The time machine tells me [rebirth]

If Jiang Muzhi could make her own choice, she would rather die in that earthquake than go back to the young Jiang Muzhi and continue to live as she is now.

Some things, it’s not that if you lie to yourself that it hasn’t happened, it really hasn’t happened.

Life and death can still be saved, but how can feelings be wiped out?

Her love and hatred for Rong Feijin had already penetrated deep into her bone marrow. Those pasts that disappeared in the long river of history were like sharp knives, engraved in her mind one stroke at a time, and stood motionless in her mind. in the world.She would still be unable to fall asleep in countless tossing and turning silent nights, and she would still burst into tears when she woke up in the middle of the night.

Even if she has this young body, she doesn't have Feiyang's state of mind at that time. It's like forcing an old man into a young body. On the surface, she is youthful and beautiful, but inside she is already rotten and riddled with wounds. hole.

If she could, she wished so much that she could turn into a ghost and hold up a long umbrella for her embarrassed self when she was 17 years old.

Since then, I have lost my soul, and I will not hesitate.

You and I are no longer relevant.

Jiang Muzhi and Rong Feijin first met on a rainy day like today.

At that time, she was still in the third year of high school in the High School Affiliated to Jianghai University, and there was only a wall between Jianghai University and Jianghai University. From the most remote path of Jianghai University, she could see the gate of the High School Affiliated to Jianghai University.

On June 2016, 6, two days before the college entrance examination, the High School Affiliated to Haida University organized the examination.

Jiang Muzhi asked Jiang Yinong a week in advance if he wanted to pick her up on the day of the exam. If she picked her up, she would not sign up for the school bus.

Jiang Yinong thought for a while, the eldest son was going back to school that day, so he had to send him off.Just about to refuse, when I looked up, I saw my little daughter pretending to be calm but couldn't help looking at him with expectant eyes. Guilt rushed into my heart, and I couldn't say the words of rejection, so I nodded and agreed.

Hearing the affirmative answer, the corners of Jiang Muzhi's lips curled up uncontrollably, like a child who got a favorite toy, with bright eyes, but pretending to be reserved, he said in a deep voice, "Okay."

Three years in high school, nearly 37 months, 150 for six weeks, she had to go home every week, but it was the first time Jiang Yinong agreed to pick her up.

For the first time, she felt that the college entrance examination was really good.

Jiang Muzhi will never forget that it was Monday and it rained heavily.

Because of the heavy rain, the pre-examination mobilization was changed to the lecture hall on the first floor of the senior one teaching building.

After the mobilization is over, the students who should take the school bus should take the school bus, and those who should wait for their parents should go to the hall to wait for their parents.

The people in the school left one by one, and Jiang Muzhi's laughter, laughter, and greetings that had been lingering around his ears also disappeared in the air. Jiang Muzhi stood there stiffly with a big bag and an umbrella in his hand. In the hall, the mood gradually changed from joy, to anxiety, and finally to despair and embarrassment.

She was the only one in the entire teaching building, wearing a sky blue school uniform.

After class, there were also younger students who watched her from a distance and whispered, as if wondering why this senior didn't go home.

Jiang Muzhi was ashamed and annoyed at being looked at, wishing she could get into the cracks in the ground, but her self-esteem told her that it would only make her look more like a pitiful creature.

She forced her cold face, pursed her thin lips, and stared at her watch without blinking. Three hours had passed since the appointed time.

There must be a traffic jam on the road, or the rain was too heavy, the car was flooded, broke down, or there was a car accident and the car was impounded...

The more Jiang Muzhi thought about it, the more mysterious it became, and his thinking even diverged to the point that if something happened to his father, his mother would be so sad, and her brother would not be able to go to university. She had to study hard, get ahead, and shoulder the responsibility of supporting the family... …

However, deeper in her heart, there was a voice telling her.

——Where are there so many accidents, the father didn't come, it was nothing more than the heavy rain, and he wanted to send his precious son back to school, so he forgot about agreeing to her, a cheap daughter.

And she, the poor abandoned creature, is still here to make excuses for him.

Wake up, Jiang Muzhi.

In that family, you will always be a superfluous existence.

Jiang Muzhi finally decided to see the reality clearly, and stop lying to himself. With a cold face, he suddenly smiled ironically.

Why bother?

Didn't I already know it?No one in this family cares about herself, but why do she still look forward to it and hope that her father can come to pick her up, why is she still sad and heartbroken when she is forgotten, isn't she used to it long ago?

Jiang Muzhi shivered a bit, the gust of wind that came with the torrential rain passed through the chilling air, like substance, scraped mercilessly on her skin, with such force that it seemed to gouged out the flesh.

It hurts.

But who can be blamed?

Not to blame herself.She shouldn't have expectations of her parents, their love is always only for Jiang Xuanzhi.

After so many years, she still doesn't understand why she shouldn't expect things that don't belong to her.

Jiang Muzhi raised the handle of the umbrella, opened the umbrella, but looked at the big and small parcels again, frowned slightly, and after a while, made a decision, ignored the surprised eyes of the people around him, threw away the umbrella, and rushed in with his things. The majestic rain curtain.

When Jiang Muzhi saw Rong Feijin, he was really embarrassed, embarrassed, and embarrassed.

The heavy rain drenched her whole body, her hair was messy, and the tears that she couldn't hold back mixed with the muddy rainwater meandered down her face, leaving behind gray marks. The wet clothes were extremely uncomfortable. With her posture tightly attached to her body, she stepped on shoes like soaked sponges, lowered her head and dragged herself outside the school.

She began to be thankful, thankful that there was such a heavy rain that no one would notice her terrible appearance on the road.

Suddenly, a shadow shrouded the sky above her head. At the same time, a pair of white sneakers appeared in front of her eyes, which were spotlessly clean even in rainy days. It could be seen that the owner loved and cherished them. Called: "Need help?"

The voice was warm and slow, which Jiang Muzhi had never heard before.Jiang Mu was stunned, and forgot to shed tears, and looked up at the person with red eyes, and was even more amazed for a moment.

The person who came had a picturesque look, wearing an elegant dress, with waterfall-like long hair draped over his shoulders, without any embarrassment that should have been caused by the storm.

She gently rolled up the corners of her lips, and there were two small dimples on her face, which were as beautiful as a lyric poem. What impressed Jiang Muzhi the most was those clear eyes like lake water, And those long, twinkle eyelashes.

Jiang Muzhi didn't have the heart to admire her beauty, and quickly lowered his head, only feeling ashamed.She knew that she was in such a mess at the moment, how could she have the face to dirty her eyes in front of such a clean and beautiful person.

She was holding the package tightly in her hand, her voice had a strong nasal tone, she heard that she had just cried, but she still pretended to be indifferent: "No, thank you."

Before Rong Feijin could continue speaking, he hurried past her.

"Hey..." Rong Feijin hurriedly followed, thinking that Jiang Muzhi thought she was a bad person, and followed suit with an umbrella for Jiang Muzhi, explaining: "You, don't get me wrong, I'm not a bad person, really."

Although she has been clearly rejected, how can she feel at ease, and let the wronged little poor man who ran out of nowhere come out of nowhere and go home alone wet, the storm was too violent, and there was no one on the road, if If something happened, she would die.

"I didn't mean anything malicious..."

Rong Feijin suddenly set his sights on Jiang Muzhi's school uniform, and with an idea, he put it on and said, "Hey, you are from the High School Affiliated to Haida University, and I am from Jianghai University. After all, you should call me senior sister." of……"

Hearing this, Jiang Muzhi paused, glanced at her, and sniffled his nose. She always felt that the most embarrassing appearance was seen by her, and he couldn't help but satirized her sullenly: "You are not my senior sister!" , my teacher said, if you are young and don’t work hard, the boss will go to the next door..."

"..."

Suddenly, Rong Feijin's bright smile froze on his face, and he couldn't help twitching the corners of his lips.

Looking at Rong Feijin's shriveled appearance, Jiang Muzhi felt much more at ease, the corners of his lips pursed into a straight line couldn't help but turn up, his beautiful peach eyes curved upwards, the arc was not big, but Rong Feijin easily captured.

Although he was stabbed by a little kid, the good man persisted to the end and sent the Buddha to the West.Rong Feijin let out a long sigh of resignation, and continued to follow Jiang Muzhi, holding an umbrella for her without complaint: "There are so many things, let me help you get some."

Jiang Muzhi raised his eyebrows, pursed his lips, looked at the package in his hand, and thought for a while: "No need."

He threw the things in his hands into the trash can next to him.

She was thinking about it before, the things were already so wet, how could they still be used, besides, she would not give herself another chance to study in the third year of high school, she might as well throw away the things as soon as she went out, and she was all head and tail, decent Go home with an umbrella face to face.

And I won't... I won't let the girl in front of me see my disheveled appearance.

However, at this time, she had already seen what she should have seen, so she simply smashed the pot, raised her hand to straighten her messy hair, wiped her dirty face, and revealed a clean and handsome face, compared to Rong Feijin next to her. Not too much of a beautiful face, and then smiled at her:

"Let's go, sister."

Rong Feijin was dumbfounded by Jiang Muzhi's series of actions, and she never thought that the original face of the little face turned out to be so beautiful and picturesque. She stood there in a daze, and hurriedly responded: "Okay, okay."

"Give it to me." Jiang Muzhi was half a head taller than Rong Feijin, and naturally took the umbrella from that white and slender hand, leaned the umbrella to the sky on Rong Feijin's side, and said, "Trouble." Senior sister sent me to the subway station."

"It should." Rong Feijin glanced at Jiang Muzhi.With red lips and white teeth, the wind is like water, and the peerless elegance that can't be concealed even by a drowned chicken, said naturally: "After all, it's not safe to take a taxi with you like this."

It's kind of like... down and out, vixen.

Hearing what the girl said, Jiang Muzhi couldn't help but look at her again. Now that his senses have returned, he no longer played childish temper like before, but said earnestly: "You too, you are so good-looking. It’s not that this street is unsafe, it’s your school’s Baoyan Road if you walk forward. Although Baoyan Road’s claims are speculative, you’re not afraid of [-], just in case, don’t always come out alone, it’s too dangerous. "

Seeing that Jiang Muzhi was young but so old-fashioned, the girl burst out laughing: "Little boy, sister is older than you, why do you need to say it?"

"Now that the sky is clear and bright, I dare to go back to school by this road, but after I got on the subway for a while, it rained heavily, and there is nothing I can do here."

"Besides," the girl joked, "If I didn't go this way, how could I meet you, poor little one?"

Jiang Muzhi:? ? ?

This, this one?

scratching his head.

In front of this beautiful young lady, I am the same as the puppies and cats on the side of the road...

"By the way, kid, why don't you go to school on Monday, and run away from home with all your bags."

It was a brat and a child, and Jiang Muzhi's face was full of black lines when he heard it: "My name is Jiang Muzhi, I am 17 years old, and I will be an adult in half a year. I guess I am not much younger than you."

"We sent the exam in the third year of high school today, and there are two days left for the college entrance examination."

"Oh, why are you alone, and your parents didn't come to pick you up? During my college entrance examination, I felt that my mother was going to pay me up. This is not okay, and that is not okay. I am afraid that what I did will affect my exam. .” Rong Feijin said exaggeratedly.

The girl's words just hit Jiang Muzhi's sad spot, the originally bright eyes dimmed instantly, the long eyelashes drooped slightly, and the ears seemed to droop down, just like the golden retriever in Rong Feijin's family , Rong Feijin's heart softened, and he asked cautiously: "Did I say something wrong?"

Jiang Muzhi pursed his lips, looked at the girl who had never met before, and estimated that there would be no intersections in the future. After all, she would never go to Haida, so she let go, and opened her heart for the first time: " My parents don't like me, since I was a child, since I was three years old, they often leave me alone at home, and they say that they let me learn to be self-reliant..."

Along the way, Jiang Muzhi and Rong Feijin talked a lot. She had never said this to anyone before, but now that she said it, she felt more relieved, and felt that she had revealed all the frustrations of more than ten years.

Finally, when they arrived at the subway station, the two stood at the subway entrance, so they had to conclude: "So, today, they probably forgot about me. I don't have a mobile phone, and my teachers and friends have all left. I'm sorry, Zhang I didn’t open my mouth to ask the teachers of the first and second grades to borrow it, so I had to wait. I waited for three hours, but nothing came. Later, I felt that I couldn’t wait, so I ran out..."

Rong Feijin's eyes flickered, watching Jiang Muzhi hesitate to speak, not knowing what to say.

Wanting to comfort her, but afraid of hurting her self-esteem...

"Actually, it's nothing. I'm used to it. It's just that I might have a convulsion today." Jiang Muzhi saw her embarrassment and felt her concern. With a warm heart, he smiled gently and couldn't help but raised his hand to touch it. Rong Feijin's hair: "I'm living a good life. They don't lack my food or clothing. Although the cost of food and clothing is not as good as Jiang Xuanzhi's, it's still pretty good. You don't need to comfort me."

She thought that this girl who fell from the sky must be her salvation.

It was raining heavily, but he stopped for her, held an umbrella for her, and stayed with her and listened to her when she was most sad, needed help and comforted most.

"It's the place, I really trouble you."

"It's a small matter." Rong Feijin smiled, then frowned suddenly, and said, "Why don't I accompany you home, you don't have an umbrella when you leave the subway station, you can't go home wet."

Hearing Rong Feijin's unfeigned concern, Jiang Muzhi's heart was like a stagnant river bed being slowly nourished by a trickling stream, and it regained its vitality. She felt that this must be the greatest kindness from a stranger, and she endured it. She couldn't help but bend her eyebrows, her always cold eyes were as gentle as water: "Don't worry, I'll be home a dozen meters away from the subway entrance."

"Really?"

"real."

Rong Feijin thought for a while, and he really had something to do, so he stopped pushing, pointed to the way to Jianghai University, and asked tentatively, "Then... shall I go first?"

"Well, goodbye, senior." Jiang Muzhi waved his hand, looked at her graceful back with a smile, suddenly remembered something, opened his eyes wide, and shouted at her: "Sister, I don't know yet What's your name."

"My name is Rong Feijin."

Rong Feijin.

Just like at that time, Jiang Muzhi silently recited the name in his heart, but the emotion in his eyes gradually became obscure.

What she thought was salvation at that time, but later realized that it was a nightmare from which she could not escape for the rest of her life.