Yesterday is not today

14

"How do you feel about your health recently?" Xu Shaoling cut to the chase.

"What do you mean?" Ajiu was taken aback.

"Is there any discomfort?" Xu Shaoling continued to ask: "For example, loss of appetite, vomiting, insomnia, or increased frequency of waking up at night... etc?"

Ah Jiu raised his eyes, looked at Xu Shaoling, and said softly, "Doctor Xu, what do you mean?"

Xu Shaoling suddenly couldn't bear it. It was such a cruel thing to tell him such a fact for such an ill-fated boy.

He averted his eyes and handed him the report in his hand.

Gu Jiu took the report, he turned to the last page, read it steadily for a few minutes, then he closed the report, handed it to Xu Shaoling and said, "I see, Doctor Xu, thank you. "

"You..." Xu Shaoling only said one word, but his throat felt dry, and it was difficult to continue.

"I'm fine," Ajiu smiled, "I knew I was sick a long time ago, but I didn't know it was so serious, and..."

He rubbed his hands: "I didn't expect that I would get this disease too."

"You..." Xu Shaoling thought for a while, and said, "Both you and Xiaoyuan have this disease, which may be caused by genetics. I asked someone to check your family members before, and it seems that your grandfather has this disease." Those who died of illness passed away very early, so it may be passed down from generation to generation."

"So that's how it is," Ajiu asked in a low voice, "Xiaoyuan...the other kidney I gave him...is there nothing wrong with it?"

Xu Shaoling couldn't bear to say: "That...is healthy..." If he hadn't given that kidney to Gu Yuan, maybe he would still have a healthy kidney left, even after surgery Even if he took away this broken kidney, he could still live.

However, his healthy kidney has already been given to Gu Yuan.

"That's good," Ajiu showed a relieved smile, "As long as Xiaoyuan is doing well."

"Actually, you don't have to give up. There are more and more kidney donations now." Xu Shaoling wanted to comfort him.

"Don't comfort me, Dr. Xu, if the kidneys of our blood type were really so easy to wait for, Mr. Yan would not have tried to find me at that time, and he would have surgery in less than half a year." Ajiu said: "I never thought that I was luckier than Xiaoyuan. You know, I have never been a very lucky person, and I have always been like this."

Xu Shaoling opened his mouth, but didn't know what to say.

"Let's put it this way, Doctor Xu." Ajiu stood up, ready to leave.

"What's there?" Xu Shaoling finally said, "Is there anything I can do for you?" He really wanted to make up for this young man who had been played by fate, because he almost exchanged his life for all he had. the life of a loved one.

"Do you want to help me?" Ajiu thought seriously, and then answered him: "Then help me escape, don't let them know about my illness, and let me run away with a huge sum of money. Good old brother."

"Why?" Xu Shaoling didn't understand.

"Because I only have him as a younger brother, I hope he can live happily ever after."

".......it is good."

Ah Jiu pushed open the door and walked out, he wanted to get out of their lives.

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Yan Chengli was a little absent-minded. He actually noticed that Ajiu's health seemed to be getting worse.

He threw up several times these days.

Is it too much mental pressure?

Maybe, he thought, he shouldn't have locked him up.

But don't lock him up and he'll go away.

He felt that he should spend more time with him, but he couldn't save face.

Since that night...

He couldn't figure out his own heart, he wanted to lock Ajiu by his side, but he deeply understood that he should love Xiaoyuan.

He didn't want to hurt Gu Jiu with his words, but he always spoke insincerely.

He becomes confused and anxious.

After finally making it to noon, he walked out of the company relieved and told the driver to take him to a nursing home.

When he opened the door, Gu Yuan was playing PSP on the bed, when he heard the door opening, he called out happily: "Brother!"

But when he turned around and saw Yan Chengli, his smile froze for a moment, but he gave him a smile and called obediently: "Brother."

Yan Chengli felt as if he had passed away. This year, he didn't have many chances to see Gu Yuan.

Most of the time, Gu Yuan would not let him in, let him sit at the door for an hour at most, and then drove him back.

When Gu Yuan didn't see him, he didn't rush, as long as Gu Yuan took good care of his body and was healthy, he felt fine.

Just like when he was a child, as long as Gu Yuan is willing to eat well, go to school obediently, and is willing to grow up slowly, he feels very good.

He loves him so much that he hopes that he will grow up healthy and grow up to the day when he can understand love.

and then?

What happens after Gu Yuan learns to love?

After that, he never thought about it!

Yan Chengli's mind seemed to suddenly become clear.

He wanted Gu Yuan to grow up, and wanted him to understand everything he should understand, and then, there would be nothing...

He didn't want to possess Gu Yuan, didn't want to spend his whole life with him, didn't want to have sex with him every night...

He never thought about it that way.

So, what about Xu Shaoling?

What did Xu Shaoling think?

He recalled the look in Xu Shaoling's eyes, the way he looked at Gu Yuan was always... full of desire, that kind of longing, passionate...

is possessive.

What about himself?

Isn't his love for Gu Yuan not love?

Gu Yuan felt that Yan Chengli's expression was very strange, and he asked a little uncomfortably, "Brother? What's wrong with you?"

Yan Chengli just recovered and stared at Gu Yuan straightly.

Gu Yuan is very good-looking, he is always restrained and stubborn.He hides his emotions in his heart, but he always has a clear love and hate.You can clearly know what he wants, what he doesn't want, what he likes, and what he hates.

But Ah Jiu is different, Ah Jiu's emotions are exposed, you know when he is happy and when he is sad.He doesn't like rejecting people, and he doesn't like being rejected.He is used to accepting fate, and also used to go with the flow.He is hesitant, restless, inferior, lively and charming.

They look exactly alike, but are completely different.

Gu Yuan sat on the bed, like a newly opened lily, pure and vigorous.

He is...the younger brother.

Yan Chengli understood at this moment.

Gu Yuan is the younger brother, but Gu Jiu is not.

He...is his desire.

"Where's your brother?"

"Ah? My brother? My brother went out to buy lunch, and he said that the food in the nursing home was so bad that the cats wouldn't eat it." Gu Yuan couldn't help laughing when he thought of his brother's disgusted face.

Yan Chengli felt something was wrong, he continued to ask: "When did he go out?"

"Ah?" Gu Yuan thought for a moment, then looked at the clock: "That's right, he's been out for a while, it's been... an hour and a half." Then he said to himself: "That's not right, There are so many restaurants next to it, why haven't you come back for so long?"

Yan Chengli stood up abruptly and rushed out the door quickly.

Only Gu Yuan was left with a puzzled face.

No......

No......

There was no sign of Gu Jiu...

impossible.......

He... he obviously can't run...

There are people coming and going on the street, and the road is full of traffic.

The crowd came and went, and the vehicles kept flowing.

Only Gu Jiu seemed to have never appeared in his world.

He searched desperately, lost his steps, messed up his hair, and tore off his tie.

He mobilized all the people, all the relationships, and all the networks in X City to serve him.

But he forgot.

Gu Jiu grew up in the red light district of "Traveling in the Dark Night". He has no relatives, no friends, he is a criminal, and he doesn't even have an ID card.

He is a "dead man" who does not exist in this world.

Even if he really died in a corner, no one would recognize who he was, and he didn't even have the qualifications to be reported.

In this world, everyone can bully him, hurt him, and even kill him.

And he himself seems to have done the same.

Despair, despair is like air pervasive, drilled into his respiratory tract, he felt tinnitus, his ears were buzzing.

I can't hear all the voices, but I can only say in my heart: "Hurry up! Find him quickly! If you don't hurry up, he will run away."

In that case, forever, forever, in this life, I will never be able to hug him again.

However, God is too busy to hear the prayers of a proud son of heaven like Yan Chengli.

Until the night falls, until the passers-by return home, until the sky will be bright, until the pedestrians are busy.

Day and night, still no response.

Yan Chengli didn't go home, so he went to find Gu Yuan. Gu Yuan didn't sleep all night. When he saw Yan Chengli, he held his hand and asked him, "Where's my brother? Where's my brother?"

Yan Chengli remained silent.

"Big brother! Big brother!" Gu Yuan was so anxious that he only knew that Gu Jiu was gone, so he didn't know what happened. He could only yell at Yan Chengli and ask him, "What's wrong with my brother? What's going on?"

"Xiao Yuan, calm down." Xu Shaoling put his arms around the excited Gu Yuan and said, "Your brother has no safety issues, he just left here."

"What do you mean?" Gu Yuan didn't understand.

"Gu Jiu called the hospital from the public phone in front of us." Xu Shaoling gently followed Gu Yuan's back and said, "Your brother said he wanted to travel and have a look around. Wait until we have fun." It's almost time, come back to see you."

"Really?" Gu Yuan didn't believe it, he frowned, and continued to ask: "Then why didn't he tell me himself?"

"Your brother left in a hurry. He said he was afraid that he might not be able to catch the plane, so he went to the airport early."

lie.

Yan Chengli knew he was lying, Gu Jiu didn't have an ID card at all, how could he get on the plane?