I wish it was just for you

Listening to Xiang Yunyang's slow narration, the shock of Peipei's biological mother's death seemed insignificant.Chen Zixi only felt a kind of icy cold piercing into her body, penetrating everywhere, her hands holding the paper cup were tightly clenched together, knuckles overlapping and squeezing each other.

But no matter how hard she tried, the heat in the cup couldn't warm her even a little bit, and she didn't feel any pain. She just put more pressure on her fingers, and her skin gradually turned red.

After a while, she finally couldn't hold back anymore, let go of her hands, and began to cry with half of her body lying on the table, her body heaving uncontrollably, her voice was weak but was amplified several times in the empty room.

Xiang Yunyang took a sip of green tea, walked to the window and stood with his back to Chen Zixi, with a warm wind blowing on his face, he exhaled the breath that had been stuck in his chest for a long time.

As Chen Zixi cried, he also began to recall the past with Xu Peiyu.Earlier, his care for Xu Peiyu was more due to Chen Zixi. They kept a regular distance, and they only overlapped in some trivial matters, which were nothing to worry about.

For more than half a year, he accompanied her as Xiang Yunyang. After leaving Chen Zixi, he spontaneously wanted to treat Xu Peiyu well.When looking at Xu Peiyu up close, she is already a depressed patient in the disease. She is suffering, desperate, contradictory and helpless.

He couldn't help feeling pity in his heart.

Unexpectedly, even if she stretched out her hands, it was still irreversible, she fell down at an extremely fast speed, many times faster than the speed he followed, and the final situation was only that he watched her fall into the abyss.

Loneliness is the inability to share pain with the people around you, it is that even if you are surrounded by people, you still do not have the will to speak.

He often saw a kind of loneliness on Xu Peiyu's face, and this kind of loneliness finally seduced her, drank a large bottle of Valium, and left this world where she had only one person to miss.

Chen Zixi cried for a long time, and when she raised her head again, it was completely dark.Her eyes were red from crying, her eyes were swollen badly, and she spoke with a strong nasal voice.

She wiped her tears, blew her nose, and took deep breaths through her mouth to calm herself down.Seeing that she gradually calmed down, Xiang Yunyang proposed to leave the house.

Chen Zixi nodded, and followed Xiang Yunyang downstairs.Xiang Yunyang went to pick up the car, she stood in front of the building waiting for him.When the lights came on, she looked at the familiar street scene of the neighborhood, and then looked up at the windows of the tall buildings.

Total darkness.

Xiang Yunyang drove the car, she sat in the passenger seat, leaned her head against the back of the seat, and looked out the window, the car slowly drove away from the community, she had calmed down a lot, but she was about to pass out from the headache.

Xu Peiyu, you are such a bad boy.

Chen Zixi I hate the most:

Getting to know you is the happiest thing in my life.

I never imagined my future life, but I imagined yours.

I hope you will meet a handsome man who only treats you well.He will unconditionally praise your cooking, cherish your dedication and compromise, and grow together with you.

You will have a lovely pair of children, and the boy is a brave little man just like his father.Just like you, the girl is a little sweetheart who likes to act like a baby.

Although living an ordinary life, it is real and sweet.

If I were here, I would be a close friend of the children, and I would also be the aunt they often meet, buy toys for them, eat and play with, and it is a small part of your life.

So I hope you will be happy, the heroine and the prince in my story will live happily ever after, and my life as a supporting role will be complete.

Forgive my absence from your future life.

I love you forever.

love you

Pei Yu

Many years later, Chen Zixi accidentally saw a book called "Snow Country" on the bookshelf, written by Kawabata Yasunari.She spent hours reading the story, on the commute, during afternoon breaks, and in the sunny yard.

She finally understood why the former person called her Ye Zi many years ago.