ruthless here

I still asked Zimo to send me the video of "the scene is too bloody and may cause discomfort".

Zimo said that the video was shot by a friend of Zhou Yuandi who was a reporter at the scene.Because of the news blockade, these videos are likely to never see the light of day.Even though I was mentally prepared during the loading time, I was blown away.

The picture is too clear and too oppressive.

In the off-balance shot, the crowd, the murder weapon, the bloodstains, the anger and passion on everyone's face are clearly visible, as if the picture unfolded, and I had to be involved in it.

I soon saw Yang Congbai.

As Zi Mo said, it doesn't take much effort to recognize Yang Congbai, he is so easy to recognize.The white coat on his body was stained with unknown blood, which was particularly shocking in the chaos and mess.His face is still calm and persistent, as if in this chaos and disaster, he is the one who will stick to it till the end.

I don't know how to describe my feelings.

Fortunately, I am afraid, thank God. "If he doesn't come back this time, will you regret it?" Great, now that I know he's in danger and safe, I don't have to force myself to solve this problem anymore.

He should be back soon, right?

After turning off the video, I took a cigarette to the balcony to smoke.The window was opened, and the cold wind hit my face, which made me shiver deeply.The smoke that spewed out was quickly blown away by the wind, and I saw moths that survived the cold wave tirelessly probing outside the screen window, as if they were looking for a way out to get closer to the light.

The cold made me very sober.

I should give him the key back.

I smoked the cigarette in my hand one after another, watching the moths outside the screen window finally give up, and I don't know where they flew.

To put it condescendingly, I couldn't bear to argue with him.

To be frank, indeed, I have to admit that Yang Congbai is still so good.I even finally discovered that his goodness never collapsed in my heart.Even the mistakes he made, those unreasonable ones, can't shake his beauty at all.

I don't deserve to argue with him about something, such as a father's qualifications.

The next morning, Sister Li called and said that Yang Congbai should probably be back in the evening.

It was "probably" and "should". Before I could ask clearly, Sister Li couldn't wait to tell me her troubles.

"Yu Fei, Keke has a ballet class today, but I have to take Xiaocheng to participate in the piano competition, and Yang Xun is not at home. I originally discussed it with Keke last night, and today we will go to cheer for Xiaocheng, but she changed her mind in the morning I'm going to have to go to ballet class..."

"Sister Li, let me take her there. I'll go right away."

"Then you have nothing else to do today?"

"No, I have nothing to do today. I will take Keke and Yoyo for a stroll after class is over."

"That's good!" Sister Li finally breathed a sigh of relief, "Thank you! I'll go find you when I'm done here."

"No, I have the key to Yang Congbai's house. After class, I will wait for Yang Congbai with Yoyo at home with her."

"...Also? Thank you for your hard work! If you can't figure it out, call me anytime!"

"Hey, isn't that what it should be?"

This is really as it should be.

I took Yoyo to Sister Li's place, but Keke's face was still stained with tears, as if she had been greatly wronged.Seeing me coming, he refused to speak, but held on to Yoyo tightly and refused to let go.Sister Li took Keke to wash her face, applied moisturizer, combed her hair, explained to me the clothes that Keke would use for class, and called the teacher to say that she still had to go to class, so she was relieved to let us go.

On the way, Youyou always wanted to make Keke happy, and even sang the very popular kitten meowing, but Keke's thoughts were not on us at all.

"Coco, where do you want to go after class? How about uncle taking you to eat delicious food?"

"I don't want to go to class."

"what?!"

I almost hit the brakes.

"I want to go home!" Coco said loudly.

"...Okay!" I wondered where I could turn around, "That's no problem, uncle will take you home right now!" I said as I took out the key and showed it to the back row, "Ke Ke, look, Dad gave Uncle the key! Isn’t Dad very smart? You’ve expected Uncle to make an appearance, right?”

I originally wanted to be funny, I thought she would lament Yang Congbai's foresight with me, and then we happily skipped class and went home.But to my surprise, there was an aggrieved cry from behind, "I want Dad!"

"..."

I am so stupid.

I was in a hurry to find a place to stop the car, and Yoyo nervously rummaged through the schoolbag behind, "Ke Ke, I have a new handkerchief, you use mine!"

The process of skipping classes was tortuous.

I called the teacher of the ballet class, but the teacher expressed doubts about my identity, so I had to let Coco speak to the teacher herself.This is great, the teacher almost called the police when he heard that Ke Ke was crying.

I had no choice but to call Sister Li again and ask her to ask Keke for leave for me, and she readily agreed.Later, I didn't ask whether the invitation was successful or not. I didn't care about it at all. I had more important things to do.

I have a heartbroken little girl who needs comfort and she is my daughter.

Although she doesn't know.

Coco was crying in my arms, and I coaxed her softly, telling her that it's okay to cry, but Dad will be back at night, we really just need to hold on a little longer.She curled up into a ball and wet my neckline from crying. I don't know whether there are more tears or more snot.Yoyo's new handkerchief was wet and wrinkled by her, just like my heart.I heard another twitching sound, and it was Yoyo who was crying too.

Well, sadness is presumably contagious.

I feel sorry for Cocoa.She was still so young, but she already knew what it was like to be heartbroken, and she cried so sadly, it seemed that her little sky was about to collapse.I am the father of this heartbroken little girl, and I can't bring her comfort at this moment because her heart is broken because of her other father, and she is crying because she misses him.

And what's more, I miss him too.

Yang Congbai is the instigator of this whole car of sadness.

He'd better show up to me tonight, whole and well.

Otherwise I'm really going to find him.

When Keke was tired from crying and calmed down, I took my two children home first.I took some things for a night out, especially Yoyo's.I have a heart, and I am prepared with both hands. In case Yang Congbai does not come back today, I will not give Keke to others.

But when I really entered Yang Congbai's house, I had a strange feeling like a dove occupying a magpie's nest.

Whether it's about this house or the position in Keke's heart, I'm not right, and my words are not right.

At best, it is a substitute who finally got the chance to play.

I don't want to start a fire and cook while the master is away.I asked Ke Ke and Yoyo what they would like to eat, and they could order takeaway.Ke Ke said he wanted to eat KFC, Yoyo also nodded and agreed, but whispered that Pizza Hut is also good.This trivial matter is so insignificant compared to what happened in the past two days, so I proudly called both.

Just after placing the order, Ke Ke regretted it again, "Dad doesn't like me eating KFC, he said that I can only eat it once a month." I ate it once last week, what should I do?"

"Uncle wants to eat too!" I quickly comforted her, "Uncle ordered this time, if uncle wants to eat, dad won't blame Keke!"

She looked at me helplessly, "Really?"

"really!"

"Would dad blame you then?"

My heart warmed up, "...No." I wiped her tears, "Uncle hasn't eaten KFC this month, Dad won't blame uncle."

She pouted her lips and thought for a while, then finally nodded in conviction.

I sent Yang Congbai a message, telling him that Keke is in my hands, and he had better go home honestly...Of course I can't send it like this, although I really want to.I told him that your brother and sister-in-law are busy today, but Ke Ke said she didn't want to take ballet class, so I took her home.

He didn't reply.

Probably because this sentence is very ambiguous, I don’t know if Yang Congbai will mistakenly think that I brought Keke back to my own home.

So I added another sentence, "I took her back to your house, and Yoyo and I will accompany her to wait for you to come back."

This time it should be clear.

I asked him what time to take the bus, but he still didn't respond.

The recent chat records are all the messages I sent him, all of which are one-man shows, which seems very cheeky.I don't know what I'm supposed to say to him when he comes back, he won't even talk to me, it'd be so funny to walk in and see me here playing the role of good dad.

I played with the two kids at home for a day, and before going to bed at night, Ke Ke ran over holding the tablet and announced loudly, "Daddy is coming back!"

Youyou hurriedly clicked on the voice on the screen, but what Yang Congbai said was clearly, "Keke go to bed first, and you will be able to see Dad when you wake up."

His voice seemed to have been lost for a long time.

Ke Ke was very excited, "I'll wait until Dad comes back before going to bed!"

I clicked it again, and replayed what Yang Congbai said, "Listen to what Dad said? Ke Ke has to sleep first, and then he can see Dad when he wakes up. If Ke Ke doesn't go to sleep, he won't be able to see Dad!"

Ke Ke was dumbfounded by what I said, but Yoyo cooperated with me, "I want to see Uncle Yang too! Then I'll go to bed first."

When she heard that Yoyo was going to sleep, Keke finally compromised.

I asked Ke Ke for advice and asked her which room Yoyo and I could sleep in.After all, Yang Congbai is not at home, she is the little master of the house.

But she looked at me with her head on one side, as if I had asked a very strange question.

"Uncle will sleep in Uncle's room, and Yoyo will sleep in Yoyo's room."

It turns out that Yoyo and I already have our own room in this house.

He is ready.

I settled the two children, tucked them in, turned off the lights, and I was in the room that was said to be for me.

I pushed open that door.

Turn on the light, the light is gentle and peaceful, only the owner's breath is missing, some are so original, so clean, so clean that I can't even sit down on the bed.There are two photo frames on the bedside table. The photo is mine. One is a group photo of three "beautiful girls". Zhang is my birthday. There is a dark chocolate cake in front of me. Coco and Yoyo are happily comparing scissor hands to my left and right, while I smile clumsily and happily.

This is what he helped me choose, he thinks my most important person, and the best time.

I looked at those two photos for a long time, and finally turned off the lights and left.

I took the quilt and went to sleep on the sofa in the living room.Since Yang Congbai said that he can see him when he wakes up from sleep, I hope he is telling the truth.

Fatigue and sleepiness soon swept me away.

I had a dream, dreaming that Yang Congbai came back.

In the dream, Yang Congbai was still wearing the white coat at the scene of the riot, looking terrifying.I was very scared and told him to take a shower and change clothes.I can't tell what I'm afraid of, but maybe he's scaring the kids.But the strange thing is that there is neither Coco nor Yoyo in the dream, only him and me in the dream.

He was standing in front of me, and I couldn't see his face clearly.He said, "Yu Fei, I regret it. You called me back at that time, and I should answer it. But I hesitated, and I didn't know what to say to you after answering."

Yes, I know you regret it, Su Zhe has already told me, but that's all in the past.I don't want to get into trouble with him, I just want him to change clothes quickly, as if something in the dream is urging me, it will be too late.

But in the dream I couldn't make a sound, I was so anxious, and he was still talking to himself.

"This time too, I'm really scared. I think if I die, then I won't be able to tell you anymore."

But you are living well!My ancestors, go and change your clothes quickly!

"Yu Fei, do you want to hear from me?"

"..."

It was just a moment of hesitation, but he seemed to hear my heart.I saw his face clearly in an instant, his expression was so sad and sad, he said, "Then I should die."

"do not!"

I snapped my eyes open.

In the chaos, the hem of the floor-to-ceiling curtain faintly reveals the light from outside.

Fortunately, it was a dream.

But the sadness and sadness in the dream were so real and huge, it almost overwhelmed me.

What time is it?

"you're awake?"

He was sitting on the ground, leaning against the sofa, looking back at me.

It was Yang Congbai.

He is back.

……Great.

He got up and sat on the sofa, and I also sat up, "What did you dream about?"

I glanced at my phone, it was four in the morning.Adapted to the dim light, he was wearing the clothes he would wear at home.I was relieved that not only was he alive and well, but he had even changed his clothes, so there was nothing to worry about.

Half of the quilt fell off and dragged to the ground. He wiped the tears from my eyes with his palm.

"You cry."

Yeah, I fucking dreamed you told me you were going to die.

"When did you come back?"

"It's about two o'clock."

"...Then why don't you sleep?"

He didn't speak, and straightened the hair on my forehead.He's too close to me, but I'm all dull now, and there's no time to avoid him.

"Yu Fei, are you awake now?"

I nodded subconsciously. This feeling seemed a little familiar, as if I had returned to the dream just now.

He has something to say to me.

"I've thought about it, I'll give you Coco."

……what did he say?

"What did you say?"

"I don't want to embarrass you anymore."

"..."

What's up with him?

It seemed like I should be happy, but I wasn't happy at all.

What's wrong with me?

His voice was low and deep, depressing ups and downs in the half-dark dawn.

"You said that day, let me start a new family in the future... Actually, I obviously planned this for you, but I didn't know until that day that I couldn't stand the same thing being said by you... I thought about it too, I have made many assumptions over and over again. If I told you something back then... the result would still be the same, you wouldn't accept it... I have seen too much parting of life and death, I am used to it, and even a little numb, but This time I asked myself, if something really happens, if I really never see you again, I..."

"No," I interrupted him, "don't scare yourself."

Don't scare me either.

"Yu Fei."

He hesitated, seemed to want to take my hand, but finally gave up.

"... I made a very bad decision in my opinion and I willingly took the consequences. But I know, I can't make it up... This time I can't be wrong again, you are right, it is you Your life should be decided by you. I shouldn't, and I won't interfere with your decision anymore... Coco's life has just begun, she still has such a long way to go in the future, she can't always live in a lie Li... you can tell her the truth, as you said, while she is still young, before it's too late... I won't bother her again, I promise. She will slowly forget me."

what about me?

Will I forget you too.

"Yu Fei, this time, you make the decision."

I make the decision.

He let me decide.

"What about you?" I asked him back, "And then you started a new life, didn't you?"

... This is not what I mean.

He looked at me, with tiny lights flickering in his eyes, "Do you care?"

"..."

"I know, it's not fair to you, but I'm just an ordinary person... I'm sorry, I can't do what you said, take care of Coco with you, but I have nothing to do with you...I I can imagine that taking care of two children will be very hard, but you don't have to worry about it, I will bear all the expenses of Coco in the future, no matter what you need..."

"Yang Congbai!" My heart tightened, "Don't bargain with me."

"...You can think about it carefully, and don't need to answer me right away."

"..."

There is no need to think about it.

I neither had the courage to be with him, nor did I have the courage to take Coco away.

I'm just that cowardly.

I just want to go back to my old life.

I don't know how long, he just looked at me like this, until he was sure that I had nothing to say, he stood up and left.

As the sky was getting darker, I woke up Yoyo and took him home.

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