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Fang Zhifan spoke perfectly, as if everything was like this.After hearing what he said, Fang Xu lay down on the bed obediently, turned around and asked Fang Zhifan, "Aren't you going back?"

"This is my home." Fang Zhifan said.

"I'm talking about the thug." Fang Xu said, "Aren't you going to live with him?"

"He's next door." Fang Zhifan said with a smile, "Maybe I'll sneak away when you fall asleep."

"I can do it myself."

Fang Zhifan asked him with a half-smile, "Is it really possible?"

Fang Xu thought for a while, and gave a definite answer: "Yes."

Fang Zhifan got up and left the room, and when he closed the door, he said to him, "I wanted to talk to you about other things, but it seems that now is not the time."

Fang Zhifan said, "You look a little sad."

Fang Xu didn't answer. In the semi-dark light, he looked at Fang Zhifan's vague figure very softly.At this moment, Fang Zhifan seemed to switch from the role of elder brother to teacher again. The gentle edges and corners were covered up, and Fang Xu understood it.

"Am I stupid?" Fang Xu asked.

Fang Zhifan said: "In this respect, you are indeed not very smart."

When Fang Zhifan said this, his tone was so calm that Fang Xu felt that he was reminded of many parent-teacher meetings when he was very young. The teacher stood on the podium with a SWOP form, sketched on it, and analyzed it with data. Fang Xu's strengths and weaknesses, use theory to guide Fang Xu's future.Fang Xu followed suit one by one, wanting to become the "perfect" person in his mouth, and to win back a victory.

"It might be good to be a little stupid," Fang Xu said.

Fang Zhifan smiled and said, "It's good to be stupid, we still love you."

On the first night after Fang Xu returned to China, he had a very complicated sleep, and the time span was also very large. The dreams that were deleted, deleted, modified, real, fake, good and bad all came out. Those stuffed into the memory recycling bin and wanted to treasure for a moment also ran out.

After waking up, the room was empty, and after lying on the bed for a while, he ran to find Fang Zhifan, and told him that he had a complicated and constantly changing dream, which he had never had before.

Fang Zhifan looked at him in a hurry, and asked Fang Xu, "Is it the same when you are with Deng Chaoyi?"

Fang Xu thought about it for a while, and then said, "Being by his side, I never had any nightmares."

It took Fang Zhifan a while to say: "You are a human being, this is your humanity, your most authentic self, and it is you who have formed a bond with this twisted and twisted society."

Fang Xu thought about these two sentences for a long time, then turned around and left irritably.There was Lego in the room that he bought when he was a child. The batch number was very good and the value was preserved. He smashed the Lego on the bed, and several parts fell out. He turned around and dismantled the Lego.

Fang Zhifan watched him make trouble out of no reason behind him, and calmly said to him: "If you take it apart, you have to put it back together."

Fang Xu didn't get what he wanted, and slept at home for two days in a daze, Fang Zhifan said it was to adjust the jet lag.The Lego part Fang Zhifan was placed on the bedside, so that the first thing Fang Xu saw when he opened his eyes was his once fragmented childhood.

On the afternoon of the third day, Fang Zhifan pulled him up from the bed and said to him, Fang Xu, you are getting a little bit unwell.

What he dares not say is that you become sluggish and slow, you are about to be knocked down.

The last time he was in the same state was when the police came to the house after the college entrance examination, pointed fingers at his room, and dragged out a small safe from under his elevated bookcase.There were stacks of dollar bills inside, and Benjamin Franklin's smile was unusually sarcastic.

"Make trouble for no reason, lose your temper." Fang Zhifan pointed out his problem, "Too dependent on others, conceited and inferior to those close to you, isn't it?"

"Do you find it annoying?" Fang Zhifan asked him, Fang Xu turned his head out of the window, his eyes were fixed, Fang Zhifan turned his face back, "You think so in your heart, too, you are already bored with life, I found something new to divert my attention. Others have always tolerated you, but you have no ability and way to maintain it for a long time. You are so sorry to Deng Chaoyi, and even more so to yourself."

Fang Xu was flustered by what he said for a moment, but his expression became very indifferent, only the frequency of breathing became a little faster.

Fang Zhifan let go of his hand, leaving a not-so-obvious fingerprint on Fang Xu's face.Fang Xu lowered his head and rubbed his face. His hair was messed up by him and his clothes were crumpled. He said to Fang Zhifan, "I miss my mother."

"Qingshan Cemetery, you go by yourself." Fang Zhifan said.

Fang Xu slowly climbed down from the bed, changing clothes without hesitation.When he took off his clothes, Fang Zhifan saw the bruises on his waist, which may have been left deep at the beginning, or it may be Fang Xu's scarred physique, which has not faded away.Fang Zhifan turned his eyes away.Fang Xu changed clothes very slowly. He took off his clothes, put on his clothes, took off his pants, put on his pants, and finally put on his socks. It took 10 minutes.He walked past Fang Zhifan lightly.

"Can you do it yourself?" Fang Zhifan still asked uneasy, and told him, "Take a taxi there."

Fang Xu answered irrelevantly: "I'm going to see my mother."

Dad is in jail and Mom is in the field.

Fang Xu curled up on the back seat of the bus, and it took 10 minutes to ride from the bottom of the mountain to the top of the mountain. At this moment, he felt that the nostalgia of this era was not the sadness of not being able to return to his hometown, but the sadness of having a foreign country but nowhere to go. , in his hometown, but has nowhere to go.The young people who left home back then can no longer find a home.

He sat on the floor very steadily, in front of him was a stone tablet that was as tall as him, and a person's life was written on it.He called "Mom" many times to himself, and said many hysterical "I'm so tired". If someone can gently touch his head at this time and call him you "little pig", he will also It's not like knocking your head on a stone tablet, stubbornly hitting yourself black and swollen, and saying that you "seem to start liking humans, but there is nothing you can do about it."

The revolving lantern stopped walking, Fang Xu stayed up all night, waiting for Deng Chaoyi to wake up.It was about ten past six when Deng Chao woke up. He thought Fang Xu was still asleep, so he gently removed his hands from him, and quietly got out of bed to go to the bathroom to wash up.When the sound of running water sounded, Fang Xu sat up, with dark circles hanging around his eyes.

"Why did you wake up so early?" Deng Chaoyi came out of the bathroom and saw Fang Xu going downstairs, "Did I wake you up?"

Fang Xu said, "No."

Fang Xu went to the first floor to fry eggs, Deng Chaoyi stuck behind him, hooked his fingers, pulled his apron belt, wrapped his hands around his waist, and finally kissed his ears like a ceremony.

"Deng Chaoyi." Fang Xu called him, and Deng Chaoyi said "hmm".

"I can't hold on anymore."

Fang Xu chose a very euphemistic way of saying that he wanted to talk about other things, but he didn't say the most cruel words, Deng Chaoyi already understood.Fang Xu tried to think of many possibilities, irritable and out of control, but he never expected that Deng Chaoyi would be so calm for a while, and let go of the gradually stiff hand around his waist.

Deng Chaoyi asked him, "Are you planning to separate?"

Fang Xu's throat was blocked by himself and he couldn't answer.Obviously it was his own request, but he couldn't say anything at this time, his throat was pressed heavily, and he felt an unprecedented pressure.It is never in the study life, and I am a little confused.

Sometimes breaking up is just a matter of thought. For example, after buying you flowers in the morning, you will not be able to return to Hong Kong in the afternoon.I don't want to ask about your return date anymore, because all the time dimensions about you have stopped in the morning.

Fang Xu didn't answer, Deng Chaoyi said calmly, "I agree."

Fang Xu's heart was completely broken. He knew that before every quark particle uttered in this sentence, he and Deng Chaoyi had knocked out many dragonflies and butterflies, but hum, they all flew away.

Deng Chaoyi lowered his head and smiled: "When you said you liked me, my heart trembled. I was afraid that you would lie to me, and that you were a fake."

He suddenly remembered the overseas phone call Fang Zhifan had made to him. He said, Deng Chaoyi, if your heart is hardened, Fang Xu will feel better.

Fang Xu shook his head sadly, and said, "Stop talking."

I also gave you the whole heart and spring, but the fermentation is not good in summer, and it is limited and ends immediately.Fang Xu found out that in the entire wasteland, he could never find the second person who loved him so much.