ninety-nine twelve

The two-week vacation covered the preliminary competition in mid-April, and the competition fell in the one-day gap between the English and math exams. Although my spirit was tense from the beginning to the end of these two weeks, the days of The pressure is particularly high. The overlapping of exams and competitions made me have to make some choices. During this period, the training was greatly reduced. It is very unfavorable not to be able to maintain a highly unified energy state of the body in the early stage of the competition. Fortunately, this group The times and the distribution of opponents are relatively optimistic, and there should be no big problem in advancing.

This time, the competition went well and it went well, and if it didn't go well, there was indeed a little accident.

After the shots were fired, everyone set off, and the game was suddenly called to a halt by whistles. This kind of scene was rarely seen, and everyone was a little dazed for a while. They returned to the starting point one after another. The referee went to the main console to check the video. , The eight of us stood in our respective tracks and didn't make much noise. We could only look back and forth trying to understand what happened.

After a while, the referee brought back the result of the penalty for rushing, and the staff immediately asked the second player to leave the field. The audience was in an uproar. The slow-motion replay just now was played on the electronic screen inside. Hundreds of pairs of eyes looked at it, and it was indeed stolen.

Under the current rule system of "zero false starts", it is no longer realistic to try to exert psychological pressure on the same group of players with a false false start. The despised behavior in the industry was brought out as early as 2010 and the judgment was adjusted. A pre-emption was immediately punished to disqualify the competition to show the fairness to all contestants.

The Asian Youth Championship is not one of those little-known small-scale sports competitions. It is serious and formal, and flamboyance will not work here, not to mention that the participants are all good seedlings who have been cultivated seriously. It is impossible for everyone to understand the rules of the competition. But after all, age is here, strength aside, on the field, the first thing to fight is a stable psychological quality and ability to withstand pressure.

He may be nervous, or he may be too tense mentally. He is so concentrated that his body responds first, and the horse stumbles.

The two players left the arena angrily with pale faces, and order was quickly restored in the arena. The rest of the players adjusted their status and took their places to start the match again.

Nothing went wrong this time. My team crossed the line second, with an effective time of 10 seconds, which was slower than expected.During the process, the gap between me and my reference object, the Iranian player, widened visible to the naked eye, and when we crossed the finish line, we missed a stride.After I went back to the rest area, the coach patted me on the back and said nothing, but I knew he was not satisfied.

Afterwards, I didn't stay for long. After the final results were confirmed, I packed up my things and left first.

After the math test the next day, I went straight to the airport.I still have a chemistry subject to take as the last exam, which is a week away, so I have plenty of time, and Wu Haoyu told me that they will have graduation photos tomorrow, so I plan to go back directly.

The plane was delayed by five hours due to the foggy weather, and it was already past eight o'clock in the evening when I arrived. I took a taxi and went home. When I got home, I lay down on the sofa and finally relaxed.

I checked the time, guessed that Wu Haoyu should be home by now, so I called him.Before the call tone rang twice, Wu Haoyu answered it, and said in a normal way: "Hello?"

The noise around finally stopped, only his voice was left, and it took me a long time to say "hmm" in a muffled voice.

After that, Wu Haoyu didn't say anything more, and he said after a long time: "It's hung up, let's change the video."

He was walking around the room with his mobile phone, his hair was still wet, a towel was placed on his head, and he left it alone if it didn't drip.

I'm a little tired, and my head leans on the sofa cushion.

"What's the matter, didn't you run well or did you pass the exam?" Wu Haoyu returned to the room, leaned against the head of the bed, the camera finally stopped shaking, his eyes were as wet as his hair.

"No, it's all okay. I tried my best in mathematics and ranked second in the competition group."

"Isn't it what you expected, unhappy?"

I wrinkled my face, and I couldn't tell if I was unhappy.

"Is it because of the competition or because of the exam?"

I thought about it carefully, and said with certainty: "Competition."

"Then tell me about it."

"Yesterday there was a person..."

I roughly told Wu Haoyu what happened on the field in the afternoon, ignoring some of my dispensable emotions. Wu Haoyu looked like he was in a daze. After confirming that he had listened to everything, he said: "Is there anything else you haven't said?"

"Nothing."

"Really?"

"Really." I looked at him, and he looked at me. After a while, I lost my battle and argued with him in circles: "I miss you to death."

Wu Haoyu laughed and vomited over there, "Come on, you are disgusting."

I had fun with him for a while, but I didn't feel much more comfortable. After thinking about it, I opened my mouth: "Ayu, I'm not happy, I don't know why."

Wu Haoyu pondered for a while, "Then, you can just give an example—if this incident didn't happen like this, you would be happy."

I was startled, and said it was nothing serious, and indeed it was nothing serious, so I fell silent again.

Wu Haoyu is still patiently trying to guide me, he let me think of what to say, just say, I vaguely said a few words, Wu Haoyu got up, put the mobile phone on the table, held it in his hand Pen, bowed his head and began to write and draw. I asked him what he wrote, but he didn't answer, so I continued to talk about mine.

"Ayu, I haven't seen anyone make an early start in a big game for many years. How can you make such a low-level mistake? This is the most basic. If you can't even start well, you can run fast. What's the use of being fast? I remember that when we started running, we doubled our physical fitness. If we had been training hard all the time, the sound of the gun being fired would be burned into our brains. How could we dare to take a step before the gun went off? Did he do it on purpose or was he nervous? It probably wasn’t on purpose. How many years have passed since the adjustment of the penalties for early runs?

Wu Haoyu looked up at me, and replied, "Yes."

"I think it's a pity. The competition is not held every year. Every opportunity is very rare. The athletes can't use it up. In this situation, in the end, I can't say that I have tried my best, because it is not even because I am running slowly. Because of rushing, fucking rushing, think about it, if he has really suffered, he will be ruined all at once." I really don't know how to express myself, I was a little excited when I said this, and stopped I only exhaled for a long time, but the boredom in my heart still couldn't go away, "Forget it, it's really nothing, really, it has nothing to do with my fart."

After hearing this, Wu Haoyu finally stopped looking at me distractedly. He pursed his lips, but he didn't seem to intend to make a sound.

"It's good to take second place, but my goal should not be to take second place. I should use such a good group this time to improve my personal performance and strive for a good track in the next round of competition. But I may... I’ve been a little flustered lately, the exam is not the reason, I just didn’t worry about training, I thought I could advance no matter what, so I didn’t take this competition too seriously. Yesterday the man was sent off for a false start, so I didn’t That's the real feeling of a formal game, not a practice that I can keep repeating, and I can't be slack, and luck can't help me."

"Did the coach tell you?"

"No, he just didn't say anything, even if he scolded me, it's better than now." After opening this topic, I didn't dare to look directly at the screen, and I only occasionally glanced at the video when talking, Most of the time I looked down at my fingers, but this time I changed my gaze again, staring at the curtains in the room, and slowly squeezed words out of my mouth: "When I start running again later, I am afraid that I will also I ran away, ran out and didn't hear the whistle again, and I started to worry about the slow speed again. In just ten seconds, I was about to explode. Yes, the result went smoothly, and nothing happened again. But..." I closed my eyes hard, feeling that I was making myself more uncomfortable, "I don't want to disappoint the coach, I don't want to see someone get sent off the field because of a careless mistake, and I don't want to know that I am Because these insignificant things are affected."

My throat seemed to be blocked, and the tone of my voice was not normal, "I just want everyone to run to the finals smoothly and well."

After I finished speaking, I shut my mouth and didn't want to say a word more.The causal relationship between several key points in this day is actually unsatisfactory, but they appeared abruptly, and together they made me uncomfortable.

Wu Haoyu cleared his throat, faced the camera, and said, "Hey, I didn't expect you to think so much." After that, he was silent for a while, as if he was trying to organize his words, "First of all, let's get away with it, Let's take a ten thousand step back and say, you didn't snatch it, first of all we should be congratulated on this."

"Damn," I laughed angrily, "I won't be able to run away in my life."

Wu Haoyu raised his hand and put it in front of the screen, "Hey, hey, let me tell you, it's easy to say what you say, and I advise you not to brag. Let's continue talking, let's get ahead of the game, you just want the World Cup, Are red cards common in so many games in a session? Not common, of course, it may be a little more common than yours today, I want to say, this is of course not a good thing, but if it happens, it is a foul, it is a mistake, Sent off is to follow the rules. You can’t disbelieve in its strictness just because you haven’t experienced it before, and even if it happens, your mood will be affected by it. It’s not worth it. You Think about it, you were not the one who robbed, and you were sent off by an opponent, but you were scared and flustered and didn’t run well. Is it a loss or not? They played football, and the opponent was sent off a main force by a red card. How come you are on the contrary, you have to be more sober, this is a competition, and there is really no need for sympathy on the field. Then," Wu Haoyu was a little stuck, and glanced down, "Then it was not intentional, anyway I don’t think so from your description. As you said, the penalty rules have been changed a long time ago. If you can’t do this homework well, what kind of competition is there? I guess that person is nervous, or he doesn’t have enough training at ordinary times, and his performance is abnormal. It’s really a bit unreasonable, but it’s still the same sentence anyway, this incident didn’t happen to you, and his level doesn’t have any direct impact on you, so you shouldn’t be affected by this incident, I mean no matter it is Playing on the spot is still a matter of mental quality.”

After Wu Haoyu said that, his eyes started to wander again, he lowered his head and didn't know what he was looking at, I frowned and asked him: "What are you looking for?"

After hearing this, Wu Haoyu raised his head, and said nonchalantly: "I didn't find anything, so don't feel sorry for him. It's a pity, on the one hand, you should feel more ashamed for him. You should do it when you know it can't be done. Of course, I'm not saying He did it on purpose. I mean, this matter can reflect many other problems, such as his training, ability to withstand stress, luck, etc. Anyway, it’s really unlucky, alas, but I still believe in a saying, you The time and hardship you usually spend will help you in the end. Everyone stands at the same starting line, hears the same gunshots, and bears the same pressure. In addition to fighting for talent, what else can you think about? , Isn’t it just the hard work accumulated over time? Forget it, let alone his bad luck, why don’t others rush away? Why don’t you rush away? Why is it him? I think he should reflect on himself when he goes back. What he lacks is luck No, it's fucking training, starting training and anti-stress training, there is only one chance, if you can't grasp it yourself, you don't want to lose face."

"...Don't be so mean." I suppressed a smile, watching Wu Haoyu scolding others with hatred.

"You too, don't think you can be much better, you are just a little bit luckier than that person, how many years have you been training, tell yourself, has your ability to resist pressure improved? The psychological quality is enough for you next time Are you also lucky? You just didn't lose the chain this time, and you got the second place as expected, and your grades are not bad. Your coach has nothing to say about you, but your mentality is really bad. In the end you collapsed, what kind of logic is this? I know this is an important race, and you also want to run well from the beginning to the end, so you can’t take it lightly, don’t relax for a moment, really, you accumulate luck for yourself, It doesn’t run, but you can’t expect it to win you. Before it’s over, you still have to work hard, physically, mentally, and don’t be affected by anything. They have nothing to do with you. Just think about it when you run out. Just reach the end, ten seconds is very short, you have to treat it as a life and work hard, but don’t really treat it as a life.”

Wu Haoyu glanced down as he spoke, looking absent-minded. If he didn't sound perfunctory when he spoke intermittently, I would have doubted whether he was actually doing his homework.

"Then, finally, uh..." Wu Haoyu paused again, he frowned and looked down, and then said, "Why didn't I realize that you are so naive, everyone ran to the final together, you thought Running a marathon?" He laughed as he talked, and my face became hot when he said it, "This is how competitions are, and competitions are cruel. Everyone has a correct attitude and competes fairly and fairly. Don't be too busy doing things for others. It’s a pity, as long as I don’t feel that I’m a pity, it’s fine, just be content.” After finishing speaking, he looked at me, pursed his lips, and said, “The competition has not yet been successful, Tianle still needs to work hard.”

I put the phone on the stand, sat down with my arms folded, leaned back, and asked him, "Show me what the hell are you doing?"

"what?"

"What did you write just now?"

"It's nothing, just doing homework."

"Which subject, show me."

After a few more rounds, Wu Haoyu reluctantly lifted the paper in front of him, "Look, you can see a flower."

On that paper, he wrote down a lot of words in the way he took class notes. Although the handwriting was scribbled, the connecting lines of various supplementary explanations were also scattered here and there. Consciously getting closer, I can vaguely read a few words - the top one says rushing, and there is a curly bracket at the bottom. The numbers are the easiest to see. They are 2010, 10 and 2 respectively. I can recognize the small characters No, and further down, there are lines extending out. The keywords that can be seen clearly include football and pressure, as well as the word pity squeezed in the farthest corner, and the big cross above these two words.

Wu Haoyu impatiently asked me if I finished reading it, and put the paper down without waiting for my answer. Actually, I didn’t finish reading it and didn’t see it clearly, but at this time, I didn’t seem to need to delve into the paper anymore, I just bit my lip , took a hard breath, and looked at him silently.

Wu Haoyu is like all the warm things I can think of. He is warm water, hot springs, and yellow lights. His hair has dried naturally, and his bangs are messy on his forehead. His forehead must be very warm.

How can there be such a person in the world? Maybe I’m just in a bad mood today, maybe I’ll be fine tomorrow, and I don’t need him to spend a lot of time to give me psychological counseling, but he listens to my nonsense and smooths out my mess Logic, reasoning with me one by one, scolding me while also teaching me to vent my anger, in the end it is still encouraging me in different ways, being serious, and taking me seriously.

He hasn't changed, he's still the same guy I could reach out to on the flyover last Christmas Eve.

We just looked at each other silently for a long time, Wu Haoyu seemed a little embarrassed, when I was about to say something, I said before him: "Do you still remember, the night before the last qualifying match, I and During your video, I have something to ask you."

Wu Haoyu squinted his eyes in confusion, as if he couldn't remember such a thing.

"I was like, will you go to the final? If I run in."

"Yes, of course."

"Even if we're not what we are now?"

"Yes." He nodded as a matter of course, as if he didn't think there was anything wrong.

"why?"

When I asked this question, it seemed that Wu Haoyu was stunned by the question. He racked his brains for a while, and his expression was very funny, "There is no reason, I will go, and I want to see you."

"Then," I paused for a moment, actually I was cowardly once again, what was the question I wanted to ask at the beginning, but now I'm afraid when I think about it, "If I don't like you all the time, will you still like me?"

In terms of insatiable greed, I was probably the best at the time. On the surface, under the banner of being a brother, I rejected Wu Haoyu with righteousness and heartbreak, but secretly I was afraid that he would really dislike me because of a few words from me. I don't want to respond, but I hope he will always like me.

"What's the matter, what do you want to do, relying on me to be rare to you all the time, and be a complete trash?" Wu Haoyu explained my thoughts of wanting to hide before, which made me a little embarrassed.

"Cough," I cleared my throat unnaturally, "the first half of the sentence is correct, but the second half is wrong now."

Wu Haoyu let out a muffled hum from his nasal cavity, and looked at me lazily, "You are so beautiful."

"I'm stupid and bad, and I know that."

"No, you are not." He suddenly smiled and added: "I have wronged you."

I didn't know why, so I asked him: "Why are you wronged?"

Wu Haoyu's half-hanging head dangled in the air for a week. I thought he would speak slowly when he thought about it. He seemed to have tried several times to say something, but he remained silent in the end. We didn't talk for a while, Wu Haoyu pursed his lips and pulled out a smile, which made me feel uncomfortable.

"Don't laugh like that, what's wrong?"

He still pursed his lips, and he seemed to be biting the flesh in his mouth with his teeth. I was thinking about whether I said something wrong just now, and Wu Haoyu finally said: "I really like you, I don't want to apologize, so I have to say I have wronged you."

In fact, I don't quite understand what Wu Haoyu's words mean, but looking at his appearance, I don't dare to ask.

"It's okay, I don't know what I'm talking about, it's late at night, people tend to be hypocritical." After finishing speaking, he yawned cooperatively.

"Ayu, I am not wronged." I said.

"Okay, don't be wronged, it's good, then go to bed early, I won't tell you, I'm sleepy, see you at school tomorrow."

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