I'm off powder

In this year, Shen Huai has been to Boston twice.

Every time I go there in a hurry and come back in a hurry.

There are sweetness and reluctance, but there is always some expectation.

Gu Hanshi's recovery was much better than expected, and he was discharged from the hospital within half a year.

Originally, Shen Huai and Shen Huai planned to buy a suite, but after thinking about it later, both of them were people who did not have the concept of "home" in their impression. Perhaps the state of wandering was more suitable for them, so they rented an apartment. It was enough for the two of them.

Too much space will appear empty and lonely.

Gu Hanshi felt that he had changed a lot this year, from the beginning when he pretended not to care whether Shen Huai would return to his side as promised, to slowly getting used to tearing up a calendar every day, counting down the days when he was due to reunite.

Uncovered and concealed, every bit of missing was integrated into every sentence and every word he said to Shen Huai.

He was afraid that one day Shen Huai would suddenly regret it, and all his waiting would be in vain.

The growing love made him a little scared, and he frequently doubted himself at certain moments in the past.

The deceit, suspicion, and rejection of Shen Huai, that kind of self-righteous understanding, devotion, and love.

He feels that he is becoming more and more abnormal, but every time he goes back to see a doctor, the doctor always explains that he is getting better and better. Whether it is physical or psychological, he is better than healthy normal people in terms of various indicators and dimensions. More normal.

The hysteria-like feeling was close to reaching the limit and peak of his tolerance, which happened to be approaching the death day of his grandmother.

Gu Hanshi boarded the plane back to China without telling Shen Huai.

He bought the wild lily that grandma liked and the old wine brewed in his hometown, sat in front of her tombstone in the drizzle, and talked to her through the dusty years.

He told her many stories in the past few years, those good and bad experiences, indifferently and gently, and he finally talked about Shen Huai until the end.

If grandma is still alive, I don't know how her old man will react.

But he also thought that grandma, who is open and tolerant, should forgive him.

Even if it's hard to accept.

"He's a nice guy."

"Next year, if not, the next year, I will definitely bring him to see you."

Gu Hanshi hasn't had a drink for a long time, his alcohol capacity has visibly deteriorated, and he's a little tipsy after drinking less than half a cup.

When he stood up unsteadily and turned around to leave, he suddenly saw Gu Weiguo holding an umbrella in the drizzle.

"Don't say a word when you come back."

That's what Gu Weiguo came up with, but his tone was neither salty nor bland, without any surprise or anger, just a little reproach, carefully discerning, it seemed that there was some unreal indulgence.

Gu Hanshi is no longer a child, but he has been away from home for more than a year, and when he heard those words, he was inevitably touched.

I forgot how long the two hadn't spoken. During the period when he went to the United States, the two maintained the "convention" of greeting each other with a text for a week. Unlike father and son, they were not even as good as friends.

Gu Hanshi always felt that he shouldn't mind.

After all, when such a "scandal" happened, it would be perfectly normal for a person like Gu Weiguo who wanted face to cut off his father-son relationship with him.

Gu Hanshi smiled: "It's been a year, if you don't come again, grandma will miss me."

He nodded: "Well. It's time to take a look."

"I didn't expect you to come here." Gu Han thought, was it because of guilt?

Gu Weiguo said: "I have come every year on this day these years. You just don't know."

Gu Hanshi was silent for a moment, then shook his head slightly: "Why bother?"

"If your mother is still alive..."

"Why are you mentioning her?" Gu Hanshi's voice suddenly turned cold, and even the voice seemed to be tinged with thorns, "For so many years, your marriage and family life is happy and happy, the past is nothing but a rag, even seeing It's too dirty for the eyes. Isn't it?"

Gu Weiguo couldn't hide his disappointment in his tone: "Is this how you miss me?"

Gu Hanshi did not directly answer his question.

"In your eyes, don't I do the same? I like men, and make such a scandal, humiliating my family."

Even I didn't notice the self-pity and self-abandonment in my tone.

Gu Weiguo sighed: "If I really thought so, I wouldn't care about your life and death during the past period of time, and I don't need a hot face against a cold ass. You reply a few words when I send a message, and you still plead for it with a shy face I want you to appreciate a few words. After all, I am your father."

Gu Han was silent.

The rain suddenly fell heavily, and he didn't hold an umbrella. The shoulders of the black coat were the first to get wet with water stains.

Gu Weiguo approached him and put his umbrella over his head.

"Dad knows that he has missed a lot of things in this life. The gap between our father and son may always exist. But I still hope that you can live a good life for the rest of your life."

Rainwater trickled down Gu Hanshi's hair and dripped onto the tip of his nose.

He looked at Gu Weiguo's wrinkled, no longer young face, his eyes were a little sore.

Gu Hanshi choked up slightly: "For the rest of my life, I want to be with Shen Huai."

Gu Weiguo put his hand on his shoulder and patted it lightly: "It's all good, all is good, everything is good."

Gu Han thought: People are habitually obsessed with something, but once they cross a certain most difficult point, they always return to calm in the end.

Whether it's him or Gu Weiguo.

They stand in different positions, have experienced the ups and downs of the world, and are equally selfish and despicable, but they just pretend to be open-minded and detached.

Maybe this is real people and life.

The flawless or persistent and gorgeous personality he had hoped for in the past only existed in film and television dramas after all. What he deduced seemed real, but it was also false and fragile.

He used to be paranoid, even a little hypocritical.

By this time, he suddenly woke up.

Fortunately, it seems that it is not too late.

Gu Hanshi and Gu Weiguo left the cemetery together.

Gu Weiguo asked him: "Go home?"

"At night. I have to go somewhere later."

Gu Weiguo said "Oh": "Are you looking for Shen Huai?"

"No."

Gu Weiguo sighed: "You can go anywhere, I'll see you off. It's raining, so it's not easy to take a taxi."

This is real.

Gu Hanshi didn't refuse again, but when he told the destination, Gu Weiguo was obviously surprised.

He hesitated: "Are you going to see..."

"Yeah." Gu Han nodded and said suddenly, "Actually, what happened back then was not what you thought."

Gu Weiguo didn't know whether to believe it or not, so he just nodded: "Hey, good."

Gu Han was indifferent.

Believe it or not, it doesn't matter if you explain it or not.

Le Shaokai was sentenced to ten years in prison, and when he came out, he thought it was too late.

Before returning to China, Gu Hanshi suddenly thought of going to the prison. He contacted through Zong Dingsheng, but Le Shaokai agreed.

In two years, even a person like him can forget the quarrels of the past.

When they met again, Gu Hanshi hardly recognized him.

The glass is obviously transparent, but it is like a demon mirror, through a thin layer, the real souls of the people over there are illuminated.

Gu Hanshi lost a lot of weight, but Le Shaokai gained weight.

The previous edges and corners were gone on the face, but it looked less domineering.

Seeing that he was in good spirits, he laughed at Gu Hanshi as soon as he came: "It seems that that incident really hit you hard, and you made yourself into such a ghost."

Gu Hanshi said in a dull tone: "Yes. It took a long time to recover. But at least I'm getting better. What about you?"

"Me?" Le Shaokai laughed loudly, "I'm getting better too. Compared with the outside, this place suits me better. It's not like I haven't stayed in this kind of place before."

Gu Hanshi was not interested in his life, what he had experienced before, good or bad.

He just wanted to stand before this man like a fearless warrior.

He wants to tell this man that he has won.

He wanted to reduce all the humiliation of the past to ashes.

But at this moment, when he saw Le Shaokai still smiling at him with the same disgusting smile as before, he suddenly felt that all this was meaningless.

He stood up and wanted to leave.

Le Shaokai suddenly stopped him.

"Did you know that Shen was also here?"

Gu Han was startled: "Shen Huai?"

"About a year ago." Le Shaokai smiled, "He really didn't tell you. It's strange. I thought you two would have broken up long ago after something like that happened."

"What did he tell you?"

"He said he would wait for me to come out."

Gu Han frowned.

"... Said to wait for me to come out and kill|kill me."

"..."

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Shen Huai never expected that Gu Hanshi would suddenly appear at home that day.

It's so unreal, like a dream that I've been refusing to wake up for a long time.

In the dream, he was standing on the violently shaking ladder, he could see the stars all over the sky when he looked up, but there was an abyss underneath.

He didn't ask Gu Hanshi why he returned home without saying a word.

There were other emotions hidden in Gu Hanshi's eyes, but the warmth and tenderness from his body when he was hugging him were extremely real.

Shen Huai will announce his withdrawal from the entertainment circle next month.

Originally, she had been counting down to go abroad to reunite with him, but now that he came back by himself, Shen Huai really didn't want to let him go back alone.

"Stay at home. Wait for me to go to the United States together. There are not many days left."

Gu Hanshi buried his head in his sweater, giggling: "Golden House Cangjiao?"

"Don't want to?"

"I am willing." He said, his voice was weak, "I am willing to do anything."

The person in his arms was nestled for too long, breathing slowly and steadily, Shen Huai called him a few times, but there was no sound, so he was sure that he was asleep.

The time difference of more than ten hours and the flight of more than ten hours always make people sleepy.

Shen Huai looked at Gu Hanshi's side face, and gently stroked his raised forehead hair.

Fortunately, those misaligned times will soon overlap.

He thought, they will never have jet lag again in this lifetime.

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The author has something to say: The source of the title of this volume "Pillar of Salt": The ancient city of Sodom was burned by God because of the crimes of its inhabitants.Lot, a resident of the city, fled the city with his wife and daughter, but his wife turned into a pillar of salt because she refused to listen to the angel's advice and turned back to visit.The city of Sodom refers to the world we live in. Lot’s wife turned her head back to show that when God decided to destroy the sinful city, Lot’s wife looked back and still cared for this world, so she had to perish together with sin.When the Rhodes family left Sodom, it was predicted that at the end of the world, the saints would return to their hometown of heaven.If you still cling to the secular world on earth, you will perish and you will not be saved.

But Gu Hanshi and Shen Huai turned their backs, put aside the mundane world, and finally redeemed each other.