ninety-nine twelve

I was in class in the morning, and the phone in my drawer started vibrating.It's not the kind of message notification that just vibrates and it's over, but the continuous phone vibration. I took it out and peeked at it. It was an unknown number. I didn't think about it. After hanging up, I threw the phone back into the drawer, but The caller seemed to believe that he had not dialed the wrong number, and they called again after a while. Many students around heard the buzzing vibration and cast dissatisfied glances at me.

I had to completely mute the phone.

Finally after class, I took out my mobile phone, and there were more than a dozen missed calls on the screen, all of which were from the same unknown number. An unfamiliar yet familiar female voice.

Fang Jiaying.

My head seemed to be emptied all of a sudden, and it took me a long time to come back to my senses. I changed my language and answered her.I stood up and knocked down all the stools. The classroom is too noisy for talking. I need to find a quieter place.

I raised my head and met the inquiring gaze of Wu Haoyu in front of me, my heart was inexplicably shaken, but I still went out with my mobile phone.

Fang Jiaying said that she hadn't contacted me for a long time, and asked me how I was doing. She couldn't add me back as a friend through various channels, so she had to call me. She was afraid that I would hang up if I heard her voice, but I could keep listening. She talks, she's happy, she's been alone since then, and she's always missed me too.

I talked to her on the phone for most of the class in an empty corridor, and she kept talking, but I just listened silently most of the time, answering occasionally, and the more I wanted to end the call as soon as possible.

I told her I was going back to class.

I've got to go back asap, there's a guy in the room, he's probably going to be cranky.

The back door of the classroom was closed. I had no choice but to call the report from the front door to enter the classroom. The substitute teacher didn't make things difficult for me. I walked to my seat. Wu Haoyu looked at me all the way, a little worried.

I was upset all morning. I still haven't figured out what Wu Haoyu said that day, and I haven't figured out what happened with him. Fang Jiaying came to me again, and all the troubles came together.I started to feel scared again for no reason, and my whole body was flustered and flustered, as if I had formed a physical shield, and it was difficult to hear the sound around me, and the chaotic whistling in my ears made my head hurt.

What is wrong...

When school was over at noon, I would leave with Wu Haoyu. Usually lunch is only a hundred meters away from the school, but today I went all the way to the subway station. Wu Haoyu asked me where I was going, but I couldn't tell, I just said to take the subway.

I wanted to hold his hand on the subway, but he clenched his fist and put it behind him without a trace. Look here, I told them what to look at.

Wu Haoyu withdrew his strength, frowned and looked at me, and I said, "I have something to tell you."

"say what?"

Wu Haoyu is always like this, always open and frank, accepting everything.I have a mess of things I want to say, about me wanting to hold his hand, about my absenteeism, about the phone call in the morning, about him telling me not to make trouble, but when it really comes to my mouth, it seems that none of it is worth mentioning. He is here now, ten thousand trivial things are not as meaningful as me having a meal with him.

I swallowed the words back to my stomach, took a step closer, and gently patted his head, "It's nothing, let's go to eat, the afternoon is self-study class, let's skip class to play, okay?"

Wu Haoyu hesitated for a while, then nodded silently. He didn't seem to like my touching his head very much, but he never dodged obviously. It's just that when I touched him, I didn't use any strength at all, but I could still feel his presence. Tilt your neck imperceptibly in the opposite direction.

Seeing his series of simple reactions, I felt a little uncomfortable. I never paid attention to it before, but this time I paid special attention to it, only to find that he has been following me. One thing, whether he wants to do it or not, as long as I ask Yes, he will always cooperate.

I suddenly wanted to watch Wu Haoyu eat.

He has a good eating habit, never leftovers, as long as it is not too bad to swallow, he will eat cleanly, not picky eaters, and will not waste food.

Wu Haoyu put his mouth on the edge of the bowl, and took a spoon to pick up the remaining food in the bowl bit by bit. He first bit off the rice grains stuck to the bowl wall, gathered them into small bites, and then pulled them into his mouth. He wanted to eat it in one bite, but there was much more left than he expected. After several mouthfuls, he still didn't clean it up, but his mouth was already stuffed to the brim. I couldn't stop, so I gave up taking a sip and started chewing. When I looked up, I leaned back in horror, quickly covered my mouth with my hand, and said vaguely: "What the hell are you doing?"

When I said I wanted to watch Wu Haoyu eat, I really wanted to watch him eat. I put my elbows on the table, rested my chin with my hand, remained motionless, and observed him with a smile on my face, "Look at you."

Wu Haoyu's face was wrinkled together, and he still covered his mouth with his hand, and choked out a sentence: "Look at the fart."

I couldn't help but chuckled softly, and pinched his chin with my hands, "Look at your delicious food."

It's cute to see you eating.

Wu Haoyu rolled his eyes, probably thinking that I didn't see it, and I didn't care, I just thought it was time.

"Ayu."

"what?"

"I like you."

"Oh."

"I like you."

"Ok."

The bowl was empty, and Wu Haoyu continued to bury his head in eating, without even looking at me, let alone expressing anything else. I was a little disappointed, knowing that this is not something that can be rushed, but I am really anxious, but I don’t know what to do. How hard is it.

In the afternoon, I brought Wu Haoyu back to my house. This is the first time he came to my house. I called him to come here before, but he always thought it was too far away and pushed him away. Anyway, he skipped class today. It was finally abducted him.

In fact, there was nothing to do when I got home. I took out the ps4 and connected it, and played games with Wu Haoyu all afternoon.I don't know if he is talented or something, and I don't usually see him playing games all day long. As a result, no matter whether it is mobile games or controllers, he is a little bit better than me, and he lost several games to me.

In the evening, when I was talking about going back to school for evening self-study, my doorbell rang suddenly. I was a little puzzled. My dad was in Hong Kong for the past two days.

I went to the entrance and opened the door, and the person standing at the door was Fang Jiaying.

The moment I saw her, I was really stunned on the spot. She had buried her face in the scarf, but when she saw me open the door, she showed her face and smiled at me, and called my name in a low voice.

Her sudden appearance caught me off guard. I was nailed to the spot, and an unknown fire slowly surged in my heart. She seemed to be a little frightened by my stare. Wu Haoyu also came over at this time, and met Fang Jiaying. Leng.

I suddenly thought of something, and quickly took the phone out of my pocket. I didn’t pay attention when I called her in the morning. I just thought it was a number I didn’t recognize. mobile phone number.

Fang Jiaying called me again.

It was the first time for Wu Haoyu and Fang Jiaying to meet. She came uninvited and found my house as soon as she came. She spoke Cantonese the first time, how could Wu Haoyu not think of who she was.

This scene is too bad, the three of us shouldn't be here at the same time, I need to do something quickly...

"Your girlfriend." Wu Haoyu spoke first, and asked me peacefully, without any bad expression on his face.

I was about to push Wu Haoyu to let him go back to the house first, but when I heard his words, before I could do anything, I looked at him in disbelief.

Wu Haoyu continued to say naturally: "That's just right, you guys talk, I'm about to go home for dinner."

He was holding the coat in his hand, and seeing that he was about to leave, I grabbed his arm, squinted my eyes, and threatened him: "You are not allowed to leave."

Fang Jiaying looked at our actions with a puzzled expression.

Wu Haoyu glanced at me, smiled, twisted his wrist vigorously to break away from my grasp, but said softly, "I'm leaving."

Wu Haoyu left, but I didn't catch up.

Maintaining my patience and politeness, I spent the whole night with Fang Jiaying, listening to her talk about the past absent-mindedly, indifferent.

Finally, she said, do you want to go back to the past.

I seemed to have heard some big joke, and asked her when she cheated on me before, did she cherish the past?Think it's so easy to go back to the past?

I yelled out a sentence, and Fang Jiaying was so scared that she couldn't speak. The second half of the sentence echoed vaguely in the living room, which gave me a blow.

I keep saying that I want to go back to the old me, and I finally know that it is difficult.

Then I used the past in my mouth to lie to him, how long have I been lying...

The evening self-study is over. When I returned to Wu Haoyu's house, he was cooking noodles in the kitchen. When he heard the sound of my door being closed and locked, he poked his head out to take a look, and asked casually, "Why are you back?" His tone was so normal that it couldn't be more normal. .

This question made me so angry that I took off my shoes and shouted fiercely inside: "Where can I go if I don't come back."

There was no response from the kitchen, so I went straight in, leaned against the stove, stared at him for a while, and asked, "Are you still able to eat?"

"Why can't I eat?" Wu Haoyu cracked an egg into the noodles while talking, looked up at me lightly, and asked me: "Do you want to eat?"

I didn't say a word, and he lowered his head to cook his noodles seriously.

The atmosphere was not right, and I made myself feel bored. I went out of the kitchen, walked to the dining table, pulled a chair and sat down. After a while, Wu Haoyu also came out with noodles. One bowl was placed in front of me, and the other bowl was for himself. Putting the chopsticks on my bowl, I started to eat on my own.

"...Ayu, what do you mean?"

"Ok?"

"Aren't you unhappy?"

"No."

"What about disappointment?"

"No."

"Then angry?"

"No."

I asked, and Wu Haoyu answered, eating his noodles while answering.

"Fang Jiaying appeared today, but you don't feel anything at all?" It seems that this is the first time I put the three words Fang Jiaying in front of him frankly and directly. When I mentioned her before, it was always "your girlfriend" "my girlfriend" ", we all avoid this specific name inexplicably, and now I bring it up to him, just to make him unavoidable.

Wu Haoyu paused for a while, chewed again, and swallowed. He poked the noodles with his chopsticks, looked up at me, "No."

This person really can't beat a fart with eight sticks. I was a little bit annoyed and laughed, so I asked him in another way: "Then what are we, we, to you? If she comes, you will leave, if you want to leave By when, do you have principles and bottom lines?"

Wu Haoyu put down his chopsticks, sat down, looked straight into my eyes, and said in a deep voice after a while: "Is the principle and the bottom line right? Yes, my principle and the bottom line are, I will never make things difficult for you."

My heart skipped a beat, and I secretly felt that something was wrong, I couldn't wait any longer, I couldn't continue to question and answer with him like this, if I didn't say a lot, it would be too late.

"It was Fang Jiaying who kept calling me this morning, but I really didn't know it was her. I found out after calling back. I actually have no reason to talk to her, but I have self-esteem. She cheated on me and dumped me. I haven't been out in one breath, and now that she can come back to me, I want to hear what tricks she can come up with."

"What do you say she is? She is my serious ex-girlfriend, right? I don't have any shady relationship with her, but I'm afraid you know, I'm afraid you will be unhappy and think about it, especially myself It's so messy, I don't have the mind to go to class at all, I want to stay with you, anywhere except school, so I encourage you to skip class and take you home, I have a lot to say, but when I'm with you At the same time, I feel that those messy things are not important at all. I was flustered to death, but I don’t feel flustered anymore when I’m with you."

"Then Fang Jiaying came. I really didn't know in advance. She was able to find my home because I brought her here before. I didn't pay attention when I called in the morning. She used a local number. I thought this was the end of the matter." It's over, I've dealt with it, but I really didn't expect her to find my home."

"She said she wanted to get back together, and asked me if I liked someone else, I said no, subconsciously said no, she asked me if I could get back together, since I didn't like others, why can't I be with her, is it because I don't like her anymore So I don’t want to get back together, but what she said seems to make sense, right? Then I thought about it, but luckily I didn’t get involved by her. When I said that I didn’t like others, I subconsciously wanted to say that I didn’t like other women. But I am not with her because of you, you are not someone else, I like you."

"Tianle," Wu Haoyu interrupted me, "You don't have to do this, you don't have to say these things, you don't have to explain so much to me, I don't care, I don't mind, you are free, you have a lot of choices, you don't care what I will do Think, how will I react, just do what you want to do, meet who you want to see, say what you want to say, just fine. I like you," he paused, sighed, and looked up To me, "I still like you until now, but you really don't have to feel pressured. I really didn't want anything from the beginning. If you really feel troubled, I can slowly stop liking you. I just need With a little time, we can be like before..."

"I told her that I'm with you." I also interrupted Wu Haoyu, I didn't want to hear him finish.

"Let me be more frank. Today, before Fang Jiaying appeared at my house, I probably didn't even think about my feelings for you. Maybe it's like you said, you are my good friend, you are my buddy, I'm afraid that if I don't respond to you, we will break up. I'm the so-called wronged myself. I'd rather be with you two men in a muddle than break up with you. One day is one day, and there will be nothing anyway. after."

"I thought this was what I was afraid of, until she appeared today, oh, how generous you are, before anyone said a word, you consciously returned to the identity of my friend, Ayu, she is not my girlfriend, early It’s not, it’s not you who should go.”

"She talked to me a lot later, talking about before now, is everyone so naive when standing still? Thinking that if you don't move forward, you will retreat, but people are changing every day, and I have moved forward It’s been so far away, I haven’t waited for her at the same place for a long time. When I heard her tell me that she wanted to go back to the past, I really felt ridiculous. How can someone be so naive? Who can stop at the same place and not go? It’s over. It’s the past, and no one can go back to the past.”

"So in fact, do you think of me the same way, when I told you to go back to the past? You said that you like me. I was confessed before. Which woman doesn't want to be together, so I think you are the same If you think about it, then we will only have one way, because I will definitely not like boys. I will give you a step and you will not go down, and you will not answer for you. I don’t want to be with you. You said there is nothing else but breaking Another choice?"

"I'm angry that you don't want to be friends in peace and contentment. You insist on destroying our friendship. I want to cut you off completely. I will have other friends. I have been angry [-] times, and I am angry again. I started to care about you for the thousand and one time, so I told you not to like me, wouldn't it be enough to get over this matter? How simple."

"I said we go back to the past, you cooperate with me, everything is just right, it's better for me to play with me, but don't let me misunderstand, but I am sick, I have a gap, you clearly say you like me , Why does it seem like you don’t like me overnight? You are the one who has other friends besides me. I don’t want to see you treat the girls well, play with others, or be with others. We can laugh and be happy together, I don’t want to see Xiao Junlei take you to smoke, I don’t want you to like him instead of me.”

"So what do you think I should do? If I continue to keep you from liking me, I won't be able to go back to the past, so I will compromise. It's no big deal. I thought two men were together, isn't it a man? As a woman, I think that since you will take the initiative to like men, you must be a woman. I will bite the bullet and do things about men and women. I will take you to clip dolls, because Fang Jiaying liked it before, and I will send you flowers, because girls They will all like it, and the reason why I asked you to have your ears pierced is because I can put on the name of a couple to make you happy, and there are many, many more, so many that I can’t remember them for a while.”

"Then I think we are back to the past, Ayu, did you laugh at me like I laughed at Fang Jiaying? In fact, it is also thanks to her. If she didn't show up today, I might still be confused with you like this It's so hard to go back, but I think it's so simple, I think it's good if I pretend to respond to you, but like you said, I think it's too complicated, it's in my heart If you can't make it through, you've already gone a long way, just like when I looked back at Fang Jiaying, I didn't want to go back at all."

I have been talking a lot smoothly, and I took a breath when I said this, and when I wanted to continue talking, my nasal cavity was sour.

"how about you?"

"What I'm afraid of is that I've been an asshole for so long, let you like me in an asshole, avoided you in an asshole, kept you in an asshole, was an asshole when I didn't like you, and remained an asshole after liking you, now I I know I'm an asshole, and now I don't want to continue to be an asshole, but what I'm afraid of is that I'm late, I'm too late, do you understand Ayu, I'm afraid I'm too late."

"Do you, don't you like me anymore? Don't you like me as much as you did at the beginning?"

"Don't mind, don't have your self-knowledge, don't tell me to go back to the past calmly, don't put yourself so low."

"I don't want to go back to the past, I want to go with you, I want to have a future with you, I like you, I want to love you, and I want you to love me."

"Do you understand Wu Haoyu?"

I have experienced too many moments when we broke up and reconciled at Wu Haoyu's house. This time, I finally spread out all of myself to tell him and show him.But none of the words I prepared seemed to be used. I didn't even have a chance to pick out the key points. What I had already told him was useless at all. I was afraid that Wu Haoyu wouldn't understand, and I couldn't express a thousandth of my heart , I still have a lot of things that I can explain to him. I know that I thought he wanted to be with me because I played too much. I didn't really want him to be a girl. I didn't believe him. He rubbed his hair only when he was cute, it was true to be jealous, it was true every time I kissed him afterwards, and it was true to say that he liked him.

After Wu Haoyu heard me finish speaking, he suddenly stretched out his hand to my face in a panic, his fingers randomly brushed my face, and he said, "Don't cry."

I just realized that I didn't just have a sore nose, but actually had tears falling down.

He came to me and squatted down, cupped my face with both hands in a panic, and wiped my nose with his thumb, his eyes were slowly turning red, and he repeated the same sentence over and over again: "Don't Cry, don't cry..."

Obviously I was the one who became an asshole, but now I am the one who is so wronged that I can't speak.

"Don't cry," Wu Haoyu sniffed, his eyes were wet, and he looked at me tenderly, "I'm waiting for you."

I couldn't figure out why he was so nice, and he was still wiping my tears at this moment, forgiving me for forgiving so easily.

He is my confidence, the only one who encourages me to believe in my dreams, the one who can reach me by reaching out, and the one who never lets me down.

Is someone I like.

The author has something to say: Finally! !good kids stay with good kids