the corners of his mouth are flattened, and there is no expression on his face, but the whole feeling is simply——

As relieved.

Finally got rid of Xie Xu, finally got rid of Xie Xu.

so good.

Guan Qing just abandoned him like that, throwing him in that summer day with sunshine in the wind but not warm at all, in the endless darkness and nightmares...

There is no turning back.

At that moment, he regretted his eyesight.It would be great if I could be nearsighted, but it would be great if I could see nothing.

Then he can continue to pester him confidently and confidently.

He was not a good person in the first place, relying on Guan Qing's love, he was confident, but when Guan Qing took his love back, he had nothing.

He dare not entangle, dare not chase, and is unwilling to give up.

Even though Guan Qing is with him now, even though Guan Qing says he loves him, even though——

Children who have been abandoned once will be extremely sensitive, and adopted puppies will be extraordinarily well-behaved.He has become extremely concerned about Guan Qing's opinion of him, and his image in Guan Qing's eyes, but the more he cares, the worse his performance will be.

He's jealous, arrogant, childish, possessive, he's useless, and he can't pretend to be cheerful and likable.

Why should Guan Qing love him like this?

"I don't need to gamble." He pursed his lips and heard himself say, "I have the ability to protect him and his mother. I don't need to verify these."

Put their love in Schrödinger's black box, and he can survive on that half-possibility.

At least...it is possible that Guan Qing loves him.

He can live his life without knowing the truth, and he doesn't care.

"Don't be too confident, old woman." Xie Xu sneered, straightened his collar, and walked out.

"I'll return this sentence to you," Wang Yun said behind him, "You can't control yourself."

Xie Xu's cell phone rang.

"Hey," Xie Xu found out the car keys, "Dad, what's the matter?"

Behind him, Wang Yun's eyes trembled.She seemed to want to call Xie Xu to stop, but in the end she didn't say anything and called a servant to clean up the mess.

And these, Xie Xu did not see.

"You don't have to worry about us." Xie Qing said.His side is noisy, and behind him, Chris is saying to the clerk, 'That document needs to be printed quickly', 'Can the loan amount be increased? ' and the like.

Xie Xu immediately knew that the situation was not good.

Xie Qing and Chris have basically left their hands as shopkeepers, and they will only return to the company when making decisions on major events.

He pursed his lips, his throat was dry: "Sorry, Dad, because I..."

"Because of you?" Xie Qing waved his hand and mocked, "Don't think too much about yourself. Wang Yun will spend a lot of time to destroy my company in order to force you to marry Jiang Lu? The relationship is complicated, Xiao Just mind your own business, kid."

The father and son chatted for a while, because Xie Qing was too busy there, so they had to hang up the phone hastily.

When Xie Xu got into the car, he received a WeChat message from Ye Zi:

"Did you intervene in the matter of Guan Qing's thesis?"

This question is inexplicable.

Ye Zi clearly knew everything, Xie Xu felt an unspeakable irritability in his heart.He knocked on the steering wheel, too lazy to be confused with Ye Zi, and said angrily according to the voice:

"He's my wife. I don't care what happened to his paper? What's the matter with you?"

The other side replied quickly: "How did you manage it? Did you use that method?"

Xie Xu remembered the contact with Jiang Lu these days.He didn't tell Guan Qing. He originally wanted to wait until all the dust settled before telling him, but he didn't expect that things would become complicated again at this time.

——Wang Yun intervened.

Xie Xu was in a bad mood and a little guilty, so he didn't think much, and said:

"He insisted on applying for Professor Wang's postgraduate, I had no choice but to do so. No, you are very lenient, you—"

Ye Zi's phone vibrated, he was driving, so he signaled Guan Qing to unlock the lock for him.

Guan Qing unlocked it according to his instructions, but accidentally touched the voice note, so...

"He's my wife. I don't care what happened to his paper? What's the matter with you?"

"He insisted on applying for Professor Wang's postgraduate, I had no choice but to do so. No, you are very lenient, you—"

Guan Qing opened his mouth.

His mind was in a mess, and after thinking for a long time, he finally said dryly: "Ye Zi, why did you ask him this?"

Ye Zi pulled over and stopped the car, and looked at him quietly: "I'm afraid you're fascinated by the authorities, so let me try it out for you. I'm sorry, I didn't think well enough."

"I don't need it." Guan Qing said.

He held up the phone, his eyes were red.

He tried hard to think of all possible reasons to excuse Xie Xu, but there was nothing.

Why not?He thought in a panic, it shouldn't be.

It is impossible for Xie Xu to hurt him, Xie Xu is not such a selfish person, Xie Xu...

"Do you know him?" Ye Zi asked.

"I……"

I understand.

Guan Qing was speechless when he thought of the jealous Xie Xu who was so out of control that he hurt him with coercion.

——"I don't want to lie to you."

——"Can you not apply for Professor Wang's graduate student?"

——"Why can't you... mine alone."

These are all Xie Xu, whom he had never known before.

"But I trust him." Guan Qing took a deep breath and said.

He has already made an agreement with Xie Xu, to love him, trust him, and not leave.He did what he said, no matter what kind of thank you, he believed in it, and he was willing to bear the price.

He must at least hear Xie Xu say it himself.

Otherwise, he will never give up.

After all, it was his thank you.

Seeing it with your own eyes, hearing it with your own ears doesn't count.

Even if all the evidence points to him, all the clues prove him, Guan Qing can blindfold his eyes, plug his ears, pretend to be deaf and dumb, don't see, don't listen, don't want to.

He loves Xie Xu, that's how he loves him.

He doesn't need principles.

Guan Qing thought that he should be more emotional than rational.The most important thing in his life has never been the truth, but the people he loves.

Therefore, he is willing to compromise countless times.

The author has something to say: Calvin is going to get stuck in Liao, alas.

Many people said to me that it was too cruel...well, I actually wrote this part in the outline.I personally think that it is better not to fill in the sweetness that is unclear?Because the problem has always been there, if we don't solve it, who knows what will happen in the future?

So this period should be regarded as growing pains, and the two will face it together.

Thank you Jiuzi for reading mine, okay?