[APH parent-child points] His cat

When Lovino is in good health, he can go to work in nightclubs again. The few days of illness have hindered his earning money, so he naturally went with Fernandez.Fernandez's apartment is actually very close to the store. It takes a few minutes to walk there, not to mention driving. Thinking of how hard it was for him to pick him up and drop him off every day, Lovino felt a little embarrassed.While inside the store, Francis suddenly appeared behind him, grabbed his wrist and pulled him into his arms.

"Long time no see, little Lovino, brother, I miss you so much..."

This color uncle!Just when he was about to struggle, Fernandez pulled him back from Francis, wrapped his arms around his waist to protect him, and looked at Francis so that you could try to move him again.Francis curled his lips, "It's really stingy."

After the performance, Lovino sat in the lounge, and Ruth brought him a clean towel and water, and he wiped off his sweat with the towel.

"Are you feeling better?" Ruth asked with concern.

"Well, all right."

"God bless you."

Lovino looked at Ruth's beautiful face, grabbed her hand, and said suddenly. "Thank you for caring about me, can I kiss you?"

Ruth laughed, Lovino had said the same thing to her before, and she agreed because of his handsome face, but Lovino actually blushed and said, "Forget it, I'm not ready".

"Okay." She agreed again, not knowing how he would react this time.What she didn't expect was that Lovino came for real this time.Before that, Lovino still paused, remembering what to do, then hugged her and kissed her gently.He had been kissed so many times by Fernandez, and he wanted to see if he could kiss others as well.After all, he used to be a weird guy who only dared to talk but didn't act, and he didn't even dare to kiss girls on the cheek.

Ruth kissed him back, and he was embarrassed to find that the girl's skills were much better than his, and she was more proactive than him, of course.I always feel that something is wrong, but I don't know what is wrong.After much deliberation, I still feel that something is not quite right in terms of feeling.Even if he closed his eyes, his mouth felt like he was eating jelly, and there seemed to be no other special feelings other than that.Although it felt good, when Fernandez kissed him, his feeling was much more intense than now, and he couldn't even think about this and that like now. Is this a difference in skills, or a gender issue?

"Ah!" Ruth suddenly left him and screamed. Lovino opened his eyes and followed Ruth's terrified gaze. He saw Fernandez standing at the door, leaning against the door with his hands folded and watching calmly. watching them.Ruth quickly pushed Lovino away, and she suddenly remembered a rumor that the reason why Lovino can do well in this kind of place by doing nothing but dancing even if he offends customers is because someone is covering him. Look at him, he's from Fernandez.She ran out in a hurry and said "I'm sorry" to Fernandez as she passed by.

Still a little embarrassed to be bumped into, Lovino looked away and rubbed his hair, "What are you doing here, bastard?"

"Take you back," Fernandez said.They left the club, of course, to return to Fernandez's house.While in the car, Fernandez asked: "Can you kiss anyone?"

It is really delicate for him to say these words, obviously his private life is much more chaotic.Moreover, I only kissed him and Ruth just now, and the first kiss was given to him.Of course, it is too shameful for a man in his 20s to have his first kiss at this age. Italian men are basically good at kissing.So he kept silent.

Arriving at home, Lovino went in first, Fernandez closed the door, then suddenly grabbed Lovino, turned his body and pressed him against the wall, hugging his waist with one hand to prevent him from being hurt, and then kissed him.

So the timing of his choice to kiss is so weird!Lovino lowered his hands and closed his eyes to accept the kiss.Sure enough, the feeling of kissing with Ruth is different, but now his mind is so messy that there is no room to think too much, and he is quickly immersed in it.

It took a long time before Fernandez's lips left him, but he still didn't let go.Lovino opened his eyes slightly, panting heavily, his eyes were blurred at this moment.The pause was just to give him breathing room, and immediately, Fernandez kissed him again, but this time it was not deep, he just sucked and nibbled on Lovino's lips.

Even so it was enjoyable.But at this time, Fernandez put his hand into Lovino's clothes, stroking his body gently with his fingers.Like an electric shock, Lovino suddenly realized what the other party was going to do. He tightly grasped the hand and looked at Fernandez in panic.

"Can't you?" Fernandez asked in a low voice.

Acceptable or unacceptable?The answer is of course no!It's not that he hasn't thought about his first night, but the object is definitely not with a man!Even if he likes this man, but what about the other party?He never said anything to himself, but it was difficult for him to accept that he just wanted to have a one-night stand or not have a confirmed relationship.Even if the other party is a girl, he can't do this step, let alone a man.

He looked into Fernandez's eyes, and the other party was also looking at him, but not with the usual gentle eyes. At this moment, his olive green eyes were deep, as deep as the deep mountains and old forests before the wind blows. I can't understand what he is thinking.Lovino didn't answer his question, but the expression said it all.Fernandez lowered his eyes, then let him go.

They still slept together at night, and Lovino thought that he should try to suggest that he could go home when he recovered from his illness, but Fernandez immediately rebuffed him, and he refused to let him go.

"If you go back, you won't be able to eat the dishes you cooked."

"Asshole, why do I have to make you dinner?"

"Because the dinner you made is so delicious." Fernandez raised his hand and rubbed his hair. "Well, sleep. Good night, Lovino."

Later, Lovino went home a few times because it was time for him to go back to class and to get his textbooks.Fernandez told him the password to his house so that Lovino could come back here by himself after class.When he got off work in the evening, Fernandez returned home, and if he had nothing to do, he would sit at the dining table and watch Lovino busy in the kitchen. He always felt that watching Lovino cook was something to enjoy.

Sometimes if Lovino has classes in the morning, Fernandez can drop him off at school.Lovino always carried a carton of milk because he always saw the kitten playing downstairs and he would feed it some milk.Gradually, the kitten became familiar with him, and when it saw Lovino, it would circle around his feet and rub against him.Even though it would stain the bottom of his trousers, he would lean down and touch it.

Fernandez watched all this, and Lovino didn't know why, when he played with the cat, Fernandez also liked to pat his head.

Sometimes Lovino wants to adopt this cat, it is still so small, always wandering outside alone, how pitiful.But after all, it was in an apartment, and not my own home.

When classes are over at noon, they can go to restaurants near the school together or eat in the cafeteria.

Sure enough, he still likes someone to live with him, and from the perspective of caring for others, Fernandez is better than Feliciano.He is so kind to himself, unconsciously, Lovino has become dependent on him.

Anyway, when he encountered trouble, the first thing he thought of was Fernandez, and he would always help him solve it.

Lovino was always struggling with housework, so Fernandez helped him clean the room, do the laundry, and wash the sheets.I will also help him with Spanish lessons.

Lovino relied on him, and already enjoyed his care of him at ease.

But even if they live together, nothing can happen to them.Fernandez would still kiss him and sometimes touch him tentatively, but Lovino stopped them.

"Why not?" he had asked Lovino.

But Lovino just put on a very meaningless face, and said coldly, "No, just don't." In fact, Lovino was very nervous.The answer is very clear in my heart, because you never said you like me, we have no relationship now.At this time, he would even suddenly want to ask, do you like me?

Lovino is a very insecure person, and an ambiguous relationship cannot give him a sense of security.As long as Fernandez does not express his feelings to him, he will not be able to fully pour out his feelings to him.He didn't have the courage to express his love to him.

But Fernandez didn't, Lovino saw his eyes, he seemed to be thinking about something, but Lovino didn't know what he was thinking.But he sensed Lovino's resistance to him, and gradually, he stopped doing that.

He still kept in touch with Feliciano by email, and today Feliciano happily told him that he kissed Luther, and it was his request, and Luther did not refuse him.Lovino almost crushed his phone. Feliciano had only been in Germany for a long time before he was abducted by a German guy!Kissing so soon?Maybe in two days, Feliciano will happily tell himself that he and Ludwig had sex.

Doing this kind of thing with a horrible muscular man makes me angry just thinking about it. If this kind of thing happened, Lovino is not sure if he will rush to Germany immediately, and then get a gun to kill there. German family.

Feliciano was happy to finally send his first kiss, and he, who has always liked girls, was not unwilling to kiss a man.But he said at the end of the email that his brother should also work hard.

What are you doing?Should he tell Feliciano that his first kiss was also given away, and also given to a man?

Of course he would never say such a thing.

The progress between Feliciano and the German man was very fast and very good, because Feliciano was so frank, he would show his feelings so strongly without reservation.

Sometimes Lovino is really envious of such Feliciano, why it is so easy for Feliciano to do this kind of thing, but it is so difficult for Feliciano to do it himself, it is hard to tell.Sometimes he won't even show a straight face.

If he was honest, maybe...

He lowered his eyes, remembering Fernandez's face.

ah!So annoying.So annoying.

"Lovino." Fernandez called him at the door of his room, "Can you help me..."

"Shut up!" Lovino yelled, burying his head in the pillow, "It's annoying." Then he raised his head slightly and saw Fernandez's helpless face, and then Fernandez walked away.

Lovino sometimes hates his own character, others treat him so well, but he will never give them a good face.He always puts on airs proudly, but sometimes he doesn't think so in his heart.

One night, Fernandez was drinking with Francis.And Francis felt that his friend seemed to have something on his mind.Although Francis usually looks like an unscrupulous old alcoholic and pervert, he is actually very gentle and understanding.Maybe it has something to do with that cute kitten?He guessed, so he asked:

"What's the matter Antonio? You seem to have something on your mind? Is your relationship with little Lovino bad?"

"Have we ever had a better relationship? You think."

"Why, haven't you succeeded yet?" Francis is still more concerned about this issue.

"He won't let me touch him," Antonio replied.

"Are you that bad?" Francis laughed, "How far have you developed?"

"Only kissed. And it was just me kissing him, he never kissed me back, he wouldn't even give me a hug." Antonio said, "I'm running out of patience."

"It's like after a passionate love, the cold period has arrived?" Francis said.

"I have no intention of falling in love with him," Antonio replied.

When I saw Lovino on the stage for the first time, I believe it was not only Fernandez, but half the men in the nightclub wanted to hold him down to see him crying and begging for mercy. He is so seductive and has an outstanding temperament. Really It's an untrained look, absolutely the best.But in the audience, he is just a willful, awkward personality, who loves to lose his temper.Even so, Fernandez found him cute.

Wanting to get him, he has always thought so.

But he has been rejecting himself, considering his awkward personality, if he wants to refuse, once or twice should be enough.But this continued indifference will only make people disappointed in him.There are as many pets as you want, and there are many kinds. Maybe you can't find one as good as him for the time being, but it doesn't mean that others are not cute.Although he hasn't decided whether to give up or not, he is really getting impatient from being tortured.

However, Francis was very happy when he heard Antonio say that he was running out of patience, and he was always ready to replace him. "Then, give me little Lovino, brother, I will use love to [muffle]..."

Antonio didn't speak, just drank the wine, his eyes were calm.Francis thought that he would protect Lovino as before, and Francis suddenly smiled, "It seems that you were really just planning to have fun at first."

Antonio did not deny that he did think so at the beginning, he just wanted to get him, the possessive desire purely from seeing good things.He is a typical Spaniard, playful, playful and passionate.He has been playing with them for so many years since he was a teenager. Whether it is a man or a woman, if it is a woman, he is willing to talk about love with them that is not for the purpose of marriage, or even live together. Will talk to them.He just wants to have enough fun, at least after the age of 30, and then find a woman who can live a good life to marry.

Lovino liked himself, he knew it, though Lovino never wanted to say it.That child's eyes were too pure. Although Lovino always tried to hide his feelings awkwardly, those clear eyes could not deceive anyone.

Even so, he never thought about changing his mind about Lovino.Just a cat, a cat he wanted to tame.

But that wayward guy in Lovino is really too cold to himself.He's getting tired.

Fernandez would never have guessed that Lovino was a virgin, so he would not do such a thing casually.Lovino wouldn't kiss himself back, simply because he wouldn't.Because in Italy, as a handsome boy at that age - and the boy always likes girls and can't even kiss!These are simply impossible things.If someone knew that Lovino was a virgin, the first reaction would definitely be whether he had a disease.

"That's great, you look like a broken-hearted brother, and you are still thinking about how to comfort you." Francis said, and then he suddenly changed the subject and did not mention Lovino again.

A woman approached Fernandez, and he didn't turn her down. He hadn't touched a woman in a long time.After Lovino finished his work, he drove Lovino and the woman away together. When he arrived at his apartment downstairs, he said to Lovino, "Go back by yourself and sleep well. I won't go back tonight."

Rovinor paused for a moment, Fernandez didn't know his feelings for him, so he didn't know that his words would scratch his heart.But Lovino got out of the car and went back by himself.

After Fernandez's car left, Lovino's mind was in turmoil.what is this?He looks for a woman in front of his face?

But if you think about it carefully, it's nothing, even married people will have their own lovers, not to mention they have nothing to do with each other.The women around Fernandez never stopped.Others always have needs, and I don't let him go, and I have no right to stop him from doing something, after all, they have nothing to do with each other.Fernandez had done a good job of taking the woman home without his presence.

When he returned to Fernandez's house, he was lying alone on the cold bed, only to realize that he was alone again. I wonder if Ofernandez would mind if he turned on all the lights in the room and burned the electricity bill for one night.But in this case, if Fernandez came back to see him tomorrow morning, he might find that he was afraid of the dark.This is too embarrassing, absolutely not.So he just turned on the lamp in the bedroom.

What Fernandez is doing now, you don't need to think about it.He raised his hand to press his chest, which hurt a little.At this time, he realized that his love for Fernandez had already overflowed to a very violent level.

Lovino sat up, took out his mobile phone, and called Fernandez. He only said that he was not feeling well, and resolutely asked him to come back.When the other party wanted to ask something, he hung up the phone and did not give him room to refuse.

But when Fernandez came back immediately, he found Lovino sitting on the bed perfectly fine, nothing happened.

"What's the matter with you?" he asked.

"I can't sleep alone." Lovino lowered his head and said.

"Want me to sleep with you?"

"..." Lovino blushed a little and didn't speak.

"Can I sleep with you?"

Don't they sleep together all the time?Lovino was a little strange, after thinking about this sentence, he realized that Fernandez meant something else.He blushed, raised his head and said, "No, go to hell, bastard!"

Fernandez frowned at him and sighed.

Later, when Fernandez kissed himself again, he would try to avoid it because he felt it was unfair.He really likes him, so he is willing to kiss him, but the other party may not be like this.

Fernandez saw his avoidance, and he stopped kissing him.In the past, he just refused to go to bed with him, but now he also refuses to even kiss.Enough was enough, he was almost literally running out of patience with Lovino's reaction.

There will still be girls who invite Fernandez, or Fernandez is interested in them.But Lovino would always get in his way.The reason why he dared to do this was because Fernandez had always spoiled him.But again and again, Fernandez was obviously a little angry, and he asked Lovino: "What do you want?"

Lovino did not speak, yes, what on earth is he going to do.What on earth is he trying to do.I like you, do you like me?It's just such a sentence, but I can't say it.

One night, Lovino didn't see Fernandez after work, and Francis told him to leave early and asked Lovino to go back by himself.Anyway, the apartment is not far from here, so it's okay to go back by yourself.As he stepped through the door, he heard voices in the living room.He walked over and saw Fernandez hugging a woman on the sofa and kissing her.Fernandez heard the movement and opened his eyes to look at Lovino, but he didn't stop what he was doing.

Lovino stopped and looked at them. After a few seconds, he turned his head and walked towards the door, opened the door and left the house.He couldn't stay in it any longer.

But he didn't expect that Fernandez immediately chased after him, and he held Lovino.

"Where are you going?"

"You care about me? You bastard." Lovino said, but he still held onto his hand tightly and still didn't let go. Obviously, there would be no good results if he compared strength with him.Lovino felt a little sad, he should continue to do his own thing inside, continue to ignore himself, why come out to manage himself at this time.

"Don't make trouble." The other party said.

Lovino lowered his head and gritted his teeth, "In your heart, what am I?" He asked, his mood must be at a low point now, so he would say no matter what he has been hiding in his heart. Ask about the exit.After a while, what seemed a long time in his mind, he heard Fernández say:

"What do you think, what are you to me?"

Lovino clenched his fists, he felt that his heart was like a piece of iron, heavy, but it was pounding violently and was about to burst out of his chest.After a while, he looked up, looked directly into Fernandez's eyes, and said, "I like you."

The other party looked at him, "I know." He replied calmly.The gaze in the green eyes is like an ancient forest with a backlight, faint and quiet.Lovino bit his lower lip and just replied "I know" what does that mean?The courage he had managed to build up in his heart and the strong desire to pour out his heart to the other party felt as if a hole had been pierced in his heart, and all the hot things flowed out, leaving only the cool cold air.

Lovino struggled again, he pulled away from him, but was caught again immediately.

"You're more or less in moderation, don't always be so capricious," Fernandez said.Lovino felt a pain in his heart, so in his heart, this is what he looks like?But this is correct, he should have this impression in everyone's heart.

"Come back with me." Fernandez wanted to pull him back, but Lovino was determined not to leave.

"Stop making trouble." Fernandez looked at him and said lightly, "I won't always let your temper go, I'm running out of patience."

Lovino feels like he's stabbed a knife right now and he's fucking holding the handle around.He looked at each other with angry eyes. "Let go of me if you're impatient. I never begged you to mind me, you fucking meddle in your own business."

Fernandez looked at him with headaches and frowned.Then he let go of Lovino, "Well, whatever you want."

Lovino turned and left, he heard the sound of the door being slammed behind him.

hateful!damn it!brute!

He cried and ran downstairs without choosing the elevator. Fernandez's apartment was relatively high, and the ladder seemed to never end.In the middle of the night, the corridor with only one person was gloomy. He might have been afraid in the past, but now he has no mind to take care of it.

He went downstairs, left the apartment, and started on his way home.He walked while crying, I don't know how long he walked, he kept walking and stopping.Finally he felt too tired to go back, and then he went to a bench by the side of the road and sat down.The night is so dark, the air is so cold, and he is so sad here alone, a deep sense of loneliness that he hasn't felt for a long time.When a person is sad, his loneliness will always increase, and he will always expect someone to find him and comfort him. Lovino misses Feliciano so much.He took out his mobile phone and wanted to call Feliciano, but he gave up after thinking about it.It was so late now, and Feliciano, like himself, found it difficult to wake up once he fell asleep.

Recalling what happened just now, the tear glands collapsed, and the tears poured down again uncontrollably.Who said, "It's so late, I won't leave you alone, you should believe me.".Lovino simply put his feet on the bench, bent his knees, and put his head and hands on his knees.It's fun to cry out loud while crying, but if you cry loudly in the street late at night, you may be called to the police by nearby residents.So he just made a choked sound.

After an unknown amount of time, Lovino was still lying on his knees, holding his arms tightly.It's so cold, it's really terribly cold in the middle of the night, and I obviously wear a thicker coat.I don't know what time it is, it's almost time to go back.But I didn't want to move, the tears hadn't dried up, and I could still squeeze them out after blinking.So cold, so cold.

Fernandez didn't even make a phone call. He didn't care what happened to him at all. He really planned to leave him alone.In other words, he didn't have time to take care of himself, and there was a woman in his family.

He was abandoned, and now he realizes that he can't rely on Fernandez for the rest of his life. Why did he accept his favor with peace of mind before?

I still have to go home, it is impossible to stay here overnight.He got up and walked home.