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I didn't sleep well all night.

Early the next morning, Yang Congbai didn't come out of the room for a long time. Ke Ke and Youyou went to call him, but they ran back and told me that Yang Congbai was ill.

Yang Congbai's fever reached 39 degrees, and I panicked all of a sudden.

Children often have a fever, but adults are different. I haven't had a fever for many years.

My first thought was to call an ambulance. Fortunately, I remembered that he was a doctor himself.

"Why are you uncomfortable?"

He was still conscious, but he didn't want to talk to me.

I touched his forehead, feeling scared, "Did you feel bad yesterday? What kind of medicine did you take?"

He looked at me for a moment, avoiding my gaze.

...Damn it, do you still remember my grudge after it's all like this? !I didn't really ask you to marry Su Zhe!

Fine!There is always someone to talk to.

I called Su Zhe, and it rang several times before answering, but I didn't get up when I heard it.

"Junior Brother, it's so early in the morning..."

"Yang Congbai is sick!"

"what?"

"He has a fever of 39 degrees, what should I do?" I was in a hurry, "Can I take him to the hospital? No, I have to ask his brother and sister-in-law to come and see the child first..."

I babbled about it for a while, and Su Zhe had already woken up.

"Are you still at Yang Congbai's house?"

Damn, Yang Congbai really told him everything!

"Still talking about this?! I'm dying of anxiety!"

The other side smiled, "Don't worry, why is he uncomfortable?"

"I don't know! I asked him and he didn't tell me!"

Probably because I was too irritable, Keke and Yoyo looked at me worriedly, as if I was the one who got sick.

"He seemed to be suffering from last night, and I don't know what medicine he took..."

"Does he have a rash?"

"Huh?...I don't know."

The other side laughed again, "Take a look."

"..."

I took a look at Yang Congbai, he was well dressed, I really didn't know how to "see".

When I hesitated, Su Zhe probably understood, "Then you give the patient the phone number, I'll ask him."

With Dr. Su's words, I feel like I have invited Shang Fang's sword.I brought the phone to Yang Congbai's ear and turned on the power amplifier.

The little devils looked at us helplessly.

"It's Su Zhe," I burst out angrily, "Aren't you going to ask him if he wants to marry you? Ask now while you're at it!"

"What the hell?" Su Zhe was innocent over there, "I refuse."

Yang Congbai glanced at me, but this time he finally obeyed.

"……Hey?"

Su Zhe was still in the mood to greet him, "Good morning."

"……morning."

"Did you take the wrong medicine?"

Fuck!

Even Su Zhe can't just open his mouth to scold? !

"Yes." Yang Congbai said.

"Brother, I'm done asking."

I was dumbfounded.

"Drink more water. He took penicillin, he is allergic to that."

"...just drink more water?"

"You can beat him up if you want." Su Zhe said with a smile.

"..."

After hanging up the phone, I thought Yang Congbai needed to explain to me, but he just closed his eyes and stopped looking at me.

It's a good thing he can figure it out if he's not sick and looking for a sickness!

I hastily prepared breakfast for the little ghosts, and then followed the doctor's advice and brought water to Yang Congbai.I helped him up to drink water, he had a severe fever, and I knew how hot he could be through the clothes.His lips were also dry, and I saw a red rash on his neckline, which made me sore and itchy.

I really want to punch him.

He drank the water in the glass and leaned against the head of the bed, leaning on me.

We sat like this for a long time.

"Are you hungry?" I asked him.

"...can't eat it."

"..."

I think he is hateful, but I can't hate him.

I wanted to ask him if it was on purpose, but I swallowed the words.

What should I do if he admits it.

It is impossible to walk.

Thanks to Yang Congbai, I was more tired this weekend than going to work.I take Ke Ke to class, buy vegetables and cook, and take care of sick patients.His fever subsided, and I cooked some porridge for him. He drank slowly, but managed to finish it all.

At dinner in the evening he still looked inappetent and absent-minded.Holding the chopsticks in his hand, he was in a daze from time to time, not knowing what he was thinking.The two children felt sorry for him and brought him a lot of food, but he ate too slowly, and a small mountain gradually appeared in his bowl, looking precarious.

Seeing that Yang Congbai couldn't eat, Ke Ke thoughtfully lent him her own set of cute bear bowls and chopsticks.

"Dad, why are you sick?"

"..."

He looked up at me like the answer was in my face.

...what does it have to do with me?Don't try to slander Zhongliang!

Yoyo explained to Keke very seriously, "Because doctors are also human, as long as they are human, they will get sick!"

"Is that so..."

After the children left the table, Yang Congbai also put down his chopsticks.I saw that he didn't eat anything at all, so I had to tell him to cook noodles for him, but he nodded and didn't speak.When I cooked the noodles and brought them to him, he was still sitting at the dining table waiting for me, looking dazed, a little miserable, and a little obedient.

I don't know if it was burnt or not.

"Eat slowly, it's hot."

"Ah."

He picked up the chopsticks and carefully picked out a mouthful of noodles, still eating very slowly.I was cleaning the dishes and chopsticks, and I couldn't help but think wildly. If he really got burned and became a fool, wouldn't I have to support him for the rest of his life?

That's too bad!

He stopped suddenly and looked up at me.

I was very guilty, "What's wrong?"

Could it be that he developed supernatural powers, he heard what I was thinking, right?

He smiled, "Sweet."

"..."

I took a bite of the chopsticks in his hand... Uh, I probably put sugar into the noodles as salt.

"...Don't eat it."

I suddenly feel guilty, he is not stupid yet, I have already started to fool him...

"I'll cook another bowl."

"It's okay." He took back the chopsticks from my hand, "It's delicious."

"..."

He ate all the noodles.

After dinner, Yoyo asked me again and again if I could wait for my uncle to recover from his illness before leaving, and I assured him several times, "Daddy won't leave uncle alone."

Ke Ke has been clinging to Yang Congbai, it's time to go to bed, she is still sitting in Yang Congbai's arms and wants to read a book with him.I said it several times, but she didn't listen at all, and she still had to push forward.

"Daddy! Can I sleep with you at night?"

"No!" I flatly refused, without waiting for Yang Congbai to speak, "Ke Ke is obedient, stop messing with Dad!"

I walked over and wanted to hug Ke Ke, but she hugged Yang Congbai's neck tightly, she would rather die than follow.

"I do not!"

After she finished speaking, she kissed Yang Congbai fiercely, and then begged in a wailing voice, "Dad, I beg you! I love you so much! You have pity on me too!"

Ah ah ah ah ah! ! !

This little girl!

Yang Congbai was actually able to hold back his smile in a serious manner.He gave me a look that seemed to say, "Please stop eating, too."He pretended to think about it, and then said cautiously to Coco, "Alright then, but only tonight."

"Thank you dad!"

Ke Ke happily kissed Yang Congbai several times, and I saw that he was also smiling happily, and finally there was something lively on his face.

I know it.

Blood ties are born, but feelings are not.

In fact, they are relatives, just like me and Yoyo.

The next day, Yang Congbai was almost recovered.Ke Ke clamored to go to her grandfather's house, so Yang Congbai could only take her out.It happened that I was planning to take Yoyo to get a flu shot, but he seemed uneasy and asked me what time I would be back.

"Come back at what time after the fight. Are there many people on weekends?"

"It should be quite a lot." He hesitated, "Why don't you ask for leave tomorrow and take him there, I'll take Ke Ke to have a look and come back, and I'll cook in the evening..."

"No, you guys can eat over there. I'll take Yoyo to eat outside."

He lowered his eyes and said nothing more.

I know what he thinks, he just wants me to be at home with him.But if it wasn't for him looking for a doctor when he was not sick, I would have already left by this time.

He couldn't have been sick all the time, either.

Before going out, Keke took my hand and proudly said, "The injection hurts, but Keke didn't cry!" She also vividly described to me how much Xu Wuren's child cried so hard that even his nose fell on his father's leather shoes .

I squeezed her little hand lightly, to let myself remember the touch.

"Coco is the bravest." I said.

The time for vaccinations in the hospital on weekends is very short. Fortunately, Yang Congbai called us in advance and didn't let us make a trip for nothing.

Youyou swears that he is also very brave, but it's a pity that after one injection, he still loses Jindoudou.The nurse wiped away his tears with a smile, took some marshmallows to coax him, and told him to sit beside him obediently and wait for his father to get an injection.

I was taken aback, "Ah?! No way! I'm just here to take the kids to play..."

The nurse looked at the form in her hand again, "That's not right, Dr. Yang said it's for both adults and children."

"...Ahaha, is it?"

"Yes, it's best for the parents to hit it too, otherwise it's easy to infect the child if they get it."

"...Then he didn't explain it clearly to me." Yoyo was still watching from the sidelines, and I made up my mind not to let my son underestimate me, "Then hit me up!"

...I turned my head away from that horrible needle.

What a fucking pain!

It may be that the expression on my face was too ferocious. After the injection, the nurse specially gave me a few pieces of marshmallows.

"thanks, thanks!"

I can't laugh or cry.

When I went out, I stuffed the cotton candy into Yoyo's small pocket.

"Does it still hurt?" I asked him.

He nodded heavily, with a grievance on his face.

"The injection really hurts, and so does Dad..." I touched his little head, "But Yoyo persisted, Yoyo is really brave."

"But I cried!" He refused to accept my comfort, "Keke didn't cry."

"We don't have to be like Coco."

I picked him up, still hurting like hell from the needle hole in my arm, but it wasn't as important as the love I wanted to give him.

"But Dad, I also want to be brave..."

Yes.

I want too.

"...Some things are really good, but without them, it won't be bad...Yuyo, we don't have to be like them, we just need to be ourselves."

The cold wind is coming, and the severe winter is coming.

He put his arms around my neck and pressed his face to mine.

"Dad," he asked me in a low voice, "will we be together forever?...I want to be with Dad, and Coco and Uncle Yang."

"...Daddy will always be with you."

When I took a bath at night, my arm was already swollen and painful. It looked blue and purple, like an eggplant about to rot, and it was itchy to the touch.

I know it's an allergy, as did my flu shot last year.I came out of the shower in a hurry and put on my pants, looking for a towel to wrap my arms.

Yang Congbai's allergy is his own fault, but I am different.If it wasn't for the child, I really don't want to suffer this.

I came out of the bathroom and bumped into Yang Congbai head-on.

The clothes in his hand were knocked off the floor by me, and I quickly picked them up for him, "Do you want to wash?"

"……Um."

I threw those clothes in the basket, but he just looked at me.

I looked down at myself, suddenly embarrassed.

We spoke almost simultaneously.

"I'll put my clothes on right now."

"What happened to your arm?"

"Ah," I came back to my senses, "I was vaccinated, it was like this last year."

I said I was going to leave, but he stood still, "I'll give you some medicine."

"Need not."

"You can't do this."

"...Then I'll put on my clothes first."

It's not because of the vaccine he arranged for me! …I found a loose top with the sleeves rolled up.When I came out, Yang Congbai was already waiting for me in the living room.He took out the medicine box and took out some kind of ointment, which I didn't recognize.I rolled up my sleeves and he squeezed a little on my arm.

"...you painted it evenly yourself."

Of course.

I obediently do it myself.It was so swollen and disgusting that I didn't expect him to serve me.

He scolded me in a low voice, "You know you are allergic and still take it? Don't tell me."

This is too funny.

Who deliberately took the wrong medicine and burned like that?How could he forget everything in one sleep?

But I am handsome and kind-hearted, so save him some face.

"That was last year. Who knows that the vaccine hasn't made any progress year after year... What kind of medicine is this? It stinks too much?!"

He handed me the ointment in his hand, but his face was still grim.

I squeezed a little more, "Besides, allergies are not contagious."

"..."

"And it's not hereditary, right? Isn't it good?"

He simply turned his face away and stopped looking at me.

After applying the medicine, I took out two paper towels to wipe my hands, "Oh, by the way, I'll be back from get off work tomorrow."

"……busy?"

"I'll go home and have a look. It's been a week, so let's do it anyway."

"..."

"It's time for Yoyo and I to go back."

After a silence, he finally asked me, "Is that what you decided?"

"Okay." I put down my sleeves and threw the ointment back into the medicine box, "Thanks, but don't rub your bed..."

I said to stand up, but he was faster than me.He pushed me onto the sofa head-on, and I heard the bottles and cans in the medicine cabinet fall out and hit the ground... What the fuck is it? !You make such a big fuss when the child is sleeping, you don't have to pick the moment if you want to fight, right? !

He knelt down on the sofa and gagged me hard.

He held my face in his hands and kissed me in the same unskilled manner, as if he was biting.There was still that unknown ointment on his hand, exuding a pungent smell.Oh shit!Obviously a very particular person at ordinary times... He held me tightly and refused to let go, making me unable to breathe.Hold!He is probably determined to kill me here!

"dad!……"

I heard Yoyo calling me, and he heard it too.I pushed him away, stood up, and staggered towards Yoyo's room.

"Dad, what's that noise?"

Yoyo was obviously woken up.

"...Dad accidentally knocked down the water glass." I tucked the quilt up for him, "Yuyou, dad, will you sleep well while watching you?"

He nodded and closed his eyes.I patted him gently to fall asleep, but my mind was in chaos, as if a long time had passed.

Until Yoyo fell asleep, I walked out of the room, Yang Congbai was still waiting for me at the door.

I'm afraid he will apologize to me.

This time is different.

I couldn't wave my hand generously, as if nothing had happened.

I walked past him quickly, walked back to my room, closed the door, and shut myself in the darkness.

I was so sick I couldn't sleep at all.

His shitty ointment didn't help at all, and it made me smell like that all over my body!

The more I thought about it, the angrier I became, and I wished I could get up and beat him up.

I should have punched him long ago!

How can I keep him until now? !I……

The door of the room was pushed open suddenly, and some light shone in, silently.

But I know who it is.

He closed the door softly again, walked over to my bed and sat down.

He knows I'm still awake.

"Can I sleep with you?"

"..."

"Just sleeping together..."

"..."

He waited for a while, neither waiting for my permission nor my refusal.He stood up, and I thought he was going, but instead he lay down beside me.

This man is really...

hateful.

"...You are pressing my quilt."

"I'm sorry." He apologized quickly.

I was really scared of him.

If he catches a cold and gets sick again, or takes two pills if he feels unhappy, then I really can't afford to take care of him.

I turned around and pulled him under the covers.

He didn't seem to have thought that he would let me pull him in, cover him with the quilt, and just stare at me blankly.He looked completely at the mercy of others, which made my heart soften.Not to mention beating him, he just lay with me like this, he was so close, I really didn't even dare to move.

I suddenly became nervous and my heart beat suddenly faster.He reached out and pulled me into his arms.

...Damn, he definitely didn't wash his hands!

Is there something wrong with his sense of smell? !

He started patting me on the back as if trying to put me to sleep, like he was putting Coco or Yoyo.I secretly looked at him, just one look.In the night, his expression was still worried, but so gentle.My intense heartbeat calmed down a little bit in his comfort, as if the man who gnawed me out just now was not him.Until he got tired of shooting, he just hugged me.

In the dark night and silence, I was even in a trance, as if I had lost time and space.We are so close now, so close.

We've never been this close.

It seems that the last time we were lying in the same bed, I asked him if he chose to stay for someone back then.

It's just that I didn't know it at the time, and later he chose to let that person go away.

I close my eyes and my mind goes on and on.

I saw him wave goodbye to me at the station in a foreign country, and then he turned around and was drowned in the crowd.

He never told me what kind of wishes he made in those shrines and temples, big and small.

I wandered on the edge of past events and dreams, and all I saw was him and me.

He leaned over and pressed my forehead.

"Don't go?"

I probably agreed to him.

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