cross me with love

He Tangxi's interest is not very high these days, and he always looks a little gloomy.

Zhou Yiming knew the crux of He Tangxi's problem. He wanted Lin Jingyu to leave, but he thought Lin Jingyu left too readily.In fact, when facing feelings, people are so twisted, and they can't tell what they want.

Zhou Yiming only likes to pursue sexual pleasure. He feels that the relationship is too complicated, which is a burden to him. He doesn't know how to comfort He Tangxi, so he simply avoids talking about it. They all tacitly stopped mentioning the previous incident.

He Tangxi’s leg was ready for plaster removal. Zhou Yiming took He Tangxi to a Chinese medicine clinic in Chinatown to have the plaster removed. His bones were almost permanent, but still a little swollen. The doctor told him to rest more for the next two days. Do not walk around and do strenuous activities.

After the plaster was removed, He Tangxi felt a little uncomfortable. The skin that had been stuffed in the plaster had come into contact with the outside air again. Once the confinement disappeared, even the body became lighter.

On the way back, He Tangxi threw away his crutches, and slowly moved forward step by step. Zhou Ming was not in a hurry, and followed him slowly, and the two chatted while walking.

His legs were still a little weak, and He Tangxi still walked with a limp, but he felt fine.The entanglements that had been suppressed in his heart for a long time were blown away by the warm wind blowing in front of him, and He Tangxi felt extremely relaxed physically and mentally. His feelings for Lin Jingyu had troubled him for a long time, and would continue to trouble him in the future, but at this moment He Tangxi Tangxi didn't want to think about those things anymore.Lin Jingyu occupies a large part of his life, but it does not occupy the whole of his life. There is a saying that Zhou Ming said before that is true-only when you find yourself, you can find love.

He Tangxi had just embarked on a journey of finding himself, and being separated from Lin Jingyu in the true sense did not make him feel uneasy.Although He Tangxi still thinks of Lin Jingyu often, except for the time when he misses him, the rest of the time is no longer a difficult blank.

When Lin Jingyu didn't come to look for him, He Tangxi thought about what he would do if he really had no relationship with Lin Jingyu in the future. He would definitely be very sad, as painful as if he was going to die, but he wouldn't really die. , time will always smooth everything out, at least on the surface.After many years, they will slowly break the ice and start talking again. At that time, he must have sorted out his feelings, can face Lin Jingyu calmly, and sincerely wish him happiness.

He Tangxi thought a lot at that time, and also thought about what he would do if Lin Jingyu came to him and told him that he wanted to try together.He also knew that if Lin Jingyu would come to him, it would definitely be because he was afraid that something would happen to him, because of a sense of guilt and responsibility.

He didn't want that, he didn't want pity, he wanted falsehood.He wants authenticity and purity.

It's not that difficult for him to accept these three words. He is not paranoid about love.He understood very well, and he also hoped that Lin Jingyu could truly understand.

When he got home, Zhou Yiming immediately slumped down on the sofa, as if he had no bones. He took out his mobile phone and started watching. Within 2 minutes, he suddenly said, "Someone wants to rent a house."

"The one on the second floor?" He Tangxi asked.

"Look, he's still a Chinese, and he said he's coming to study abroad." Zhou Yiming swiped to look at the person's profile, and then handed the phone to He Tangxi for him to read, "I think it's okay."

He Tangxi intuitively felt that the purpose of this person renting a house was not pure, and that it might have something to do with Lin Jingyu, but he also felt that he was too self-indulgent. He had never seen this person before, and he and Lin Jingyu had already spoken, according to Lin Jingyu's character Probably won't come back to find him so soon.

"How long does he rent it for?" He Tangxi returned the phone to Zhou Ming, "Do you want to rent it?"

"It is said that it will be rented for one semester first, and the contract will be renewed at that time." Zhou Yiming answered the first question first. He propped his chin and thought for a while, "Let's rent it, anyway, that room was originally going to be rented out."

"I think it's okay, this person seems to be very easy to get along with."

Zhou Yiming nodded in agreement: "I think so too."

The matter of renting a house was settled just like that, but He Tangxi was still a little uneasy, he always felt a little strange.

That person came over this weekend and no one needed to pick him up. He said he could come by himself, but Zhou Yiming was so happy that he didn't have to pick him up. He felt a little better towards this new tenant.

On Friday, Zhou Yiming received a call from home, saying that his mother was sick and asked him to go back. The incident happened suddenly, and Zhou Yiming was also anxious to leave. He Tangxi asked Zhou Yiming to go back to visit his mother quickly. He can help with the new tenants first.

The person came at noon on Saturday, He Tangxi heard the doorbell and immediately walked over to open the door, the smile on his face froze immediately when he saw the person coming at the door.

Lin Jingyu stood at the door dragging his suitcase, and asked him politely, "Can I go in?"

He Tangxi turned sideways blankly, making way for Lin Jingyu, and when everyone walked in, he was still standing by the door and couldn't recover.

Looking at Lin Jingyu's figure, He Tangxi felt that the world around him had become blurred. He Tangxi seemed to be in a dream and hadn't woken up yet, feeling unreal.

Lin Jingyu walked to the center of the living room, saw that He Tangxi was still in place, turned around and walked towards him.

He Tangxi was still in a daze, his feelings were like a quagmire, firmly trapping him and keeping him in place, neither letting him advance nor retreating, he could only stand blankly, watching Lin Jingyu go come before him.

"New, are you the new tenant?" He Tangxi felt his throat dry up, and the words he spoke became obscure.

"Yes." Lin Jingyu nodded.

"Didn't you say that you are an overseas student?"

"He sublet it to me." Lin Jingyu replied frankly.

"Transfer? Sublet?" He Tangxi was a little speechless, and he immediately understood that this was Lin Jingyu's excuse. He Tangxi frowned, and asked him directly: "Did you do it on purpose?"

Lin Jingyu looked down at him, and his tone softened and became gentle: "I did it on purpose, so are you going to drive me away?"

He Tangxi couldn't do such a thing as driving Lin Jingyu out, but the feeling of living under the same roof with him made him really uncomfortable. His heart felt stuffy, as if a big rock was pressing on it, making it difficult for him to breathe freely. , but at the same time, there was a very subtle joy in my heart, like the grass growing tenaciously under the stone, pushing the stone out of a gap.

So people are such contradictions, such vacillations, obviously they have made enough mental preparations before and feel that it has nothing to do with him not going to see him anymore, but at this moment when he really faces Lin Jingyu, he is still the same. In a hurry, they were defeated.

"I, I can't make the decision, Zhou Yiming has to make the decision, he is the landlord." He Tangxi looked away, took out his mobile phone and was about to call Zhou Zhouming.

Lin Jingyu didn't stop him, and quietly waited for him to call.

He Tangxi was a little flustered, his hands were sweating a little and he couldn't turn on the phone with fingerprint recognition. Under Lin Jingyu's watchful eyes, He Tangxi finally turned on the phone and dialed Zhou Yiming.

The background sound on Zhou Yiming's side was messy, and his voice was a little tired: "Hey, Tangxi, what's wrong?"

He Tangxi repeated the matter to Zhou Ming.Zhou Yiming's reaction was a bit dull, he was not in the mood to pay attention to this matter now, and He Tangxi also noticed that Zhou Ming's mood was not right, Zhou Ming sighed before he could speak.

"Forget it. If you want him to live, you can live there. If you don't want him to live, let him pack up and leave." His voice became chaotic again, "I still have something to do here, so I'll hang up first."

After the phone was hung up, He Tangxi looked up, meeting Lin Jingyu's gaze.

"What did he say?" Lin Jingyu asked.

"What if he says he disagrees?" He Tangxi asked after consideration.

"Then I'll have to sleep on the street tonight."

He Tangxi glanced over Lin Jingyu's face, paused, and said, "Forget it, you just..."

He let out a breath, as if he would never be able to refuse Lin Jingyu: "You can live here."

Lin Jingyu hooked his lips: "Okay, thank you."

He Tangxi led Lin Jingyu to the room on the second floor, and introduced him: "The room is not sunny, it may be a little damp, the kitchen is on the first floor, and the health center is on the second floor, which is shared by everyone. Water and electricity are shared..."

Lin Jingyu listened absent-mindedly, and He Tangxi's introduction also lost interest.

Their current way of getting along makes He Tangxi feel very uncomfortable. They don't know what to say and what to do. Their friends are not friends, brothers are not brothers. In an awkward relationship.

"Your leg?" Lin Jingyu's eyes fell on He Tangxi's leg.

"I removed the plaster, and the doctor said that the bone has grown back and it's fine." He Tangxi replied quickly.

"Will it still hurt?" Lin Jingyu's tone softened again, it was too soft, which made He Tangxi feel an illusion of tenderness.

It will definitely hurt, especially at night, it feels like a bunch of ants gnawing on the bone, it doesn't hurt, but it's more torture than pain, but he shook his head and said, "It doesn't hurt."