ninety-nine twelve

Zhang Tianle and I got along inexplicably like this.

In fact, I am very sad. What Zhang Tianle did was what he told him to do, because I like him, so he kissed me, hugged me, and used such responses in exchange for my usual behavior, but I know what he wants It's not this kind of relationship, what he wants is ordinary, as he said, just like before.

It never occurred to me that I would kiss him in such a way and for such a reason.

I really wanted to cry at that moment, Zhang Tianle just never saw me get angry, so the only time I got angry at him, he felt that I was going to break with him completely, so he had to back down and compromise One step, as if we couldn't bear it and we stepped back a little. He was going back and forth to help, and couldn't stop in place, so we had to move forward, even if we walked forward without his control, leading this relationship to a dead end.

Because of this, he can even say "I like you too", I can't laugh or cry, I obviously didn't do anything, I didn't say anything, but it seemed to force him to a dead end.

At this point, I can't even tell who is at fault, I'm still not cruel enough, I can get up on my own even when I'm desperate for him, but I still can't bear him.

Sometimes I find it ridiculous when I calm down and think about it. How can we experience such emotions when we are teenagers.

Just like the students who smoke always have a fixed smoking corner, Zhang Tianle and I also started to have a secret base.The laboratory building is separated from the administrative building of the teaching building and the gymnasium. It is a separate building. The lower floors are science laboratories, and the top is multi-functional meeting rooms and lecture halls. Most of them are decorations. Usually, no one will come here. , the higher the level, the safer.

When Zhang Tianle was free, he would call me over to stay with him on the top floor, saying it was a secret base, but most of the time we just chatted openly in the corridor.The laboratory building is facing the playground, and you have to pass through this area when entering and exiting from the teaching building to the school gate. From the corridor, people are always coming and going, and people coming and going can see us as long as they look up.

This week is the second qualifying match for Zhang Tianle's group. He will fly to Hong Kong tomorrow and arrive at the familiar venue one day earlier. The day after tomorrow, he will fly back to class after the competition. From the school's point of view, he is just absent from class for more than a day without reason. Even if the parents were notified, his father would not take the time to ask him why he didn't come to school, perfect time arrangement.

Zhang Tianle didn’t stay in the classroom during the lunch break, and I didn’t go home. We went to the secret base to kill time. Recently, his game character has just reached level 130. He finally caught the opportunity to show me his new skills and mentality. Listening to him say it while being perfunctory, I have seen people with the same role fight these moves countless times. Seeing him talking excitedly, I want to laugh but I am too embarrassed to laugh.

Zhang Tianle put away the phone, turned around and leaned against the corridor guardrail, "I know you've seen it a long time ago, but it's not mine, can it be the same?"

I didn't understand why I nodded and asked him, "Are you nervous?"

Zhang Tianle bowed his head in silence for a while, then said softly, "Yes, I'm nervous."

"Aren't you afraid to run away?"

"No, actually, as long as you don't make mistakes, there should be no problem."

"Don't think too much, it'll be fine."

"En." Zhang Tianle responded, did not continue the conversation, turned to look at me, and once I met his eyes, he looked away, hesitant to speak, Zhang Tianle couldn't hide Stop talking, and sure enough, after a while, he heard him say discouragedly: "If it's a weekend game, is it still possible for you to go?"

"It shouldn't be possible. I'm not like you. I can go if I say so." My mother is watching me go to school, the school is watching my attendance, and I don't have a valid visa to go to Hong Kong. No matter how you look at it, it's impossible a vision.

Zhang Tianle couldn't refute, and sighed.

"Why, do you want me to go so much?" I couldn't help smiling, deliberately teasing him.

"Yes, if you can go, I should not be so nervous."

I froze, not knowing what to answer him, so I had to turn my head away first.Does Zhang Tianle know, how easy it is for people to misunderstand such words, as if I really are some special person to him.

I didn't plan to ignore him, and casually comforted him: "You won't be nervous when you're on the field, don't worry."

"Ayu." Zhang Tianle called me suddenly.

"Ok?"

"...It's okay, nothing."

Zhang Tianle went directly to the airport the next morning. After the whole day, no one kicked my stool or patted my shoulder from time to time, and my ears were much cleaner. I spent the day peacefully with no one behind me.

Zhang Tianle didn't contact me all day, and he didn't even report that he was safe when he got off the plane. I think he was probably busy familiarizing himself with the venue and the competition process and couldn't spare time.I didn't ask him how the situation was like many times before. He will be fine, so I don't need to worry about it.

On the day when he was away, I went to the top floor of the laboratory building alone for a while. The reason why the place was special was because of his presence. There was nothing special when he was not there. Can see far away.

Occasionally, Zhang Tianle would say some words or do some actions unskillfully to me, not the kind of clumsy and cautious way of showing affection because of the first time he has a crush on someone, but the kind of deliberate, reluctant and cautious, please.

As a secret base, the laboratory building is of course not just for chatting and looking at the scenery.

He seems to be very familiar with things like flirting with me in school. He always finds the time and place cleverly, avoiding everyone's eyes and ears, grabs my hand politely and lightly for a while, wraps his waist loosely, and purses his lips. A quick wipe around my mouth, or something.

Know that feeling?The behaviors seem to be called holding hands, hugging, and kissing, but I have no idea what he is doing.He seemed to think that I liked him and wanted to do these things with him. He realized it for me, slowly accumulating favors, trying to reach a certain level.

To what extent?A good buddy who can hold hands, hug and kiss?

I said over and over, you don't have to do this, but he told me he just didn't want to make me sad.

Really great.

Before going to bed at night, Zhang Tianle sent a request for a video call. I hesitated for a while, but still answered.

In the picture, he is also leaning against the head of the bed, and it seems that he is about to go to sleep.

I asked him, "What time are you running tomorrow?"

"I'm in the fifth group, maybe around nine forty."

"Tomorrow morning, you just passed the math mock test."

Zhang Tianle laughed twice over there, "Did someone ask me where I went today?"

"Yes, the old class came to ask. I said you were sick, and she asked you to make up a leave slip later."

"Tsk, it's so troublesome, the leave note needs to be signed by the parents...then did she call my dad?"

"Then I don't know, but it looks like I didn't hit you. Did your dad find you?"

"No."

"That's it. You have a match tomorrow morning. Don't think about it. Come back and talk about it."

Zhang Tianle pondered for a while, then called me: "Ayu."

"Ah."

"You can……"

"Come on," I interrupted him, "Don't be nervous, it's just the qualifying round, it's not difficult for you." I paused, and said again solemnly: "Come on."

Zhang Tianle responded with a smile in the video, hesitated for a moment, and said, "Actually, that's not what I want to talk about."

I knew he didn't mean to say this, but I didn't want to know what he was going to say, "Don't say anything, talk about it when you come back, go to bed early, work hard tomorrow, see you at school."

"Okay, then go to bed early, good night."

"OK, good night."

I turned off the video, put my phone in airplane mode and put it beside the bed, turned off the lights, and went to bed early as I said just now.After getting used to the darkness, I opened my eyes and looked at the ceiling, my mind was empty and my heart was empty.

Zhang Tianle's competition happened to be between two and a half hours of math mock exams. At 09:30, I started to look at my watch absent-mindedly. The second small question of the penultimate big question lacked unknown conditions, so I couldn't make assumptions , if this question is stuck here, I will definitely not be able to do the remaining two small questions. The level of the penultimate question should not lose so many points. Maybe 120 points...

I looked at the time again, it was nine forty.

A men's 15-meter race can take up to 5 seconds. Counting all possible emergencies of fouling and re-running, it is impossible to exceed [-] minutes. I held my breath, followed the second hand on the dial, and counted every second in my heart. Miaomo counted the time, his hand shaking so much that he couldn't hold the pen.

What are you doing, why am I so nervous.

Zhang Tianle's ability is not the kind of "really powerful" that people usually praise, but a level that is enough to be used in large-scale competitions and worthy of other players as a reference, so he doesn't even need to perform supernormally. There will be no problems.

The invigilator came and knocked on my desktop, reminding me to concentrate on doing the paper.

I closed my eyes hard and let out a long breath. When I opened my eyes again, the minute hand of the clock on the wall had already pointed to 45. I made up my mind and decided not to be distracted from thinking about his game, but to focus on the paper in front of me. .

The result of the first question seems to be wrong. If it is a negative number, then the assumption and condition of the second question are established at the same time...

Zhang Tianle came back before the second class in the afternoon, wearing a school uniform and carrying a schoolbag, as if he really just skipped class and came back.

He entered the classroom through the front door, and people asked him what he was doing all the way to the back.It seems that no one in the school knows about Zhang Tianle's going to the competition except me. Everyone only knows that Zhang Tianle has to train himself every day besides the track and field team training, but they don't know why he has such a high load.

Zhang Tianle was mysterious, talking about running the train, and didn't mention anything about the competition.He walked up to me and stood still, clearly.

I raised my head and met his eyes, stared at him for a while, then laughed, and asked formally: "How is it?"

Zhang Tianle also smiled, a little complacently, "Steady."

I raised my eyebrows at him, "Very good."

"What about you?"

"I?"

"How was your test?"

I recalled the morning paper, "It's not bad, I checked the mistakes in time and turned the tide."

Zhang Tianle smiled deeper and reached out to touch my head.

My smile froze on my lips, and I stood up and left my seat without thinking, when Zhang Tianle pressed my shoulders, and I heard his slightly excited voice say in my ear: "Let's go out and play after the evening self-study is over?"

At 09:30 in the evening, the bell for the evening self-study class rang through the teaching building, and the students who had already packed their schoolbags rushed out of the classroom, eager to return to free time.

Zhang Tianle said he wanted to go out to play, but he was not in a hurry. He packed his things slowly. I couldn't help reminding him that restaurants and shopping malls are mostly closed at ten o'clock. Something was wrong, others put things in their bags after school, but today he took out the things in his bag and put them on the table, leaving two or three exercises and test papers, as if he was traveling light.

I asked him where he was going, and he said that I would know when I went.

But after leaving the subway station and walking all the way, apart from being aimless, I really don't think Zhang Tianle is going anywhere. The play he said is more like pressing the road.After successfully winning the game, he should be in a good mood, and even the tone of his speech became clearer. He stopped and walked, kicked the stones on the side of the road, and said some imaginative words to me.

He was in a good mood, and my mood also relaxed. Seeing him walking unsteadily in front, I couldn't help laughing at him: "Why do you look like you've drunk? Hey, it's already 10:30, are you sure you want to go?" Is the place still open?"

"Don't worry, it's what I want to play, it's open 24 hours a day."

I was wondering, besides McDonald's and convenience stores, where else is it open 24 hours a day?

Zhang Tianle walked on the bright and wide road, and there was still a constant stream of cars on the road. It didn't make people feel that it was already late at night. He passed through the contiguous shopping malls in the central business district and walked on an equally lively road. Backstreet, both sides of the sidewalk are crowded with vendors in the night market. Zhang Tianle walked and watched with great interest, as if he found it fresh, and he was familiar with the way. He stretched his hand behind and grabbed my wrist, walking quietly Go forward.

Zhang Tianle went down to an underground pedestrian passage. In addition to the advertising light boards on the wall, there were also a long row of claw machines, capsule machines, hand-made vending machines, etc. on both sides of the passage, all of which were lit up. The background lights, it looks like it stays on all night.

Disappointed, I was like, "That's what you play 24 hours a day."

Zhang Tianle was in a good mood, and didn't care about my teasing, and replied: "Why, I don't like it."

"No, I'm just wondering, when did you discover this kind of place?" Cute and exquisite dolls have always been something that children and girls are more likely to like. I have known Zhang Tianle for so long, and I haven't found out that he has this kind of preference.

"Cough, that's right, I've been here before." Zhang Tianle said unnaturally.

I suddenly understood, I didn't say anything, I felt that I was making fun of myself, why didn't I figure it out early on, Zhang Tianle would come to this kind of place, of course it was for the girls.

He changed the subject in time: "Come on, see if you like it, I'll clip it for you."

"You still catch dolls?"

"That's right, let me put the words here, as long as you can choose, there is nothing I can't catch."

Zhang Tianle boasted about Haikou, I rolled my eyes in my heart, I didn't believe it at all, I walked forward a few machines, found a bear that was pressed in the bottom corner, pointed to him and said: "You clamp this, it's up I will obey you."

Zhang Tianle stepped forward to observe it, threw the bag on the ground, took out his mobile phone and began to scan the code, and said plausibly: "Small meaning."

I have also played with the claw machine, but I have never successfully clamped anything on it. I heard that there are skills in playing this machine, but I see that the clamp is loose, and it can't bear any weight.

Zhang Tianle stared intently at a pile of dolls in the corner through the glass, manipulating the joystick in his hand, he looked in all directions, and placed the clips at a good angle, some were empty, and some fell off just after being clipped, There were also some that were clamped up and then dropped. After trying a few times, they removed a lot of the top ones. Zhang Tianle took out his mobile phone to scan the QR code to start the game. I couldn't help but tease him: "You said you can clamp it, just use it. Did it come from money?"

"Shh, don't talk nonsense, go to another gashapon machine to play by yourself, come back in 10 minutes, and see how many I caught for you."

"Cut." I really rolled my eyes, I couldn't stand him pretending here, and went shopping elsewhere by myself.Going a little further, there is no advertising light board on the wall, and a large area is vacated. The wall is graffitied into a big empty tree. There are small baskets on the ground, which contain various color pens and post-it notes. It has been posted in colorful.

I took a closer look, and each post-it note contained people's good wishes and declarations, which looked warm and hopeful.I looked up and estimated that if I stretched out my hand, I should be able to reach a little higher.

So I also tore up a post-it note at random, and wrote it down in a stroke: Come on for the college entrance examination.

When I wandered around and returned to the claw machine that Zhang Tianle was playing with, the schoolbag at his feet was already full, and there were two dolls crookedly leaning beside him, and he continued to manipulate it with his right hand. Joystick, holding one in the left hand supporting the console.

There were even a few onlookers around, so I was taken aback, walked up to him quietly and said, "Did you disassemble the machine while I was away?"

"Fuck, I'm scared, why are you walking without sound?" Zhang Tianle shook his hand, and the doll in the clip fell off, and there was a sound of pity all around.

I was a little embarrassed and asked him, "How much did you spend?"

"Not much, here, your bear." Zhang Tianle lifted up the doll in his left hand and put it in my hand, "It's so ugly, it's the ugliest one."

I looked down and it was pretty ugly.

"Let you make room for your schoolbag like me. If you don't, look at this pile." Zhang Tianle pointed to the bag he put on the ground, "You can carry it home by yourself, I don't care."

I had an incredulous look on my face, it’s okay to have a catastrophe from outside this day, who wants to play with so many plush dolls, “I don’t, just give me anything, you can clip it out if you have the ability, and put it back if you have the ability.”

"Hey, why don't you know what's good or bad?" Zhang Tianle frowned and stared at me, then turned around and bent down to pick up all the dolls, and obediently called out to the girls next to him: "Sister, this man said he didn't want it, you guys don't want it." Do you want?"

They hesitated for a while, took it shyly, and said "thank you" in a low voice. Zhang Tianle turned around and stuck out her tongue at me innocently, with a relaxed expression of getting rid of the burden.

He put the empty schoolbag on his shoulders again, left the underground passage side by side with me, and walked on the road, we had to take the bus home.His car arrived first, and we said goodbye to each other. I watched his car go far away, then turned and left the station, returned to the underpass, and came to the post-it tree.

Standing on tiptoe, I struggled to tear off the sticky note I had just put on.I only blamed me for sticking it too high, it was easy to stick it, but it was difficult to tear it off, because I just had to tear off the first one, and the second one at the bottom had to stay on it.

One should not be too greedy, if one wishes too much, none of them will come true.

But Zhang Tianle can rest assured, because on the second sticky note, I didn't write anything else except his name.Wishes and luck are limited, and it is rare to experience a few major events in life. I give him my luck and hope that he can run further.