I wish it was just for you

Sent to Yunyang, I opened the refrigerator and looked, there was nothing to eat except eggs, so I found the key from the Peipei bag, took my wallet and mobile phone and went out.

When I came back with big bags and small bags, Peipei had already woken up. She looked at me in surprise as I opened the door and entered the room with an unbelievable look. Help me, she hurriedly put down the small piece of bread she was nibbling on, and came to help me share the ingredients of a shopping bag.

I started to prepare for the cooking, but she wanted to help and was chased away by me, so she stood by the kitchen door and chatted with me. She was very happy, and she kept joking with me, as if she had recovered from her illness.Considering that Peipei is sick and doesn't have much appetite, it would be better to eat some digestible liquid food, so I simply cooked some pork ribs and vegetable porridge, and prepared some fruits.

After eating, we went downstairs for a walk as usual, and then made the bed in the room I used to live in. After I returned to X City, the room had been vacant, and Peipei didn't put any objects there, and kept it as it was when I left.After making the bed, she went back to her room to sleep when she was sleepy after taking the medicine. After I took a shower, I looked for records on the CD rack to listen to.

I suddenly remembered that the CD with the gray cover of NatKingCole was one of the records I had seen and listened to when Peipei moved to my dormitory with me in the first semester of my senior year, because one of the songs was called QuizasQuizasQuizas was An episode of "In the Mood for Love", one of my favorite movies.

The combination of music and film is perfect.I have also seen the same record at Xiang Yunyang's place.

I checked the CD rack several times, and after confirming that the record was not there, I chose Lisa Ono.Feeling a little awkward in my heart, I remembered a tarot divination shop I passed by before.

What followed was a memory from a long time ago, the fortuneteller named Qi Niang in the north of L City, and the deck of cards.The result of the separation of the two coincides with what Qi Niang said, so will the figure behind the lover she said actually exist?

The next day, Peipei was obviously much better, but I was still not at ease. I wanted to take her to the hospital for an examination, but she refused to go anyway, so I had to give up.We went for a walk in the park by the lake, and ate at a restaurant near the lake, as exquisite as two rich wives at home.

On the third day, we went out to play in the newly opened amusement park in the suburbs. Peipei said that she wanted to go a long time ago, but I was not there. I didn't expect such a coincidence that I came, so I must go to play.The two of us played crazy in the amusement park all day, and we reluctantly left until it was dark.

On the fourth and fifth days, we avoided the crowds on weekends, made dumplings and bread at home, and had a great time.There are a lot of dumplings, which are divided into small portions for one person, packed separately, and frozen in the refrigerator so that Peipei can cook more by himself.

On the sixth day, Peipei started to work, and I returned to City X.I never asked about the CD records I wanted to ask, but more memories about the two of them gushed out like a small hot spring, completely uncontrollable.When I went out to study and returned to L City, Peipei saw Xiang Yunyang's sneakiness, Xiang Yunyang prevented me from being a friend for Peipei, and I was injured on the mountain for treatment...

When I was studying abroad, when Xiang Yunyang suffered the shock of Uncle Chen's death, Peipei was by his side. Did the love begin at that time?Or earlier, back when they shared a CD?

From the very beginning, I expressed my love for Xiang Yunyang in such a high-profile manner. For Peipei, who accommodated me in everything, I was undoubtedly forcing her to hide her emotions, but I enjoyed it under her forbearance and concessions. It's not fair to pursue and obtain Xiang Yunyang's joys, sorrows, sorrows and joys.

Do you regret it?Am I feeling remorse?I was too selfish, I never thought about her thoughts, we were so close but I didn't realize it at all, I only cared about my own happiness but made her suffer, and introduced all kinds of men to her, in the name of hoping she would be happy too , but her happiness was obviously plundered by me, the chief culprit.

They have the same hobbies, and they have repeated diagnosis and treatment, and there is an unbroken fate between them.

I have to do something.

This idea has been lingering in my mind, and the reason is myself.

As long as I am still here, Peipei will never be able to take a step towards Xiang Yunyang.During this visit to Peipei, she revealed that the work at hand is coming to an end, and once it is over, she will resign and return to City X to be with me. I was very happy when I heard that, but now I just feel anxious. There is not much time left for me. .

I don't do stupid things to match them anymore, it's not suitable for me, but at least let nature take its course, Peipei's leaving L City is equivalent to staying away from Xiang Yunyang, and then they will be pushed away because of me.

This kind of thing can't happen again.

There are mixed feelings in my heart, including guilt towards Peipei, love for Xiang Yunyang that has not dissipated, and bitterness towards the awkward relationship between the three of us, and many feelings that I can't explain, all entangled together, Put me into another kind of trouble.

Two voices were confronting each other in my mind, while telling me, you still like Xiang Yunyang, even if you can accept that he is with other people, maybe you can accept that the person who is with him is Peipei?The other side told me, Peipei sacrificed her feelings for you, so what if you sacrificed some of your feelings for her?Anyway, you and Xiang Yunyang will never be able to again.

But where should I hide?

After much deliberation, I think traveling is the best way.Because no matter where I go or what I do, Peipei will follow in my footsteps and then go there, which will only copy the existence of X City after another.And if I'm traveling alone, I can say that I have to be alone, so that at least Peipei can stay in L City for the time being.

Giving them some time, if possible, might make them focus on listening to their inner voice instead of taking into account my feelings, and I won't have to face the embarrassment of three people in the first place.

I confessed to my parents that I wanted to travel alone, but my parents refused to agree, thinking it was too dangerous for a girl to travel alone.But I've racked my brains and couldn't think of a better way, so they couldn't help but stop me.They saw that I was so determined, and they were also afraid that if I became stubborn, I would not contact them as I said, and would not let them know where I was, so they had no choice but to reluctantly agree.

I booked the plane ticket, packed my luggage, and wrote a regular email to Peipei, which was sent after I got on the plane. Then I made various guarantees to my parents and boarded the plane to City B.