Where is the joy

Let me start with who I am.

Chang Huan, the name given by her parents.

Gender: Female.

Age, Ben Sanlu.

When my parents named me back then, they had good intentions and hoped that I would live a happy life. However, my surname is He. You can understand why I am so happy when I have nothing to do. What is there to be happy about!It can also be understood that there are no hurdles that cannot be overcome, so why not be unhappy!Mindset is very important.

I have opened a B&B in this very old town, and it has been almost a year now. It is not happy, but occasionally interesting.

A year ago, I wandered around and walked around, and came here.There are black tiles and white walls here, surrounded by mountains and rivers, and the air is very good. It happened that someone was listing a house for sale, so I asked a lot.The two-story old house is made of wood, and it creaks when you walk up it. The owner of the house is eager to sell it, saying that his son is going to buy a house in the city after marrying a wife. The price of less than 30 is actually quite a bargain, and I bought it as soon as my head got hot.

Well, you know, I am such a casual person!

After taking over the house, I slightly remodeled it and turned it into a B&B with six guest rooms upstairs and downstairs, a small vegetable garden in the back and a spacious yard in front.Because few people came, the business was bleak, I was often dissatisfied with my living conditions, and my income would be barely enough. Fortunately, I didn’t eat much, so I lost weight when I was hungry.Plant more flowers and trees, try not to turn on the air conditioner in summer, go to the kitchen every day, eat more vegetables and less meat, and save money.

The number of tourists seems to have increased in recent months, and there are rumors that there are plans to focus on developing the rural tourism economy.Anyway, although my income has not increased much for the time being, the house price has gone up!Just woke up laughing.

To be honest, this town is really different from other towns. In addition to the preservation of the original ecological things, but also because the houses are built at the bend of a long river, the terrain is uneven and ups and downs. The people in the town are almost home The walls and roofs of the house are covered with ivy and ivy. Although the centuries-old houses look like they are wearing green hats, they are so winding like dragons. It is really pleasing to the eye, warm in winter and cool in summer.It's a major feature of the place.

For me, what makes it even more different is that this is the hometown of the person I like.

Just like writing a composition, you have to let me explain the cause and effect, right?

For example, why would a beautiful, charming, gentle and virtuous older single unmarried young woman like me come here to open a homestay?Is it to join the big rural areas, boost GDP, and win the battle against poverty?of course not.

I'm dumped.

To be precise, I fell out of love before I had time to fall in love.

The person I like, well, let's call her Xu Qing, she is an excellent and good-looking girl.We are college classmates, college roommates.When she was in school, she was the class leader and class flower with excellent character and learning. After working, she was admitted to a government department that Jinjiang can't say, and she is the most beautiful advanced worker.As for me, uh, I just hang out with her. When I went to school, I was overwhelmed by the exams I didn’t understand. I asked her to copy notes.

To be honest, before her, I really didn't find myself liking women.I only know that the boys are too stupid, and I don't like them. Maybe I will meet a smarter boy in the future, so I can consider dating him.But I have never met a smart boy, but I have met a lot of people who think they are smart, so I just settled down like this, and in the end, it was the only ones left.After liking her, the idea of ​​falling in love with a man has never been there again.

It was a certain weekend two years ago when I found out that I fell in love with her.I work in the same city as her, we are good friends, of course we have to rent together.I work in a foreign company with a lot of work and frequent business trips. Her unit is leisurely, but she is also a very motivated person. She is a part-time graduate student. When the two of us can stay together, it is the weekend.

It was just an ordinary weekend.The first night I came back from a business trip, I brought her favorite pastries, and when I walked downstairs, I suddenly looked up at the floor where I lived, the fifteenth floor, and the lights were on.I know she is home and she is waiting for me.

At that time, a very strange feeling came to my heart, look at this city, there are thousands of lights, one light is reserved for me, for a moment, I feel like a recruiter, there is a wife waiting for me at home go back.It's that heavy, homey feeling.

For love to come, one moment is enough.In an instant, our friendship for several years suddenly deteriorated.Uh, I don't like the word spoiled, it should be said, sublimated!It's a pity that I observed secretly for a while, and found that only myself has been sublimated here, should others be straight, or straight!

Back when I was in college, Xu Qing was the most active in dating in the dormitory.

It's strange to say that as usual, someone at her level is also a goddess in today's terms.But she happened to have a bumpy relationship, and it didn't take long for her to split up with one, and soon to split up with another.She often complained on my bed, rubbing my snacks and my pillow by the way, I don't know how much comfort I gave.

I have read all the documentaries of Tianya, and I have rich experience, and I know the horror of liking a straight girl.I gradually began to alienate her, and I would arrange some activities with my colleagues on weekends. I didn't directly propose to live separately from her, but I lived in the company dormitory more often.She also noticed it, and asked me if I had any opinion on her, and asked me to point it out if she did something wrong.

Auntie, what do I think about you? I do have thoughts about you!You didn't do badly either, you did well everywhere, the only thing you didn't do well was that you didn't like me.

Of course, I just said these words in my heart, and I definitely dare not say them out of my mouth.

I thought life would go on like this forever, but she and I are still good friends, classmates and girlfriends forever.

Until one day, I learned from Tang Xiaoyu, another roommate who also stayed in the local area, that she was getting married!

She is getting married!

I actually don't know anything.

What my roommate said behind me, I couldn't hear at all.A thunderbolt from the blue is not an exaggeration.

It was raining heavily that day, and I actually forgot to drive and ran back home from work.

I'm going to ask her why she didn't tell me, or when the fuck did this happen.I ran downstairs in the community, only to realize, what position should I take to question her!As a good friend, classmate, and girlfriend, shouldn't the first reaction be to bless her!

I just stared blankly at the opposite downstairs, a man was holding Xu Qing's hand, with roses in her arms, and the man even kissed the top of her head.

Dog men and women.Bless the devil!

The heartache didn't just last that day.I realized later that my life and her life overlap too much. We study in this city, work in this city, and live in this city. No matter where I go, there is her shadow. Our common shadow.

Short-term pain is worse than long-term pain. If I stay here, I will get angina pectoris sooner or later.

I took all my annual leave in one go and almost got into a fight with this boss.Later, he almost beat me to death and yelled in the office before he promoted you to be a department manager, but you let him down, are you worthy of me!Are you worthy of the errands you have traveled, the stomach piercing you have drunk!

Hey, who made me such a casual person...