genetics determine me

I'm afraid that if you fall ill again and can't go to school, then I won't be able to see you even more. "

"I don't know what's wrong. Cheng Duoduo always passes me notes. I have a pile of love letters written by others in my desk, but I don't feel it. Only when I see you will my heart beat faster, I will get nervous, and I will worry about gains and losses. , will become not like me."

"You...can you accept me?" His expression had never been so hesitant, so bewildered, and so unconfident.

I really want to say that sentence, but my many years of experience tell me that how good you imagine things is, how much reality will hit your face afterwards.

But I can't help wanting to love him, want to see his sunny face, want to give him a real world, want to give him the love of the whole world.He is the original light in my world.

I said a word in a barely audible voice: "Yeah." In fact, I said in my heart: I gave myself to you a long time ago.

He didn't seem to hear clearly, and after thinking about it for a while, his face was bright again.

He happily picked me up and almost knocked me on the table because he was so excited.

He gave me a long kiss, until we both felt a little suffocated at the same time and couldn't bear to part.

"Does it still hurt?" He pointed to my dick.

"No...it doesn't hurt."

"Then shall we do it again?"

Seeing his anticipation, I really couldn't bear to refuse him.Although it was actually still sore, I couldn't even go to the toilet.

He gently took off my pants and said, "Lie down, let me take a look first."

I thought he was going to come in the next second, because I just saw that his pants were obviously bulging.After a while, I turned around and saw that his face was flushed and he was sweating a little. He said, "Let's wait a few more days, your place is still not well. I really couldn't control it that day, it was the first time."

I saw that he was enduring a little hard, and his breathing was obviously faster, so I said: "It's okay, come in, I... I don't hurt." It's a lie to say that it doesn't hurt, I even feel pain when I'm sitting now.

He stared at me for a long time, took deep breaths, and finally said: "No, wait until you recover, I will be very light next time. I didn't expect it to be so serious."

As he said that, he pinched the bulge of his trousers hard, and his expression changed due to the pain, and he forced himself to laugh: "It's time to go down now, this disobedient thing!"

Fortunately, it's a holiday, and I don't have to go to school if I lie at home.After that day, he came every day, watching TV and talking with me.Every day when he sees me, he doesn't want to leave his eyes, the pants are as hard as a stick, but he still kisses me at most, insisting that he won't make me hurt anymore.

"It's a good thing I have hands every night, otherwise I wouldn't be able to sleep at all." He blushed. He blushed every day for so many days, not at all like the decisive and confident Truman in school.

"I'm much better, you...don't hold back...you see, I can run and jump now."

The company is basically acquiescing to the script I am modifying now. I don't know why. Recently, the chip has failed or something. The data has never been uploaded again, and Du Mingyuan's voice has never sounded again.

"Then let's go out for a walk, how about it? Today's weather is particularly good, your face is usually so pale, you should go out to bask in the sun more often."

I thought he came here every day and wanted to have sex with me.He endured it for so many days, he must be impatient.

I didn't expect that he wanted to take me out.I sat on his back seat, and he rode very briskly along the way, no longer the cautious riding style when I was broken.There are white clouds in the sky, and my wrist is around his waist.

He took me to a place by bike.

It is a Christian church in the western suburbs.What did he bring me here for?

The church has a Gothic spire, and Truman pulled me to push the door in, and it happened to be the time for Mass.

Right in front of us, the priest is leading everyone to sing hymns.We sat down at a random place, and I quietly asked him, "Are you a Christian?"

"No, I'm an atheist."

"Then what are you doing here?"

Truman grinned, and the mottled light and shadow that came in from the side windows of the church shone on his face, making it extraordinarily bright.

"Let's listen to the organ." He took my hand and never let go during the half-hour mass.I felt his arteries beating fast as he held my hand.

The mass ended, and soon the church dispersed, leaving only the two of us.

He got up suddenly and said to me: "You sit still."

I was a little puzzled, and in the next second, he knelt down on one knee, faced me, and said, "I am not a Christian, and this is not a marriage proposal, nor is it a marriage, because I know it is childish to do so now. But I still I want to give you a ceremony, an agreement, and a promise. I am Truman, and you are the only one in this life. I don’t know if there is a God or if there is a Jesus, but I hope that all the gods and Buddhas in the sky will hear my vow today and see that I am in love you.

"I love you, Wu Que."

As if playing a house, he took out a piece of red cloth from his trouser pocket, opened it, and inside was a pair of shiny transparent rings, the workmanship was extremely rough, and some places even had sharp edges and corners.

He blushed again.

"This is a gift from me to you."

I really don't know what to say.I'm about to cry.

Truman's eyes are so true and bright, there are stars in his eyes when he smiles.He looks so real to me, I almost believe in this myth of growing old forever.

He took my hand, put the ring on my ring finger, and put another ring on his ring finger.Ten fingers intertwined, nameless forever knot.

"I... that... I can't afford a diamond ring yet, I bought a crystal myself and grind it at home..." He blushed again, a little shy and flustered, "You Put it on first, and I will definitely give you a diamond later."

I really want to cry.Truman, who is still a big boy, made me want to cry because of every play.

Truman, are you real?Are you really going to be like this forever?Will you regret making such a sincere oath in front of such a defective product and an inferior person like me?

What would you do if you knew the truth?I can't even think about it.

On the way back, time passed very quickly.During those days, time passed very quickly.Like the white clouds in the western suburbs floating over the steeple of the church, they disappeared after a while.

love in round sky

It was already evening when we returned to the city, and we found a small place near the school to have something to eat.He suddenly said: "How about we go to the school library and sit for a while?"

That's a good offer.The roof of the school library is glass, and you can see the stars. It is indeed a good place to enjoy the cool summer night.

It's a pity we both forgot that it's a holiday and the library is closed.But Truman has a solution. He is the chairman of the student union and has the key to the library.

The two of us tiptoed into the library, the lights were not turned on, and it was pitch black.

"Look in the sky!"

I raised my head and was surprised to see the sky full of stars, and a beautiful Milky Way lay across there.For a moment, yo seemed to see all things in the universe, the stars moved, the colorful world, and love.The library is designed with a dome, and we simply lay on the floor, experiencing for the first time the feeling of the round sky as the ancients said.

That moment will always remain in my mind and can never be erased.Even if the world is hard to move in the future, I would like to remember that momentary beauty, there is no worldly things, only the stars and you.

I felt that his breathing by the side began to be heavy again, and the palm of the hand he was holding me was also slightly sweating.

"Xiao Que, I really can't bear it this time." Truman whispered in my ear, and rubbed his body over, xxxxxx.

I hesitated for a long time, and put his hand on the button of my trousers. He unbuttoned it several times before he unbuttoned it and said, "Don't worry, no one will come."

But I was still very nervous, as if all the stars were witnessing, witnessing the two people sitting on the ground, witnessing that I would never change to him until death.I know my identity, even if he abandons me later and hates me and destroys me, I will still be unswerving to him until death.I didn't say this, but I knew it in my heart.

Parts that cannot be described.

"Is this the first night of the wedding?" He suddenly asked out of breath.

"Newly married?"

"Yeah, the previous time doesn't count. This time, you must be married to your bright matchmaker before you can have intercourse. You have taken away all the rings, so you can't go back on your word?"

"...Don't go back on your word." My face was hot with shame, and I whispered in his ear with an almost inaudible voice.

He listened, suddenly excited for the indescribable part.

"Xiao Que... Xiao Que..." He called my name in a low voice, "Never leave me..."

"People around me, including my parents, I think they all love me, but sometimes I feel that they don't love me that much."

I looked up and saw that the starry sky in his eyes was a bit dim, and against the gorgeous starry sky behind him, he looked even more lonely.I tried my best to contain him, wrapping his lips with my lips.

Even at the moment when he falls into the mortal world, I will catch him in pieces.

Later, we both fell asleep, and in the dimness, I felt him reaching out from behind and hugging me.That posture is like tonight, but time has passed, he has been hurt by the world, and I am also covered in bruises.

I touched his arm holding me tightly, it was uneven, deep and shallow, it was a scar.

The horizontal and vertical scars that I cut myself with one knife after another, and the circular scars burned by cigarettes one by one, are just to prove my existence, just to search the world to find another true heart.