What is it like to find someone for your ex?

"Teacher, thank you for cheating. He bullies girls."

"Sorry, thank you, I didn't take you as a friend."

"So what if you grew up together? You still take it seriously."

"..."

Countless voices, some immature and some deep, rushed into the brain.In the end, all the noise dissipated, and a sentence emerged slowly and clearly:

"Look at that boy, how about we make a bet? I bet...he will drop out of school."

The young man is handsome, with a pair of peach blossom eyes, and a kind face, with a gentle and harmless smile. You can only see a hint of arrogance and disdain if you look closely.

Refuse, what good does it do you to make such a bet.

He wanted to say something to himself, but he was sweating anxiously, but he couldn't say a word.He had a premonition that something irreversible was about to happen, and the feeling of despair and powerlessness creeping up his heart little by little, entangled him tightly.

At that time, he was arrogant, conceited, and extreme.He just put on a kind, generous and cheerful face, and the person he loved the most believed it.

Believe it for many years.

"Why, don't you dare?" The young man in front of him squinted at him.

So many years of dissatisfaction and anger are ignited at this moment.His heart tightened, he wanted to stop it but couldn't, he heard himself say:

"……it is good."

In a blink of an eye, the arrogantly smiling young man disappeared.

The crowd was bustling, and a boy was standing at the freshmen registration desk.He was dragging the suitcase, with his head buried very low, but his back was straight, as if he was still unwilling to give up or compromise after suffering so much oppression and bearing so many burdens.What did he say, the boy looked at him sideways, with a very beautiful and gentle appearance, but his eyes were barren:

"Why are you meddling in your own business?"

However, the boy gradually grew taller, and his face changed from the tenderness of a teenager to the gentleness and beauty of a young man.He fell limply into Xie Xu's arms, his face was pale, but he forced a smile:

"I love you."

Xie Xu woke up.

There was no pain in Guan Qing's body.

He passed out under the terrifying pressure of Xie Xu, and his spirit was overwhelmed, so he had countless nightmares that he couldn't remember clearly. In every dream, there was Xie Xu, and the person who loved him to the bone appeared like this in the nightmare.

He didn't want to, but he couldn't control it.That is written in the beta gene, the instinctive awe of alpha.

That fear has been weakened generation after generation after the development of human civilization, but it has never disappeared.

When he woke up, Xie Xu held his hand and fell asleep while sitting on the chair.Under the baptism of those rounds of nightmares, but looking at him so close, he was conditioned to feel fear.He froze all over and moved to the side.

Unexpectedly, when he moved like this, Xie Xu woke up.

The expressions of the two were blank, and they looked at each other for a while, Xie Xu's eyes were red.Guan Qing looked away and withdrew his hand.

His legs were still weak, but he didn't want to stay here, he stood up, put on his coat, and walked out: "Sorry, I'll—"

Walking too fast, he didn't pay attention to the entrance, his foot missed, he staggered and almost fell.

Xie Xu hugged his waist tightly from behind, and repeated in a low voice over and over again: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I was wrong."

"...Don't be like this." Guan Qing was silent for a while, then said, "We need to each calm down."

Xie Xu took a deep breath, tried to smile, and asked jokingly, "Does this mean breaking up?"

Guan Qing didn't answer.

"No way?" He shrugged pretending to be relaxed, and in the silence, the corners of his mouth gradually collapsed.

Finally, with a hoarse voice and trembling, he said, "Guan Qing, I beg you, I, I know I'm a bastard, I'm not good enough for you—"

He looked down at the ground, not daring to reach out to hug Guan Qing again.He was obviously a big man about 1.8 meters tall, but he stood there helplessly like a primary school student being scolded by a teacher, holding back tears with red eyes.

But no one coaxed him, and there won't be any in the future.

"Don't break up. It's enough to see me once a week, no, a month, or a year, whatever is convenient for you."

He tried his best to smile: "You...you can also if you like Ye Zi very much, I don't care, I, I can—"

"What can you do?" Guan Qing finally turned around and asked calmly.

Hearing his question, Xie Xu didn't know whether he should be happy or sad. He had a sore nose and said, "As long as you are still mine, I can... wait for you, wait for you to like me again, it doesn't matter if you wait for a long time."

Just give me a thought.

"It doesn't matter who you like?"

"...Mmm." Xie Xu clenched his fists.

"Then it doesn't matter if I like you?"

"Yeah." Xie Xu closed his eyes sadly and replied subconsciously.

"Fool." Guan Qing was discouraged, he pulled Xie Xu's collar and kissed him.

"...!" Xie Xu reacted suddenly, he stared at Guan Qing blankly, his eyes were red.

A crying child cannot be coaxed, the more he is coaxed, the more energetic he becomes.

But Guan Qing had no choice. Seeing Xie Xu like this made him feel distressed.

His thanks should not suffer from this kind of grievance every day, and he should not be worried every day. He obviously has so much, but he is like a poor child secretly living in a rich man's house, worrying about being kicked out every day.

It's not that he is not angry that Xie Xu can do such a stupid thing.The previous sequelae are still playing a role now. When he kissed Xie Xu, he had to try his best to restrain himself from retreating or trembling too obviously.

But his people should be pampered by him.If he doesn't pet him, who else will pet him?

"I love you." Xie Xu said with tears, this kind of lost and found, he didn't dare to think like this in his dreams, but it came true.

He remembered something again, buried his head very low, and almost felt ashamed: "But I... hurt you before."

"You want me to say it?" Guan Qing looked at him helplessly.

Xie Xu didn't respond: "What?"

"Say... I love you, I don't care, so what if this life is given to you," he said calmly and stubbornly, as if he said he was going to drop out of school many years ago at the freshman registration office:

"My pleasure."

Xie Xu's pupils shrank.

The overly fiery emotion that surged in his heart surged up in an instant, trying to burn himself to death.

Before that, he never thought that love could reach this level.

"Can you, don't be so nice." The corners of Xie Xu's mouth trembled, as if he wanted to laugh, but in the end he was crying.He didn't want such a gaffe to be seen by Guan Qing, so he leaned over and hugged Guan Qing, buried his head in the crook of his neck, and murmured, "Can you be a little stupid, ugly, lazy, and... like me less a little."

Too good things are never perfect.

He held such a good baby in his arms, and he had to look at him every day so that he couldn't bump it, let alone be cheated by others.

He would rather that Guan Qing was not so good, not to be missed by others, not to be liked by others, so that Guan Qing could... Belong to him forever.

This thought was too selfish, Xie Xu didn't dare to continue.

"I don't know." Guan Qing stroked his hair and asked softly, "Where did your insecurity come from.

"I promised you, I won't leave. And... I'm not good."

Xie Xu shook his head, picked him up and put him on the bed, and said sullenly:

"You are so nice."

"Is it because of Ye Zi?" Guan Qing asked after thinking about it.

Xie Xu froze suddenly.

After Ye Zi came back, Xie Xu had many abnormal behaviors.Whenever he has contact with Ye Zi, Xie Xu will be... irritable, irritable, and jealous.

"You can discuss with me what you have, and you can tell me if you are not satisfied. If you don't like him, I won't be alone with him in the future."

He ran along Xie Xu's hair and whispered, "Boyfriends have to be a bit privileged."

He hoped that Xie Xu could tell him the reason, but seeing Xie Xu's expression, it seemed that he had no such intention.

A deep sense of loss welled up in Guan Qing's heart.

He tried to control himself, not to let his expression give away his thoughts.

"……Um."

Thank you in a low voice.

He was worried, so he raised his head again, got very close to Guan Qing, and looked at each other: "Don't be alone with him, don't believe what he says, it's all a lie."

"It's as if Ye Zi is a witch." Guan Qing thought it was funny.

"He is." Xie Xu said seriously.

"Then what am I, Snow White?" Guan Qing teased him.

Unexpectedly, Xie Xu shook his head and said, "It's a knight."

This answer surprised Guan Qing, he asked: "Then what are you?"

"Guess." Xie Xu narrowed his eyes and kissed Guan Qing before he could speak.

At this moment, Xie Xu was extremely gentle, he lowered his eyes gently and harmlessly, looking at Guan Qing, like a big dog circling around his feet.This kind of Xie Xu seems to be two completely different people from the Xie Xu who is caught in extreme emotions, Guan Qing is very at a loss.

After being together for eight years, he still hasn't fully understood Xie Xu.

Or... Xie Xu never let go of his heart.The thanks in front of him are always gentle and harmless, at best a little childish, sometimes immature, and outspoken.But he had never seen Xie Xu like yesterday.

Whether Xie Xu has changed, or Xie Xu has been acting in front of him...he doesn't know.

Guan Qing was a little frustrated.

"Baby, concentrate." Xie Xu bit his lip dissatisfied.

Xie Xu's tongue drove straight in, attacking cities and land, and his hands were not honest.

After the kiss, Guan Qing was about to cry.

"Who did you learn from, how—"

There was mist in front of his eyes, but he didn't expect that it was just a kiss, and he was about to collapse.

Xie Xu smiled softly, held his Adam's apple in his mouth, and asked, "Did you figure it out?"

Guan Qing didn't react at all, and his whole body was still immersed in the numbness like an electric shock: "Guess what?"

"Ye Zi is a witch, you are a knight, what am I?" Xie Xu bit the back of Guan Qing's neck.

"Woo——" Guan Qing curled up his toes tightly, and after a long delay, he said, "Is...the little prince?"

"Wrong, you have to be punished."

Xie Xu undid the first button of Guan Qing's shirt with his teeth.

He picked up Guan Qing and asked Guan Qing to straddle him.Guan Qing looked down at him, her lips were ruddy from being kissed fiercely, and her eyes were glistening: "Big dog?"

"No," Xie Xu lowered his head and unbuttoned the second button, laughing softly, "There are still four or five buttons left, baby, come on."

"Princess?" "Little Red Riding Hood?" "Big Bad Wolf?"...

Xie Xu shook his head one by one.Guan Qing put his hands on Xie Xu's shoulders, and said discouragedly: "I won't guess, I—"

"Baby has become stupid." Xie Xu supported his waist with both hands, raised his head and looked at Guan Qing, and said with a naughty smile: "You are a knight, of course I am..."

"Horse."

Guan Qing sat on him, her whole face flushed instantly.

"Riding a horse, Lord Knight." Xie Xu bit his collarbone, full of hints.

"Can you not ride?" Guan Qing was helpless.

"No, Ma disagrees."

The author has something to say: [Small Theater]

n years later.

A certain friend: Guan Qing, can you ride a horse?

Guan Qing: No.

Xie Xu: He lied to you, he will.

Guan Qing: ...

(A lot of people are begging to abuse Xu Xu? What Xu Xu did will be explained and punished in the future)

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