cross me with love

"Brother." He Tangxi ran out quickly, ran to Lin Jingyu and looked up at him.

Lin Jingyu naturally took He Tangxi's schoolbag, took his hand, and led him home.He Tangxi was talking along the way, his voice was soft and milky, no matter what he said, he didn't feel annoying, just cute.

That was He Tangxi when he was a child, with plump baby fat on his cheeks, big flickering eyes, thick eyelashes, and crooked mouth when he smiled, like a doll on the counter.Lin Jingyu didn't know why Uncle He didn't care about this cute doll. He thought, if He Tangxi was his real brother, he would protect him very well and keep the best things in himself and in the world. give him.

But it doesn't matter that He Tangxi is not his real brother, he will protect him and give him the best things, Lin Jingyu held He Tangxi's hand tighter, he thought, he will stay by He Tangxi's side for the rest of his life, Guard him to grow up happily and safely.

"The teacher said that obedient children would reward little red flowers. I was very obedient in kindergarten, and the teacher rewarded me with many little red flowers." He Tangxi and Lin Jingyu shared what happened in the kindergarten.

"Well, that's great." Lin Jingyu realized that his voice was a bit childish, and he realized that he didn't seem to be much taller than He Tangxi. He looked down and found that he was wearing a uniform with short hands and feet. It is the clothing of the primary schoolchild.

"Brother," He Tangxi stopped suddenly, looked at Lin Jingyu pitifully, and asked him in a childlike voice, "If I'm always obedient, will you always treat me well?"

"Yes." Lin Jingyu heard himself reply firmly, "Even if you are not good, I will always treat you well."

He Tangxi smiled sweetly, he smiled very cutely, his eyes were bent into two crescents, and the pear hole at the corner of his mouth gathered all the sweetness in the world, as if there was nothing sweeter than his smile in the world.

He looked up at Lin Jingyu, his eyes seemed to contain thousands of stars.He said excitedly: "My brother is the best, I like my brother the most!"

Lin Jingyu opened his eyes and woke up from the dream, it was already dawn.

It took him a few seconds to realize where he was. Lin Jingyu didn't often dream, but he didn't expect to dream of He Tangxi so suddenly, of He Tangxi when he was a child.

There was a heavy object on his leg, Lin Jingyu turned his head to see that He Tangxi was sleeping soundly with his arms around his waist.

His sleeping posture is very bad, and he hasn't changed at all since he grew up, like an octopus, wishing that his whole body would stick to him.

Lin Jingyu stared at He Tangxi's face.

He Tangxi looks good, he is very friendly and handsome, and he looks even more harmless to humans and animals when he is asleep.He Tangxi's lips were moist, and he opened his mouth slightly. His breathing sound was very soft, and the hot and humid breath sprayed from his nasal cavity to his collarbone, causing a very slight itchiness.

In the dream, the face with baby fat gradually overlapped with the face in front of him. He Tangxi, who was soft and waxy when he was a child, is still soft and waxy when he grows up.I have hurt him so much, but he is still willing to open the door for him and say to him: "Come up."

Lin Jingyu's heart softened like a ball of cotton wool. Suddenly, a word appeared in his mind, the best word to describe He Tangxi - "innocent." Innocence, pure, innocent like a lamb.

The fog slowly dissipated, and the answer gradually became obvious.

If he was destined to fall in love with a man and spend the rest of his life with that man, that man would definitely be He Tangxi.

Apart from the sense of responsibility that has become a habit, apart from his elder brother's desire to control and possess his younger brother, he does have some other impulses towards He Tangxi.

For example, now, when he looks at He Tangxi's lips, he wants to kiss them.

This should be considered love, right?

The eyelashes fluttered like a butterfly's wings, and Sleeping Beauty's eyelids slowly opened in the next second. His eyes were bewildered, and he blinked again and again. After the third blink, he was completely awake.

He Tangxi realized his current posture. He silently removed his legs from Lin Jingyu's body, and let go of his arms around his waist. He retreated a little, distanced himself from Lin Jingyu, and then pretended to be Said to him calmly: "Good morning."

Lin Jingyu smiled at him and said, "Morning."

He Tangxi was a little embarrassed. He has always slept like this. When he was sleeping with Lin Jingyu when he was a child, he would wrap his hands and feet around Lin Jingyu. When he slept alone, these problems disappeared. He slept well and slept well. It's what it was like before, and it's what it looks like when you wake up.Unexpectedly, now that he has grown up and slept with Lin Jingyu, he has "relapsed".

He Tangxi was about to get up and get dressed in a hurry, he really didn't know how to face Lin Jingyu, courage seemed to belong only to the night, like Cinderella's crystal slipper, it would disappear automatically when the time came.

Last night he could lie on the bed with Lin Jingyu and tell him frankly his love for him, but in the morning he could only turn his head away and dare not look into Lin Jingyu's eyes.

"I, I'll go down first. I don't know if Yiming has woken up. If he's still asleep, you should pack it up quickly." He Tangxi said in a panic.

"Are you driving me away now?" Lin Jingyu asked.

"I," He Tangxi paused, his speech slowed down, and it was difficult to say every word, "Didn't we make it clear last night?"

"I won't go back, I'll stay here forever, and I don't want to see you again, at least not until you think it through."

He Tangxi could feel Lin Jingyu's gaze fixed on him, his cheeks began to burn, and the heat from that gaze penetrated through the small piece of skin along the blood vessels all the way to his heart.

He felt a dull pain in his heart.

He didn't want to force Lin Jingyu or threaten him to give himself a yesorno answer, he wanted love, not habit, responsibility and compromise.

He wants to be the one who is loved, and even more so, the one who is favored.

If Lin Jingyu couldn't give him these things, then he would rather not.He likes Lin Jingyu, and he can only do it until he likes it.

It doesn't matter if Lin Jingyu says no, although he will be sad and painful, but he is still young, he will have enough time to heal his injuries, and maybe he will meet another person in the future.

The more He Tangxi thought about it, the more sad he became. These comforting words did not make him feel better, and the pain surged in his heart, spreading up layer by layer.

He knew it was impossible, he might only like Lin Jingyu so far, but it was impossible to fall in love with anyone else.

Because no one picked him up from the cradle, and no one held his hand from kindergarten to today.

"Okay, I'll go." Lin Jingyu said in a low voice, and he also sat up and slowly put on his clothes, "I have to deal with some things at the company, and Uncle He..."

After a pause, Lin Jingyu continued: "You don't have to worry, I will tell Uncle He about it. Just concentrate on doing what you like to do."

He Tangxi responded sullenly with "um", and then added "thank you".

After finishing speaking, they seemed to have nothing to say between them. Before Lin Jingyu was about to speak, He Tangxi got dressed and hurriedly said "I'll go downstairs to have a look first" before rushing out the door.

Zhou Yiming got up early today and was sitting on the sofa cooking oatmeal. He glanced up when he heard some movement upstairs. He Tangxi walked down the stairs. Early?"

Zhou Yiming was about to answer when he saw another person coming down from upstairs.

He Tangxi looked a little flustered, he hurriedly wanted to explain to Zhou Ming: "That... I, not..."

"Forget it," Zhou Ming waved his hand, "I heard something last night but I didn't say anything. Do you have breakfast? I cooked cereal."

As he spoke, he gave Lin Jingyu another look, and said, "But I only cooked it for you, but he didn't."

He Tangxi smiled embarrassingly, walked to the sofa and sat side by side with Zhou Ming, Lin Jingyu also came downstairs, he walked up to Zhou Zhou, and said to him sincerely: "I misunderstood yesterday, I haven't told you yet. Sorry, sorry."

Zhou Yiming was stunned for a moment, and then reacted immediately.He is not a narrow-minded person. Although he was still angry, the remaining sullenness in his heart was dissipated when he heard Lin Jingyu's sincere apology. Besides...

Zhou Yiming looked at Lin Jingyu's cheek. The bruises on his face were much more serious than his own. They played two against one, except that they didn't react at the beginning and were pressed and punched by Lin Jingyu twice. After that, they basically didn't eat What a loss, everything that should be paid back has been returned.

Thinking of this, the last bit of dissatisfaction in my heart disappeared.

"Forget it." Zhou Ming waved his hand, "I won't pursue it anymore, this matter is over."

"Do you want to live here?" Zhou Ming asked, he thought that if Lin Jingyu wanted to live here, there was still a vacant room at home.

Before Lin Jingyu could speak, He Tangxi answered for him first: "No, he will leave in a while."

Zhou Yiming's gaze swiveled between the two, and he always felt that the relationship between the two of them was unusual.

Lin Jingyu smiled and said, "Yes, I have to go back to China."

He was speaking to Zhou Yiming, but his eyes were fixed on He Tangxi.The gaze was too explicit, not only He Tangxi felt uncomfortable, but also Zhou Yiming saw something wrong.

He Tangxi made a mistake to turn this matter over. Lin Jingyu also knew that He Tangxi needed time and space now, and it would be embarrassing for the two of them to get together. After a few words, he said that he had to catch a plane, and then left.

After Lin Jingyu left, He Tangxi remained silent, his expression was calm, but Zhou Yiming could see sadness from it.

Zhou Yiming asked He Tangxi: "In fact, he is not your brother? He is not a good neighbor either. Is he your lover? What happened between you..."

He Tangxi shook his head and said, "No."

"Me and him, we have nothing to do with each other."