【Leian】Love at first sight

An Mixiu seldom smokes. On the one hand, he knows that it is not good for his health, and on the other hand, he does not want to enter the house with a bad smell.But now, he was lying on the railing of the balcony with a half-burned cigarette dangling from his mouth.He lowered his eyelids, looking at the busy traffic under the flashing neon lights under his feet. The red flame of the cigarette butt became dim or bright with each breath, and finally turned to ashes because it burned out.An Mixiu threw the cigarette butt into the trash can behind him, and then took out a new one from the box as if not enjoying himself.

At this time, it had been three hours since Lei Shi left, the sky was completely dark, and the pedestrians on the road were in a hurry, most of them seemed to be rushing home.An Mixiu was in a daze from the moment Lei Shi left, but he changed his position to the balcony to smoke, but it still couldn't stop his uncontrollable numb expression.The previous quarrel seems to have been a long time ago, but after smoking a few cigarettes, Lei Shi's angry expression will involuntarily appear in his mind.

What exactly went wrong?An Mixiu asked himself.Or who did something wrong, he or Leishi?He reflected that he did have the suspicion of venting his anger on others, but the contradiction had already taken root, so what's the point of continuing to whitewash the peace?

He even began to think about whether breaking up was the only way. Obviously, others said that falling in love is a happy thing, but why it was his turn, but it was thundering and raining again.

But can we really break up?Can you really let go?The journey of love is like a long march. After going through mountains and mountains with great difficulty, we have achieved what we are today. How can we give up as soon as we say it?It is true that Leishi has a bad personality, and the road of homosexuality is very difficult. If you are cute, you are in love. No matter how calmly others can analyze it, but once this subjective love is mixed in, they will be muddled and unwilling to let go.

That's Leo.It was his deepest nostalgia when he was young, and it is difficult to give up when he grows up.May I ask how many times in a person's life can there be such profound emotions?What's more, he was lucky to have a continuation of the story in most of the unresolved deaths.Even if the ending may not be as satisfactory as one would like, he may not understand the mistake of the decision at this moment until he has experienced more and deeper pain, but no matter what, he can't let it go now.

An Mixiu thought, maybe even if it was really over, he would not be able to like other people as much as he likes Lei Shi after this.No matter how many times I said I love you, how many times I held hands and how many times I hugged, but that was the first and heaviest heart throbbing in my life, and it will always be reserved for the age of seven The day I first met Lei Shi.

It was love at first sight.It's time for love again.

It's just that he might be a little tired, An Mixiu thought.Lei Shi was also a little tired.The bad mood these days is like a lingering dark cloud above the head, which is heavy and oppressive in everyone's heart.But how long will this day last, how long will this pain last.An Mixiu didn't know.It's like he doesn't know what kind of storyline will be ushered in later if he compromises again this time.

Do you want to give up?I will regret it.Do you want to persist?Really tired.

An Mixiu shook his stiff head from the cold wind, put away his cigarette case, and returned to the warm living room.

Lei Shi left in a hurry, taking nothing but a mobile phone.Fortunately, now basically any store can use Alipay or WeChat to scan codes. I only hope that this guy's mobile phone can last a little longer.

An Mixiu curled up on the sofa and watched TV. He only left a light in the entrance, and in the rest of the darkness, only the paleness of the TV was left.A bloody romance drama was played on the wall-mounted screen. An Mixiu put his head on his knees and didn't blink his eyes, but he didn't listen to a single line.

He always felt that it was too quiet, this home was too quiet.Even though the two protagonists on TV were crying and shouting very loudly, but when they were in a whole house, it felt like space fell.

There is no one who would walk into the kitchen with slippers to look for food.There is no one who can play games and yell until the neighbors next door want to complain.There is no longer a guy who likes to drag himself to watch ghost movies at night.Gone is the fiery body that hangs by my side like a koala while watching ghost movies.

Without Leishi, this family doesn't seem to be that family anymore.

I don't know when it started to rain outside the window, crackling and pouring down like beans.An Mixiu hurriedly got up and went to each room to close the windows, then he returned to the living room, after a long struggle he still picked up the phone.

He started by calling Camille.

"Hey Camille, did your elder brother go to your place?"

"Brother? No."

"Oh okay, that's all right. Sorry to bother you."

"fine."

An Mixiu didn't have the nerve to talk about the quarrel between the two of them, maybe they were so old, and it would be embarrassing to run away from home because of the quarrel.

But without an ID card, this guy can't even get a room in a hotel.You can't even go to a regular Internet cafe. Did you go to some kind of black Internet cafe?The more An Mixiu thought about it, the more he felt that it was outrageous. Maybe he had already conceived the scene of Lei Shi lying on the KFC table pitifully trying to survive the night in his mind.

He ran back to the bedroom to find two umbrellas. Seeing that the rain outside the house was getting heavier and heavier, An Mixiu found a pair of long pants and long sleeves, and grabbed a coat. He sat at the entrance and put on his sneakers at the fastest speed. Pulling out Palos' phone number, he turned the doorknob and started calling.

As soon as the door was pushed open, Lei Shi was sitting on the steps of the stairs with his whole body wet.

Palos on the other end of the phone just picked up the phone. He yelled twice, but found that no one answered at all.An Mixiu stood there stiffly, and only remembered to hang up the phone after a while.

Where can he go?An Mixiu thought belatedly.He will come home after all.

Lei Shi didn't seem to have expected that An Mi Xiu would suddenly open the door, and his surprise was clearly written on his face.He put down the hand on his chin, touched the railing of the stairs, and was about to stand up.But it is estimated that after sitting for a long time, the blood flow is not very good, and he suddenly lost his footing, and he was about to fall backward when he staggered.An Mixiu was so frightened that he quickly stretched out his hand, but Lei Shi stepped back and avoided it.

The atmosphere seemed to become more awkward now.An Mixiu shyly withdrew her hand without making a sound.

He looked at the person in front of him.The other party should have just come back from the rain, the coat has been completely darkened by a color, and the hair that was originally flamboyant has been limp because it has absorbed the rain, and it is pulled on the head, showing a docile appearance.

Lei Shi turned his face away, and he didn't know if he felt that he had slipped back and was imposing or something, anyway, he looked extremely embarrassed.

An Mixiu was still standing in front of the door, and the door behind him was still closed.The bright light spread a small strip of light under his feet along the narrow door opening. He held two umbrellas in his left hand and a mobile phone in his right hand, and a coat was tucked under the creaking nest.

The atmosphere that was about to freeze was finally broken by Lei Shi's loud sneeze.An Mixiu just woke up like a dream, and quickly handed over the coat, and Lei Shi was also reluctant, rubbing his nose to take it.It was obvious that home was behind them, but the two of them stood upright outside the door and let the wind blow.

It was Leishi who spoke first.His voice sounded as if his whole body had been salvaged from ice water just now, and his teeth were trembling.He glanced nervously at An Mixiu from the corner of his eye, but quickly looked elsewhere.

"I just did something. Anyway, I know you will call me naive again if I say it. But even if I did it, it's useless if you scold me." He straightened his neck and straightened his spine, as if saying What can you do with me.But if you look closely, you can see that this guy is talking with his hands behind his back, like a child who has done something wrong and is waiting to be criticized.

An Mixiu did not speak, quietly waiting for the next sentence.

"I... I came out with my mother! Then she said she didn't have me as a son. Anyway, I am really no one wants me now! I rely on you, An Mixiu! Even if you say I am childish or something else Yes, yes, I apologize, I will change it! But I just want to rely on you not to leave!"

At first Lei Shi was a little breathless, but then he spoke louder and louder, as if this could strengthen his courage. He just didn't dare to look at An Mixiu, but he spoke unforgiving words.

An Mixiu was taken aback for a moment, then his face flushed suddenly, and he dragged Leishi who was following the oath to the door.After turning around and closing the door, he rubbed his hair and said frantically, "What's the matter with you talking louder and louder? Do you want everyone in the corridor to know that you are out of the closet?"

"There's nothing wrong with it. I'm gay, and I just like you." Once those words were spoken, Lei Shi relaxed.He shrugged, and gradually returned to his Japanese color.He put his hands on An Mixiu's shoulders, forcing their eyes to meet.Lei Shi's gaze is hot and bold, and the words of love that he has never said before, now through the courage to come out of the closet, he can't wait to spew them all out.

"I'm really glad that I like you, and it must be you, An Mixiu. Because only you can never abandon me."

"Then if I say that I really almost gave up tonight."

"You won't." Lei Shi laughed, his eyes full of confidence, "I have this confidence. And if you really want to give up, I will stalk you. I will entangle you for the rest of my life. You You can scold me, but don't leave me. Don't leave me, okay?" His voice became lower and lower, and finally became a whisper, lingering in An Mixiu's ears.Lei Shi rested his forehead on An Mixiu's shoulder, still grasping the other's shoulder with both hands, repeating the last sentence over and over again.

Don't leave me, okay?

good or not?

An Mixiu raised his head and sniffed.He suddenly thought that maybe this is really a fate that cannot be solved in his life.No matter which one of them is replaced by another person, it may end in a rational farewell, or an irrational old and dead relationship.

He hates Lei Shi's childishness, but loves Lei Shi's childishness.Hate his frivolity, but love his frivolity.This self-contradictory love and hate can't be replaced by anyone.An Mixiu thought, because only Lei Shi, only Lei Shi, no matter what happens, will eventually catch up with perseverance and hold his hand to make him turn back.

What looks like the worst combination is actually the best fit.

"...What if one day you are tired too? I mean, maybe we have to be like this for the rest of our lives. We can only keep running in and conflicting—"

"But it will keep getting bored, and keep creating good memories." Lei Shi raised his head and continued his words.He gently kissed An Mixiu's forehead, to the eyelids, and finally to the lips.Then, under An Mixiu's eyes with red eyes, he held his hand, "I don't want to make any empty promises, I think that's the real childishness. It's just that I will do what I can do now Everything, I can guarantee enough love in the present tense. At least I now believe that it is you, ha, what I believe in Leishi has never changed." He smiled conceitedly, and then shook An Mixiu's hands hand.

If this is a dream.God, he would never wake up.

An Mixiu looked at the hands they were holding, then raised his head, tiptoed and kissed back.

The two of them just kissed at the entrance.I don't know if An Mixiu's response stimulated Lei Shi or what, this guy was so excited that he couldn't control himself, he held An Mixiu's cheek, and almost pressed him against the door panel and gnawed him.Lei Shi pushed his knees between An Mixiu's legs, forcing him to keep his head up and spread his legs apart.

But at this moment of confusion, the foreheads of the two inevitably touched each other.An Mixiu felt the unusually high temperature almost immediately, he quickly pushed Lei Shi away, and put his hand on the other's forehead, as expected, it was already a little hot.

An Mixiu looked at Leishi, who was a little fuzzy from the fever but still wanted to kiss him, shaking his head helplessly, and dragged him to the bathroom by pulling his arm.

After finally taking off all the wet clothes, An Mixiu didn't dare to let a person with a high fever take a bath directly, so he could only take a basin of warm water and wipe Lei Shi's body with a towel.I only hated that this guy was so dishonest even when he was sick, and he always wanted to continue what he did just now, and An Mixiu was so angry that he just wanted to kick this uncooperative bastard out.But in the end, he was still reluctant, so he put on his pajamas and stuffed him under the bed.

An Mixiu ran back to his bedroom to find a medical kit, and poured a glass of warm water after finding the antipyretic medicine.When he walked into Lei Shi's room, he saw that the man only showed a burning head, his eyes were foggy, but he was still staring at him intently.

"No... I have to confirm again, are we reconciled?"

When feeding the medicine, Lei Shi obediently took the pills first, but then he couldn't help stretching out his hand and tugging at An Mixiu's sleeve to ask.

An Mixiu had never seen such a pitiful look on him, and thought it was a little funny, but his heart was so soft.He leaned down, brushed Lei Shi's forehead hair away, and kissed him lightly.Then I saw this guy smash his mouth in satisfaction, tilt his head, and fell into a deep sleep.

After finishing all this, it was almost eleven o'clock.An Mixiu threw Lei Shi's undressed clothes into the washing machine, warmed himself a glass of milk, and felt that he was in an unprecedentedly good mood.He returned to the room and was about to wash up and go to bed when suddenly the screen of the mobile phone on the table lit up, showing a new message.

An Mixiu clicked on it, and was surprised at first, but soon realized that there was nothing to be surprised about.He sat calmly by the bed, edited the text and replied.

[Auntie, good evening. 】

TBC.