like electricity

When Jiang Shou woke up, it was just dawn, and the city was still in the final stage of its deep sleep, and there was a hazy and gentle gray blue outside the window.

The bed around him was in a mess, and it could be seen that someone had slept in it a few hours ago, but he didn't know where it went now.what time is it?What is Zhuo Shuang doing?With a lot of problems, he tried to turn over and get out of bed, his feet were on the floor, his waist was so weak that he couldn't control it at all, and he almost didn't stumble.

What happened last night was vivid in my mind, and under the double blessing of shame and powerlessness, the faint sting from somewhere became secondary instead.He held on to the bedside table to stand as steady as possible, but accidentally knocked something on it to the floor.

It was a transparent file bag, and he picked it up and took a look at it: the admissions brochure of a certain American high school provided by the overseas study agency, the tofel transcript, the test date is February this year, and the black and white ID photo in the upper right corner is undoubtedly Zhuo Shuang himself.

——They originally wanted to send me abroad to study in a private boarding school, saying that the education there was better than that in China, but I thought there was no difference, so I stayed here.

Contacting what Zhuo Shuang said in the past, even he who knows nothing about studying abroad and going abroad can imagine what these preparations are for.

Plop, plop, he heard his heart beating slightly fast, and he was about to break free from his chest.

Zhuo Shuang once asked him what his future plans were, and he truthfully replied that he wanted to go to medical school to become a doctor, but until the phone hung up, Zhuo Shuang, who kept saying that he would exchange with him, didn't mention his future at all.

Not just that night, recalling the few months they spent together, Zhuo Shuang never spoke positively about her blueprint for the future, the school she wanted to take, the place she wanted to go, the person she wanted to be... nothing.He knew that there was a huge disparity between his and Zhuo Shuang's family backgrounds, and that Zhuo Shuang could easily obtain things that he couldn't imagine for him. He tried to pretend not to see it, and tried to believe what Zhuo Shuang showed, but he I didn't expect the moment to face the truth to come so quickly.

The little joy that had arisen from hearing Zhuo Shuang said that she would not abandon herself disappeared completely, and what was left was only indescribable shame and anxiety.

Since when did Zhuo Shuang have such a plan?Could it be the more than half a month of their cold war?If yes, is it really right for him to come to Zhuo Shuang?

Hearing the sound of footsteps outside the door, he quickly put the bag in his hand back to its original position, pretending that he had just woken up. After finishing, he felt sad.

If you mind so much, why don't you just ask Zhuo Shuang directly?Why continue to pretend to be deaf and dumb?

"You're awake." Zhuo Shuang pushed the door open and came in, without noticing his small movements, she handed over the cup and the pill in her hand, "Eat this."

Seeing that he didn't pick it up for a long time, Zhuo Shuang coughed, looked away, and said unnaturally, "It's anti-inflammatory medicine, I checked, some people will have a fever after the first time, I'm afraid you will too... "

Although they took sufficient safety measures and did not ejaculate, but just to be on the safe side, he went to the family medicine cabinet to find amoxicillin capsules.

"Oh." Jiangchou swallowed the capsule obediently, and then drank all the water in the cup.Only then did he notice that his throat was as dry as if it was about to burn, and a glass of water was not enough.

"Is it still uncomfortable?" Zhuo Shuang sat beside him, unconsciously stroking his neck with her hands around his shoulders, "Do you want to sleep for a while?"

It was ten past five in the morning, although Zhuo Shuang wanted to leave him at home to rest in the morning, but he was not Jiang Shou's guardian, so he couldn't ask for leave from school for him.

There is still a distinct foreign body feeling in the place that has been overly invaded, Jiang Shou moved the whole body unnaturally, "A little bit."

"I'm sorry, I might have gone too far last night." Seeing his pitiful appearance, Zhuo Shuang said guiltily, "I will restrain myself next time."

next time.Will there be a next time?Jiang Shou, who didn't know how to face him, avoided his gaze and whispered, "...I didn't blame you."

Originally, it was voluntary on his own accord, so how could it be said that it was Zhuo Shuang's problem alone?

Zhuo Shuang stopped her restless hands, "Can you stand up? If you can, come with me, I want to show you

something. "There was a little uncertainty in his tone, "If it doesn't work, I'll carry you there. "

"it should be OK."

Probably because of mental preparation, Jiang Shou was much better this time, at least she was able to stand firm.He didn't let Zhuo Shuang hug him, but walked slowly behind him.

"It's in the study."

Zhuo Shuang took his hand, and walked very slowly, just a few steps away for a short while.

"study……?"

Jiang Shou didn't know why Zhuo Shuang took him to the study room early in the morning, but he vaguely remembered that the door of the study room was locked when he came last time, as if there was something inconvenient for him to see inside.

Is it possible now?Looking at Zhuo Shuang's back, he suddenly became timid, as if there was some beast hiding behind the door.

"Yeah." Zhuo Shuang didn't care about his careful thinking, opened the door directly, and went to pull the white cloth covering the shelf, "This is it."

Jiang Shou looked along, and finally saw a painting: the dusty sky, the dim red sun, the birds returning to their nests, the white sailing boats and the sporadic lights on the shore, all together constituted such a sunset on the river twilight scene,

He couldn't guess what Zhuo Shuang meant, or he didn't dare to confirm if he guessed it.

"Happy belated birthday." Zhuo Shuang ended all his anxiety with one sentence, "I originally wanted to give it to you on your birthday, but so many accidents happened, I only show it to you now, I'm sorry."

Jiang Shou froze in disbelief, while Zhuo Shuang waited considerately for him to slowly recover.

The river water, the twilight scene, and the faint melancholy everywhere... He suddenly had a very bold guess, "This is... why did you give this to me?"

"It's your name. You said on the first day of school that the Yanbo River makes people sad, so your name is Jiang Shou." Zhuo Shuang observed his reaction, mistakenly thinking that he didn't like this gift, and tapped his head in frustration , "Don't you like it? Also, no one wants to receive such a depressing gift on their birthday... I thought about drawing something more festive, but I couldn't think of what to draw."

Jiang Shou, who came back to his senses, repeatedly shook his head and denied, "I like it, I like it."

Except for his grandparents and Jiang Suqing, there were very few people who would give him birthday presents, and this person was Zhuo Shuang, someone he liked so much.

"Thank you."

Zhuo Shuang looked relieved.

He wanted to touch the gift, but he hesitated halfway through reaching out, "Did you draw it?"

In the past, he thought that Zhuo Shuang was just good at sketching. After all, it is normal for a kid from a rich family like him to have one or two specialties.

This was too much, completely beyond his poor imagination, and more importantly, he never thought that Zhuo Shuang would specially prepare such a complicated and solemn gift just because of his words.

"Otherwise?" Zhuo Shuang stared at the sunset in the painting, with a slight smile in his eyes, "Usually I don't have much time to go to school, and I haven't painted for so long. At the beginning, my hands were terribly raw, and I just looked for the feeling. I've been looking for it for almost a week."

He doesn't know how to paint, but he can see that Zhuo Shuang must have put in a lot of hard work—except for the sparkling river water and fluffy clouds, even the people on the boat can clearly see what they are doing. .

"Why did you give up? Is it about your mother?"

Regrettably, he blurted out.Apart from this, he couldn't think of any other reason.

The light in Zhuo Shuang's eyes dimmed, and he realized that he might have hit the crux of the problem, "...I'm sorry."

"It's okay, even if you don't ask, I plan to find time to tell you." Zhuo Shuang squeezed the space between her brows, with a tired and dazed expression, "I'm thinking about where to start...well, my mother is Tang Lin, and she is amazing. , has won many awards, and now she has opened a studio, and she has produced many art examination champions, and is very famous in city a and even the whole country. When I was young, I secretly saw her talking to students, and I thought, if I also Will she be gentler to me after becoming her student, so I ran to my grandma and told them that I also want to learn painting."

Although Tang Lin and Zhuo Zhenning are not a good pair of responsible parents, they have never missed him in the material conditions they should have. He said that he wanted to learn painting, so he was sent to a small private class opened by a professor of the local art academy to learn from scratch. rise.

In order to make Tang Lin feel proud of himself, he can be said to practice hard when he has time, and his hard work pays off. After a year or two, he was introduced by his teacher and participated in a nationwide competition.

"After I got the trophy, I ran home happily, but she didn't even give me a glance and went out with her bag. It wasn't until half a month later that my teacher accidentally told her about it, and she remembered to ask What reward do I want?"

What a child lacks most is the courage of repeated defeats and battles. He is not discouraged, and firmly believes that he can be as sincere as possible, and impress that indifferent woman with practical actions, so that she is willing to show warmth to him.

"I persisted for a long time, and finally Aunt Chen, who couldn't stand it anymore, told me that I had done nothing wrong and that she could be nice to anyone in the world, except me and Zhuo Zhenning."

From the beginning to the end of Zhuo Shuang's narration, there was no particularly strong emotional ups and downs, but Jiang Shou's hands and feet were cold when he heard it.

He knew that Zhuo Shuang and himself were born fourteen months apart, and he also knew what Jiang Suqing had experienced during this period, but this was the first time someone told him what happened in the past two years from another angle.

Why did Tang Lin suffer from such severe postpartum depression, why Zhuo Shuang hated him and Jiang Suqing so much, to the point of wishing them to die, the answer lies in this place.

"As I said, she wasn't so crazy at the beginning. During the months of her pregnancy, the time that man was by her side may have been less than a month."

What made that man abandon Tang Lin who needed to take care of Tang Lin so much, the two of them knew each other.

Zhuo Shuang paused for a moment, and the corners of her mouth twitched sarcastically, "She was born prematurely, and my grandparents almost blew up his phone the night the amniotic fluid broke. They asked all over his friends and social circles, but no one dared to say anything. To be honest, I don’t know if I’m ignorant, you can ask other people. He came the next morning, but he took a look at me and her outside the ward and left again.”

Her husband's cheating and indifference caused Tang Lin to suffer from severe postpartum depression, and the last straw that really crushed her was the text message between Zhuo Zhenning and that unknown woman.

The woman was pregnant, and Zhuo Zhenning repeatedly said in the text messages to her, "Your body is important", "I want my child with you" and "I will marry you after birth", which Tang Lin had never heard before. Sweet talk.

Stimulated by anger and jealousy, Tang Lin's condition deteriorated rapidly, which eventually led to a series of tragedies: she was insane and almost strangled to death the child she had laboriously conceived, even if he survived by chance, She couldn't love him either.

"...I'm sorry." Jiang Miao couldn't lift his head due to shame, he didn't dare to look at Zhuo Shuang's expression now, he was afraid to see the familiar disgust and hatred again.

"I told you my experience, not to condemn you." Zhuo Shuang put his palm lightly on top of his head, with an unexpectedly calm tone, "I want to hear your explanation."

Because he was too shocked, he looked at Zhuo Shuang in disbelief.Zhuo Shuang actually wanted to hear his explanation?

"Then will you trust me?"

He is a liar, even if a liar tells the truth...

"Yes, as long as it is what you say, I will try to believe it." Zhuo Shuang lowered his head and looked at him, "You should have more confidence in your weight in my heart."

It was this sentence that made Jiangchou decide to temporarily forget the uneasiness and shake caused by the admission prospectus, and believe in the sense of security that this person brought to him last night.

"My mother..." He said every word with great difficulty, as if a blade would grow out of the strokes and cut his throat, "She really didn't know that the man was married."

He was already prepared to be ridiculed. He didn't know that the person next to his pillow had a family for more than a year. Who would believe such absurd things?

But this happened to Jiang Suqing.

卓霜

Hmm for a moment, "Continue talking, I'm listening."

He was not sure about Zhuo Shuang's attitude, but he continued to bite the bullet, "She didn't know that man was married, she really believed that man would marry her, and she also met his parents... "

However, she never expected that this would be a deliberate scam. The ID card, household registration book and even the future in-laws were all fake, and they were all fakes that the man got to fool her.From her name to her identity, everything was false, and when the truth came out, all her enthusiasm had only reaped the shame of being pregnant out of wedlock and the ridicule of her neighbors.

"Me and her, we never thought of harming you and your mother... If she had known that man was married, she would definitely not have anything to do with him. She is really not a vain person, even if you don't believe me ...she really isn't."

Jiang Suqing regards this matter as a great humiliation in her life, and anyone who dares to mention it will be furious.But if it wasn't for her being too greedy, why did Zhuo Zhenning resort to such a series of tricks?

"You asked me where I heard the name Zhuo Shuang..." He swallowed nervously, "The Zhuo Shuang I first heard about was not actually you."

"Not me? Tell me clearly, who is not me?" Zhuo Shuang's hand on his shoulder tightened suddenly, "Who else could it be?"

This reaction was completely within his expectation, he closed his eyes, and said desperately, "The man who lied to my mother, the pseudonym he used back then was Zhuo Shuang."