light adaptation

That night, Bi Qiannian was scolded by Bi Qian. He honestly admitted his mistake, and Bi Qian was also easy to soften his heart. Knowing that Bi Qiannian was sensible, this drink probably caused some unhappiness in his heart, but he never talked to himself. Said, Yan Ci said a few words, thought of this, turned back to the room and began to cry.

What kind of grievance will this time be?When she was young, she was told by the neighbors that she was a child without a father, and everyone knew each other in a small area. She didn't know that her elementary school classmates pointed at Bi Qiannian maliciously or unintentionally.When she entered No. [-] Middle School as a high school teacher and moved house, Bi Qiannian also got into the junior high school of No. [-] Middle School. She thought that Bi Qiannian would finally be able to suffer less grievances, but she was invited as a parent for the first time. She only found out after asking. Bi Qiannian has been isolated in class for almost two months, and if she is childish, she may never know what Bi Qiannian suffered.

Bi Qian thought back to Xue Chengkai sneaking up on Bi Qiannian at the corner of the family courtyard in the first year of junior high school, how could he have the face?Bi Qiannian has been pointed at the nose and scolded as a bastard since he was a child. Who is it because of?She wished she could take Xue Chengkai's skin off because of what Bi Qiannian had suffered.

But is it all Xue Chengkai's fault?Why didn't Bi Qiannian tell himself that Xue Chengkai was looking for him?Bi Qian cried under her throat. She owed him a father forever, and he bore the punishment of stupidity and impulsiveness for himself. Her baby, why did she soften her heart and keep this child?However, having this thought now only made her worry even more, how could she be willing to end Qiannian.

There was a knock on the door, and Bi Qiannian's voice calling her mother outside the door seemed a bit muffled through the wall.

Bi Qiannian pushed open the door, but the lights in the room were not turned on, Bi Qian sat on the corner of the bed, hunched over, and did not look at him.

He sighed and called his mother in a low voice.

"What's wrong?" Bi Qiannian asked her, "Why are you crying? I really won't drink next time. I won the basketball game. Everyone is happy and drank."

"Why didn't Zhanmei drink?" Bi Qian said in a nasal voice, "Is someone bullying you again?"

Bi Qian seldom appears so fragile. She is always a good teacher Bi and the best gold medal teacher in the Chinese language group of the third year of high school. She straightened her back on the three-foot podium. But he never seems to be able to get rid of this nightmare.Sometimes Bi Qiannian felt that if he didn't exist, Bi Qian would not have to feel sorry for himself, and since he would have nothing to do with his father, Bi Qian would be happy for a long time.

"He hasn't attended school yet, who dares to bully him?" Bi Qiannian caressed Bi Qian's back, "It's all Liu Jingyang's fault, he deducted several three points, caught me insanely bragging, and It's okay to ask me to drink, don't think about it, Mom, I'm already this old, who can bully me?"

Bi Qian was convinced by his unhurried, reasonable and well-founded words, thinking that she was indeed sensitive, and then thought, "Your eyes were swollen when you entered the door. Don't hide it from me, did you cry?" Qian got anxious.

Bi Qiannian coaxed his emotionally broken mother like a child, "I didn't cry, it was too uncomfortable, I vomited, my eyes and nose ran down my face, hey, it's uncomfortable, don't think about it, okay?"

Bi Qian didn't know whether to believe it or not, and cried while hugging Bi Qiannian, saying sorry, and that mother loves you.It's not the first time Bi Qiannian has done this kind of thing, he agreed over and over again deftly, I'm not sorry, I'm doing well, you should be happy every day, don't think about it.I love you too.

After putting Bi Qian to sleep, he himself was a little tired. After washing his face, he lay on the bed, hugging the ice pillow that Li Lulu gave him, feeling cool for a while.

Bi Qian is a mother who is prone to extreme emotions. She could ask her father when she was very young, and tell him in a flat tone: "Dad passed away very early."

When he was found by Xue Chengkai for the first time in elementary school, he went home and explained the ins and outs to himself. Xue Chengkai and Bi Qian were boyfriend and girlfriend at the beginning.

Bi Qian was pregnant, and the two were ready to get married, but Xue Chengkai got the favor of a wealthy businessman's daughter, moved his mind, and got married secretly.On the other hand, he coaxed Bi Qian to wait a little longer. When he finished his work and was promoted, he would have to get married, and he couldn't deal with it because of the children.

With Bi Qiannian in mind, Bi Qian was ready to hold a wedding banquet with Xue Chengkai after birth, but why didn't she get a certificate?Keep saying you're busy?Travel all the time?She became suspicious, she couldn't find anyone, so she went to the unit to ask, only to find out that Xue Chengkai didn't have time for the wedding banquet, he had already married the daughter of the Chen family, she was like a joke.

She finished speaking calmly, as if confessing her own stupidity and sin, and when she looked at Bi Qiannian's round and dark eyes like her own, she burst into tears again. She hugged Bi Qiannian like a little bean, crying and asking him if he hated it. Hate mother, and beg him, baby, don't hate mother, okay?

Bi Qiannian still couldn't understand the shame and hatred of a woman who was betrayed by her lover. He only felt that her mother was so pitiful when she cried, so at the age of five, she learned to hug her crying mother quietly and said, don't cry, mother, I love you.Mom lost control of her emotions, and there was no one else in this family, so he had to comfort her.Life goes on.

Bi Qiannian recalled these absurd and chaotic years on the bed, and lamented why he and Bi Qian couldn't live a peaceful life?Xue Chengkai is a poisonous thorn that cannot be picked cleanly, and will kill them for a lifetime.

It's not that he didn't complain about Bi Qian, she can be so calm, always elegant, and have an extraordinary bearing, and leave Xue Chengkai without looking back, why can't she be more cruel and get rid of herself.In this way, she and herself don't have to suffer from these tortures.In Bi Qian's crying, he forgave her over and over again. She loved her, and he couldn't help loving her the same way, and couldn't help feeling sorry for her fragility after shedding her serious face.So be it, Bi Qiannian didn't know where to start to struggle.They only have each other.

Compared with these, what is Zhou Jian?He thought calmly, as if he had already recognized his uneasy fate.He even came up with the idea that during the days when he was cold and violent by his classmates, he occasionally felt that such days would last forever. He thought that he was embarrassed, this was his fate, and he would You can never get stable happiness.

Ning Zhanmei said to him in his mind: "Homosexuality and parents are not enough conditions to judge a person's quality in my eyes. Qian Nian, this should not be a standard for you to evaluate yourself."

He finally hugged the cold pillow and began to cry. He could not shed tears in front of Bi Qian. He could always be alone. He had been sad for too long, and he could never see hope. Step into the ground.

Xue Chengkai is a bad person, a liar, what does this have to do with him?He felt a bit of hatred, but also felt happy. He didn't believe in such a bastard, such a rotten life.He denied that he should have his own life, Ning Zhanmei said so earnestly, Bi Qiannian believed him, and finally believed in himself, returned to the horse and bit off the tongue-twister's throat.

Shut up.

His heart, which drank the loneliness and malice alone, clenched heavily, as if trying to wring out his last tear.He didn't dare to cry loudly, his whole body tensed up, his left leg convulsed once, and he exhaled hot air with his mouth wide open, it hurt so much.Finally, there was only shortness of breath left, and he stopped crying.

The ice pillow in his arms was warmed by his high body temperature, as if tightly surrounding a re-beating heart.

The room was filled with pale moonlight. On this night, Bi Qiannian chewed up the evil in the mouths of others and wrung out his unnecessary life with hatred and endless yearning. He was like a tossed On the bamboo mat, the fish was panting and sweating, eager to survive, and then gave birth to death—he would no longer be a knife fish, he would be a human being.

He died and finally came back to life.