ninety-nine twelve

The breakup between me and Fang Jiaying was the most common scenario in long-distance relationships. I had no time to accompany her, and I had no chance to meet her. I was not by her side. She got along with someone else, and I finally found out.

I didn't tell her that I would go back to Hong Kong to apply for the qualifying competition. I planned to give her a surprise, but I waited downstairs at her house for the surprise she gave me—she got into the passenger seat of a sports car.

But at the beginning I was just a little uncomfortable. I believed in her, and I didn’t want to think about it. Maybe it was a relative of her family, or her friend came to take her out to play. I automatically ignored the doubts in my heart. , For example, in my impression, she has never had any relatives from a wealthy family. For example, at this age, how did she make friends who drive this kind of car.

I was supposed to call her to find out, and then catch the flight back on time, but I turned off the phone by a ghost, just waited, waited all night and didn't wait for her to come home.

The next morning, I went directly to the gate of her school. I was across the road, standing in the corner outside the convenience store, without saying a word.Fang Jiaying went to a girls' school. I folded my arms and stared at the girls coming and going on the opposite road. When I finally saw a familiar figure, I realized that I was actually relieved. She was wearing the same winter uniform as everyone else. , alone, or that obedient little girl.The effect of not sleeping all night finally made me lose my strength, and I couldn’t even walk and ran to the opposite side to say a word to her. I saw my little girl enter the school gate and disappeared. I felt sad for no reason. It turned out that she was so lonely every day. I went to school alone, but I was so glad that she was alone that day.

I went home and took a nap, and decided to pick her up after school in the afternoon after tidying up. It was a surprise even if it was late, and then I would insinuate what she did on the weekend, and everything would be fine.

I have been mentally prepared, but when I saw it with my own eyes, my heart still hurts too much to express.

Someone picked her up one step earlier than me, and her actions were so intimate that she didn't look like a relative or a friend.Now I still remember that day when I was trembling all over but didn't dare to go forward, I could only watch the two of them walk away, Fang Jiaying's smile made me feel that I was the one who had no position.

I don't need to call her to ask her anything anymore, I trust my own eyes more.

So I didn't sleep all night, my eyes were full of her face when I closed my eyes, I also thought about it all night, I think I have to say goodbye to her.So the next day I went to the gate of her school again, but I didn't expect to see that man again. At that moment, I couldn't even tell who was the extra one between me and him. She yelled Fang Jiaying's name, she turned her head and saw it was me, her eyes were full of panic that hurt me.

I couldn't even look at her any longer.

I don't want to know if she will run towards me and explain to me anxiously, I don't want to know if I have misunderstood something, I just want to escape, escape to a place where I feel at ease, escape to the end, even the end of this relationship Not as good, but someone will pick me up at the finish.

Without the girl I love, fortunately I still have my brother.

The first few days were bombarded with news and phone calls. I received Fang Jiaying's explanations, apologies, regrets, and redemption, but I don't want this relationship or her.

Slowly I also accepted this fact, so in the last phone call, I could calmly say to her that I understood.Fang Jiaying is a pretty girl, and she is chased by many people. In my opinion, she is not the kind of strong and independent character, and she really needs someone to be by her side all the time.

Later, I also heard some rumors that Fang Jiaying had a new boyfriend less than three weeks after I came back, and the time I went back to see her and the time she came to me were all the same. Both sides are going on at the same time, and I have been like a fool for more than two months, knowing nothing.

If it wasn't for this unexpected encounter, I really don't dare to think how long I would be kept in the dark.

It is said that things are always reversed, and I began to fall into strange thinking, trying to take all the faults on myself. If I could spend more time with her, everything would not have developed into what it is now.

Lost love is broken love, life still has to live, especially during the period when I have to re-enter formal training.

I sent the coach various indicators of my current health status, as well as the recent average and best results of various sprint events. Based on the data I provided to him, the coach gave me a set of training plans, except for the most important In addition to project training, it also covers daily diet, work and rest, and things that need to be avoided.I have never seen such a systematic training program before. In the past, the training camp alone felt very professional. Compared with this, the training camp is completely pediatrics.

There are still nearly three months before the qualifying round. If I can re-run the results of last year's training camp after three months, it should be no problem to advance to the preliminary round.

In fact, I should conduct closed-door training at this time, but participating in the competition is done secretly. I can only maximize the training intensity within a limited time frame to achieve results comparable to closed-door training. After all, I still have to go to school on time every day, so as not to be noticed by my dad and directly force me to stop and let me die in the womb.

Wu Haoyu is also helping me.

In the past, the person who couldn’t be summoned after three reminders, now appears on the playground on time every day after school. He learned how to pinch the watch, recorded videos for me, and summarized the data. I don’t know how much homework he has done. Hearing more and more professional vocabulary, and occasionally discussing training programs with me.

In my "field training" alone, Wu Haoyu was the coach and supervisor. He would praise my performance for improvement, and would find problems for my performance.

He's distracting me, and I know it.

When I returned to Wu Haoyu's house that night, I finally slept soundly for the first time in several days. The next day I went to school with him empty-handed, and asked him to borrow books from the next class with a smile, as if nothing happened.Wu Haoyu scolded me for being smart, but didn't mention a word, and ran to the next door to borrow books after class.

Sometimes he stands on the playground and is still sleepy. The self-study class must be used to catch up on sleep. Sometimes someone will call him to play. No, I can’t wait until I finish running to eat, so I went to the cafeteria to buy a steamed stuffed bun and put it on the cushion first, holding a stopwatch in one hand and a steamed stuffed bun in the other, and a record book under my arm. If I wasn’t wearing a school uniform, I would really look like my coach in the sprint stage Capture the appearance during training.

I seem to know Wu Haoyu again, does a reliable person have such infinite charm, he is as soft as the ocean, even if I fall from the sky, I still know that I will land safely on the sea.

The training is hard, but the direction and goal of my efforts have never been as clear as they are now. On a dark road, I have my confidence, a person who can let me just run forward with confidence.

On the day of the winter solstice, my dad was unexpectedly at home. He bought quick-frozen dumplings and glutinous rice balls and asked me which one I wanted to eat.

Christmas and New Year are approaching, all industries in Hong Kong are on holiday one after another, and Christmas is not here in the Mainland. He said that he will not go to Hong Kong again in these few days, and reminded me to go home for dinner.

I had already thought of an excuse to ask for leave from school to go back during Christmas, but I forgot to take my dad into consideration, but now that I think about it, there is no use at all.

My dad asked me what I had planned for Christmas. I honestly replied that I would go to school and study at night until 09:30 as usual. What else could I do? He said that I could go to the shopping mall after school. I said yes, but I really didn’t know. There is something to visit.

Like I don't know what to say to my dad.

There was nothing special about this day, as usual every day, I went to class step by step, after class, training, evening self-study, and even followed my dad's suggestion, I found a shopping mall in the evening after school closed and went shopping.

Wu Haoyu followed me all the way, probably because I was laughing and joking all day, but I still didn't achieve his satisfactory performance.

"What are you doing, follow me like an old woman." I suddenly turned around while walking, and asked Wu Haoyu in a teasing tone, and continued walking backwards while asking.

"I'm afraid that you will be too sad, and you will die for love if you can't think about it for a while."

I choked up, I didn't expect Wu Haoyu to say it so directly, "...Fuck, don't leave any pot unopened."

"Then why don't you just go home?"

"My dad gave me instructions to let me go shopping in the mall after school."

"Then you don't buy anything and don't take pictures, what do you shop for? Do you exercise?"

"Can you manage it?" I was making fun of myself and was about to turn back when Wu Haoyu pulled me and walked towards the entrance of the mall.

"Go, let's take a picture."

The mall is closed, and the big Christmas tree standing on the outdoor square is still twinkling and shining with colorful lights. There are still many people taking pictures underneath, a man and a woman, a couple, only me and Wu Haoyu are two big men standing inappropriately.

He took out his phone, turned on the front camera, held it up to the Christmas tree in the background, and said to me, "Smile."

I expressed rejection all over my body, "I won't take pictures, selfies are too fucking bad."

"That's fine, then don't take selfies." Wu Haoyu put down his phone, pointed to the distance, "Stand over there, and I'll take pictures for you."

"Fuck fart, I won't shoot."

"Come on, didn't you come out just for Christmas?"

Wu Haoyu is good at which pot can't be opened and which pot can be lifted, so I just smashed the pot and smashed it, "Yeah, I was going to spend Christmas with my girlfriend, but now my girlfriend is gone, so I can't understand it. Christmas with you."

Wu Haoyu seemed to have paused for a moment before answering me bluntly: "I really wronged you, you can only spend the holiday with me, you and I are willing to spend the holiday with you, you should really burn the incense."

The atmosphere was suddenly a little bad, but I really didn't have the heart to continue chatting with Wu Haoyu.

Someone came over and asked us if we could take a group photo. Wu Haoyu took the initiative to take the other person's mobile phone and went to take a picture.

I realized I didn't really have anywhere to go.

I walked behind Wu Haoyu, he was taking pictures of others in front, and I put my forehead on his back in the back, the world is really lively, and the recent training really made me exhausted.

A soft voice came from the front: "If you don't want to go home, you can live with me."

"……Um."

But the continuous incoming calls on the mobile phone almost made me send a message to my dad to let me know.

I was about to fall asleep after taking a shower, but Wu Haoyu suddenly called me to get up and get dressed, and said to go out with him.

I didn't take it seriously, thinking he was going downstairs to buy supper or something, I grabbed my school uniform and went out.It was really cold in the winter night, and I was terribly cold within a few steps on the street. Wu Haoyu didn't say to let me go back, but told me to go back and put on enough clothes before I came down.

I ran upstairs and got warmer. I was really too lazy to put clothes on my body one by one, so I opened Wu Haoyu's closet and planned to wear one of his thick coats.

I rummaged through it, wondering if I should bring an extra sweater, and found a mess of clothes in the deep corner of the cabinet. I pulled it out and saw it clearly. Turn it over, and now there is only a light gray mark left in the same place. It really is my school uniform, which has been washed clean.

I was puzzled in my heart, but I didn't have a chance to think about it. I tucked the clothes back into a ball, took off the down jacket hanging on the far side, and went out.

As I went downstairs, the cold draft in the hall calmed me down a bit.Since the handwriting has been washed off, why didn't Wu Haoyu return it to me directly?It doesn't look like he is frugal, or he needs this school uniform. I have never seen him wear it. Even if he only wears it at home, it shouldn't be stuffed in such a hidden corner. Then why does he keep this school uniform? ?And Wu Haoyu clearly said that he lost it while playing. I didn’t pay attention to the loopholes in his words at the time. Now that I think about it, it’s really strange that he is such a lazy person. How could he suddenly go to play on weekends? A person who loses everything.

Seeing the person waiting for me from a distance, I shook my head vigorously, putting all my messy thoughts behind me for the time being.

Wu Haoyu took me up a nearby pedestrian bridge.

It was almost midnight at this time, and this place was not a commercial area. There were not many pedestrians on the bridge, only the noise of the cars passing by quickly below, which made the head hurt.

I put on the hat of the down jacket and looked at Wu Haoyu without knowing why.

Wu Haoyu grabbed the railing of the overpass, and shouted out without a trace of image: "Hey - I won't fucking go to school tomorrow!"

This plot made me stunned on the spot. The person who can do such a thing in the second grade should not be Wu Haoyu. It’s like changing our identities with him. The image of shouting on the road on the overpass late at night is too similar to Wu Haoyu It doesn't match.

"I don't fucking want to go to school at all! I don't fucking want to take the college entrance examination! Let's all go--die--"

I even wondered if Wu Haoyu went crazy due to some kind of stimulation.

He stepped on the guardrail of the overpass and was a head taller than me. After shouting, he turned around and smiled at me with clear eyes and a radiant look.

Everything in this world is fucking wrong.

"Yes! Go to hell! I was so fucking blind! I won't be blind again in this life!"

"You're so fucking embarrassed to cry! What the hell is it that I deserve to suffer for you!"

"I have a clear conscience! Get out—get out as far away as possible!"

The wind outside the guardrail was too strong, and my face was sore. I jumped back. I usually don’t feel very tired after training, but after shouting these voices, I was so tired that I bent down. I put my hands on my knees , squinting his eyes and asked Wu Haoyu: "Is it too cruel?"

"Cruel? No, this is where it is, come again."

"Forget it, I'm really... Ayu, do you think I'm hopeless? I can't bear it until now, I can't bear to..."

I never deleted Fang Jiaying's contact information.

In the first few days, I was not moved by what she said, and then her mood gradually calmed down, and she stopped saying useless words, but occasionally sent me messages, chatting normally , I also replied politely, trying not to say a word more.

And I never deleted her because even if she broke my heart, I still couldn't bear it.

I know what Fang Jiaying is waiting for. What she is waiting for is this day. The time, place and people are right, and all emotions are in place. Maybe I will soften my heart for a while.

Today is Christmas. Before I came back from Hong Kong, I said that there may not be many opportunities to go back to see her, but I will definitely go back to spend Christmas with her. Although I met her twice because of other opportunities, Christmas is still the same. It's different, she likes romantic and ceremonial things, if you want to make a wish, I hope her wish will come true.

It will be past zero in a few minutes, and Jiaying's message notification on the top of my phone is still flashing persistently, and the phone calls continue, and the person on the other side seems determined to find me.

I looked up at Wu Haoyu, he was standing one step away from me, this person who I could reach with my hand raised, who never let me down.

I removed my hand from my knee, stretched it out, and sure enough, I was caught by a warm and strong palm.

"Ayu, give me a hand, help me."

I stood in front of the railing again, staring at the bright street lights not far away, and said in a deep Cantonese voice: "Don't come to me anymore, I don't like you anymore."

Everything about Fang Jiaying was finally deleted from me.

Christmas is over, it's time to turn the page.