[Sound into the Heart Xiaofan Gao Hongyang] Boys' Notes

21.

If you ask him, he likes to listen to Teacher Liu Yan sing "The Poet's Journey".Teacher Liu Yan's voice is gentle and gentle, and the lyrics are so beautiful that it sets off a kind of clean and suave, passionate but still surrounded by a clear and gentle tenderness.

But the song "Butterfly" he remembers the most is not this song, nor even "Heart".

Gao Yang was stunned for a moment, scratching his hair and thinking why he thought of Huang Zi without warning.

Speaking of which, it was also last winter.

At that time, they happened to have a part of the itinerary that overlapped, so Huang Zi had the cheek to insist on going to Gao Yang's residence together.It was Huang Zi who suddenly became interested and said that he wanted to watch "Butterfly" together. He had never watched it from beginning to end before. Gao Yang had no objection, so he wrapped himself in the same blanket next to him.

Gao Yang liked Liu Yan, but Huang Zi turned on Sha Baoliang's version. He dismissed Gao Yang's protests, hooked people's shoulders and made a lot of nonsense. The central idea is to be good at accepting the imperfections in life, anyway. There is no logical reason.

Gao Yang struggled for a minute and then went with Huang Zi. He only watched it to accompany him. Whether Mr. Sha Baoliang sings well, his own preferences really don't matter.

He listened to Teacher Sha's "The Poet's Journey" with his head propped up, and it sounded good, but he still couldn't let Teacher Liu go.Huang Zi couldn't help laughing when he saw that Gao Yang was tired, like a little mouse who stole cheaply.Putting hands on Gao Yang's knees, he was not even allowed to raise his legs.

But the one who can't stay idle is Huang Zihongfan after all. "The Bride" started, Teacher Sha sang "Bride, come and dance", and then said "My heart, for you, is wet and warm", and Huang Zihongfan jumped up from the chair and imitated Sha Baoliang He twisted his waist and squinted his eyes, and even pulled Gao Yang to ask if he looked like him when he was done.

"Can you stop playing Liang Shanbo so obscenely?" Gao Yang wrote disgust in capital letters on his face.In my heart, I felt that there was a half-dozen similarity, but I didn't want to say it out to make someone embarrassed.

Unaffected by Huang Zi, he laughed twice and continued to read. He did not sit down, but put his hands on Gao Yang's shoulders.

After the mournful singing, a small part of Liang Zhu melodiously dissipated after the last coda, Liang Shanbo kissed Zhu Yingtai cynically, Gao Yang suddenly felt that the corner of his mouth was approached and kissed. With a reflexive shake, he raised his eyes to meet Huang Zi and Sha Baoliang with identical smiles.

"...You can't get the show like this."

Huang Zihongfan shrugged indifferently: "Hey, it's not certain, Mr. Sha will also play Liang Shanbo."

At that time, he only felt that the child was weird, but Gao Yang didn't take that kiss very seriously.

But this memory is like a tidal wave, and it suddenly washed over today. Gao Yang caressed the small piece of skin that had been disturbed before, and somehow the eye sockets became wet and hot.

Why is he crying.

22.

Gao Yang remembered the day when Dai Wei called to ask him to care about Weibo.

When faced with overwhelming wild speculations, there was no wave in his heart.They were all baseless accusations, Gao Yang knew very well that those deliberate slanders could do nothing to him.The thumping in my heart was all about Huang Zi——

Does he think so too?

His eyes fixed on the four letters "hzhf" like a code word, blurring all the words surrounding it.

He confessed himself, but declared that he was not in love with Huang Zi.So he also thinks that he will really find a "girl next door" to be sweet and greasy together?After we are together, we still have to show affection on Weibo, which is tantamount to suicide and does not look like him at all——

He thinks so too?

Gao Yang never wanted to admit it, and when he thought of this, his heart was clenched unbearably by a nameless emotion.

He doesn't really care that much about what other people think.Even if he really has a girlfriend, it's not an unreasonable thing. He thinks it's normal, so why should he care about other people's embarrassment?

But only to Huang Zi, he really wanted to pull him to explain that he wasn't, he didn't.What he said was obviously true, and he was still thinking about him even when he sent that photo.

Yes, he missed him.

He actually held back a lot of words to say.

He wanted to complain to Huang Zi that Zhang Chao's sleep talk at night was louder than his snoring.He wanted to tell him that the puppet cat next door dressed as a girl was actually a tomcat, but the bewildered former couple seemed completely unaware.

He wanted to hug this little sun for a little while and lean his head into the crescent of his neck, but this time he frankly said that he was so tired.

very tired.

Business is difficult, interviews are embarrassing, lines cannot be memorized, dances are not good, and the relationship with other actors in the crew is not good. The director teacher is kind, but the better he treats himself, the heavier the burden.

Why are things so difficult? What if one day he suddenly doesn't even feel happy singing?

Besides Huang Zi, he couldn't think of anyone else to talk about these ramblings.

Probably only Huang Zi could make himself happy with heartless gags after swallowing his negative energy.

But until not long ago, the noisy children who liked to rely on themselves disappeared after a disagreement.

There was nothing but chicken feathers in front of him, and there were still a few loose feathers floating in mid-air, refusing to fall to the ground.

Suddenly, a panic that I dare not even think about appeared in my heart: Is Huang Zihongfan going to disappear from his life from now on?

Tears flowed down the bones, Gao Yang bit a knuckle to stop himself from thinking about it.

……don't want.

23.

Zhang Chao and Cai Chengyu looked at each other. It turned out that Gao Yang had such a breakdown that he couldn't help but want to talk to someone.

At this time, Gao Yang had already left Zhang Chao's shoulder, propped his head sideways, and stared blankly at the greasy empty plate.

Cai Chengyu rubbed his hands awkwardly, still wanting to help.He asked casually, "Do you know why Huang Zi said he doesn't want to fall in love?"

Gao Yang raised his head again and looked at him.

"I also tried to analyze this point, but I don't have much information. At most, it is more similar to his ex-boyfriend."

Ex-boyfriend?

Zhang Chao and Cai Chengyu said in unison.

Gao Yang scratched his cheek in embarrassment, feeling that he shouldn't talk about Huang Zi's affairs. Fortunately, Huang Zi also admitted that this is not some ulterior secret, but he is usually too lazy to tell everyone.So he vaguely summed it up, saying it was a story about a straight man who turned into a bender, cheated on a girl and called Ah Huang a pervert.

"I'll go..." Cai Chengyu was a little annoyed.

Zhang Chao's face was also a little ugly, but he didn't make any more useless emotion: "That's right, Huang Zi was hurt emotionally, it's understandable."

Being cheated by someone who has been in love is already uncomfortable enough, but to be slandered in reverse, Zhang Chao sighed, and wrote a miserable heart for Huang Zihongfan.

Gao Yang also sighed, but the meaning was not the same as Zhang Chao's.

"Then he regards me as this kind of person too?" Do you think he might laugh at his love in turn?

Zhang Chao choked, although people who have been injured will inevitably give up eating because of choking, and have some stress reactions of being afraid of straw ropes for ten years, but not only did he not think Gao Yang would do that, he even firmly believed that Huang Zi didn't think so either.

How could Huang Zihongfan not believe in Gao Yang?

Zhang Chao frowned, and couldn't figure out why this person wanted to draw a clear line.

Gao Yang said helplessly: "Actually, it might not be that specific. When he said he won't fall in love, it might mean that he doesn't want to fall in love with someone he doesn't think is suitable."

After all, who knows what will happen in the future, maybe one day suddenly Huang Zi will be so lucky that he wants to be with someone, and then what he said before will still count?It's just a way to reject people.

"I know he doesn't like me, but I just can't figure out why he won't continue to be the same as before. Nothing substantial happened to us at all. What to hide?"

He said it all, it's good to just be friends with Huang Zi.

Zhang Chao wanted to respond with a sentence that was too much to take back. What he said disturbed the atmosphere between the two of them. Where did nothing happen?But he didn't dare to say it, for fear that Gao Yang would be sad.

Here Cai Chengyu didn't think too much, he speculated on his own: "Maybe it's to avoid suspicion? Because I don't want to develop a relationship, I deliberately left him out for a while, afraid that you really like him? But Gao Yang, you said you don't like Huang Zi , right? I’ve always wanted to make this clear. Hey, that’s easy, I’ll just let him make it clear when I find a chance..."

He was talking, but found that the protagonist Gao Yang was inexplicably stunned.

Cai Chengyu shook his hand in front of him, Gao Yang slightly closed his eyes, and heard him whisper uncertainly:

"I do not know."

……what?

Gao Yang crossed his fingers and leaned forward: "How do you tell me if you like boys?"

Zhang Chao and Cai Chengyu were stunned together, and one question overwhelmed them both.