ruthless here

The number is limited on Monday, this time I am smarter.

I paid the bill when I got off at the junction.In this way, even if Yang Congbai repeats his old tricks and waits for the rabbit, I won't let him spend that unjustly money.

But I walked back and forth several times at the gate of the kindergarten, but I didn't see him.

Soon I discovered that Yang Congbai really didn't want to talk to me anymore.

There are no more messages on the mobile phone asking for warmth, but I still have something to say to him.

In the summer, Yang Congbai heard what I said, took Keke to meet Wu Yitong, and told her that she was her mother.But after that, I didn't hear anything about my mother from Coco.

Maybe she was still ignorant and didn't take it to heart; maybe she cared, but I wasn't the one she was talking about about her mother.Let's put aside what to do with my "father", after all, she still has a father in front of her.But I was the one who pushed that "mom" in front of her, and I couldn't just let it go.

But Yang Congbai told me that this time, and I guess including in the future, he will not do that again.

It shouldn't be up to him to decide.

At least, it shouldn't be up to him to make the decision alone.

I feel stupid.He has a deadly card in his hand, and what I have in my hand is just his little bit of reluctance.

Now he wants to take back his reluctance.

Like a remedy after a dead sheep, I started a clumsy rescue.

I sent him a message, explaining that the temperature will rise in the weather, and I want him to wear the dress I bought for Ke Ke, but he didn’t reply to me; I asked him for the ingredients for the sweet and sour fish he made that day, and said he wanted to make it for Yoyo , but he didn't respond; I said I wanted to have lunch together, but only Su Zhe came.Su Zhe said that there were two new interns in the department, both girls, who were scolded and cried by the head nurse of the second district early in the morning.

"Yang Congbai took pity on the fragrance and cherished the jade, and took them to dinner at noon."

I poured the soup into the rice and stirred it vigorously with chopsticks twice.

"Then why don't you go?"

Su Zhe smiled meaningfully, "I have to accompany you, otherwise you will be so lonely."

"...you still miss me."

I was so angry that I took two mouthfuls of rice and asked Su Zhe vaguely, "Is the intern pretty?"

He raised his eyebrows, "Of course she is beautiful. How can a young student not be beautiful?"

Depend on.

"What about egg tarts?"

Su Zhe said with a smile, "Better than Wu Yitong back then."

Caught off guard, I coughed violently, choked rice grains into my trachea, and tears flowed out.The nasty Su Zhe was still laughing.If I hadn't had a terrible cough, I would have shoved him under the table and beat him up!

"You," he laughed enough, and nodded at me with his chopsticks, "I invite you today."

"...Then I thank you."

Thank you for not letting me make this fool of myself.

When I came back to work in the afternoon, I sent another message to Yang Congbai, saying that I might have to leave late today, and asked if he could pick up Yoyo for me.I thought to myself, even if he didn't want to talk to me, he probably wouldn't be angry with Yoyo.

When I was about to get off work, I received a call from Aunt Fang.

"You are less than, Doctor Yang is working overtime today, so he won't come back to eat. He said he wanted to cook fish for Youyou, and eat sweet and sour?"

"...No, no, no! It's okay, Auntie Fang, I can be there on time! I can pick it up myself, and I don't need to trouble you!"

He did it on purpose.

It's obvious that he made such a mess for me, but now he's posing as if he's going to fight coldly, what a joke!Do I owe him a hundred million? !

He is unreasonable!

Yang Congbai and I can no longer reason, which is really strange.

Filled with resentment, I was determined not to look for him anymore, but I received a text message from him in the middle of the night, saying that he was going on a temporary business trip.

He said that Ke Ke and Mao Mao had been sent to Yang Xun, and he just informed me.

He texted me at this time, but he didn't say where he was going or when he would come back.

I watched the screen dim over and over again, not knowing what to do.

I really want to ask where he went, not to mention today is a special day.

But I hesitated all morning and still didn't ask anything.

Who told him to ignore me before.

Besides, he didn't need to report any itinerary to me, and it was only because of Coco that he could think of telling me.

I went to work in the morning, and as soon as I entered the office, I heard them talking about the news from last night.There was a huge explosion in T City next door, causing heavy casualties. I saw it when I checked Moments in the morning.Zhou Yuandi said that everything is fine at home, so that everyone does not have to worry about it.

"The fire hasn't been extinguished yet, and the highway is restricted." Hao Meng put down the soy milk buns in his hand and turned on the computer, "I just heard from the people in the elevator in the elevator that they have already started sending doctors over there for reinforcements. Going really... huh?! Manager Yu!"

I went to the corridor to make a call, but no one answered Yang Congbai's cell phone.

I hang up and replay.Hao Meng came out and asked me, "Manager Yu, are you okay?"

"I am fine."

"Then what's your expression?" After saying this, Hao Meng was stunned for a moment, "...Isn't it? Where's Dr. Yang?"

"I do not know."

I really don't know.

He didn't tell me again.

What does he think of me? !

I know I can't escape.

Unsolved problems will be encountered again sooner or later.

Like this dead phone call.

In the great earthquake that year, the affiliated hospital supported the disaster area. At that time, Lin Wanqing led the team, and Yang Congbai also went there.It should be Su Zhe who told me that many people wanted to go at that time, but the student card was very strict, and only one place was given.It was definitely a big event at the time, and we all paid close attention to it and missed it.

I remember that Yang Congbai called me after arriving in the disaster area, but I didn't receive it; I also called him back, but I didn't get through.

But I don't remember what happened afterwards.

Maybe it was because Yang Congbai and I had rarely met or communicated at that time, maybe it was because I was in a relationship at that time, and I didn’t have much energy to devote to other people, or maybe it was because another incident happened at that time. Later, it took up so much of my memory that whenever I recalled the earthquake, it was all about it.

I remember the banners and posters that were everywhere on campus.According to Lin Wanqing's last wish, his body was not even transported back to Beicheng, but this did not prevent him from being sung vigorously thousands of miles away.

That was originally the person who took care of me. I really wanted to say a few words of comfort to Lin Xuan, but we had no contact with him at that time, so in the end, I still couldn't find him and say something to him.

I guess he must have heard enough, too.

Like most people, I ended up being just an ordinary spectator.

Back to the present, I can probably guess why Yang Congbai called me back then.

He saw the destruction without warning and the separation of life and death in the disaster area, so he may have something to say to me.

After lunch, I went to find Su Zhe.

There were other doctors taking a nap in the office, and Su Zhe was watering the flowers on the windowsill.He saw me, put down the kettle, and wiped his hands.

"I guess it's time for you to come, too."

"..."

He smiled, "The weather is fine today, I'll take you up there to have a look."

"Where?"

Su Zhe took me to the rooftop.

I never knew that there is such a place in the affiliated hospital, which miraculously avoids many tall buildings, has a just right angle, and can see the school from a distance.

The place where I have so many memories, I thought I had already left.

"I slept so hard yesterday that I didn't receive a call." Su Zhe put his hands in the pockets of his white coat, and he looked at that place just like me. "I'm sorry, Yang Congbai has a child at home, I should have gone there."

This is probably the first time I saw Su Zhe making a low profile, and I couldn't help but feel a little horrified, "Why are you apologizing to me?"

"Oh, I thought you were here to inquire about the crime."

"..."

I suddenly felt an embarrassment of being seen through.It's as if my indefinable feelings towards Yang Congbai have nowhere to hide in front of Su Zhe.

Fortunately, Su Zhe didn't continue to tease me.

"Today is Yang Congbai's birthday," he said.

Of course I do.

"You don't have to worry, there will be no danger. And I just read the horoscope. He has a lucky star this week, so he shouldn't be able to make great achievements."

"..."

He still has the mind to joke with me!

My tone was bad, "I will worry about him?!"

"Then why did you come to see me?"

"..."

I am speechless.

There was a period of silence between us in the clear chill, the clouds in the sky moved with the invisible wind, and the sun poured down.

"When did you find out?"

"I've been waiting for this question from you for a long time."

We stood side by side in the sun and wind, I suddenly had an indescribable feeling, maybe it was just my illusion.

"Maybe I knew it from the beginning."

I seem to have never understood Su Zhe.

A flock of birds flew by in the sky, and his voice became flickering amidst the din, "You were originally separated from each other, and you lived in peace, and he can keep it from you for the rest of your life."

Yes.

It was supposed to be so.

But I made that phone call to Su Zhe and begged him to see a doctor for Zhu Yan's child.

Then everything is different.

The wind was blowing on the roof, and we were on a high place, as if we could overlook all living beings.But fate is impossible to guess.

"In fact, in the past few years, I have always told him when I came back from the Spring Festival, but he didn't respond." Su Zhe paused, "I thought you were just like this."

That's it.

"Otherwise, what else can I do?" I asked Su Zhe back, "You don't think that I should be with him because of Keke?!"

But Su Zhe didn't answer me.

Large clouds moved with the wind, casting shadows that drifted past us.

He suddenly asked, "Have you ever regretted it?"

"Regret what?"

"Have you ever regretted adopting Yoyo?"

"Of course not! How is it possible?"

"Have you ever regretted being with Wu Yitong?"

"..."

Yes, she lied to me, that was Yang Congbai's pain, saying that she has no regrets is false, even immoral.So I should feel guilty and should compensate him?

"Then have you ever regretted Bai Xuan?"

"……I have no idea."

I really don't know this.I've thought about it too much, for too long, too much, and I don't even want to touch it anymore.

"But Yang Congbai regretted it."

"..."

Su Zhe's voice became very low, as if those words had disappeared with the wind as soon as they were uttered.

"He knew very well that even if he said it back then, there would be no results, but he still regretted it."

"..."

The heart that I have never known is so far away from me, as if it has been a long, long time ago.

"People are always lucky. If he doesn't come back this time, will you regret it?"

I couldn't believe it, "Can you say something nice about you?!"

Probably expecting such a reaction from me, Su Zhe just smiled, "Then just pretend I didn't say anything."

"You withdraw it for me, you!"

He quickly agreed, "Okay, okay, I'll withdraw it."

I almost lost my face, but luckily I still remembered that Yang Congbai and him were best friends.

"Of course he was wrong, but don't get too caught up in the horns." Su Zhe said, "Whether it's a relationship or a compromise, why make a distinction so clearly. There's no need."

I didn't argue with Su Zhe any more.

It's not because his reasoning is impeccable, and it doesn't mean that I agree with him, it's just because today's Su Zhe has said too many things that he wouldn't normally say.

I don't know if it's because of the roof, the sunshine, or the wind on the roof.

"Okay, let's stop here for today's service. If you talk again, you will have to pay." Su Zhe took out his mobile phone and sent me a number, "This is the number of their team leader, but only family members can call. You can Have to think about it."

"..."

I looked at him speechlessly.

He still had his usual smile on his face, as if he could tease me at any time, but there was something in his eyes that I couldn't see through, and he didn't seem to intend to share it with me.He said let me go back first, he still wants to stay here for a while.

"What are you doing here?"

He narrowed his eyes and looked up to find the sunlight.

"I've been a little calcium deficient recently, and I want to get more sunshine."

"..."

After work, I went to the kindergarten to pick up Yoyo, and met Sister Li who came to pick up Keke.

Xiao Cheng sat in the back row, guarding a birthday cake box.He handed Yoyo a lollipop, the big one, a beautiful unicorn.

Yoyo was overjoyed, "Thank you Brother Xiaocheng!"

Ke Ke was obviously not in a good mood, she called me "Uncle Yu", and then buried her face in Sister Li's arms.

Sister Li tugged at her braids, "Cong Bai is on a business trip all of a sudden, the little girl wakes up as if she lost her soul."

I was also sad.

Coco must be the one who misses Yang Congbai the most.

Probably wanting to comfort Ke Ke, Yoyo handed her the lollipop in her hand.Xiaocheng quickly said, "I still have a lot more!" He took out a bag from under the car seat like a magic trick, and showed it to us like a treasure, letting Yoyo and Keke choose what they like.

Sister Li turned her head and told him, "It must be well hidden, and be careful not to be discovered by your father!"

"If you are found out, you will say that I want to buy it, right?" Xiaocheng complained, "Mom, you are so cunning, you are like this every time."

But Keke shook her head and rejected Yoyo and Xiaocheng's kindness, "Father won't let me eat lollipops, it's not good for my teeth."

"My mother!" Sister Li looked at Ke Ke in amazement, and sighed to me again, "If you want me to say that this father should not come back, take this opportunity to correct all the problems of the girl!"

I have mixed feelings.

Why is he reluctant to come back?

He will not fail to come back.

At night, Youyou sent a voice message to Yang Congbai, wishing Uncle Yang a happy birthday.Before waiting for a reply, Yoyo refused to go to bed, so I had no choice but to coax him, "It's time to go to bed. Uncle Yang is very busy and has important things to do, and Yoyo has to do her own things well."

"Dad," Yoyo asked me, "I miss him, will he know?"

"...he'll know."

He must know.

I hadn't held out my hopes, but I got his reply before I went to sleep.

He said, "Thank you, Yoyo."

The screen shows a poor 2''.

too short.

And it wasn't for me either.

He just ignored my messages and missed calls on purpose.

I suddenly became afraid, and I suddenly thought, will he deal with me like he did with Wu Yitong?

Will he let me give him the key back?

Will he never let me see Coco again...

Sister Li is right, he should not come back yet.

In the complicated anxiety, on Friday night, I unexpectedly received a call from Zimo.

His impatient tone made me very familiar, and there must be a lot of gossip about to explode.It's just that I never expected that he would actually ask me, "Do you know, Feifei? Yang Congbai is in City T!"

"...I know." But the question is, "How do you know?"

"My god!" Zimo sighed, ignoring my question at all, "He is so lucky! The car was smashed like that and he is fine! I wanted to send you a video, but the scene was too bloody I'm afraid of causing you discomfort..."

I suspected that I had hallucinations, and my whole body was cold.

"……What did you say?!"

"Huh? So you don't know? Then let me tell you! It was gossip from Zhou Yuandi's friend. Now all the news has been blocked, and you can't access the Internet! Didn't the chemical plant explode? Someone went to surround the accident. The company said they wanted to ask for an explanation, but the two sides started fighting! It was a real fight! Seeing that people were about to die, they called an ambulance, but the ambulance was smashed at the scene! I saw the message from the front line Video, who do you think is in the car?!"

"..."

"If the armed police hadn't arrived in time," Zi Mo's voice suddenly became softer, "Yang Congbai can also report as a martyr, right?"

"..."

"Hello? Are you listening?"

I can't breathe.

"……It might work."

"Yes, Lin Wanqing reported back then."

"..."

Zimo sighed and sad again, "Yang Congbai is really blessed! It is said that the wounded in the ambulance, his daughter died in the explosion, but the father didn't rescue him. It's really miserable. The person died before they were sent to the hospital... This is murder, right?! I don't want to encounter this kind of thing in my life... Do you think they have a strong heart as a doctor? Yang Congbai also went to the earthquake , isn’t he afraid?... No, I definitely don’t want children to be doctors in the future! Oh well, anyway, I won’t have children in the future... Feifei? Hello?”

I want to cry.

"...Are you sure he's okay?"

"I'm sure, I'm sure!" Zimo's voice was full of apology, "Zhou Yuandi called to ask, but only suffered a little skin trauma. I'm sorry, Feifei, are you worried about him? I almost forgot, but you are too good friend……"

"..."

I don't want to be good friends with Yang Congbai at all.

I almost hate him.

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