Yesterday is not today

08

The child who was trapped in the orphanage and grew up in the red-light district since childhood has turned into a teenager who has never seen the normal appearance of the world.He has never seen a lively street corner in the daytime, or a group of students going to school in the morning sun, or his peers sweating on the campus playground in the sunset.

He has never stepped out of that dark and decadent corner, and even now, during the six months since he left the red-light district, he has never stepped out of this huge house that is not empty, where his days and nights are still locked, his A 17-year-old boy who was abandoned by the normal world.

Yan Chengli's heart is a little uncontrollable, he is not a cold-blooded person, he is just more selfish, but when the interests of others do not harm him, he can have empathy like a normal person.

He asked, "Do you like to sing?"

"Yeah, this is my only hobby." Ajiu showed a little satisfaction, like a kitten.

"I'll listen to you sing one." Yan Chengli said.

"Okay." Ajiu was very happy, someone was willing to be his audience, and he was always the only audience.

Sometimes I wake up in the morning

sometimes i wake up in the morning

Tored, blue, and yellow skies

Staring at the morning glow reflecting the blue sky, with a hint of yellow

It's so crazy I could drink it like tequilas sunrise

Like a cup of tequila sunrise, strong and gorgeous

Puton that Hotel California

Play "Hotel California"

Dance around like I'minsane

Crazy dancing in the morning light

IfeelfreewhenIseenoone

Alone, I feel so free

Andnobody knows my name

no one knows my name

God knows Ilive

god knows i lived

God knows Idied

god knows i'm gonna die

God knows I begged

God heard my prayer

Begged, borrowed and cried

I sincerely pray, I don't ask for it, I cry softly

God knows I loved

God sees my love

God knows Ilied

God sees through my lies

God knows Ilost

god knows i'm gonna fail

God gave me life

God gave me a long life

And God knows Itried

god knows i tried my best

God knows Itried

he knows i tried my best

God knows Itried

He knows I've struggled

God knows Itried

God witness, I've tried my best

……

just let that light of hope

Lettherebelight

let that holy light

Lightupmylife

That light illuminates my life

Lightupmylife

warm my world

God knows Itried

god knows i tried my best

He finished singing, his voice is great, different from Xiaoyuan's voice, his voice is always hoarse, maybe it sounds gloomy and gloomy at first, but after getting familiar with it, you can find his voice is so different.

And when he sings, people will always understand that this is the voice kissed by an angel. He is deep and hoarse, co-writing the lyrics, flowing into the heart, shaking the soul, washing the night, and rebirthing everything from despair, as if Hope grows from mold, that is his exclusive stage.

"You sing well," Yan Chengli said, "Don't you know English?"

"I can't, I only know this song. It was taught by a foreign guest. We finished it that day. He said that my voice is very sexy. I must be very suitable for singing this song. He taught me." Ah Jiu Shyly said: "He is very nice, and later he sent me a copy of the singer's original CD, which I often listen to when I'm in the store."

"Oh? Did he ask you to sing along with him?" Yan Chengli's voice showed no emotion.

"How could it be?" Ajiu laughed dumbly: "How can I have that physical strength..."

"I thought you had good physical strength." Yan Chengli smiled with some sarcasm.

"What you say always counts." Ajiu silently accepted.

They broke up badly, as they always do.

But after that day, he could go out and look around, and there was always enough change on the big dining table.

With the money in his pocket, Ajiu gradually made the circle bigger with the house as the center.

He walked past the bustling crowds, the sandy beach under the warm winter sun, the park where lovers are in pairs, and countless quiet alleys full of human touch.The aunts on the square are dancing festively, the primary school students are pouring into the canteen at the gate of the school in groups, the sanitation workers are sweating profusely even in winter, and from the moment the morning light comes out, the fireworks in the restaurant are always on. Hustle and bustle.

With a satisfied smile, he walked through the daytime city and re-acquainted with this unfamiliar world.

Although he has never been integrated, he does not have the same experience as everyone in the crowd, but even looking at it like this, there is warmth in his heart.

Did my younger brother, Xiao Yuan, grow up like this?

Great, this world is really very beautiful.Ajiu walked forward facing the morning light, he finally got rid of the habit of sleeping until noon, he was willing to go to bed early every day and wake up early, just to bathe in the early sun.A feeling of new life emerged spontaneously from his heart.

Maybe it's good to live like this.

It wasn't until evening that he was willing to go home, to go home, even if it was only a temporary residence, which he presumed to call "home", before they let him go.

"Huh?" Ajiu looked at Yan Chengli sitting on the sofa: "You came back so early today."

"Today is Xiaoyuan's birthday." Yan Chengli looked at him holding a bag of fried chestnuts in sugar. After a while, the warm smell of chestnuts wafted from the entrance: "It's your birthday too, right?"

Ajiu froze for a moment, then smiled a little: "Yeah, I forgot, I haven't celebrated my birthday for many years."

"A gift for you." Yan Chengli pointed to the small gift box on the coffee table.

"For me?" Ah Jiu couldn't believe it, but he unconsciously quickened his pace and hugged the paper box into his arms: "For me?" He asked again.

"Don't forget it."

"Yes, this is the first time I have received a gift from you."

"What? You want it many times?" Yan Chengli sneered, as if laughing at his wishful thinking.

Ah Jiu was very happy, and chose to ignore the sharpness in his words.

"What is it?" Ajiu shook the box excitedly.

"It's not Xianhe after all." Yan Chengli watched him carefully unpacking with amused expression.

"Ah..." Ah Jiu took out the small tape recorder cherishingly: "It's a tape recorder."

"If you like to sing, use it to record. This can also be connected to a computer to download music, you can use it as a player, and you can also plug in headphones." Yan Chengli rarely explained so much.

"Really? The technology is so advanced now." Ajiu couldn't put it down and touched the shell of Rose He. She was going to tear off the packaging film, but she didn't tear it after thinking about it. Let's keep it to prevent it from getting dirty.

"As long as you like it," Yan Chengli didn't realize that Ajiu's performance pleased him, and his mood was better than expected.

"Thank you very much." Ajiu raised his head, and he grinned again, showing that very happy smile, such a scheming, pure and flawless smile, a smile as bright as the morning sun.

Different from Xiaoyuan, Xiaoyuan never smiles like that, his smile is always restrained, although in front of Ajiu, he shows more childishness, but most of the time he is restrained and stubborn, he always He hides a lot of emotions in his body and reveals a calm side, just like his painting talent, he is more quiet.

Yan Chengli forgot to look away, he looked at his smile, at that moment, something in his heart seemed to jump.

But Ajiu quickly restrained his smile, he said embarrassedly: "I'm sorry, I forgot that you don't like me smiling like this, I was so happy that I forgot, I will definitely remember next time."

Ah Jiu took the tape recorder and put it back into the packing box, holding it in her hands like a treasure, and said, "I'll put it in the room."

Yan Chengli sat there thinking, why did he say that?If he can no longer see that smile, which seems to have the smiles of the whole world, will he lose something?