【Ja Dun】Don't love me if you have the kind

Atsushi Nakajima moved his legs and arms, then opened his eyes and found that it was still midnight.There was something around his neck, and he took his hand to touch it, and what he touched was Akutagawa Ryunosuke's arm, which was bent and folded into a bulging shape.He slowly took Akutagawa's hand off his neck like untying a scarf, and finally realized what woke him up——Akutagawa Ryunosuke's cell phone kept vibrating next to the alarm clock on the bedside table.Vibration is an even more disturbing sound than a serious alarm clock.He propped one hand beside Akutagawa, who was still lying flat and sleeping, and stretched out the other to grab the other's cell phone.

The screen lit up because of receiving messages, and Atsushi Nakajima saw several white reminders horizontally on the notification bar, all of which were documents and long texts.The planner who was going to shut down the phone saw Xinhe Orphanage reflected on the screen, and most of them woke up from sleepiness.An embarrassment that seemed to be exposed and an uneasiness that he couldn't explain clearly crawled out from the bottom of his heart like a colony of termites, making his entire back and chest feel cold and numb.

Atsushi Nakajima took out Ryunosuke Akutagawa's hand that was stuffed under the quilt, held his thumb in his hand, and placed it on the Home button.I can't unlock it, my hands are too cold.The two of them rarely looked at each other's mobile phones, and they didn't know the password they entered manually, but Atsushi Nakajima didn't even know what he was doing now.In fact, it doesn't matter if you look at it, there is nothing in Akutagawa's phone, but he always feels that if he reads it, he can learn a lot of useful information.

Atsushi Nakajima put Ryunosuke Akutagawa's hand in the palm of his hand, and warmed him with both hands, then repeated the action just now, and turned on his mobile phone.Atsushi Nakajima swallowed, and opened Ryunosuke Akutagawa's social software.Three contacts sent new messages, one was Xinhe Orphanage, one was the Household Registration Office, and the other was... Fukuzawa Yukichi.

Atsushi Nakajima opened the first dialog box marked with a small red dot with the number three.

"Mr. Akutagawa, I haven't been to Mori to meet with Mr. Mori for some time. I hope everything is fine! At the same time, we also wish you a happy wedding and a happy marriage for a hundred years. Your lover Atsushi Nakajima left Xinhe Orphan in November 2002 I can’t find the photo of him with other children in the hospital now. If I search carefully, there should be some, but almost all the children who were in the same class as him have left. I don’t know if there is any archive in the archives. This orphan The home was completely closed five years ago, no children were accepted, but it has been hung up, and now it is a home for the elderly, although there are not many elderly people.”

"About the information about his species, it's actually not difficult to say. The children sent to Xinhe are all intermediate species, basically cats. If you want to say why they are all intermediate species, it is probably because they are ordinary. The children of the double species She was already delicate, and it was difficult to support her."

"About the people who sent Mr. Nakajima here, I think they should be his biological parents, because a large part of the children in this orphanage are their parents who have certain support conditions but still choose to give up themselves. The names of his parents And the phone number should be recorded in the roster of the year he came, but the 1998 roster seems to have been destroyed, and when our team took over, we couldn't find it."

No.

I'm not--

He felt that what the people in the orphanage said was true, but he always felt that something was wrong.Not reconciled...not reconciled, but from the day he enters the orphanage, he may no longer have the right to safely enjoy what should belong to him.Until finally Mr. Fukuzawa Yukichi funded himself and found out his true identity, they were still powerless.

——Do you care about the level of spotted species?

--not give a damn about.

——Son, then speak with your strength.Don't let others think that you are superior to others by replanting. Now your only way out is to study hard and live your own life.Your life is still very long, maybe after you are 50 or [-] years old, when you look at your teenage life, you will find that it is actually just a matter of understatement.It's normal for you to be sad right now, I don't think it's childish and vulnerable, it's your freedom.However, even if you are sad, I believe you will come out.Remember - your life is long.

As long as you know enough about yourself, you will not be hurt by malice and misunderstanding.

Atsushi Nakajima just had the urge to explain and prove something, but he held back.He clicked to open the second dialog box.The things sent by the household registration office made the soles of his feet start to turn ice.

"Atsushi Nakajima registered for a new household registration in 2003. As a nephew, he was registered on the household registration of Mr. Fukuzawa Yukichi. He transferred his household registration in 2018 and registered with you, Mr. Akutagawa. In addition, we found a registration in December 2002. The child who died was exactly the same as Mr. Nakajima, this child was not originally called by this name, but the photo matches the name, and the pair of golden eyes are very prominent."

Atsushi Nakajima swiped up the screen and saw Ryunosuke Akutagawa using the phone that comes with the software to talk to someone a few days ago, and then the other party was simply polite after hearing that Akutagawa was the director of Morimi Holdings.Atsushi Nakajima exited this dialog box, clicked on the message sent by Shintsuru, and then swipe up, the conversation between Ryunosuke Akutagawa and the other party was——

"Yes, he has been married for a while. This matter is not his own idea, but I want to learn more and follow up. I suspect that he has been treated unfairly until now."

"Does it mean that the person involved doesn't know that Mr. Akutagawa is investigating this matter?"

"Yes."

"Okay, we understand. Please take a frontal photo of the marriage application or other documents that can prove the marriage relationship. The handwriting cannot be blurred. It is best to use a camera with more than 1500 million pixels, so that our office can file it."

"It's work."

Afterwards, Akutagawa took a frontal photo of the two of their applications that had been sent.

Atsushi Nakajima exited the dialog box and clicked on the message from Yukichi Fukuzawa.My benefactor and teacher of benevolence and righteousness said:

"When he came to my place, he carried a small bag around his neck with a pocket watch inside. The pocket watch was very old, and it was almost scrapped because it had been soaked in water for a long time. I opened it after asking his permission. Inside are two small photos, one is a photo of his father holding him as a child, and the other is an artistic photo of his mother."

"Both are black-and-white photos. Although they are not soaked in water, they are very old and severely worn."

"The pregnancy watch is not with me now, but in Dun's own hands. He does not tell you a lot of things, but you have been with him for a long time, and I don't need to say more about his character. He has taken a lot of things lightly after he started his career. Some, and rarely come back to me, we don't talk about it anymore. But he will tell you later."

The pocket watch that Fukuzawa Yukichi mentioned is now placed in the mezzanine in the middle of Atsushi Nakajima's wardrobe, together with the real estate certificate, insurance policy and other important documents.He knew that one day he would tear off the Band-Aid and show the wound to Ryunosuke Akutagawa, but he didn't expect that Akutagawa would have noticed it long ago and was already investigating.Before getting married, it is said that Mori Ogai had asked a private detective to dig out his family background, in order to find out his family background and personal experience, so that they could better understand himself, but Akutagawa stopped him.

Then he starts to check now...

"I doubt he has been treated unfairly until now."

"Akutagawa..." Atsushi Nakajima put Ryunosuke Akutagawa's mobile phone on the bed, and when the white light burned out by itself, the white spots in his golden eyes also disappeared.He is not angry, but it may be that he himself has no concept of the social pyramid level of spotted species since he was a child, and he doesn't think the type is so important.

Others can fight for his father, but he can't even remember his own father's name, and he was not as carefree as other children when he was young, so he can only fight for himself.Maybe others are as lonely as himself, but he always felt that as long as he worked harder, as long as he was stronger, what should belong to him would always belong to him.Sometimes my classmates will also say that although Atsushi Nakajima is usually very gentle and not difficult, it is scary to protect his companions.

After all, he has already lost enough, so when someone comes to him, he will pay more attention.

He started to study after Fukuzawa Yukichi was sent to junior high school, and made up for the lost elementary school knowledge. Although it was difficult, once he succeeded, his grades would improve by leaps and bounds.I have also participated in competitions and won several awards. I have also participated in sports events. I run very fast. When taking pictures, some teachers pointed to the photo of themselves being torn open by the wind on the green lawn and said, Nakajima Don is like a tiger.

...what if it was?

Atsushi Nakajima unlocked the phone with Ryunosuke Akutagawa's hand, and marked what he just read as unread.He originally planned to lock the screen, but saw the payment records of Akutagawa Ryunosuke under the three dialog boxes.No one would really stop looking at the other half’s phone, it’s just that there are differences in the intensity of the suspicious attack, ghosts and ghosts, ghosts... Anyway, at that moment, I couldn’t control it, there was no malice, but the heartbeat was very fast, and I was discovered If you do, you will immediately pretend that nothing happened.Atsushi Nakajima clicked on his payment records. The most recent ones were food ordering, parking, and bank charges. He slowly swipe up and saw the ticket purchase records of Akutagawa Ryunosuke on the day he returned to Tokyo from London.

Ryunosuke Akutagawa arrived in Tokyo at 45:[-], and he was not late.His car was parked in the underground parking lot of the airport, and he could just drive home directly after getting off the plane. It wasn't too far from Tokyo to Yokohama, but Akutagawa didn't make it in time for dinner that day, and he didn't arrive in Muchuanli until after nine o'clock.

Where did he go during this time?

Atsushi Nakajima directly turned off the screen this time, stared at Ryunosuke Akutagawa's nose bridge and lips for a while, then lightly put the phone back in place, and lay down.These two people will not sleep in half of the bed alone, and lie flat and cover the quilt and fall asleep solemnly like a king. Either Atsushi Nakajima is nestled under Akutagawa Ryunosuke's neck and is crooked with him, or Akutagawa Ryunosuke After the two of them lay in bed and remained silent for a while, Jie asked in a blunt tone, "Do you want to come over?" Then he hugged Atsushi Nakajima and slept next to each other.

Atsushi Nakajima didn't return to his sleeping position, he was lying on his side with his back to his lover, Akutagawa Ryunosuke's pale arm that had been freed from the cold was like an ice ditch that couldn't be crossed even if he cried out anxiously.

Osamu Dazai brought a large suitcase when he went to Sri Lanka from Tokyo, and dragged three suitcases when he returned from Sri Lanka.The first one is for things you brought with you, the second one is for souvenirs, and the third one is for black tea and diamonds.When Yosano Akiko saw the diamond photo sent by Osamu Dazai on the chat software, he wanted to call the customs and ask them to detain Osamu Dazai there and never return to Japan on the charge of smuggling.

When Xie Ye helped to call an online car-hailing car to pick him up at the airport, he wished that the driver would strangle Osamu Dazai to death and leave him in the airport toilet. This man messed up a lot in a day.After working with Yosano for a while, they wanted to take Osamu Dazai back to Mori's house, and the two of them had to pretend to be very heavy.

I have been cooperating with Yosano Akiko and a creative advertising studio. This studio has not many people, and they are all designers in their 30s and 30s, but their planning quality is very good.These young people like to shoot two to [-]-second long advertisements, and then put them on the Internet. Basically, all the products are popular-because the advertisements are very interesting to shoot, and they can generally catch the hearts of young people.In this world, winning the youth is winning the world.Advertisements are basically short stories, like a short documentary, and the plot is very interesting.She and Akiko Yosano took on a few jobs today, and they all followed this pattern.

When Yosano Akiko and Yosano Akiko agreed to shoot commercials at the beginning, they were told by the studio that it would be better to have an actor as their partner.She and Osamu Dazai usually seek each other's help, regardless of the big and small things. After all, they were both hit by some accidents back then, but they grew up slowly and became friends.After much deliberation, Dazai Osamu was the most suitable, he had a schedule, and his performance was okay, and Kunikida Doppo was recently rehearsing a play adapted from foreign literature, so she had no time at all, so she called the great actor.

"You can shoot."

"...You didn't even ask me the price?"

"It's okay, you can take it if you have any money. The problem is, Yu Xieye——I lost my wallet, can you call me a car?"

"Walk back to Yokohama by yourself, you can, show your physical fitness to roam freely in Arakawa."

"..."

When the film king dragged three big boxes downstairs to the studio, Yosano Akiko, who was wearing a black uniform, just came out to pick him up.Osamu Dazai has put on three or four tubes of sunscreen in the past few days, each time covering his whole body, but he still seems to be a little tanned.Yosano Akiko's black hair was blown into honey on her lips by the wind, and the lip glaze applied a layer of pink to her hair.Yosano Akiko saw Osamu Dazai struggling to drag three suitcases. At first, he was too lazy to help him carry them, but after watching him carry them, he still felt unkind. One hand was like skating on one of his suitcases. He also turned to his side and carried it into the elevator.

"Do you know what happened when you were not around?" After the two entered the elevator, Osamu Dazai looked at the woman who asked the question and shook his head: "Chuya seems to have blocked my phone, and I can't get through."

"We all want to block your call." Yosano Akiko replied, and then the two of them had fun in the elevator, "That kid is called... Nakajima Atsushi, right? Atsu-kun did it for you." I have been pondering how to change the data for a long time, and the old man is also checking. In order not to cheat, your Japanese wolf went to the Audit Office to greet a young man, stuffed some money, and asked him to pick up the old man. During the phone call, follow the bill from Dunjun."

"Did Fitzgerald go?" Dazai Osamu was still wearing a summer tropical-inspired earthy floral shirt and white overalls and beach pants. The sand on the white canvas shoes hadn't been cleaned up, and they would probably be scrapped if they didn't wash them. "He must have gone."

"I went, why didn't I go. That's... Akutagawa Ryunosuke, right? Throwing one of them out of the window almost broke his mouth."

I saw photos with Yosano Akiko from a friend. The workshop of Dazai Osamu was tossed like earthquake ruins that day, and the big hole left after Nakahara Chuya broke out on a heavy motorcycle was even more dazzling—not a foam board. It's not a plastic door, let alone a wooden door, but a serious rolling shutter door, an iron door, and even tempered glass, all of which were smashed to pieces by the African lion.

"...It's about the same as I thought. Fitzgerald wanted to snatch my chapter and contract. It should be said that the old man should also be looking for this thing. They shouldn't make it so easy for them to find it. Fitzgerald and the others spent a lot of money. I'm used to it, I have a big appetite, but I don't want to honestly feed them."

Yosano Akiko was used to Osamu Dazai saying these weird ideas in front of her, but no matter what this man said, he always smiled.When Yosano Akiko first met him, she occasionally felt that his smile made people uncomfortable, but after getting along for a long time, she realized that this is what he wanted.After understanding him, I only feel that what he does and what he says is normal.He is not fake, and there is no one who can't collapse, no matter what he looks like, he is the real one, he is a man with thousands of faces.

"Will the old man find out that you lied to him?" Yosano Akiko watched the number on the display screen slowly rise to ten, not far from the thirteenth floor, "After I accompany you back later, I should be there Stay in the living room or go outside? If you are beaten to death, will the blood stain my shoes..."

"Do you think the three of us have a good relationship with Mori Ogai?" Dazai Osamu buried his head, because the two of them stood side by side, so Yosano Akiko couldn't see his expression.

A few seconds later, the elevator doors opened.Osamu Dazai seemed to have been here before, because he walked into the studio without waiting for Yosano Akiko, or because he didn't want Yosano Akiko to see his face.

Yosano Akiko said in a volume that only she could hear:

"not good."

After the kitten is picked up, it will be very willing to get close to people and love to act like a baby when it grows up; but the big cat is different, the big cat will always be vigilant and on guard, even if people give it food, it will not fully trust you , I just think this person is good, let's live with him for a while, and leave as soon as there is something wrong.These three people were all kittens when they were adopted, but Yosano Akiko didn’t hear from Osamu Dazai’s words how much he missed this family, how much he cared about his two brothers, how much he respected Mori Ogai, maybe this is related to 14 What happened a few years ago is relevant.But she felt that it was more than that. The so-called principles of life that Mori Ogai taught them might not have much warmth.

What's more, Osamu Dazai hardly loves anyone——

Especially seven years ago, Dazai Osamu was cheated of money and feelings by a well-known white lotus in the circle.

After waking up, Ryunosuke Akutagawa got dressed and went to the bathroom to wash up. When he bent down to pull the drawer to find a razor, he thought that he should deal with some information.He went back to his bedroom and took out his phone. There was no message reminder on the lock screen interface. After unlocking and opening the chat software, he found that the few messages on the top were all unread.

Feline-like needlepoints appeared in his pupils, and the masseter muscles on both sides of his cheeks bulged and quivered as the back molars grated against each other.He read the things sent by Xinhe, the household registration office, and Fukuzawa Yukichi one by one, and then clicked on his social homepage.

He never does product promotion, nor does he post photos of himself and his friends hanging out, nor does he write copywriting.His homepage only has a post three years ago, when the two of them had just been together. The content of the text is a period, and the accompanying photo is a photo of him and Atsushi Nakajima eating in the open-air barbecue square.Many people in the company have liked and commented below, and until now this post has been dug out for re-discussion. After all, this is Akutagawa Ryunosuke's only social post.

The first group photo is Atsushi Nakajima wearing the denim jacket he wore when he was drunk on the viaduct that day, smiling and talking to himself standing next to the vending machine, Atsushi Nakajima turned his head to himself, and the things in his eyes were very moving , he still remembers Atsushi Nakajima's expression at that time.The second and third photos were taken by colleagues from the Ministry of Science and Technology. Atsushi Nakajima put on short-sleeved shorts and slippers for the former, and was carried on his back by himself, with two thin white arms around his neck.He didn't have any expression on his face, but he smiled very happily showing his small canine teeth, and the legs hanging down on both sides were also thin and white.The latter is a photo of him being hugged by himself, like a princess hug, and the two legs on his hands are still very eye-catching.

Akutagawa Ryunosuke locked his phone, went into the bathroom to shave again, and left the room.Atsushi Nakajima did not open the curtains, and the planner with a tie and a suit sat cross-legged on the sofa with a gloomy expression.Akutagawa Ryunosuke glanced at him, but couldn't see clearly. When he was about to walk in front of him, Atsushi Nakajima asked without turning his head:

"Would you like bread and milk, or noodles?"

"what are you eating?"

"……Noodle."

Atsushi Nakajima didn't wait for Akutagawa Ryunosuke's answer, he stood up and put on slippers and went to the kitchen to make noodles for Akutagawa Ryunosuke, as if he didn't even want to look at each other.The crackling sound of fried eggs seems to be able to cover up the embarrassment, forbearance, sadness and silence of knowing each other and never taking that step, but the sound of the egg white and oil reacting is more like connecting the two of them together. Parts torn together by lightning.

"Hello, Uncle." After filming the advertisement with Yosano Akiko and Dazai Osamu, it was already evening, she was wearing a long black dress, and Dazai Osamu who was next to her specially changed the tourist casual clothes into the standard equipment of windbreaker and trousers , the woman's smile was very polite, "He called me yesterday after turning on the phone, and I brought him back."

Mori Ogai is very satisfied with Yosano Akiko, Osamu Dazai knows that he is not thinking about his life's event, but he is too lazy to expose it.People call you uncle, what else do you want?

The old man was reading with glasses on at the dining table in the living room. When he saw two children coming in with the clothes and skin care products he had bought for him, he took off his glasses, smiled and nodded to Akiko Yosano.

"Hello, Miss Yosano." Mori Ogai didn't smile like a schizophrenic, he smiled at Osamu Dazai, and Osamu Dazai returned a smile, no one could compare with Akiko Yosano It became even more irritating, "I'm sorry, please have dinner at home tonight."

"No need, uncle. I still have a night show tonight. I'll send him back first. You can eat slowly." Yosano Akiko touched Osamu Dazai's back with his arm, meaning to let him talk.

"Mr. Sen, I'm sorry."

When you are beaten, you must stand at attention. This is a truth that Osamu Dazai realized when he was young.When you make a mistake and are called to give a lecture, don't explain it. You must say "I'm sorry" and "I was wrong" as soon as you get up, so as to reduce the time spent listening to the elders.Justice is in the hearts of the people, right or wrong is only known to oneself, anyway, in the heart of the child, oneself is always right, and so is Osamu Dazai.

After ten seconds, the old man spoke:

"You can do it."

Mori Ogai actually organized a bunch of words in his heart that he could use to scold Osamu Dazai, but Osamu Dazai gave the workshop to himself. He knew that there were many magical operations that he could no longer beat Osamu Dazai, but Ogai Dazai was careful. It's true, besides the mobile phone, he has another industry that can be used for retirement, "Don't do this again in the future, if you want to make movies, just make good ones."

"Eh, good."

"Don't give it to me, just show the results if you want to do it! Isn't the series you two filmed going to be aired? Let me see your performance first."

Mori Ogai is talking about a social drama in which Dazai Osamu and Yosano Akiko act as a man and a woman. At the beginning, they were all rushing to the script, without even asking about the salary or the shooting period. After answering the phone, they immediately grabbed the suitcase and left.Dazai Osamu plays a university professor, and Yoshino Akiko plays a weak girl who started from the countryside and stepped into a famous university step by step. The university professor often asks female students to help him order takeaways with the excuse of not being able to use a smartphone, and calls the girls to his office .

The heroine played by Akiko Yosano is a victim of campus violence who was isolated by her friends and classmates, and she is also one of the girls who was violated.Yosano Akiko put a lot of effort into her expression in order to play the girl with low self-esteem, cowardice, and suffering, and Osamu Dazai also did a lot of homework in order to play the wolf teacher, such as the sinister and cunning face Expressions, such as the image of a good teacher who is handsome on the surface, treats students with courtesy, and patiently explains the topic, such as the smile in the last scene of the last episode when the heroine jumped off the building, as if she had expected it but didn't care... …

Because the topic is very hot, and the focus on social issues is only increasing, the #MeToo trend that blew up in Japan last year has once again permeated. I have already posted a long post on Twitter to confess my experience, calling for justice and legal sanctions.

To be popular before it airs is actually a situation that no one has thought of, because the TV series does not have enough funds, and it is beyond the producer's expectation to invite Osamu Dazai and Akiko Yosano.The entertainment industry has long since changed its taste, the popular ones are not good, and the good ones are not popular.Moreover, the director and producer are not familiar with the rules of the game, there is no public relations team to write the copy, there is no media to issue announcements, and there is no spending money to buy hot search hype.Yosano Akiko directly held the microphones of various media at the press conference and said: "We want to express a lot of things, I hope everyone thinks more, don't elevate the character creation to the actors, be calm and brave."

They have long been tired of making youth films and commercial films. The two of them have collaborated in many films and have similar visions.Osamu Dazai just casually mentioned this drama to Mori Ogai, but the old man remembered it.

"Okay." Osamu Dazai nodded.It is estimated that he will be scolded as soon as the show airs, because the director said that what Osamu Dazai plays is what he is.

In fact, Yosano Akiko didn't have a night show, and there was no announcement to catch up. In the end, he and Dazai Osamu had a meal at Mori's house, and then the two of them went out together.Osamu Dazai remembered that he had a music festival to attend recently, and the organizer asked him to perform for the full 10 minutes written in the contract. He could play guitar, dance, and sing, but he had to make up 10 minutes.Osamu Dazai wanted to invite Akiko Yosano, because he felt that now he also had to create momentum for the mobile phone promotion of Atsushi Nakajima and Ryunosuke Akutagawa.Focus your eyes first, and then take out a mobile phone and say "This is made by my family" or "This is made by a friend. I am going to endorse it now. Please support me." The popularity of the mobile phone will be higher.

TBC.