silent garden

Among the injuries that people can remember, the small details are much more tenacious than the vigorous events.From the moment they were discovered, they grew up on disappointment.Every time the owner looks back, they grow a little.

In Xia Qi's mind, Fei Tianlan's hesitant steps, erratic eyes, and restless mood... always surfaced uncontrollably.Especially when he saw Fei Tianlan.

He originally thought that he could be like Xia Tian, ​​even if something unexpected happened, he would keep his appearance as usual.But the next morning, he realized that he didn't want to get close to Fei Tianlan, or even meet him.

Because every time I see Fei Tianlan, it's like being reminded once: You expected him, but your expectations failed, you are a fool. "You're a fool," with a feeling that borders on humiliation.It outweighs the sadness of the disappointment itself.

In contrast, Fei Tianlan did a lot better than him.

When I got up in the morning and met him, I greeted him with a smile: "Good morning!" But instead of approaching him intimately, I carefully kept a safe distance, which was a bit alienated compared to the previous state.

Xia Qi looked at him, his throat seemed to be blocked by something, it was swollen and painful, and he couldn't speak a word, even the syllable "um" was uncomfortable.

So he walked past him soundlessly and went downstairs.

"Xia Qi!" Fei Tianlan called him, his voice trembling.

He also trembled.The resentment in his heart came out uncontrollably and entangled his heart.He thought of Fei Tianlan the day before and looked back at that scene.And so that little detail grows and spreads.

He knew what would happen if he responded to Fei Tianlan's greeting - Fei Tianlan would smile at him softly and flatteringly, coax him, and maybe act like a baby.He will soften his heart and have to accept those overtures.Then Fei Tianlan would think that this page has been turned over, and because he pampered him, he must also turn over accordingly.

But he didn't.A heart that has had expectations and love and is broken will be full of fine marks, and it will be repaired with needles and threads.He has to deceive himself, whitewash himself, and wrong himself even more in order to maintain that "as usual".

And he didn't want to.

Therefore, he never spoke to Fei Tianlan again, never made breakfast, and never left a lamp waiting for someone to go home late at night.

In doing so, he felt pain and pleasure in his heart.

Two weeks later, Xia Qi submitted this special thesis to Professor Ye and his school supervisor.The moment I pressed the send button, I felt a sense of relief in my heart.He then opened the air ticket ordering web page and selected a flight ticket to go home.

"Where are you going?" Zhou Huailuo packed his things and was about to go home from school. He passed by Xia Qi, glanced at his computer screen inadvertently, and stopped to ask.

"go home."

Zhou Huailuo bent over to look at the screen, "The day after tomorrow? Isn't this too soon?"

"The dissertation is handed in, and if there are any revisions, we can discuss it online." Xia Qi nodded, selected an afternoon flight in his hand, and clicked to book a ticket.

"Why do you walk so fast?" Zhou Huailuo pulled a stool and sat down, pinched his fingers and moved his hand away from the touch pad, "I haven't had a good time with you yet. It's the weekend soon, you're done Let me show my performance this weekend."

"Oh." Xia Qi sighed, and looked at him fixedly.

The two looked at each other for a moment, and Zhou Huailuo let go of his hand: "Well, I know you don't want to spend more time with Fei Tianlan. But think about it, how long does he only stay at home a day? I've seen him a few times."

Xia Qi said coldly: "I see it every day."

"Then you go and tell him?"

Xia Qi's tone became colder: "No."

Zhou Huailuo listened, and sighed, "Are you planning to leave without saying goodbye?"

"There is no need to say goodbye."

...what a ruthless man!Zhou Huailuo secretly thought.I shut my mouth and stopped asking.

Rationally, he also hopes that Xia Qi will stay away from Fei Tianlan as soon as possible.Xia Qi regards him as a friend, and Xia Qi acquiesces to many things that he guessed and said in his heart.Comparing his heart to his heart, he didn't want to see Xia Qi stuck in a hopeless relationship.

"Then after you go back, you should contact me often, and I will also go to play with you." He lay on the table sullenly, and looked up at the order to complete the payment, the page exited, and the computer shut down.

Then, Xia Qi turned to him and said, "I allow you to treat me to a farewell dinner now."

"What's for dinner? Can I go?" Tian Hua, who was passing by, asked enthusiastically.

Both Xia Qi's request and Tian Hua's appearance were caught off guard.Zhou Huailuo was speechless for a while.

"I'm going home the day after tomorrow." Xia Qi explained to Tian Hua.

Tian Hua: "Go back to your school?"

Xia Qi replied: "Yes!"

"That should be practiced for you." Tian Hua said honestly, and took out 200 yuan from his schoolbag, "Count me in."

Zhou Huailuo looked at it, and quickly settled the score in his mind.Tian Hua offered two hundred. If he joined like this, for the sake of fairness and equality, he would also pay two hundred.It's only 400 yuan, what can I eat?This will not work.

"No, you put it away. I'm a big brother, I'll take care of it." He resolutely stuffed the 200 yuan into Tian Hua's hand, picked up his schoolbag, and pushed them as if afraid that Tian Hua would talk too much. The two went out. "Hurry up, hurry up, or the subway will be crowded!"

Zhou Huailuo chose the place where he took Xia Qi to dinner for the first time.He was kind of commemorative.Xia Qi understood.

During this meal, Zhou Huailuo ate a little sullenly, talking a lot less than usual.On the contrary, Tian Hua was very curious, and asked Xia Qi about the industry situation in N City.Xia Qi himself hadn't had much contact with social enterprises, so he probably shook his head and couldn't figure it out.

Zhou Huailuo listened to their nonsense for a while, and couldn't bear to listen, so he called Lu Zhao.In the end, he taught Tian Hua and said: "Gong Lu is an experienced engineer anyway, and the employment guide should be done by reliable people!"

He was talking to Tian Hua, but he was looking at Xia Qi from the corner of his eyes.Worry blindly.Xia Qi thought.However, he was soft but not hard, and he couldn't bear Zhou Huailuo's kindness, and he didn't show his dislike for Lu Zhaolai.

Not long after, Lu Zhao arrived.Still wearing a white coat for work.He should have come right after work.

He has broad shoulders and long legs, thin but not weak.The gold-rimmed glasses on the bridge of the nose look very elegant. When the eyes behind the lenses are not smiling, their eyes are particularly focused and firm, with a unique temperament for scientific researchers.His steps are wide, and the white coat is often lifted by the air, revealing the black shirt tied in the waistband of his trousers.The strong waistline is looming under the shirt.

He was so striking.Many people who saw him in the hall couldn't help but take a few extra glances.

Zhou Huailuo snapped his fingers at him: "Gong Lu, here!"

He walked across half of the hall, carrying a handbag in his hand, stepped forward and handed it to Xia Qi, with a smile on his face, and said: "Xiao Luo said, you are going home soon. The news is too sudden, I also I haven't had time to prepare anything, this is for you."

Xia Qi stood up, still holding something in his mouth, a little at a loss for the gift at hand.

"Take it, it's not something expensive, it's just a set of books." Lu Zhao was decisive, and put the bag on his chair.Then he went to the seat next to Zhou Huailuo and sat down, "Master Zhou treats you, I had a big meal."

Zhou Huailuo grinned, and raised his hand to beckon the waiter: "I want to add more wine, let me see the wine list." The waiter showed him the wine list, he glanced at it, and ordered one, "One bottle first."

Xia Qi squeezed Zhou Huailuo's wrist under the table, Zhou Huailuo looked over and saw "what are you doing" written in his eyes.She smiled and patted the back of his hand reassuringly.

After a while, Xia Qi received a secret WeChat message from him.

"Save you from fire and water."

"Coldness is not the best way to restore people, the past is. The new man replaces the old man, which is the fastest way to help people get over."

"I forgot to tell you that Lu Gong is going to Beiliang's branch factory to give technical guidance, and he is also in N City."

"You have to get along well, he is very nice."

"Follow Lu Gong, and you don't have to worry about your future."

"comeon! moveon!"

Xia Qi: "..."

Three of the four are student minded.It is easiest for students to gather for a meal. After eating a full meal and chatting with each other, it will be over.Xia Qi was the protagonist, so he drank most of the bottle of red wine.Zhou Huailuo and Tian Hua shared some, and Lu Zhao drove over to replace wine with tea.When he finally left the restaurant, Xia Qi was a little shaky.

He heard Zhou Huailuo say: "You send the two of us first, and then send Xia Qi back."

Oh, isn't it?Obviously, the person who drank the most should be sent first... He got up, supported Zhou Huailuo by the passenger seat, and expressed his objection.

The latter turned back and patted his face, and said righteously: "Tomorrow we all have to work in the laboratory early in the morning. After you hand in your thesis, you can sleep until the end of time!"

Tian Hua grabbed his shoulders from behind and echoed, "Eldest brother is right, just lie down and take it easy. After I get out of the car, the entire back seat is yours!"

This also makes sense...the main reason is that it is much more comfortable to lie down sideways.Xia Qi thought about it in a daze, closed his eyes and fell asleep without further objection.

I don't know how long I slept this time, but it was Lu Zhao who came to the back seat to call him.Patting his face lightly with warm palms, he called him in a low voice, "Xia Qi, wake up, you're home."

Waking up with alcohol is a hard thing to do.With little experience, he struggled a bit and couldn't sit still.He threw his head back and almost lay down again.Only the right arm barely supports the body.

"Come on, I'll help you." Lu Zhao said softly, stretching out his arm through his armpit to stabilize him, and protecting his head with his free hand to prevent him from hitting the car door.He wanted to say thank you, but he couldn't say a complete word when he opened his mouth, so he let out a breath first.

This is so indecent.He couldn't help blushing, and murmured, "Lu Gong, I'm fine, myself..." Before he finished speaking, Lu Zhao was holding him up.He had the illusion of falling into someone else's arms, and was momentarily stunned.

"I'll take you to the door." Lu Zhao patted him on the back and whispered comfortingly in his ear.

The less strength and self-care ability, the richer and more complete the imagination.Xia Qi sketched out their current appearance in his mind - he was almost hanging on Lu Zhao's body, and Lu Zhao leaned forward to reach out the gift he gave him, and this time he hugged him even tighter.When they had just talked, Lu Zhao's breathing was right next to his ear.Well, they look like they're rubbing shoulders...

"Ha ha." He laughed for no reason.

Lu Zhao was a little puzzled, and looked down at him: "What are you laughing at?"

"...No." He tried to clear his mind a bit, and said with a correct tone, "Thank you Lu Gong."

Lu Zhao smiled and said nothing, supported him with one hand, and pushed the courtyard door with the gift-carrying hand.Go across the yard to the door of the house.Xia Qi took out the side pouch of his schoolbag with his backhand, took out the key, and was about to insert it into the lock when the door opened from the inside without warning.

Fei Tianlan stood by the door coldly.

Lu Zhao had heard about Xia Qi, the landlord, for a long time, or rather, he had heard about the Fei family.Seeing Fei Tianlan, he was not surprised. He nodded politely with a smile and said, "Mr. Fei, hello. Xiao Xia drank a little too much. I'll take him back."

Fei Tianlan replied blankly: "I'm sorry to trouble you."

"Xiao Xia." Lu Zhao called Xia Qi softly.Just as she was about to break away from him, she suddenly found that he was clinging to her strangely.

But it was only for a brief moment.Immediately afterwards, Xia Qi let go of him and stood firm.That climb was like borrowing two strengths from him to stand firm.

"Thank you Lu Gong, thank you for giving me a ride." Xia Qi stared at him, and his tone was difficult to grasp when he was slightly drunk, seeming too solemn.

Lu Zhao handed him the paper bag, "Take a good rest, it will be a while before we meet again."

Xia Qi nodded obediently and said, "Yes."

Lu Zhao left.

Xia Qi turned around and faced Fei Tianlan.

That was the scariest Fei Tianlan he had seen in a long time.

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