golden wind meets dew

No secret is completely airtight. Regarding Du Jingzhou's abnormality, Chen Wei also noticed it before that rainy night.

When Du Jingzhou was fifteen or sixteen years old, he thought that he would become a painter in the future, or engage in a painting-related profession, such as a designer or something.In his spare time, he is always accompanied by pencils and paints.He draws very well. In the words of the art teacher in the hobby class, he is talented.

"The paintings he has are very interesting." Chen Wei said, and took out a folded paper from her bag.Over time, the edges of the paper have turned yellow.She opened it and put it on the table, "I was surprised when I saw this for the first time. Later, when I thought about it, I didn't understand why I didn't suspect anything at that time."

The drawing on the paper is of two boys kissing, in the comic style that was common in their teenage years.Half the color.So among the two teenagers, one is already colored, and the other is still outlined with simple pencil lines.

Guan Jiang took a serious look and smiled: "He is very spiritual."

Chen Wei said: "He has drawn more than one painting like this. Once when I saw him while painting, he took the initiative to explain that he was practicing human body interaction postures. I believed it. I didn't think about it. color."

Guan Jiang laughed.Chen Wei also laughed, the kind of smile that tells people about children's embarrassing things when they were young.

After laughing, both of them were silent for a while.Guan Jiang didn't try to give any more guidance on professional roles, and Chen Wei also stopped consulting.After a while, Chen Wei put the painting back and drank half a glass of lemonade.

"Doctor Xiaoguan," she said, "I would like to ask you a word as a mother—can I entrust Du Jingzhou to you?"

This term is too strong.Only then did Guan Jiang realize that Teacher Chen Wei had come to him for consultation several times, and he already had a lot of experience in grasping other people's psychology.Either give in and bear the burden from now on.Either let go and be free.But if you let it go, you will always be at a disadvantage in the future.

"Ms. Chen, you are too hasty." Guan Jiang put his hands together and looked at her, "Dr. Du is an excellent person. He likes men and will not devalue his excellence. I believe that Zhiqiu is not willing to be with him because of you She must have admiration for Dr. Du. She is not the only home you can find for Dr. Du, and neither am I. Dr. Du, he... He is not a commodity that is eager to clear the warehouse, so there is no need to find someone to sign a never The deed of separation. Whether he can find someone to hold hands with for the rest of his life, likewise, is not something you have to bear."

Guan Jiang paused, and said again: "I may have spoken too harshly, what I mean, I hope you understand."

After finishing speaking, he lowered his head in due course to stir the coffee in front of him, and he didn't even look at Chen Wei's reaction.An atmosphere of silence and stalemate permeated the deck.After half a minute like this, Chen Wei put the shoulder bag on her shoulder and stood up.

"It's time for me to go to school and work. Have a great Tuesday." It's a courtesy based on self-cultivation, not a blessing.

Saturday is the only day that the high school campus is free to come and go. As long as the visitor does not look particularly suspicious, the school police will not stop them, and at most they will routinely ask, "Why are you in there?"Guan Jiang took a deep look at the school road and said, "Go back to my alma mater and have a look."

Most common reason.The campus police backed away.

Guan Jiang walked into the campus and chose a random direction to go shopping.Teaching buildings, playgrounds, stadiums, gardens, libraries, cultural corridors... He walked aimlessly through these places.I didn't come here specifically for Du Jingzhou, but after walking around, I still took a photo on the school road and sent it to Du Jingzhou.

"So you grew up in a place like this."

After a few minutes, Du Jingzhou replied: Why did you go to school?

He replied: Passing by.

Then go out to buy fruit, and wait for Du Jingzhou near the hospital as usual.

This was the first time they met after Chen Wei talked to him.Regarding the content of the conversation, he did not disclose it to Du Jingzhou as before.A professional consultant, of course, must protect the privacy of the consultant no matter what.

Perhaps Chen Wei was interested in this.Falling in love is originally a matter between two people, and if there is pressure, they should bear it together.But he was Chen Wei's consultant, so it was inconvenient for him to tell Du Jingzhou the pressure he felt from here.

Between them, there is a door that is naturally locked.

He still doesn't know whether the thing locked by this door will kill their relationship that can grow buds - but he is clear that he is not a person who is willing to be coerced and coerced.Moreover, Guan Jiang is not as amiable, gentle and tolerant as Doctor Xiaoguan.So, this probably won't be a happyend story.

He was a little sad, and when he looked up, he saw Du Jingzhou coming.

"Have you been waiting for a long time?" Du Jingzhou sat down opposite him.

Guan Jiang said, "It's okay."

Du Jingzhou said: "You sent me a message very early, and you came out early today?"

"Well, I went out to meet someone today, and I came over after seeing someone." Guan Jiang handed the fruit he bought to the opposite side, and confessed, "Friends of Lao Guan, after I stayed in Rong'an, this uncle took good care of me. mine."

Laoguan is his handsome and coquettish father.But they are unfamiliar.He calls him "that person" in his heart, and it's not easy to use this to refer to it when talking about it with others, as if he cares about it.So use an "Old Guan" who has no emotions and a neutral position.

After hearing this, Du Jingzhou didn't pursue it further.

They had dinner as usual, it was still early and Du Jingzhou was free, so they drove to the southernmost sea area of ​​Rong'an City for a stroll.

That sea area was once intended to be a port, but in the end it was put on hold because of the inaction of the government at that time and the delay in real construction.After a few sessions, the port project has long been taken elsewhere.There doesn't have to be two ports that are too close together, and it never hits the idea again.In the past two years, it has been planned as an integral part of the leisure park, creating a leisurely seaside atmosphere and a good place for couples to take a walk.

Guan Jiang has been in Rong'an City for two years, and there is a dead house, and this is the second time he has come here.Last time, the leisurely seaside mood hadn't fully come out, and he didn't have a lover for a walk.

Today I have everything.Guan Jiang sighed secretly.

He understood Du Jingzhou's intention, and wanted to respond to this intention, but he always lacked some energy.

"In my primary school Chinese textbook, there is an article called "Small Seaside Town", which is beautifully written. We are using the same textbook, right? Do you have any impression?" Du Jingzhou said.

"Yeah." Guan Jiang searched his memory hard, seemed to recall such a text, and seemed to be just a fabrication of memory, because he didn't want to disappoint Du Jingzhou too much, so he replied, "Yes, the seaside town written by the author is very clean, Very laid back."

Since it is a beautifully written "Small Seaside Town", the content is nothing more than this.

He looked at Du Jingzhou's expression and found no disappointment.Don't worry.In front of them was a very long seaside avenue, with tall mango trees and pineapple trees intersecting on both sides of the road, and there seemed to be a faint fruit fragrance in the evening air.From one end of the road to the other, night came.

They stopped on the side of the road to rest, lying on the roadside fence and looking at the sea in the distance.The water area stretched to the horizon, and the end was already dark. They all looked there quietly, maybe they were all thinking, maybe they were all letting go.

When Du Jingzhou's fingers touched him lightly, Guan Jiang trembled for no reason.So subtle that it didn't affect their proximity.Du Jingzhou held his hand.Intentional skin-to-skin contact between people will bring a special kind of heartbeat.He clearly felt that he was scalded by Du Jingzhou's body temperature, and he was a little distracted and infatuated with no future.

Ten fingers were held together and tested for a while, the night completely enveloped the world, and once or twice the breathing was clearer than the sound of the sea breeze.They hugged each other shoulder to shoulder and turned their heads to look at each other. No one had any decent thoughts in their minds.

Lips look for lips, warm wrapping cool.Guan Jiang felt that Du Jingzhou was a little proud, and he was unwilling to give his breathing completely to himself.So he bit the tip of his tongue, rubbed it lightly with the tip of his teeth, and then stirred the world in his mouth.The sound of water sounded very emotional, and this kiss was more entangled than expected.

Guan Jiang knew that Du Jingzhou was dying.

In fact, Du Jingzhou has another strange phenomenon in the matter of sexual orientation - he does not have desires for any homosexual.This is not a matter of "only love can go to bed", and it has nothing to do with the physical condition of the object, it is just a difficulty in sexual interest on a purely physical level.

During the years when he was studying abroad in college, he met some people who could develop a relationship with him, but without exception, he couldn't convince himself to sleep with the other party.

He did not delve into the psychological reasons for this phenomenon.It didn't bother him much.On the contrary, lack of sexual interest can just help him filter out the so-called "wrong people".

But Guan Jiang passed this level.He was amazed.Their skin-to-skin contact and kissing made him feel very good.

So on the night of his birthday, he deliberately let his breath linger in Guan Jiang's mouth.He stuck his tongue down the back of his throat for the fit and excitement of Saturday's boardwalk.

He remembered that at that time he could clearly feel his heart trembling, Guan Jiang's arms were around his shoulders, and he still couldn't help sliding down.There is a certain soreness in the abdomen, and the lower part is only one step away from being hard.

He even felt that when his mother asked if he was serious, he should say yes decisively.Because, he will always get serious.

But now, both his heart and his body are disappointed.Finally, I have an environment where I can roll into bed at any time, but enough active teasing and foreplay seem to be unable to arouse Guan Jiang's state.He himself was a little dissociated.

why?

When there is a sense of suffocation, they separate.He took a few breaths, and then asked Guan Jiang: "You don't want to, do you?"

Guan Jiang shook his head. "Why?" He looked at him, raised his hand to touch the corner of his eye, then touched the place he touched with his crystal lips, and whispered, "Today is your birthday, you can do whatever you want."

No, this is not the truth.

Du Jingzhou regained his sanity a little bit - he was surprised, and even found out that it was so easy to regain his sobriety and sanity from the hot kiss.This is completely different from the previous experience.He didn't know if it was because Guan Jiang didn't want it, or because of his monster checkpoint.

Either way, it's a disappointment.

He stepped back, leaned against the glass window of the hotel room, looked at Guan Jiang: "If you don't want to, forget it."

The hotel is fixed by Guanjiang, the highest hotel in Ningcheng.The floor of the room is also very good, looking out from the window, almost overlooking half of the city.Guan Jiang said romance.He felt that the romance given by Guan Jiang was a little too grand.In fact, there is no need, they have been calm and natural for the past month.That's fine.

At this moment, he suddenly understood that Guan Jiang's flamboyant romance was to make up for his "not wanting".

Now he has no intention of thinking and questioning why he doesn't want to—maybe it's because of Chen Wei's pressure, or what could it be, it's not because he, Du Jingzhou, is not charming enough—he just feels frustrated.

After a long silence, reason completely took over the neither embarrassing nor embarrassing lust just now.Du Jingzhou straightened the shirt collar and buttons that had been messed up just now, and walked to the table, further away from Guan Jiang.

Guan Jiang approached, hesitated, but still squatted down, put his hands on his wrists, looked up at him with shame in his eyes: "Don't be angry, okay? It's not your fault, it's my problem. "

Since he took the initiative to take responsibility, let's count today's problem as such.Du Jingzhou thought to himself.

There was red wine paired with the hotel on the table. They opened it when they entered the door, and they had been awake for more than ten minutes now.He poured a glass of wine and said to Guan Jiang, "Happy birthday to me."

Guan Jiang's eyes flickered, and he took it.

They clinked glasses and drank.

Du Jingzhou bowed his head and kissed his forehead, his voice was gentle and calm: "Thank you for spending my birthday with me, good night."