Yesterday is not today

18

Let everything start from scratch, do you want to forget everything you once had?All the hurt, despair...and love?

Yan Chengli was silent, but only for a while.

He raised his head, and although he knew that his expression was very strange, he still said, "Me too, Mr. Gu."

"Just call me Xiao Gu, that's what everyone calls me." Gu Jiu sat down first, picked up the water glass on the table and poured a glass of water: "I sang for a long time, and I'm thirsty."

Yan Chengli didn't answer, he had a lot to say.

Whether it's apology, regret or love, he wants to say and can say too much.

However, that is what should be said to Ajiu.

The Gu Jiu who "acquainted" him again in front of him is obviously not a good person to confide in.

Maybe Gu Jiu wanted this kind of result to talk to him like this.

Let all his mouths be buried in his heart and cannot be vented.

Gu Jiu has been clever since he was a child, how could he forget?

"Actually, I have something to ask Mr. Yan." Gu Jiu drank two glasses of water one after another, and finally felt that his thirsty throat was soothed: "I rented a house, originally shared with our guitarist , is the one on the stage just now, but he is going back to his hometown to get married, so the house is vacant, and I don’t want to find someone who is not compatible with me to rent together, but the rent for one person is too high. The first time I saw you today , I feel very congenial.”

"I'll take the liberty to ask you," Gu Jiu looked at his face, Yan Chengli had a handsome face, with phoenix eyes, a high nose bridge, and lips that were always pursed in displeasure.He always has the best things, which makes him have a sharp and ascetic temperament, making his handsome more inviolable: "I wonder if Mr. Yan would like to share the rent with me?"

"Of course, water and electricity are shared equally." Gu Jiu added.

Yan Chengli's face was cloudy and uncertain, and countless waves seemed to be brewing in his eyes, which were about to sweep over in the next second.

But he said, "Okay, but I have one condition."

"Oh?"

"I hope you can call me Cheng Li," Yan Chengli said, "And I still hope to call you Ajiu."

Can you, don't let the past be written off, no matter love or hate, I still hope you can remember.

"..." Gu Jiu didn't speak. He picked up Yan Chengli's wine glass and looked at the transparent liquid in the glass. If you don't smell it or taste it, most people will just think it's A cup of water.

He gulped down the wine, the spicy taste irritated his throat, he suppressed the discomfort, and swallowed it down his stomach: "If you insist, Cheng Li, if you insist, I will still be Ajiu. "

In fact, it shouldn't be like this, in his limited life, he really wants to start over, even though it may only be a year...half a year...or even a few months, he doesn't want to leave him The only love in life, even if it is false.

He thought about leaving, he had already reached the train station, and the conductor asked him, "Where are you going?"

He stood there in a daze for a long time, but he couldn't find the name of a city, and the people behind him had already started urging impatiently.

The conductor also began to urge him: "Where are you going?"

He hurriedly reported a city, thinking that this would be enough, but the conductor asked him again: "Identity card."

He has no ID.

How could he have an ID card?

In order to prevent them from escaping, the people who "walk in the dark" have long since wiped them out of society, and during the more than a year of freedom, he did not think of reapplying for an ID card.

He stumbled away under the suspicious eyes of the conductor and the dissatisfaction of the queue behind him.

He found a very cheap hotel and stayed in it.

In fact, he was rich, Yan Chengli gave him a large amount of compensation, it was in the bank card in his pocket, the password was his birthday, no, it should be Gu Yuan's birthday, it just happened to be on the same day as him.

But he can only stay in this dirty hotel because he has no ID card.

There is a lingering damp smell here, the walls have been pitted by time, the wallpaper has fallen out of shape, and the sound insulation does not seem to be so good. A woman's suppressed cry came from the next room, and the man outside the window The pungent and unpleasant exhaust smell from the cars passing by on the same road constantly poured into the room from the window.

However, ID is not required here.

He huddled in the corner of the bed, hugged his knees, and began to think about his few tomorrows.

He once had a happy home, but it was broken and disappeared in an instant.

He once had a younger brother whom he loved very much, but he was lost in the blink of an eye.

He had inexplicable hopes, but unfortunately, the world was tricky.

He also gave up obedience, but fate made him understand what cruelty is.

Give to those he loves, take away more.

For example, his parents who passed away, his irresponsible adoptive parents, his brother whom he couldn't hate...and that person was even more cruel...

He originally thought that he could get love.

Because he clearly felt that that person had made a sincere promise, and he had also had a heartbeat that he couldn't control himself.

It's a pity that they are all fake.

But what's even more ridiculous is that even if it's a fake, Gu Jiu still wants to get this fake love when he is counting down his life.

So why run away?

Wouldn't it be better to just be a stand-in like that?

At least you can get false happiness and satisfaction in the last time.

Can happiness be fake?

Humans can really deceive themselves.

However, it was different, he still wanted to try it, so he handed the badge to Gu Yuan.

That was his only sustenance when he was in that abyss.

He handed it over to Gu Yuan, and secretly made a wish in his heart: Lord, if my soul is about to return to hell, let my younger brother love him for me, and let that person get the love that comes true.

And if...if he comes to him...

He was about to say to him, "My name is Gu Jiu."

It was Gu Jiu, not Ah Jiu.

He thought, if we get to know each other again, we won't have everything we once had.

Maybe they'll just end up with strange pleasantries, but maybe... maybe, they can start over...even if it's not love, it's ok...

He gave his love to his younger brother, and only prayed for the possibility of getting to know each other again.

Forget his unbearable and dirty, just like the sun rises every day, he wants to live again, not looking for length, just clean.

It's a pity he forgot that for all the people in the world, even though the sun rises every day, they all know that there is only one sun.

Forever and ever, only that one.

Yan Chengli said to him: I only have one condition, you will still be Ah Jiu, and I will still be Yan Chengli.

Gu Jiu thought: Maybe, he is too greedy.

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"You live very high." Yan Chengli pointed out, "It's the highest floor of this apartment."

"Yeah, it's convenient for me to blow some air." Ah Jiu became Ah Jiu again.

"Don't always blow cold wind this day, it's not good for your health."

"Okay, Cheng Li, are you so particular about health preservation?" Yan Chengli became Cheng Li.

When he said Cheng Li, he bit the last word hard, pulling the corners of his lips, as if smiling, every time he called "Cheng Li", he always smiled.

Yan Chengli thought confusedly, this is really good, it really seems that as long as he calls his name, he will feel so happy that he will laugh.

Ah Jiu took out a cigarette, stuffed it into his mouth, and lit it.

"When did you start smoking?"

"Not long."

"It's not good to smoke this thing, quit it."

"Okay, if you kiss me."

He held a slender cigarette between his fingertips and took only one puff. The spark was in the night, half-puffed by the wind, and he was tempting him.

In fact, there is no need at all, he has long missed him so much that he can hardly breathe.