[Sound into the Heart Xiaofan Gao Hongyang] Boys' Notes

8.

For example, in February, he had a rest day in Shanghai. It was probably because someone laughed at his old man too many times.He put on his hat and mask and wanted to take the subway by himself. Anyway, he had nothing to do, so he might as well go out and watch a movie.

At that time, his mood was between literary and hypocritical. He knew that Huang Zi was actually in Shanghai, but he didn't plan to make an appointment. He even wanted to wait until a movie was over before taking a ticket stub to talk to him.

Maybe he would be the one who didn't go out all day.

Gao Yang thought so. He was on the subway, but he didn't expect Huang Zi to send a message.

What are you doing?

"..." Gao Yang was speechless.

To tell the truth is tantamount to murdering his own plan just now, so he should make up something.However, his thoughts circled in the air and then fell back, but logically, why did he have to do this?

So he told the truth: I went to the movies, on the subway.

Huang Zi is happy: what number is online?I'm on the subway too!

The two reported their locations, and combined their destinations to make a total.

Huang Zi said: You change trains later and run faster, we might run into each other.

For some reason, Gao Yang was eager to try when he mentioned it like this.

While laughing at Huang Zihongfan's illness, he looked up at the station, oh... There are three more stations, Ah Huang is four stations, I don't know if it will be too late.

At the transfer station, Gao Yang really ran for the first time.

Huang Zihongfan tweeted in real time on WeChat: My car is moving, the next stop is coming, a lot of people are rushing to the door, it’s almost there, where are you, my car has stopped, are you here yet... …

The transfer distance at this station is very long, Gao Yang held his breath and rushed as fast as possible, watching the text bubbles that kept popping up, and didn't care about replying.

I'm at the back of the car, come quickly!

Gao Yang couldn't wait for the escalator, and his two legs went down the steps alternately like small motors.

At this time, the subway that Huang Zi was sitting on barely stopped, and a crowd of passengers poured out, Gao Yang was hit by the shoulders passing by him, making his head dizzy.

rear?Which is the end?

He randomly reasoned out a direction, avoiding pedestrians and going upstream in the crowd.

The passengers who got off gradually dispersed, Gao Yang heaved a sigh of relief, but he still didn't talk to Huang Zihongfan on WeChat.He still has a long way to go from the rear of the car, but the door will close soon.He thought, if it’s a big deal, he should jump into the car first, and if he moves slowly in the car, he can always bump into someone.

Just as he was thinking, the train notification sound beeped.

Gao Yang sighed, regretting that he still couldn't connect with Huang Zi satisfactorily.

He lowered his head to reply to WeChat, and took steps, almost stepping on the subway.

But he didn't want his wrist to be pulled, so he turned his head suddenly and met Huang Zihongfan's bright black eyes.

"Gao Yang, are you an idiot? I said I'm at the back of the car, where are you running with all your might?"

"..." Gao Yang's face burned, and he thought that he didn't see the direction of the subway.

But he had already lost face in front of Huang Zi, and talking about these things would only make him seem petty.Gao Yang didn't reply. He glanced at the tightly closed car door and said nothing.

"Uh." Huang Zi really received his wordless complaint, "I can go up first. But I haven't seen you, and you haven't responded to the message for so long. Who knows if I will miss it if I go on like this. I can only go up." Out of mercy, I came down to look for you."

The more he spoke, the more confident he became. At the end, he put an elbow on Gao Yang's shoulder and taunted triumphantly: "Then I saw someone desperately going in the opposite direction among the crowd."

Gao Yang rolled his eyes at him and shook him off his shoulders.

Huang Zihongfan did a good job, now there are only two of them left in the entire subway station.

Gao Yang couldn't help poking him on the waist: "The next shift will come in 2 minutes."

"Hey, 2 minutes is 2 minutes, what are you doing!" Huang Zi shrank and hurriedly grasped Gao Yang's troublesome hand, "Speaking of which, it's so cold when you poke someone, it still hurts so much? "

"Blame me."

"I don't blame you, who do you blame? Ah, Gao Yang, stretch out your hand and let me see if it's a severed palm?"

"Neuropathy."

"It really hurts, okay? Let me have a look, and I won't lose a piece of meat!"

"You grabbed me so tightly, how can I show you? And I just stabbed, not hit. What's the matter with turning off the palm?"

Huang Zihongfan snorted, let go of him resentfully, and stopped arguing to see his hands.He looked around boredly, but suddenly regained his energy, and pointed at the bulletin board where he would arrive at the station with more than 20 seconds left: "Look, two minutes is fast."

"It's not that you talk too much nonsense."

"??? What did I say to me?"

Gao Yang smiled without saying a word, pursed his lips, the corners of his mouth curled up very clearly.

Bullying people all day long.

He heard Huang Zihongfan mutter something, pushed Gao Yang, and stuffed one hand into the opponent's dark green coat pocket for no reason.

"Anyway, you have to listen to the nonsense."

9.

Such deceptive behaviors are countless.

It was like a certain day in that summer when Huang Zihongfan called for no reason.

"Gao Yang, what are you going to give me tomorrow?"

"Huh?" Gao Yang was taken aback when he picked up the phone, he didn't even understand where this person got such a cheeky face, "It's not your birthday tomorrow, what gift are you giving?"

Huang Zi was not happy, the voice coming from his ears was so loud that his eardrums hurt: "What are you pretending to be stupid? Didn't it all be agreed, if we are brothers, we will help each other to spend Qixi Festival together."

Only then did Gao Yang remember that there was such a thing as the Qixi Festival, and he was speechless, thinking that probably only a single dog of Huang Zi's breed would remember Qixi Festival and play masochistic.

"Oh. Tomorrow, each of us has work and can't mix together, so we have to give gifts to help each other? What kind of Zhang Chao's logic." How could Gao Yang agree, "I won't give it away."

Huang Zi gritted his teeth: "Gao Yang, are you picking it or not? It's a courier thing! A courier can buy Xiao Huang's happiness! You can make money without losing money!"

Gao Yang calmly said, "It's too late. It's due tomorrow, but it won't be delivered. Don't use your shabby happiness as a threat to make things difficult for other couriers."

Huang Zi was very angry and happy in a shabby way.

He shouted angrily that he was annoying Gao Yang to death.

But the next day Gao Yang's assistant still helped him receive a courier.From Huang Zi.A few watercolor brushes.

what the hell.

Cursing, but smiling.Yellow purple red.annoying.

10.

These are boring, childish, ridiculous.

Gao Yang possessed it without any other thought.

Everything has never been out of order.

Good is good, he and Huang Zihongfan are good, and Huang Zihongfan is also good.

Who would have known that that night, Huang Zihongfan's confession disrupted everything.

Once such an imprint is left in the depths of the heart, all the ordinary and ordinary things that the two of them get along with will suddenly take on some other color when viewed again.

He can like men, Gao Yang can't help but think anymore, is it possible for him to like himself?

So what does it mean to keep shouting about yourself in the live broadcast room?What does it mean to choose him to look at affectionately in the big adventure?What does it mean to reach out and grab your hand naturally?What does it mean that there are two single rooms and you can't stop running to squeeze a bed with him?What does it mean to rub your fingers against the back of his hand? ...

He was tired of guessing and interpreting the meaning of Huang Zihongfan's every action, chasing wind and shadows, and everything was like a war.

Finally, he came to a conclusion.

——Huang Zihong always likes him.

Those eye movements, those uncontrollable closeness, those straightforward, overflowing, unconcealed, surging emotions, once recognized, have a sense of existence that can no longer be ignored.

Can't go wrong.

Gao Yang's chest was hot, and he was at a loss for this conclusion.

I am a true straight man, and I have never liked a boy in more than 20 years of my life.I blamed Huang Zi for being a bad person, so I threw such a bomb at myself with a smile.

How should he respond.

The question was repeated in a mess in his head.

He couldn't answer him.

But after thinking about it in my heart, what did Huang Zihongfan do wrong?

"It's been like this since I was a child, and I can't change it."

He told him lightly, maybe it was because of the calmness poured out by alcohol, or maybe he had struggled and struggled painfully long ago, but he had no choice but to finally accept this reality completely, he was just different from others, he could what to do?

Thinking of this, Gao Yang lowered his eyes and stared at his entangled fingers, and fell silent.

He couldn't tell the boundaries between friends and lovers among men, and he couldn't imagine what it would be like to give a man full of love.

Only, he knew that the friendship he and Huang Zi had accumulated over time was worth cherishing.

Gao Yang really appreciates Huang Zi, and likes to spend time pulling each other with him.

He more or less understands how many dizzy impulses "liking" someone will prompt him to germinate.

But Huang Zihongfan never hurt him, and even kept his mouth shut about it. He properly maintained the distance between friends. A little step forward is intimacy, and a step back is longing.

Gao Yang is not a piece of wood, and he can tell from his taste that it will be a lot of exhaustion and suffering for the other party to do this.

He knew all of this, Huang Zi never said it, probably he would just do it silently and watch over it for a long, long time.

However, Gao Yang didn't want to accept it with peace of mind.

Those indulgences that Huang Zi talked to himself made him look like a house cat that had to be protected.There is a bell on the tip of the tail, and an exquisite and expensive collar around the neck.

It seems to be on an equal footing with Twolegs, but giving and pampering are always on the other side's part. The cat can't express its worries, and can only meow softly when it opens its mouth.

Where did Huang Zihongfan get the right to bear all this alone?

Gao Yangxin said that he never thought that there would be a story in the world about Gao Yang and Huang Zihongfan being together, but he also never thought that such a story could not exist.

If someone told him, he might laugh and comment on something interesting.

Then a great heroism sprang from him—

Since Huang Zi likes him, why can't he like him?

If he could have the same emotion, wouldn't it mean that the children would not have to bear so much silently by themselves, and they would trust each other more, and work side by side in the pursuit of their dreams with a more supportive attitude?