Sharpness

Coincidentally, Xuxi Hospital has a new doctor, a young and handsome male doctor, said to be the nephew of the director, who just came back from abroad, about 35 years old, handsome, with a body that belongs to the kind of undressed and fleshy , the kind of figure that looks thin in clothes.As soon as it came, the female doctors and nurses in the hospital were all excited as if they had been beaten with chicken blood.If it had been before, Xu Xi would probably be as excited as those little nurses. After all, after watching Korean dramas for so many years, it was hard to meet a man who resembled the heroine of Korean dramas. conditions of.And the most important thing is that this man seems to be very interested in her, and has invited her out several times since he was admitted to the hospital for half a month.

Just when Xu Xi wanted to have a boyfriend, a high-quality man appeared. It was like someone handed him a pillow while he was sleeping soundly, so he invited the male doctor several times, and she went.But after dating a few times, Xu Xi found that she was so calm about such a handsome guy. She was still thinking about Su Xue. The more she thought about Su Xue, the more flustered she was, and the more she avoided Su Xue. Dare to face Su Xue.

Just like at this moment, when she received Su Xue's call, she was both happy and panicked.

"Is there a shift tonight?" Su Xue, who hadn't seen Xu Xi for more than ten days, couldn't help calling Xu Xi.

Hearing Su Xue's familiar voice, Xu Xi really realized how much she missed Su Xue. She had been hiding from Su Xue for thirteen days. She wanted to go to Su Xue's house, have dinner together, and then snuggle up and watch TV together. It's fine to do anything with Su Xue, but when she wanted to blurt out the words, she was pulled back by reason.

"There is a patient who is not in good condition tonight, I am not worried..." Xu Xi instinctively lied to Su Xue. In fact, half an hour ago, the male doctor made an appointment with her, and she agreed, but she didn't know Because of my mentality, I didn't want to tell Su Xuenan about the existence of Dr. Su Xuenan.

"It's okay, you can stay in the hospital and pay attention to rest." Su Xue said very considerately, but under the calm and considerate tone, her heart felt empty.

"Su Xue..." Listening to Su Xue's gentle voice, Xu Xi's nose suddenly felt a little sore, and she suddenly felt very uncomfortable. When Su Xue felt that Su Xue was about to hang up the phone, she couldn't help calling Su Xue's name.

"Huh?" Su Xue felt a little hopeful in her heart.

"It's okay, I'll go find you when I'm done working." Xu Xi wanted to go to Su Xue immediately after she adjusted her mentality. Now Xu Xi felt like she was suffering from a mental illness, and she had to be cured.

"Okay, wait until you're done." Hearing what Xu Xi said, Su Xue felt less sad than before.Su Xue knew a long time ago that Xu Xi's words could control her mood. She didn't like this, but if that person was Xu Xi, it seemed that anything would be fine.

Xu Xi suddenly burst into tears, and hung up the phone in a panic.

"Is someone you like?" The male doctor handed her a tissue. When he came to ask Xu Xi for a patient case, he saw Xu Xi was on the phone with someone else, and she burst into tears.He has a good impression of Xu Xi. He has dated a few times, and he can feel that she doesn't really like him, and she is always a little absent-minded. Now he finally knows the reason.

"Sorry." Xu Xi didn't deny it, and she also felt that she liked others in her heart, and it was scumbag to hang on to them.

"Then what's the situation with the other party?" The male doctor asked.

"We can't be together." Xu Xi said.

"That means I still have a chance. I am confident that I can replace him." The male doctor said confidently.

The male doctor's confident smile suddenly made Xu Xi uncomfortable. Why did this guy think he could replace Su Xue? Xu Xi decided in her heart that she didn't like this person anymore.

"Oh." Xu Xi responded coldly.

"After get off work tonight, I'll pick you up." The male doctor returned to his department after speaking.

Xu Xi planned to ignore this guy after this time.

Because Xu Xi didn't accept the appointment, a colleague invited Su Xue to have dinner together. Su Xue felt that she was prone to depression and cranky thoughts when she was alone, so she agreed.

Of course, Xu Xi felt that the world was small for the first time. She went to eat with the male doctor. When she was in the parking lot, Su Xue and her colleague happened to have a good car. When they were about to walk from the parking lot to the elevator, the four of them made a call. face to face.

Xu Xi was in a bad mood, feeling like the sky was falling down, she never thought that she would be caught by Su Xue for lying, she was so guilty that she didn't even dare to look at Su Xue.

Su Xue glanced at Xu Xi, then at the handsome and tall male doctor, the type of man Xu Xi liked, and then thought of Xu Xi's avoidance of her for more than ten days, and the lie she told herself today.

Su Xue felt a stabbing pain in her heart. She had never felt so uncomfortable. She tried her best to suppress the anger, sadness, and pain in her heart, but these emotions were too strong to be suppressed at all. The emotions leaked on her face. Go up, making her expression a little condensed.

Xu Xi is so familiar with Su Xue, knows Su Xue well, she has never seen Su Xue look at her with such an expression, Xu Xi saw disappointment, anger, and sadness, and Xu Xi panicked all at once.

"Su Xue, listen to me..." Xu Xi stepped forward to explain.

"Who is this?" Su Xue interrupted Xu Xi, she was more concerned about the identity of that handsome male doctor.

"I am Dr. Xu's colleague and suitor, Zhao Jin." The male doctor took the initiative to reveal his identity to Su Xue before Xu Xi could speak.

After the answer was confirmed, there was no luck, and Su Xue's heart that was getting colder and colder dropped to freezing point at this moment, as if her heart had been frozen.When a single woman is with a single man, the answer is already obvious, so what are you expecting?Obviously, this is not their first date, otherwise Zhao Jin would not have revealed his suitor's identity so directly.Thinking of Xu Xi's avoidance of herself in the past ten days, maybe not only because of avoiding her own feelings, even lying is probably just because she has a boyfriend, and she can't bear to make herself sad.Thinking about it this way, Su Xue's anger gradually calmed down, but her despair and sadness became even worse.

"Su Xue..." Xu Xi hesitated to speak, she regretted why she lied to Su Xue, and instinctively wanted to explain something to Su Xue, but she didn't know how to explain.She thought that Su Xue was angry because she lied to her. After all, she had never lied to Su Xue before. She felt that if Su Xue lied to her, she would be very unhappy.Thinking of Su Xue being angry with herself, Xu Xi felt very nervous.

"Then don't disturb your date, let's go first." Su Xue didn't want to get angry with Xu Xi, but at this moment, she really couldn't face Xu Xi. The more cautious Xu Xi was, the more uncomfortable she was, so Su Xue didn't wait. After Xu Xi finished speaking, she dragged the colleague away first.

Seeing that Su Xue was unwilling to talk to her, Xu Xi was sure that Su Xue was angry with her. When she was about to chase after her, she was stopped by Zhao Jin.

"What's the matter? There seems to be something strange between you and that beauty just now." Zhao Jin still observed Xu Xi very carefully, and noticed Xu Xi's strangeness.

Xu Xi felt that it was her own secret that she liked Su Xue. She didn't want to tell Zhao Jin that Su Xue was far away. Although she was anxious, she also knew that Su Xue was with her friends now. At this moment, she planned to go to Su Xue's house in person in the evening to apologize to Su Xue, when Su Xue was not angry.She and Su Xue are so good, Su Xue will forgive herself, Xu Xi comforts herself like this.

But throughout the night, Xu Xi was in a state of fidgeting, and finally had dinner with Zhao Jin, and then waited for Su Xue at Su Xue's house.

Su Xue and her female colleagues ate together, but Su Xue basically didn't eat much.

"Su Xue, why don't you eat? Is there something uncomfortable?" Su Xue's female colleague asked worriedly.

"It's probably her menstrual period, and I feel a little uncomfortable." Su Xue made an excuse casually, and after taking two casual bites, she put down her chopsticks. Pain.

After eating, Su Xue parted ways with her female colleague.On the way Su Xue drove back, she knew that when she went back, Xu Xi would wait for her at her home, but now she didn't want to see Xu Xi, and she didn't want to hear Xu Xi apologize. She knew that Xu Xi cared about herself. Because of the friendship between them for more than ten years, Xu Xicai is so careful with herself. She even refuses to tell herself that she has a boyfriend. On the one hand, it is because of kindness. As I said, there used to be no boundary between her and Xu Xi, but now there is a boundary.Su Xue suffers from various aspects. Probably the saddest thing is not that Xu Xi has a boyfriend, but that Xu Xi has a boundary with herself, and the relationship between them will probably gradually drift away.So she turned the corner and drove to her parents' house instead of returning to her own.

It was very late, and Su Xue didn't come back. Xu Xi, who had been anxiously waiting for Su Xue, was worried about what happened to Su Xue, so she quickly called Su Xue.

"Su Xue, where are you? Why did you come back?" Xu Xi asked.

"My parents want to see me. I'm at Mom's place, and you are at my house?" Su Xue's tone has returned to normal.

"Well, at your house, are you angry with me?" Xu Xi asked a little nervously.

"I was a little angry at first, but it's fine now. I believe you have your own reasons, and it's not a serious matter." Su Xue said calmly.

"Then are you coming back tonight?" Xu Xi asked expectantly, but she was still not sure if Su Xue really lost her temper.

"It's too late, I won't go back tonight, and it's not the first time you've come to my house, just do whatever you want, I'll hang up if I have nothing to do." After Su Xue finished speaking, she hung up the phone.

Xu Xi's mobile phone was still placed next to her ear, and she felt even more uncomfortable than before.Su Xue said that if she is not angry, she may not be angry, but not being angry does not mean that the relationship between them will not be affected. It is like a sharp heavy object falling to the ground. The moment it touches the ground, it is the most destructive , although there is no more damage in the follow-up, the dent on the ground is also left, but this is already the best case that Xu Xi thought of. The worst case is that it is not a dent, but a crack. As long as it is Cracks will not continue to expand.Thinking of this possibility, Xu Xi couldn't sleep. She wanted to slap herself. From the moment her relationship turned sour, she always had a sense of self-blame and guilt towards herself. Until now, this annoyed self-blame has reached its peak.

Xu Xi felt that since everything had to leave traces, Xu Xi felt that maybe she could give it a go and explain to Su Xue why she lied to her. It was because she liked her and dared not face her.For lying to Su Xue, the probability of cracks and dents is [-] and [-], and the probability of confessing to Su Xue is [-] and [-], and the probability of success and failure is also [-] and [-]. Emotionally, she looks forward to her own success. He decided to ask Su Xue out tomorrow and confess his love to Su Xue in person.Xu Xi, who was treated indifferently by Su Xue, seemed to be breaking the can at the moment.

Su Xue actually knew that unless she hid her feelings forever, she would have to face the current situation sooner or later. She knew that it was either heaven or hell, but only at this moment did she know how difficult it was.Su Xue was lying on the bed with her eyes open, looking at the ceiling. She hadn't slept well for several nights, and tonight was undoubtedly another sleepless night.Today's scene kept reappearing in her mind, thinking of Xu Xi's lying to herself, all of this made her feel painful.

Su Xue sorted out her thoughts for so many days, and finally felt that she could lose the possibility of falling in love with Xu Xi. After all, she had never had it before, but she couldn't lose Xu Xi, even if it existed in the form of a girlfriend.With the conclusion, Su Xue's thoughts became clear at once.Xu Xi knew that she liked her, but she didn't ask herself for confirmation, so at most it was just a guess brought about by that kiss. If she also made a boyfriend, then Xu Xi might feel that she guessed wrong, so she is right. There is no need for my own embarrassment and caution. Although the cracks will still exist, at least they will not let the cracks expand further.Because she couldn't lose Xu Xi.

Although each had their own ideas, but this night, they still suffered from insomnia all night.

On the second day, Xu Xi was still a little timid when she thought about yesterday's decision, but she still called Su Xue very nervously.

"I'm on vacation today too, so you didn't go to work today, right?" Xu Xi deliberately transferred shifts with other colleagues, because she knew that Su Xue was on vacation today, and she thought she couldn't make an appointment once, so she made two appointments, or three times, she didn't believe it , Su Xue will always ignore herself.

"Well, today is a holiday, but today I have an appointment to climb the mountain with someone." Su Xue said to Xu Xi, in fact, she did not lie.

"Are you going home tonight?" Xu Xi asked.

"Go back." Su Xue replied.

"Then I'll make dinner tonight, and we'll eat together at home when you come back." As long as Su Xue came back, Xu Xi thought it would be fine.

"Don't do my part. I may go back late tonight." Su Xue knew that Xu Xi was trying to please her because of yesterday's matter. This showed that Xu Xi cared about herself, but Su Xue knew that Xu Xi only cared about her. Because there are 13 years of affection between them.She didn't want Xu Xi to please her because of her 13-year relationship, and she didn't even want to hurt herself. Even though she had made things difficult for her, she hoped that Xu Xi could get along with her more naturally and not be so cautious, so Su Xue had to be ruthless. make up your mind.

"It's okay, then I'll eat first." Xu Xi said with a strong smile. She always felt that Su Xue didn't care about herself as much as before. It seemed that the invisible crack was expanding, which made her feel inexplicably sad.

"Well, if it's okay, I'll hang up first." After Su Xue finished speaking, she hung up the phone, her eyes were a little red, and she tried so hard to keep her tears from shedding.

Xu Xi, who hung up on Su Xue's phone again, felt inexplicably wronged, and then Dou Da's tears fell down.

Without any hope, He Changxin asked Su Xue to climb the mountain like in the past. Anyway, every time he would be rejected by Su Xue, it was just that he was unyielding and unyielding, and the more frustrated he became, the more courageous he became.This is the third year he has been chasing Su Xue. He likes Su Xue very much. Even though Su Xue clearly rejects him every time, in his opinion, as long as Su Xue is still single, he still has hope. Afraid of pestering Lang?

"I agreed to climb the mountain, not to agree to your pursuit, but because I have something to trouble you." Su Xue first stated her position.

"No problem, just say it, as long as I can do it, I will go through fire and water." He Changxin said solemnly. From his point of view, even if Su Xue didn't agree to what he wanted, but if there is something that he can ask himself for help, it is already is a good sign.

"I want you to pretend to be my boyfriend for a while, the exact time is uncertain, if it causes you trouble, you can terminate your fake boyfriend status at any time." Su Xue said very seriously.

"No problem." He Changxin wished to have this identity, even if it was fake, he would be happy.

"Thank you." Su Xue thanked politely.

At ten o'clock in the evening, Xu Xi called Su Xue again.

"When will you come back?" Xu Xi, who had been wronged all day long, couldn't help calling Su Xue again after waiting for fourteen hours.

"On the way back, it will take about 10 minutes." Su Xue replied truthfully.

"Then I'll go downstairs to pick you up." Hearing that Su Xue would be back in 10 minutes, Xu Xi happily hung up the phone, without changing her home clothes, went downstairs and waited for Su Xue to come back at the gate of the community.

Ten minutes later, the car that wasn't Su Xue stopped at the gate of Su Xue's home. At first Xu Xi thought it wasn't Su Xue, but she soon saw Su Xue in the passenger seat and He Changxin in the driver's seat.She met He Changxin two or three times, and she knew he was Su Xue's suitor. Su Xue had rejected him many times, but he still pursued Su Xue unyieldingly.Before, she joked with Su Xue that He Changxin had such a long relationship, so she should accept it.I just said it casually, not out of my mind, even in the past, I felt that even He Changxin, who looked good in every way, was not good enough for Su Xue. She already has a strong desire to possess, and she doesn't want Su Xue to be chased away by anyone.But now seeing Su Xue from He Changxin, Xu Xi's heart suddenly tensed up, with an ominous premonition.

Xu Xi saw what Su Xue and He Changxin were talking about when they got out of the car. Su Xue's expression was not as cold as before, which made Xu Xi feel very uncomfortable, but she dared not go forward.After they finished talking, He Changxin drove away, and when Su Xue walked towards her, she dared to step forward.

"How long have you been waiting?" Su Xue asked softly, looking at Xu Xi who was waiting for her, she felt sore again.

"After answering the phone, I went downstairs. I didn't know someone would take you back." When Xu Xi mentioned He Changxin, he actually wanted Su Xue to explain that she had nothing to do with He Changxin.

"Today we climbed the mountain together. Didn't I tell you a while ago that someone was included in the scope of investigation, and it was him." Su Xue said in a relaxed tone. When she said these words, her heart was also very sad. This means that it is difficult for her and Xu Xi to turn into love, but what does it matter if it is love?

Xu Xi felt her heart was hit violently, and she felt a little pain. Her lips moved a few times, like a fish out of water.

"Are you sure about the relationship?" After about two or three seconds, Xu Xi had the courage to ask.

"Well, it's about the same. We are not too young, so it's time to find a boyfriend. How is it, how are you and the male doctor from last time?" Su Xue's tone was as intimate as before, without any abnormality.

Seeing Su Xue's same attitude as before, Xu Xi suddenly felt that Su Xue might not be angry anymore, because she has other priorities now, and she doesn't care too much about small things.As for the heart she wanted to confess before, at this moment, it disappeared without a trace like the last drop of water evaporated by the scorching sun, and her state was also like being exposed to the scorching sun, but she couldn't find any drop of water that could quench her thirst.

"It's good..." Xu Xi, who was going to explain that Zhao Jin is not her boyfriend, has no intention of explaining now, and just said absent-mindedly.In fact, at this moment, she wanted to escape from Su Xue's house.She felt like a self-indulgent clown. Even though Su Xue didn't know about all this, she still felt embarrassed and uncomfortable.

Listening to Xu Xi's words, Su Xue felt her heart ache again. She didn't know how many times it would take to feel numb and no longer hurt.

"When will we make an appointment together?" Su Xue felt that she must have the tendency of masochism, and would make such a cruel request, but she also knew that probably only when she saw Xu Xi happily with other men, would she really be able to truly marry him. Give up.

"Let's talk about it." At this moment, Xu Xi has no interest in this invitation. She is already uncomfortable enough, and she doesn't want to feel more uncomfortable.

"What's wrong with you, you seem to be in a bad mood?" Su Xue obviously felt that Xu Xi's mood seemed to be depressed, and asked with some expectation in her heart.

"I have a major operation, and the director won't let me do it. I'm quite depressed." Xu Xi made an excuse casually.

Xu Xi cared about her work very much, and Su Xue knew it, so she couldn't tell at the moment whether Xu Xi's emotions were because of work or because of herself.

"Could it be because I made a boyfriend and you're not happy?" Su Xue asked tentatively without letting go of any hope.

"How is that possible? I'm too happy for you. You have a boyfriend, and I have a boyfriend. That's just right. Let's go out and have fun together." Xu Xi was like a bird frightened by Su Xue Usually, after being frightened, she overreacted and said, and after she finished speaking, she realized that she had dug a hole for herself, and even if it was a hole, she had to jump down.

Xu Xi was so uncomfortable that she was at her wits' end, and she didn't notice the gloomy look in Su Xue's eyes.

Probably so, it is the best, Su Xue thought sadly.

This night, both of them tried their best to pretend that nothing had happened, they were obviously aware of each other's strangeness, but they always felt that it was because of their abnormal state of mind.Obviously, both of them tried their best to restore the intimacy of the past, but the cracks became wider and wider.

The next day, the two went to work together. After that day, the two of them seemed to be busy with a tacit understanding, but they were really busy, because both of them were using the idea that neither of them would take the initiative to ask their boyfriends out to get to know each other. It seems that if you don't mention it, you can postpone it indefinitely.

Usually Xu Xi looks for Su Xue more times than Su Xue looks for Xu Xi, but Xu Xi, who fell into remorse for Su Xue's deteriorating feelings, comes to Su Xue less and less. Some feelings.She didn't dare to look for Su Xue, but she hoped that Su Xue would come to find herself, but Su Xue didn't come to find herself either.Xu Xi found that even if she didn't see Su Xue, she still loved Su Xue all the time.In the past three months, she has seen Su Xue twice. She has been trying hard to restrain herself so that she will not go to Su Xue desperately. There is an extremely honest voice in her heart telling herself that she misses Su Xue ,miss so much.This miss made Xu Xi think of almost self-abuse, or he would ask Su Xue and her boyfriend out to play together, and see how much pain he can bear, maybe, if the pain is so desperate, he can really let go.In fact, Xu Xi also knew that this was just a high-sounding reason for herself because she wanted to see Su Xue. After all, she had always held a negative attitude towards her liking for Su Xue.

Xu Xi came to her less and less actively. Su Xue always felt that Xu Xi was busy in dating. She knew that the two people who fell in love had no spare time for others, even the closest girlfriends.She comforted herself and said that it will be fine when their love period is over. They can't always be out of the love period. Although they have been paralyzing themselves, the constant discomfort has always been with them, making Su Xue have a special three months. depression.But she didn't want to go to Xu Xi either, because she was afraid of seeing or hearing the news of their relationship. Next, check your phone from time to time, for fear of missing Xu Xi's message.Sometimes Su Xue really hated her indecisiveness, she should let it go, but she couldn't let it go, so that Xu Xi became a wound in her heart that could never heal.

It's already time to get off work, and everyone can't wait to leave the place of work. Only Su Xue is still sitting in the office, not packing her own things, just sitting there in a daze, because everything in life now is lacking for her. Without passion, there is no enthusiasm.But as long as her brain is not used for work or other things, as long as she is free, she will think of Xu Xi, and now Su Xue feels that she should be old, because what is in her mind is Xu Xi's girlhood , she knew that she was starting to feel nostalgic, because now Xu Xi was so far away from her, so annoying.

Thinking of Xu Xi's Su Xue again, she felt annoyed. This annoyance was annoyed at herself for not being able to live up to her expectations. She took out her mobile phone and started playing games. Normally she never played games, but now she urgently needs a Don't let the things that empty your brain paralyze yourself.

While Su Xue was playing a certain intellectual game, a call flashed on the screen of the phone, it was Xu Xi's call.Su Xue looked at the page of the phone, looked at Xu Xi's name, and only then did she know how much she missed this person. Thinking of her, she didn't dare to answer the phone right away, even if Xu Xi's name stayed on the screen for a while longer. OK

About ten seconds after the phone rang, Su Xue answered the phone.

"Su Xue." Xu Xi, whose hands were already shaking nervously, called Su Xue's name.

"What?" Su Xue also tried to calm down and asked softly.

"Did you take your vacation this year? I want to take a vacation, and then we'll hang out and bring your boyfriend..." Xu Xi asked.

It finally came, Su Xue knew that this knife cannot be avoided, and she probably didn't want to avoid it either.

"Okay, when are you on vacation?" Su Xue readily agreed.

"Next week." Xu Xi suggested.

"Next week, it should be fine." Su Xue instinctively looked at the calendar on her desktop with complicated and subtle emotions.

"Okay, that's it. Are you off work?" Xu Xi asked concerned. She hadn't heard Su Xue's voice for a long time, and she wanted to hear more.

"After get off work, I'm still in the office, preparing to pack my things." Su Xue replied.

"Oh, then you go back first, and we can talk when you have time." Xu Xi said thoughtfully.

"It's okay, anyway, it's the rush hour of traffic jams, so it doesn't matter if you sit in the office for a while, and you seem to be very busy recently, are you busy with work or dating?" Su Xue tried her best to play the role of a good girlfriend , asked pretending to gossip, but it was actually what she wanted to know.

"I have them all, what about you?" Xu Xi replied perfunctorily, and at the same time was very concerned about Su Xue's recent state.

"Almost." Hearing Xu Xi's answer, Su Xue, who was once again disappointed, could only answer like this.