silent garden

"Where have you been? Who is he?" Fei Tianlan Xingshi asked, gritting his teeth.After speaking, his lips were tightly pursed, and the jaw line was stretched like a stiff bowstring.His eyes were firmly fixed on his face.

Xia Qi seemed oblivious to this, and entered the door with lowered eyebrows.He took off his shoes and changed them, then walked to the stairs.The whole process was quiet and light, and he didn't know whether to regard himself as nothing or Fei Tianlan as nothing.

When he stepped on the first step, Fei Tianlan grabbed his arm from behind.

The force was so strong that anger was revealed, and the flesh hurt from the pinch.Xia Qi raised his hand and twitched, but couldn't break free.I wanted to turn around and try to break free, but the strength in my arm loosened by itself.Before he came back to his senses, he suddenly flew into the air, and it was Fei Tianlan who hugged him horizontally.

He subconsciously hugged Fei Tianlan's neck, and then let go.Seeing this, Fei Tianlan snorted coldly in his nasal cavity, showing a bit of complacency in his sullen anger.

He just carried him upstairs.Xia Qi didn't struggle to get off the ground, but he didn't cooperate with the hug.Stretch your body loosely and spread your arms.

Although he was thin, he was still a grown man with a height of nearly 1.8 meters. It was a bit difficult for Fei Tianlan to hold him when he was spread out like this.Arms tightened, and he pressed the person into his arms, took big steps to speed up, and walked to his room.

The bed here is much larger than Xia Qi's, and it is also much more luxurious and comfortable.

He threw him on the bed, then pushed him up.

"Xia Qi, look at me." He squeezed Xia Qi's chin, so that the other's face was facing him, but still he could only face the two curled eyelashes.The room was brightly lit, casting thin shadows on the eyelashes.

Xia Qi's cheeks were reddish after drinking, showing a seductive and bewildered obsession.

He is also very good-looking like this.This thought flashed through his mind, and Fei Tianlan immediately cursed "Stupid | B" to himself, his chest full of irritability and anger.

He squeezed his chin even harder, grinding his teeth and said, "Is that why you don't want to look at me again?"

Hearing this, Xia Qi twitched his eyes, turned his eyes from the corner of his vision for two minutes, and stayed on Fei Tianlan's face extremely stingily for two seconds.Then he immediately withdrew his gaze, closed his eyes and didn't look at anything.

"You..." Fei Tianlan felt a mouthful of anger rushing up his throat.

This glance was perfunctory to the point of contempt, which instantly fueled his anger.He exploded immediately, reached out to the top of his head and grabbed Xia Qi's hair, fixed his head firmly, and kissed him down forcefully.

No greeting, no response.Not even any emotion, not even anger and anger - Xia Qi is completely ignoring him, even the infringement can be regarded as non-existent!

Thinking of this, Fei Tianlan became more and more mad.The other hand pushed away Xia Qi's hand that was hanging by his side, and poked it in from the hem of his waist.Touching his waistline, walking to the front abdomen, and then up... At the same time he touched the small grain, Xia Qi held down his hand that was about to move.

He paused, parted his lips and tongue, and looked at him from a distance.

"You are willing to see me."

"Do not touch me."

They spoke together.At the same time, Xia Qi grabbed his restless wrist.As if disgusted, he pinched it with his thumb and index finger, pinched it out of his clothes, and moved it away from his body.

Fei Tianlan's scalp was numb, he held his breath, and kept silent.Just staring at Xia Qi's eyes, trying to see clearly what's inside.But in Xia Qi's slightly drunken eyes, there is nothing else but the bewilderment after drinking and a trace of involuntary dullness.

"Fei Tianlan, if you dare to touch me, I will sue you for being a woman."

This is the second sentence Xia Qi said to Fei Tianlan in half a month.The first sentence is "Don't touch me" just now.

Fei Tianlan never knew that his tone could be like this.cold.Like a piece of ice frozen in the freezer layer of the refrigerator, it feels dry to the touch and is so dry that it can prick your hands.Even the voice has changed.So strange.

The Xia Qi he knew had a cold face and a soft heart.Although she has a lot of eyes and loves to pretend to be good, she is really gentle and careful.He always had breakfast and supper ready for him, and he was always waiting for him.In such a cold family, it is only because of him that he can feel at home. They are as gentle as a husband and wife.

All the Xia Qi he owns are not the one in front of him.This Xia Qi, he dare not embrace, dare not possess.Looking at it, I shudder in my heart.

"Go down." This Xia Qi said.

He moved his lips and found that his throat seemed to be locked and lost some functions.Xia Qi didn't wait, just pushed him away and sat up.He thought he was going to leave, so he stretched out his hand to pull, but he didn't dare to really touch the other person's skin again, and only grabbed the hem of the clothes with two fingers.

Xia Qi lowered his head and glanced at the hem of his clothes, feeling a burning pain in his heart.

The dizziness and unconsciousness caused by alcohol were all driven away for a while.He felt that his mind and heart were extremely clear, because he could clearly feel how the burning area in his heart was widening and deepening.In just a short time, a hole was unstoppably burned.

"Fei Tianlan, do you remember what I don't like about you?" He asked with an inaudible sigh, turning his head to look at Fei Tianlan's face.

Soon, he came up with the answer.

Fei Tianlan didn't remember.

He raised the corner of his mouth, pulled out a smile, and said: "I don't like you to use others to like you to do whatever you want. Even if others give you a little like, it should not be taken for granted by you to satisfy your selfish desires. "

Fei Tianlan's breathing stopped for a moment, and he immediately remembered the last time he heard similar words.

That was when he proudly showed off to Xia Qi that he had accepted Kang Jiani for his own use on the first day of Jin Chuangxing.At that time, Kang Jiani obviously had a good impression of him, and he did use this good impression to hang Kang Jiani's loyalty.

"It's not the same thing, me and you..."

"Same." Xia Qi interrupted him, sat a little further away, looked down at him, and his smile was even more sarcastic, "There are some things you won't say, so let me help you. Have you ever thought about talking to him?" I talk about feelings, you like my body, but you don’t admit that you are gay, and you will never go this way. You think, I will only stay until the Chinese New Year, so you just want to play with me until the Chinese New Year. When the time comes, I If there is no sad performance, we will dissolve the relationship peacefully and let it go. If I look a little sad, you may be generous to break up with me. After all, couples who are not married will break up. If you are willing to say that, you can I admit it. Right?"

Correct……

No.

wrong.

Fei Tianlan wanted to answer something, but none of the answers seemed right.He struggled to organize his words, and said with difficulty: "I don't have that... I don't just have a heart for fun, Xia Qi, if you were a girl, I would marry..."

"I'm not." Xia Qi shook his head, got out of bed, and stood at the end of the bed looking at Fei Tianlan.

It's only the distance of a bed, but they seem to be far apart from each other.Fei Tianlan could hardly see his expression clearly, only heard him say: "Don't use this argument to justify. The object of your words is not me, but your fantasy. I don't want to be your fantasy."

Fei Tianlan lowered his head, clenched his teeth together, and frowned deeply.For some reason, the tip of the tongue secreted a bitter taste.He didn't dare to move, otherwise the pain might spread throughout his mouth.

They faced each other silently.

An Jing stretched people's experience of the passage of time extraordinarily long. I don't know how long it has been. Xia Qi said softly: "I can't play with you anymore, otherwise, I will hate you in the future."

He raised his hand and waved lightly, "Good night."

Soon after, all the lights in Fei's house were turned off, and the house fell into darkness and silence.At dawn the next day, Fei Tianlan got up and went out.The silence of the house was briefly broken by the sound of a car.After a while, silence was restored again.

Xia Qi woke up and heard the sound of the car going away.He stared at the window and saw the faint morning light outside.I didn't fall asleep again after that, and stayed in a daze like this for a long time.

At seven o'clock he got up, washed, and went downstairs to make his own breakfast.At eight o'clock, do housework.The house is very big, starting from the kitchen and tidying up to my own small room.At twelve o'clock, the noodles were cooked.After that, he spent the whole afternoon reading in front of the window facing the garden in the living room.As the sun went down and evening came, he made soup from the last bones in the refrigerator.

At eight o'clock, Fei Tianlan didn't come back.

At nine o'clock, Fei Tianlan didn't come back.

At ten o'clock, Fei Tianlan didn't come back.

At twelve o'clock, Fei Tianlan didn't come back.

At two o'clock in the morning, Fei Tianlan didn't come back.

At seven o'clock in the morning, Fei Tianlan didn't come back.

At nine o'clock, Xia Qi put the remaining soup in a clay pot and put it in the refrigerator, holding the suitcase in one hand and the household garbage in the other.Get out, lock the door.The key is placed under the small potted plant by the door.Get out of the yard and lock the door.The key was thrown back into the yard through the gap in the gate.

"I wish you a bright future and a happy life. Goodbye." He said softly.

The house was empty, Fei Tianlan was first told by the smell of the air.

It has been two days since he returned home, and the premonition came too hard to find the source.When driving close to home, when the building appeared in the field of vision, there was a sudden feeling of emptiness, which made people palpitate.So much so that he parked on the side of the road.

He looked at his home from a few distances away, and he smelled that the air around him was different from before.The down-to-earth, warm smell disappeared without a trace.He was a little afraid to go back.

After a while, he drove into the yard.The feeling of emptiness became more obvious.

Then he found the key on the ground, the key to the potted plant.He broke into the house, stood at the porch but couldn't move forward.The answer is no longer needed.Looking around the field of vision, everything becomes uncomfortable.He licked the corner of his mouth, clenched his fist again, and took a step forward.

No.

He felt a chill, and took that step back.Grab the car keys, turn around and go out, lock the door, and return to the car.Immediately, I couldn't wait to drive the car loudly, and drove quickly into the slowly falling night.

In Fei Tianlan's memory, he didn't know when Xia Qi left, and he never asked.For half a month after fleeing from his home, he arranged himself in the company and on business trips, no matter how bad he was, he would be happy.Work and parties fill up all the time, and the days are filled to the brim.

He was still afraid to go home, but he didn't know what he was afraid of.

In fact, after discovering that Xia Qi was gone, the first thing that came out of his heart was relief. "Fear" spread throughout the entire neural network bit by bit later.It was densely covered with things, but he didn't dare to carefully distinguish what those things were.

He felt both despicable and pitiful.But in the final analysis, it is helplessness.

After stretching for half a month, he went back to the house, looking at such a big building, he felt helpless.

He should have tasted this helplessness the day Fei Sanjiang was taken away, but Xia Qi's existence delayed it.He should have had nothing long ago, and it was Xia Qi who made him think that he still had something.

And now, he really has nothing.

It was so cold in November, and he squatted on the doorstep, hugging his legs to keep out the cold.He buried his head in his knees, silent tears fell on the thin summer trousers that had not been changed with the seasons, and soon soaked a large area.

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