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I didn't sleep well for days after that.

I dreamed all night and all night, on and off.I dreamed that Yang Congbai also took a paternity test, and the test result said that Ke was his daughter. I yelled at him that the test was fake, but I couldn’t make a sound in the dream; I dreamed that Wu Yitong came to find her. Me, she said that she didn't have any cancer, and she didn't go to the United States. She and Yang Congbai didn't even divorce. The three of them obviously had a good life... I also dreamed of Yang Congbai, he was neatly dressed , but I was naked, he hugged me tightly, no matter how much I begged him, he would not let go...

When I woke up, it was cold and sticky, and I was about to be driven crazy by him.

It was just dawn, and I called Yang Congbai, who was connected quickly.

"Yu Fei?"

"Listen to me, I want Wu Yitong to meet Keke."

"..."

"I don't care what you tell them to see, anyway... Anyway, I don't want anyone to regret it in the future!"

"Are you going to tell Coco?"

"..."

I don't know what exactly he was referring to telling Coco.

"If you find it difficult, I can make the decision for you."

He irritated me with just this sentence, "Then you really don't know how to repent!"

"..."

I really regret making this call, "This is my life, that is my daughter! Yang Congbai, do you think you can do whatever you want?!"

"Of course not." He spoke slowly and calmly, as if he omitted a lot of things he wanted to say, "otherwise you wouldn't know it now."

"..."

"Yu Fei, I dreamed of you."

"..."

"I dreamed that you were going to take Keke away, and I don't want to have anything to do with me anymore. You are so determined, so...you don't know how scared I was when I answered the phone just now."

"..."

It turned out that he would be afraid too.

Yeah, he was a father after all, even if he stole it.

I knew he said all this just to soften my heart, but I still softened my heart.

But at this moment, "Yu Fei, I won't let you go this time."

"..."

"Don't even try to take Coco away."

I hung up the phone.

After that phone call, I have no contact with Yang Congbai.

I heard that Coco was back, Yoyo took out two beautifully wrapped boxes from his bulging schoolbag, and said that Coco had personally picked the chocolates for us.

"This one belongs to Dad, this one belongs to me, don't make a mistake!"

I took the one that belonged to me and held it in my hand, which was picked by Ke Ke.

my cocoa.

I held the box of chocolates in my hands, and I couldn't tell what it was like.Then this must be Yang Congbai's name, he knows what I like.

I told Yoyo not to eat too much, I can only eat two pills a day, if he behaves well, I can give him my box too.Yoyo cheerfully placed the chocolates on the coffee table, calculating when she could eat them.

The next day Yang Congbai sent me a message, saying that if Youyou likes it, he can ask someone to buy it, but I ignored him.

I suddenly found that there are too many traces left by him in my life.The mobile phone he bought for me, Yoyo's toys, and even the lunch box I brought back from his house, I never thought of returning it to him.

Or am I too stupid.

I go out earlier in the morning and get off work earlier in the evening. I would rather stay at home and work overtime than pick up Yoyo on time.And Yang Congbai seemed to be cooperating with me tacitly, just like I warned him, he never appeared again.

In the calm weather, I began to feel a little uneasy. I was afraid that someone would appear suddenly and say that he would take Yoyo away.Just like I told Yang Congbai to take Coco away.

It took me some time to find a few contacts in the old days.There was the intermediary who matched Bai Xuan and me back then, the nanny who used to help at Bai Xuan's house, and the Chinese product store she used to frequent.It seems that every phone number is a door, behind which may be clues about Yoyo's identity.

But after several hesitation, I finally didn't have the courage to touch anything.

Bai Xuan said that the child's father had an accident and died.She kept tight-lipped about herself and Yoyo's life experience, as if she was avoiding something.

To this day, it is right not to inquire.

As long as I continue to keep this secret, the things I worry about will never happen.

I am different from Yang Congbai.

I have neither deceived anyone nor disturbed the lives of others.

The days go on.

I would still meet Sister Li or Aunt Fang, and I greeted them as casually as before, not wanting others to notice anything unusual.

The matter between me and Yang Congbai is just between me and Yang Congbai.And outside of that, I still have my life to live.I have to play every role, even if it is inconspicuous.

Everything is as usual.

Even Coco has the same attitude towards me, still so indifferent.Thanks to Yang Congbai, my daughter doesn't like me.

During this period, Xiao Qing and Yao Ruochen wanted to invite me to dinner, saying that they would formally invite me to be the best man.I accepted the errand of best man, but turned down the meal.I said that I am too busy recently, and I will eat their dog food after I am busy.

I was afraid that I would accidentally expose something in front of Xiao Qing.

Wu Yitong sent me a message saying that Yang Congbai brought Keke to see her.Yang Congbai told Ke Ke that it was her mother.Wu Yitong was very grateful to me. She said that she was going to have an operation soon, and she felt that there would be good results waiting for her.

She is very grateful to me.

She is thanking me.

I don't know if I should be grateful to her too, if not for her presence, I might still be kept in the dark.Five years, ten years, maybe a lifetime.

But I have no luck or joy.

My good life is now in shambles.I had a daughter overnight, and my daughter had just met her biological mother, whom she didn't know, and I wasn't there, because my daughter, she didn't know me either.

I don't know what Ke Ke's reaction was when he saw Wu Yitong. Although I really want to know, I should know, but I don't know who to ask.

I don't want to ask Wu Yitong, that would be too cruel to her.But I don't even want to ask Yang Congbai, because that would be too cruel to me.

"Father, have you reconciled with Uncle Yang?" Yoyo asked me with concern.

"...It should be soon."

He nodded vigorously in relief, not caring if I was lying.

Yoyo, my Yoyo.

We have all survived the difficult times.

I took two days of annual leave and even last weekend, I took Yoyo to Disneyland, forgetting all the love and hatred in Beicheng for the time being.

This is Yoyo's first visit to Disneyland, he is very excited about everything, and everything he sees is new.He kept taking photos and posting photos, he was extremely busy, while his parents and Yu Fan tirelessly supported him, they were enthusiastic off-site audiences.

Yoyo is happy, so I am naturally happy too.

I pretended not to hear him secretly texting Yang Congbai.

"Uncle, just now Dad bought a big marshmallow... Yes! I can eat it with Dad!"

The little traitor.

After returning to Beicheng, I mourned my deflated wallet. This trip to the plane hotel, plus taking a taxi to eat, really cost me a lot of money.

I can't help but think, even if Yang Congbai is really willing to give me cocoa, I'm afraid I don't have the ability to take care of the two children.

The question couldn't be more real.

I may have to take them back to their hometown, or I may send them back to their hometown.But either way, it's not fair to Coco.My biological father has no financial strength, nor does he have any kindness in nurturing her. She can be the jewel in Yang Congbai's palm, and she will definitely be a lady in the future; what can I give her, and why does she want to go with me?

Besides, she doesn't like me.

Yang Congbai raised my daughter to such an age for me, and gave her the best in everything, which made my resentment not so logical.

He's done everything he can do.

He even said that he could spend his whole life with Wu Yitong.

I can't imagine.

If Wu Yitong hadn't divorced him back then, if they were still living together, then maybe there would always be some warmth accumulated over the years, and they would eventually live happily.

Will they really be happy?

Will Yang Congbai be happy?

I can't think of an answer.

None of the answers are what I'm looking for.

It is no longer possible for me to read what kind of heart he had back then.

Just like maybe what he thought he wanted back then has also passed.

I'm waiting for time to pass.

When the time passes, we can talk about cocoa calmly.

Autumn is probably the best season in the city.

One afternoon in September, I went back to the headquarters for a mid-term interview with Zou Yuan.I expressed my desire to leave the project and made some high-sounding excuses like personal development.

Of course, Zou Yuan was very surprised, after all, I was transferred from this project.But he said he would consider it.

I know very well that in my role as a single father, there are not many opportunities for me to choose.

But I want to leave the hospital.

Although I haven't seen Yang Congbai for a long time.

Yang Congbai and I seemed to be walking in two parallel worlds.

It turns out that it is so easy to disappear from a person's sight.We go to work, eat, and pick up our children in a place with a radius of no more than two kilometers every day.I practice every day in my mind what kind of reaction I should have and what kind of words I should say when I bump into him, but he didn't show up.

I have to get out of here.

On the weekend of the Mid-Autumn Festival, I took Youyou to Yu Fan's house for dinner. This time it was her turn to buy vegetables, and I cooked.After Yoyo sat down to eat, Yu Fan asked me if something happened recently.

"No, you think too much, don't you?"

"Who are you kidding? Although we are not twins, we still have a little bit of telepathy, okay?" She stared at me with her chin propped up, "Just tell me the truth, have you been trapped by love lately?"

I almost bit my tongue.

"Look, look! I feel that something is not right since you came back from seeing Wu Yitong! Oh yes, how is her surgery going?"

"It was quite successful."

"Then you didn't go to see it?"

"...I want to see it. I'm afraid that my husband will beat me up, okay?"

"Tsk." Yu Fan rolled his eyes at me and asked again, "What about Yang Congbai?"

"What Yang Congbai?"

She looked suddenly enlightened, "Oh! It seems that the problem lies with Yang Congbai!"

"What are you talking about here?"

"I'm talking nonsense? You've been hiding something from me since you were a child. That's the expression just now. Do you want me to play it back for you in slow motion..."

"Okay, okay, eat quickly!"

She didn't say anything more, but she kindly picked up a shrimp for me.

"He introduced a colleague to me last week, who is also a surgeon, and made an appointment to see him tomorrow."

I peeled the whole shrimp before realizing what she was talking about.

"...He introduced you?"

"Yes."

Well, you Yang Congbai...what on earth does he want to do? !

Yu Fan picked up the phone, a little eager to try, "The photos look pretty good! I'll find you Zhang Shuai..."

"Don't show it to me!" I yelled, "Would the colleague he introduced to you be named Su?"

"No," Yu Fan said with a dazed expression, "My surname is Liu. What's the matter?"

"..."

I fell to the ground with a stone, "It's fine if it's not!"

Yu Fan added, "Yang Congbai also told me that he can also pay attention to it for you, mainly because he is afraid of you..."

"... Who is he talking about?"

"You."

"..."

Is this shrimp poisonous?

Why do I feel like there is something wrong with my ears? !

"Oh, you don't have to be embarrassed! To put it bluntly, at your current age, if you want to find a reliable person, you still have to rely on the introduction of relatives and friends. If you ask me, he is really worried about his life, even the relationship between his ex-wife's ex-boyfriend. Worry! I am embarrassed to ask you directly because of your face, really..."

"..."

I really wanted to say "admiration", but he actually thought of starting with Yu Fan.

I took another shrimp and tore off the head.

"Then let him keep an eye on it for me, and see if he knows what I like."

Do these things with me, see if I don't disgust you to death!

Yu Fan's eyes widened, "Just like Wu Yitong?!"

"Are you crazy?!" I was taken aback by her, "Did I say that?!"

"You're crazy! If you say this, you won't be afraid of Yang Congbai coming to beat you up!"

"He dares?! It's not certain who beats who!"

"Look! I'll say you two are plastic brothers! On the surface, you seem to be friendly, but in your heart you can't get along with each other because of that shitty thing!"

"Who has trouble with him? I'm with him..."

Depend on!

I wanted to say that I have nothing to do with him, but I really can't say that.

I still have a living hostage in his hands!

"How are you with him?"

Yu Fan asked in a prolonged voice on purpose.

I ate all the shrimp in a huff.

When I got home, I calmed down alone, regardless of whether it was true that he said he would introduce someone to me, if he could introduce Yu Fan successfully, then I would really have to thank him.

Whatever his motives are.

I still want to believe that he is kind.

Even if he did well-intentioned things, he missed them.

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