Snow country
Chapter 15
After handing in the final report, Zhang Xiao who came out of the teaching building felt a little dazed.He looked up at the gloomy sky, and couldn't help sighing again, saying that the weather can reflect people's mood is all false.
It was deep winter, although there was no snow, the cold wind still made Zhang Xiao's cheeks ache.He couldn't help shrinking his neck, and took out his phone slowly after he walked into the station.After clicking on the unread message on the top, he curled his lips and replied: "It's over, it seems that I can graduate smoothly."
There is no response there, nor has it been read.Knowing that Xuesheng probably went to work again, Zhang Xiao didn't care, just put the phone back, raised his head and quietly looked at the other side of the platform.
It was clearly a scene that he had been tired of watching for four years, but he knew that he would say goodbye to all of this soon.The instructor has already nodded, and he has also bought a ticket for a few days later.
He is really leaving the city.
The small room where I lived for four years was rarely empty.A lot of sundries have been packed and sent back to China, leaving only some basic daily necessities and a change of clothes here.Sighing, Zhang Xiao took off his scarf and sat down at the table.Xuesheng also gave a reply at some point.
"Congratulations, I know you must be fine." It was a response that couldn't find any faults, and couldn't see the true emotions of the people over there.
Coward retreated into his shell again.
Thinking about it this way, Zhang Xiao pressed the delete button and completely deleted the half-typed sentence "I'm going back in a few days".
He stretched out his finger and poked the plants in the bed.After two years of cultivation, they are still green and lush, shaking the branches and leaves with Zhang Xiao's movements as if venting his anger.Zhang Xiao thought to himself, it would be great if Xuesheng could understand as well as these little guys.
In this way, he will not run to him without saying a word after being drunk, force his thoughts out, and then flee back to Akita as if nothing happened. Until now, three months have passed, but nothing has happened appeared before him.
It's not as annoying as before, but it's just turned into an electronic pet.
Looking at those few plants, Zhang Xiao began to think about their whereabouts.He knew in his heart that the best way to deal with them was to give them to the senior in the laboratory who loved flowers and plants, but at this moment, he seemed to have a better idea.He sat up straight and grabbed his phone.
Better to return them to their original owners.
It takes four hours from Tokyo to Akita by Shinkansen.
Zhang Xiao bought a ticket for 07:30 so that he could arrive at the station before noon.He only carried a small bag, carefully carrying two pots of little ones in his hands, and found his place to sit down.There were not many people in the morning, most of them were office workers in suits and leather shoes preparing to go on a business trip. The expressionless tense atmosphere made the surroundings look a little deserted.Zhang Xiao shrank his neck, planning to sleep for a while.
He couldn't help imagining Xuesheng's mood when he was sitting in the car, but he couldn't find the right answer anyway.He just felt that listening to the sound of the wheels hitting the rails, his mind became very calm.
He was approaching Xuesheng, the city that raised Xuesheng.
There were falling snowflakes on the road, but when Zhang Xiao got out of the car, the snow miraculously stopped.The sky is still gloomy, and there is no light to be found.
Kitazawa Hospital is easy to find. You can see the white building when you walk out of the station.There are not as many people coming and going as expected, and the scale is not very large, but there is a corner of peace, which is a place suitable for rest.
Standing in front of the gate, he unconsciously pinched the bag even tighter. For some reason, Zhang Xiao felt a little more afraid, and couldn't take the first step for a long time.The nurse passing by frowned and asked actively, and he came back to his senses and said that he was Xuesheng's junior, and that Xuesheng left something on him, and he came here specially to return it.
Unexpectedly, the young nurse sister was a little surprised when she heard the words: "Are you the junior of Dr. Xuesheng in Tokyo?" Facing his puzzled gaze, the nurse sister explained with a smile, "Dr. I have to go back to Tokyo on vacation, and said that I want to see my junior, Madam even suspects that he has a girlfriend in Tokyo! I didn’t expect it to be true.”
Zhang Xiao forced a smile, feeling a little complicated.
"You can't see him without an appointment during working hours, but he is usually in the back garden during breaks, and he takes care of the stray cats there without telling the dean." The nurse blinked, "You can go and see."
After thanking the nurse sister, Zhang Xiao walked in the direction she pointed, but his spirit was a little dazed.He always felt that he was far away from Xuesheng's usual life, but he didn't know that he was a part of Xuesheng's daily life.
The view of the back garden is very good, but it looks a bit lonely because of the cold after the snow.Zhang Xiao didn't really expect to meet Xuesheng, but the figure in white and green was too conspicuous, breaking into his sight in an instant.
The man was squatting under a big tree in the garden, and there was a small cat nest in front of him, and a few cats could be vaguely seen writhing in it.There was a gentle smile on the corner of the man's lips, and he changed the cushions for the cats swiftly but gently with his hands.He stretched out his hand and scratched a cat's chin, and said something softly in his mouth, like the dialect of Akita.The voice is too low, Zhang Xiao can't understand and can't hear clearly.
Kitazawa Yukio, who was wearing a white coat, was distant and lonely for some reason.It seems that nothing in this world can keep him, and it will disappear with the melting of the snow in the next second.
He was born for the beauty of this moment, and it will not belong to anyone.
After handling everything, Xue Sheng raised his head, and caught Zhang Xiao's eyes who were standing not far away.The distance between them was only ten steps, but no one took the initiative to take the first step.
After a long time, Zhang Xiao exhaled secretly, and then pulled a smile on his face.He raised his hand and gently waved towards Xuesheng over there.
I don't know if there is the appearance of Xuesheng that day.
The startled Xue Sheng finally came back to his senses.He opened his mouth, moved his eyes to the bag in Zhang Xiao's hand, and finally smiled lightly.He took the initiative to come over and took the small potted plants that were a little heavy: "It's a pity, you can't take them back."
Zhang Xiao is serious: "I believe that the seniors can raise them well."
Xuesheng smiled, and his eyes were fixed on Zhang Xiao.His eyes were too hot, Zhang Xiao pinched his fingers, but still directly responded to Xue Sheng's eyes.Xuesheng opened his mouth, with some hesitation in his voice: "Is there nothing else to do later? Can you wait for me here? There is a coffee shop nearby. I... want to return your things too."
Nodding his head, Zhang Xiao turned around first without asking about the location of the coffee shop.He thought in his heart that he was going to leave anyway, so it didn't matter if he ignored these etiquettes occasionally.
He could probably guess what Xuesheng wanted to return to him.
Without taking off his white coat, Xue Sheng almost hurriedly rushed to Zhang Xiao and sat down.There were not many people in the shop, and the proprietress couldn't help laughing when she saw him like that: "Xuesheng, be careful not to fall!"
Xue Sheng turned his head to thank the proprietress, there was nothing wrong with the smile on his face.He calmed down his breathing before raising his head to look at Zhang Xiao.After a few seconds of silence, he took the initiative to say: "I thought...you would leave directly too."
Yeah, why not just leave?Zhang Xiao stared at the calm water, and said lightly: "I have thought about it too."
He raised his head and met Shang Xuesheng's eyes: "I also thought about it, just like you before, and returned to China without saying a word after retiring the rent. But, it really is wrong to do so." After a pause, he smiled lightly "Because I have experienced such emptiness, I don't want my seniors to experience it again."
It's not about revenge, he just wants to do what he thinks is right.
Xuesheng's lips twitched a few times, but in the end he just sighed: "I'm sorry."
"Senior didn't feel sorry for me." Zhang Xiao shook his head.
"...not just apologizing for the year of no contact." Pursing his lips, Xue Sheng took a breath quietly as if he had made up his mind.
But Zhang Xiao suddenly said: "I was chatting with the proprietress just now, and she said something about my senior's childhood."
"Really? What did she say about me?"
"Say you're a crybaby."
The Xuesheng in other people's mouth is a frail, stubborn child who is so good that he can't find any faults.He would run away from home because of his parents' strict discipline, and he would go to the highest medical school because of criticism from others.
Hearing this, Xue Sheng couldn't help chuckling: "Are you surprised?"
"No." He didn't change at all.
"I'm just a little timid. When I arrived in Tokyo, there were many opportunities to escape this fate, but I couldn't leave my parents and this hospital behind. I know I will come back in the end."
"This is the advantage of the predecessors."
"Thank you." Xuesheng gently rubbed the glass in front of him with his fingers, "I understand that my life is only free during those few years in Tokyo, but I never expected to meet someone I like so much in the last year. After only a few months together, what I have brought to me is a strong relationship that cannot be matched by the sum of the past twenty years."
The "like" he said was not serious at all, more casual than all the likes he had said in the year of the restart.There is no affectionate confession for the first time, and there is no romance of love under the fireworks.
But for some reason, only this sentence of liking was deeply imprinted in Zhang Xiao's mind.
Even at that time, even Kitazawa Yukio, who stabbed him without hesitation, liked him.At that time, his love was not just a one-man show.
"That's why I'm very scared, especially spending the New Year with you. You gave me your keys without hesitation." After a pause, Xue Sheng's voice became more choked.He raised his head and looked straight at Zhang Xiao.
Zhang Xiao understood that he was finally going to hear those words.It's not a sloppy apology, it's not a vent after getting drunk.
"He came to me that day... I didn't push him away. I thought that if I slept with someone else, I would be able to get rid of the messy emotions. But no, I became more messy... What I thought at that time It's just that I don't want to end, I still want to be with you, so I escaped. But that's wrong. Even though it's two years late, I still want to tell you—"
It doesn't matter if you are late, as long as Xuesheng is willing to talk.
"Xiao, I'm sorry. I should tell you the matter between the two of us frankly, instead of trying to solve it by myself in this disloyal way. I'm sorry, I shouldn't have caused you so much harm because of my psychological problems .And after that...I can't let you go, I long for your response, but I haven't thought about whether you want me or not, and whether you really like me. Just disappear and reappear casually like this, I'm sorry."
He finally waited for Xue Sheng's clear apology.
"I'm sorry, but I like you, it's true. It hasn't changed until now."
The feelings that were firmly locked in the box were carefully opened with a key after a long time.Zhang Xiao stared blankly at Xuesheng's eyes, and suddenly laughed.He shook his head, and suddenly felt that his understanding of Xuesheng had been biased for a long time.
What kind of snow spirit, what kind of perfect senior, Kitazawa Yukio is just a very ordinary person.There are many shortcomings, it will make people angry, because I have never liked anyone, so I don’t know how to fall in love, and I approach him cautiously amidst countless mistakes.Although it was a bit late, he was very glad that he came to this place on his own initiative and heard this passage.
"Senior," Zhang Xiao forced himself to remain expressionless, "You are such an idiot."
"Yeah, I'm an idiot." Xuesheng grinned, that smile was as pure as the one he showed when he waved to him in the first night, "Xiao, thank you." Thank you for giving me the opportunity to share these Tell you all.
Even if Xuesheng didn't finish speaking, Zhang Xiao could still understand what Xuesheng wanted to express.He shook his head, the corners of his lips were softer than ever before: "Thank you too, senior."
Thank you for allowing me to leave this city and this country with no regrets.Thank you for letting me talk about such a short but unforgettable love.
"Actually, I never said that, senior. When I was in the drama club..."
"It's not the first time we met, right?" Xue Sheng interrupted Zhang Xiao with a smile.There was some vivid cunning in his smile, "You stared blankly at me for so long in that snow, do you think I won't feel it?"
Zhang Xiao scratched his cheeks, inexplicably feeling a little blushing.
"Thank you that day too, Xiao." Xue Sheng's voice sank.He pouted his head and looked at Zhang Xiao intently, "Thank you for appearing in front of me when I was at a loss because of the freedom that was about to end."
Freedom is always relative.To be bound willingly is also a kind of freedom.
Facing Shang Xuesheng's gaze, Zhang Xiao couldn't help laughing with Xuesheng.
"That's right." Xuesheng took out something from his pocket, gently put it on the table and pushed it to Zhang Xiao, "I'll return this to you."
That was the key Zhang Xiao gave him two years ago.
Zhang Xiao stared blankly at the key.In a few days, this key will no longer belong to him, and everything will come to an end.
He actually couldn't remember what kind of mood he had when he handed over the key.
Zhang Xiao put the keys away seriously, raised his head and smiled at Xuesheng: "Senior is indeed still a senior."
The key was in the palm of my hand, and the edges and corners scratched a little.
It's just like Xuesheng's indelible and colorful stroke that he will never forget in his whole life.
The last Shinkansen back to Tokyo leaves after [-]:[-].Regardless of the senior doctor's dissatisfaction, Xuesheng insisted on asking for leave and insisted on sending Zhang Xiao to the station.
Standing in front of the gate, Zhang Xiao couldn't help but glance sideways at Xuesheng's appearance.Because he was too eager to rush out of the hospital, Xuesheng, who was always gentle and perfect, had messy hair, and the coat and clothes he put on casually were not buttoned properly, looking a bit embarrassed.
As if sensing Zhang Xiao's gaze, Xue Sheng also turned his head to look at him.But Zhang Xiao took a step forward at this time, turned slightly sideways, and said with a smile: "Senior, just send it here."
Xue Sheng opened his mouth, as if he wanted to say something.Those eyes full of reluctance pierced Zhang Xiao's heart like needles, but Zhang Xiao forced himself not to look away.
They knew each other well, after this glance, they didn't know when they would see each other again.Love is just the most fragile emotion in life, which can be easily influenced by reality.And they seem to be unable to escape such a rough and long distance, even just now, they still admitted with a smile that they love each other.
Maybe in the long life after that, I can find someone I love more, but it will never be the person in front of me again.
"Senior," Zhang Xiao took the initiative to break the silence, "work hard. This is not a prison, this is the home you chose."
"Yeah." So Xuesheng also laughed, "You too. Akatsuki can do well in everything, whether it's in Tokyo or back to your hometown. I believe in you."
Zhang Xiao bowed seriously, swiped his card and walked into the station.
Zhang Xiao scolded Kitazawa Xuesheng in his heart more than once for being a coward.But isn't he?He knew that he was more timid than Xuesheng, so when he ran into Xuesheng that time, he pretended to be deaf and dumb, and swallowed all his resentment back.Things have become like this, he can't say that he is not responsible.
But what if?Zhang Xiao didn't want to be so timid all the time. If so, wouldn't he have made no progress in the past two years?
finished?No, it's not over yet, and it's not time to hand in the papers yet.
Zhang Xiao suddenly turned around and ran back.He was extremely thankful that he didn't have any luggage and could run back to the gate as fast as possible.Before Xuesheng left——
However, he forgot that Xuesheng would not leave.The man kept watching his back.
Seeing him running back, Xue Sheng subconsciously ran forward a few steps until the gate of the gate stopped them.
At that moment, Zhang Xiao seemed to really understand the meaning of only two people left in the world.I can't hear the sounds around me, and except for the people in front of me, all the scenery loses its original color.Xuesheng's light-colored eyes are full of love, just like the hand that he held him.It was so cold that it made people shiver, but the force was so strong, as if he was afraid that he would not be able to grasp it again in the blink of an eye. It hurt him a little, but he could clearly feel his existence.
That seemed to say that Zhang Xiao's current decision was not a mistake.
He took a deep breath and tremblingly uttered a flight number.Facing Shang Xuesheng's eyes, his expression was firmer than ever before: "The day after tomorrow, at Haneda Airport. I'll just wait half an hour before you board the plane. Come and see me off, senior."
After speaking, he firmly broke away from Xuesheng's hand, turned and left without looking back.
The platform is not indoors, and you can see the night sky that has lost any light.Standing outside the yellow line, Zhang Xiao raised his head and stared into the darkness.I don't know when it will start snowing again.
Fortunately, the snow wasn't too heavy, enough for the snow elf who didn't bring an umbrella to go back to where he was supposed to go.
He rubbed his fingertips secretly.That bit of cold touch still remains, which makes people nostalgic.
The author has something to say: I have never been to Akita, and there is no Kitazawa Hospital in reality. Please forgive me if there are bugs.
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☆、FINAL
The cherry trees downstairs are bare.
Zhang Xiao stood under the cherry tree blankly, looking up at the room in a daze.
He remembered that in spring, he and Xuesheng watched the cherry blossoms there, ate sweet tea and drank slightly bitter matcha.He thought that when Xia Tian first came, they all lost their composure because of that junior. On the way back, Zhang Xiao bought cherry blossom-flavored jelly and the two of them ate it together. In the end, they both agreed that it was tasteless. As expected, the egg creme brulee was more delicious.
He thought of Qiu Xuesheng standing in the corridor, reading a book while waiting for him to come back, wearing glasses with low prescription and a knitted sweater, he looked like the most perfect college senior.He remembered that they spent New Year's Eve together in the first winter, eating hot hot pot, and at that moment, he handed over the key.
And now, he was saying goodbye to this little house.
With a shallow smile, Zhang Xiao turned and left.
I have lived here for four years, and apart from memories, the last thing left is a backpack and a small box.
The process of checking luggage is already familiar.There is still an hour until boarding.
Zhang Xiao took out his phone and looked at it, but there was no new information.After thinking about it, he found a place close to the security check and sat down.
The lights at the airport are always bright and not dazzling.Zhang Xiao looked up in a daze, and couldn't help thinking, why did he choose to go back from Haneda Airport this time?I used to fly from Narita Airport.
When buying a plane ticket, he comforted himself that the airport he arrived at would be closer to his home, and it would be more convenient for his family to pick him up, but he knew in his heart that these were all excuses.
It's all because Akita Airport only has flights to Haneda.
Thinking of this, Zhang Xiao couldn't help laughing.Before he left for Akita to return the potted plants to Xuesheng, he might have vaguely expected Xuesheng to send him off.It's really amazing to like this kind of feeling, and I can't hide it from anyone or myself.Even if you cover your mouth, it will come out of your eyes.Even if you are blindfolded, the heart is an organ that betrays itself and beats fast.
Zhang Xiao stroked his hair anxiously, and sighed.He glanced at his watch, only to feel that the waiting time was too long.
In fact, he himself didn't know exactly what kind of result he wanted for calling Xuesheng over.He also wanted to be a coward, not to make a decision, but to follow Xuesheng's pace.
Even if... it wasn't the full stop that he longed for deep in his heart, it would be good to see Xuesheng for the last time before leaving here.He knew maybe Xue Sheng thought the same way.
This humble like.
Time passed minute by minute.Zhang Xiao raised his hand, but there was still no new message on the phone.
coward.He spoke silently to the darkened screen.
He stood up and looked around the airport subconsciously.The people around were hurrying with their heads down, and he was just one of them.
Coming alone, leaving alone, staying here for four years, he left nothing behind.
He walked towards the security checkpoint.
"Wait a moment--"
Someone grabbed his wrist violently.
The man couldn't control his strength and pulled him into his arms.It hurt a little, Zhang Xiao wondered if the two of them had bumped their heads together just now, he lay in that person's arms, a little dizzy.There were small exclamations and whispers all around, but Zhang Xiao had no time to take care of it.
All he could feel was the strength of that person tightly encircling him, as well as those hands that were constantly trembling from fear.
They caught up.Is this fate?
Just take it as fate.So, be honest.
Blinking, Zhang Xiao lightly stroked Xuesheng's back to comfort Xuesheng.After a long time, they slowly separated and met each other's eyes.
Xuesheng looked really embarrassed.His eyes were red, his lips were buzzing with tension, and it took him a long time to hold back the words:
"I... I originally planned to arrive two hours before your departure. I originally thought that if you come early, I can take you upstairs to eat curry rice; if... If you come late, I will ... At least I will tell you everything I want to say."
Xue Sheng seemed to be really running in a hurry, and his short hair, which was trimmed short because of his busy schedule, looked messy.He was panting heavily, his breathing was very unstable, and he looked even a little shorter than him, but his eyes were still locked on him, like a big dog who was afraid of his master abandoning him.
"But...but it's snowing over there in Akita...so...the flight is delayed a little...but it's okay...it's good that I caught up...Akatsuki, I..."
Xuesheng hadn't finished speaking yet.Because Zhang Xiao really put his hand on Xuesheng's head as if he was comforting a frightened pet dog, stroking it again and again.Facing Shang Xuesheng's bright but terrified eyes, Zhang Xiao smiled lightly: "Senior, take your time, don't worry."
He also wanted to wait for Xuesheng to finish what he wanted to say before leaving.
Hearing this, Xue Sheng was stunned.He straightened his back unconsciously, and the breath that was chaotic due to tension and haste gradually became calm.He slowly held Zhang Xiao's hand, and seeing that Zhang Xiao didn't resist, he took out a braided rope from his pocket and tied it carefully: "This is the safety rope I asked for from the shrine, the witch said It has the effect of blessing you with success. I... haven't given you anything, I can only keep those two potted plants well."
"...Is that all?" Zhang Xiao asked lightly.
"No." Unexpectedly, Xue Sheng did not back down this time.After binding the blue and white rope, he took a step forward and stuck it closer to Zhang Xiao.For some reason, the smile on the corner of his lips was a little more cramped, but it was still gentle and harmless, "What I say next may make you unhappy, and it may seem a little selfish, but I still want to tell you .”
"En." Zhang Xiao responded, with no emotion in his tone.
"Akita and Akatsuki's hometown are really far apart. Everyone says that Akita is a small place. I didn't really feel it before, but this year I have experienced too much. After all, Akita and Tokyo can be separated by a four-hour drive. I feel irritated. I didn’t expect there would be a farther place, and there are no direct flights to the two places we will be in later.” After a pause, Xue Sheng pulled the corner of his mouth, and his smile became a little more bitter.However, that bit of pain was as fleeting as Zhang Xiao's illusion, and when he fixed his eyes again, Xue Sheng's face unexpectedly showed firmness.
Where did he get his confidence?Probably guessing what Xuesheng said, Zhang Xiao secretly wanted to laugh, but still pressed his lips together, waiting for Xuesheng to speak later.
"I think the distance is so far, maybe I should let you go, don't make you sad, but... I can't do it. I can't do it, Akatsuki. I don't want to imagine you forgetting that I'm with someone else, I don't want to be a stranger with you." Xue Sheng couldn't help putting his hand on Zhang Xiao's shoulder.
Looking at Xuesheng, Zhang Xiao felt that Xuesheng was not much taller than him.The soles of the boots he wore today were a bit thick, just enough for him to be at the same level as Xue Sheng.
They have always been equals.
"My Chinese is already pretty good, and I can talk in your mother tongue in the future. I can put together all my vacations and fly from Akita to Haneda Airport, and then fly to you. If you want, we can also be in Meeting at Haneda Airport...Even if we can only see each other once in a month or even three months, as long as I can see you, as long as I can hug you, as long as I can see every season and every kind of you, I am fine." Maybe Because of nervousness, Xuesheng unconsciously squeezed Zhang Xiao's hand very tightly, even a little painful.
"However, Xiao, what I want you to know is that these are just my thoughts. I have no intention of imposing them on you. If... If you don't want to, then I don't mind." Xue Sheng bit his teeth Lips, "I will bless you. Just don't give me back the safety rope, please? Just treat it as a New Year's gift for you. After all...after today, we won't see each other for a long time."
Zhang Xiao looked at Xuesheng calmly, without answering.He just silently watched the calm and windy clouds on Xuesheng's surface disintegrate slowly, and the panic and bewilderment surfaced again.It seemed that a century had passed before Xue Sheng took the initiative to take a step back slowly.He lowered his head to take a breath before raising his head.The corners of his mouth just barely pulled up——
The person in front of him closed the distance between the two faster than him.
Zhang Xiao raised his hands and hugged Xuesheng's back tightly.His lips leaned against Xuesheng's ear, his voice rose slightly, with some unconcealable ridicule: "Senior...you are really a little silly sometimes."
"...Huh?" Xue Sheng asked in a daze.
"Don't you remember? The graduation ceremony is at the end of next month. I'll be back to attend, so it's not a long time." It's not even as long as the three months when I didn't see each other after being drunk.
"..."
Although he couldn't see Xuesheng's expression, Zhang Xiao guessed that Xuesheng was silently shy.He chuckled, and didn't let go of Xuesheng, but raised his hand a little higher, and rubbed the big dog's head.
"Kitazawa Yukio, I like you very much."
His voice was very soft, but extremely clear and firm.
In the past year, he has clearly said "like" to Xuesheng many times, but for some reason, he feels that this is actually the first time he has confessed to Xuesheng.
No grudges, just as pure as the first two months.
Humans are greedy creatures.Even if you say that you can be satisfied if you don't want much, how can you not long for spiritual communion after being entangled with the person you like.
"Try again. One last time."
Unreservedly, wholeheartedly.Don't care about the geographical distance that is almost far away in the eyes of ordinary people, let's talk about a real love.
Before Xuesheng came back to his senses, Zhang Xiao pushed Xuesheng away.Under Xuesheng's confused but surprised eyes, Zhang Xiao smiled with the corners of his mouth curled up.He made a gesture of wiping his neck, his eyes crookedly smiling:
"If you dare to mess around, I will kill you."
After speaking, he waved his hand and walked into the security checkpoint without looking back.Most of the people around had seen the interaction between him and Xue Sheng just now, and quietly cast their gazes at him.
But Zhang Xiao didn't care at all, just touched his lips, thinking a bit regretfully, he really wasn't handsome enough, he should have kissed Xuesheng forcefully just now.
But it doesn't matter, anyway, we can meet again at the end of next month.
Thinking about it, Zhang Xiao couldn't help laughing.He took out his mobile phone, and sure enough, there were several unread messages over there.There are no words, and the sky is filled with all kinds of love.Subconsciously touched the braided rope on his wrist, Zhang Xiao couldn't help but laughed along with it.
It's a graduation ceremony you've been looking forward to.
Zhang Xiao couldn't see his expression.So he didn't know how similar the sly, charming and high-spirited smile he showed just now was to the Xuesheng he met for the first time.
He didn't know that Xue Sheng, who was watching him go, turned around and made a childish victory gesture after seeing his back disappear from sight.He walked towards the station with a little jump, as childish as a child who had just turned three years old.
Two months of secret love, one month of entanglement, one year of strangers, one year of ignorance.
And then it's all over.
From now on, it's just 1 minute of love.
The author has something to say: Nope! !Afterwards, there will be special episodes that will drop from time to time, refills and refills! ! !
☆, extra
One step, two steps, and soon the end will be seen.
As soon as he walked out the door, Zhang Xiao saw the figure of that person at a glance.The man's gaze was firmly locked on the door, and the moment he saw Zhang Xiao, his eyes became bright.He smiled and waved at Zhang Xiao, and walked up to him in two or three steps.
"Tired?" Xue Sheng's voice was as gentle as ever.
Zhang Xiao shook his head.He sideways avoided Xuesheng's movement to carry his backpack, and said with a smile: "Senior, I'm not a girl, so let me carry this weight myself."
Dazed for a moment, Xuesheng withdrew his hand and smiled a little embarrassedly: "Well...then let's go, I came by car."
Zhang Xiao raised his eyebrows in surprise.Narita Airport is far away from the urban area, Zhang Xiao originally asked Xuesheng to wait for him in the urban area, but Xuesheng came to pick him up no matter what, Zhang Xiao did not object.After all, he also had selfish intentions, wanting to see Xuesheng sooner.
Unexpectedly, Xuesheng came here by car himself.
Quickly regaining consciousness, Zhang Xiao responded, and followed Xuesheng's steps forward.He could vaguely feel the gazes on them, as well as other people's whispers: "That's great, I've never had anyone drive me to the airport to pick me up..."
It's pretty good.Thinking about it, Zhang Xiao couldn't help curling the corners of his mouth, and quietly moved closer to Xuesheng.
As soon as the door was closed, the person sitting in the driver's seat leaned over and pressed him up.Zhang Xiao was startled, but finally hugged Xuesheng's neck obediently.
Letting Xuesheng turn his longing into deep love, Zhang Xiao only felt that the root of his tongue was a little numb when they parted.He cleared his throat, raised his hand in embarrassment to wipe his body fluid, and then turned his gaze back to Xuesheng: "Why? It's only been over a month, and it's not like there was no contact in the middle."
They've been truly apart for a lot longer than that.
Xuesheng just smiled and shook his head.He tightened his palms and squeezed Zhang Xiao's fingers even tighter: "This is different. I never dared to expect to be with you forever... This is the first time we have been separated for such a long time since we communicated with each other."
When you get more, how can you not become more greedy.Although they communicate with each other every day, both of them have a character that understands the severity and can endure, and they also understand that this kind of life will continue for a long time in the future.
But it's not easy to see one side, so let's indulge.
Thinking of this, Zhang Xiao raised the corner of his mouth, raised his hand as if comforting his own pet, and slowly smoothed Shun Xuesheng's somewhat messy hair, but gently pushed it away when Xuesheng couldn't help but leaned over to ask for another kiss. over him.He looked at this gentle and calm doctor in front of others and looked at himself with a little aggrievedness. He just lowered his head to cover up the smile in his eyes, and put on his seat belt: "Okay, let's go to the city center first."
Xuesheng let out an "oh" in a daze, but sat down obediently.He started the engine: "Speaking of which, because I was so excited to meet Akatsuki, I didn't even ask you where you're going to live this time."
Zhang Xiao raised his eyebrows: "Where does senior want me to live?"
As expected, Xue Sheng pursed his lips.He drove out of the airport in silence like this, until the car drove steadily onto the highway, and then slowly opened his mouth: "If you don't want to live there, we can book a hotel near the school."
Zhang Xiao knew exactly what Xuesheng was referring to.Not surprising, because there, that Xuesheng once handed over the key to him
It was deep winter, although there was no snow, the cold wind still made Zhang Xiao's cheeks ache.He couldn't help shrinking his neck, and took out his phone slowly after he walked into the station.After clicking on the unread message on the top, he curled his lips and replied: "It's over, it seems that I can graduate smoothly."
There is no response there, nor has it been read.Knowing that Xuesheng probably went to work again, Zhang Xiao didn't care, just put the phone back, raised his head and quietly looked at the other side of the platform.
It was clearly a scene that he had been tired of watching for four years, but he knew that he would say goodbye to all of this soon.The instructor has already nodded, and he has also bought a ticket for a few days later.
He is really leaving the city.
The small room where I lived for four years was rarely empty.A lot of sundries have been packed and sent back to China, leaving only some basic daily necessities and a change of clothes here.Sighing, Zhang Xiao took off his scarf and sat down at the table.Xuesheng also gave a reply at some point.
"Congratulations, I know you must be fine." It was a response that couldn't find any faults, and couldn't see the true emotions of the people over there.
Coward retreated into his shell again.
Thinking about it this way, Zhang Xiao pressed the delete button and completely deleted the half-typed sentence "I'm going back in a few days".
He stretched out his finger and poked the plants in the bed.After two years of cultivation, they are still green and lush, shaking the branches and leaves with Zhang Xiao's movements as if venting his anger.Zhang Xiao thought to himself, it would be great if Xuesheng could understand as well as these little guys.
In this way, he will not run to him without saying a word after being drunk, force his thoughts out, and then flee back to Akita as if nothing happened. Until now, three months have passed, but nothing has happened appeared before him.
It's not as annoying as before, but it's just turned into an electronic pet.
Looking at those few plants, Zhang Xiao began to think about their whereabouts.He knew in his heart that the best way to deal with them was to give them to the senior in the laboratory who loved flowers and plants, but at this moment, he seemed to have a better idea.He sat up straight and grabbed his phone.
Better to return them to their original owners.
It takes four hours from Tokyo to Akita by Shinkansen.
Zhang Xiao bought a ticket for 07:30 so that he could arrive at the station before noon.He only carried a small bag, carefully carrying two pots of little ones in his hands, and found his place to sit down.There were not many people in the morning, most of them were office workers in suits and leather shoes preparing to go on a business trip. The expressionless tense atmosphere made the surroundings look a little deserted.Zhang Xiao shrank his neck, planning to sleep for a while.
He couldn't help imagining Xuesheng's mood when he was sitting in the car, but he couldn't find the right answer anyway.He just felt that listening to the sound of the wheels hitting the rails, his mind became very calm.
He was approaching Xuesheng, the city that raised Xuesheng.
There were falling snowflakes on the road, but when Zhang Xiao got out of the car, the snow miraculously stopped.The sky is still gloomy, and there is no light to be found.
Kitazawa Hospital is easy to find. You can see the white building when you walk out of the station.There are not as many people coming and going as expected, and the scale is not very large, but there is a corner of peace, which is a place suitable for rest.
Standing in front of the gate, he unconsciously pinched the bag even tighter. For some reason, Zhang Xiao felt a little more afraid, and couldn't take the first step for a long time.The nurse passing by frowned and asked actively, and he came back to his senses and said that he was Xuesheng's junior, and that Xuesheng left something on him, and he came here specially to return it.
Unexpectedly, the young nurse sister was a little surprised when she heard the words: "Are you the junior of Dr. Xuesheng in Tokyo?" Facing his puzzled gaze, the nurse sister explained with a smile, "Dr. I have to go back to Tokyo on vacation, and said that I want to see my junior, Madam even suspects that he has a girlfriend in Tokyo! I didn’t expect it to be true.”
Zhang Xiao forced a smile, feeling a little complicated.
"You can't see him without an appointment during working hours, but he is usually in the back garden during breaks, and he takes care of the stray cats there without telling the dean." The nurse blinked, "You can go and see."
After thanking the nurse sister, Zhang Xiao walked in the direction she pointed, but his spirit was a little dazed.He always felt that he was far away from Xuesheng's usual life, but he didn't know that he was a part of Xuesheng's daily life.
The view of the back garden is very good, but it looks a bit lonely because of the cold after the snow.Zhang Xiao didn't really expect to meet Xuesheng, but the figure in white and green was too conspicuous, breaking into his sight in an instant.
The man was squatting under a big tree in the garden, and there was a small cat nest in front of him, and a few cats could be vaguely seen writhing in it.There was a gentle smile on the corner of the man's lips, and he changed the cushions for the cats swiftly but gently with his hands.He stretched out his hand and scratched a cat's chin, and said something softly in his mouth, like the dialect of Akita.The voice is too low, Zhang Xiao can't understand and can't hear clearly.
Kitazawa Yukio, who was wearing a white coat, was distant and lonely for some reason.It seems that nothing in this world can keep him, and it will disappear with the melting of the snow in the next second.
He was born for the beauty of this moment, and it will not belong to anyone.
After handling everything, Xue Sheng raised his head, and caught Zhang Xiao's eyes who were standing not far away.The distance between them was only ten steps, but no one took the initiative to take the first step.
After a long time, Zhang Xiao exhaled secretly, and then pulled a smile on his face.He raised his hand and gently waved towards Xuesheng over there.
I don't know if there is the appearance of Xuesheng that day.
The startled Xue Sheng finally came back to his senses.He opened his mouth, moved his eyes to the bag in Zhang Xiao's hand, and finally smiled lightly.He took the initiative to come over and took the small potted plants that were a little heavy: "It's a pity, you can't take them back."
Zhang Xiao is serious: "I believe that the seniors can raise them well."
Xuesheng smiled, and his eyes were fixed on Zhang Xiao.His eyes were too hot, Zhang Xiao pinched his fingers, but still directly responded to Xue Sheng's eyes.Xuesheng opened his mouth, with some hesitation in his voice: "Is there nothing else to do later? Can you wait for me here? There is a coffee shop nearby. I... want to return your things too."
Nodding his head, Zhang Xiao turned around first without asking about the location of the coffee shop.He thought in his heart that he was going to leave anyway, so it didn't matter if he ignored these etiquettes occasionally.
He could probably guess what Xuesheng wanted to return to him.
Without taking off his white coat, Xue Sheng almost hurriedly rushed to Zhang Xiao and sat down.There were not many people in the shop, and the proprietress couldn't help laughing when she saw him like that: "Xuesheng, be careful not to fall!"
Xue Sheng turned his head to thank the proprietress, there was nothing wrong with the smile on his face.He calmed down his breathing before raising his head to look at Zhang Xiao.After a few seconds of silence, he took the initiative to say: "I thought...you would leave directly too."
Yeah, why not just leave?Zhang Xiao stared at the calm water, and said lightly: "I have thought about it too."
He raised his head and met Shang Xuesheng's eyes: "I also thought about it, just like you before, and returned to China without saying a word after retiring the rent. But, it really is wrong to do so." After a pause, he smiled lightly "Because I have experienced such emptiness, I don't want my seniors to experience it again."
It's not about revenge, he just wants to do what he thinks is right.
Xuesheng's lips twitched a few times, but in the end he just sighed: "I'm sorry."
"Senior didn't feel sorry for me." Zhang Xiao shook his head.
"...not just apologizing for the year of no contact." Pursing his lips, Xue Sheng took a breath quietly as if he had made up his mind.
But Zhang Xiao suddenly said: "I was chatting with the proprietress just now, and she said something about my senior's childhood."
"Really? What did she say about me?"
"Say you're a crybaby."
The Xuesheng in other people's mouth is a frail, stubborn child who is so good that he can't find any faults.He would run away from home because of his parents' strict discipline, and he would go to the highest medical school because of criticism from others.
Hearing this, Xue Sheng couldn't help chuckling: "Are you surprised?"
"No." He didn't change at all.
"I'm just a little timid. When I arrived in Tokyo, there were many opportunities to escape this fate, but I couldn't leave my parents and this hospital behind. I know I will come back in the end."
"This is the advantage of the predecessors."
"Thank you." Xuesheng gently rubbed the glass in front of him with his fingers, "I understand that my life is only free during those few years in Tokyo, but I never expected to meet someone I like so much in the last year. After only a few months together, what I have brought to me is a strong relationship that cannot be matched by the sum of the past twenty years."
The "like" he said was not serious at all, more casual than all the likes he had said in the year of the restart.There is no affectionate confession for the first time, and there is no romance of love under the fireworks.
But for some reason, only this sentence of liking was deeply imprinted in Zhang Xiao's mind.
Even at that time, even Kitazawa Yukio, who stabbed him without hesitation, liked him.At that time, his love was not just a one-man show.
"That's why I'm very scared, especially spending the New Year with you. You gave me your keys without hesitation." After a pause, Xue Sheng's voice became more choked.He raised his head and looked straight at Zhang Xiao.
Zhang Xiao understood that he was finally going to hear those words.It's not a sloppy apology, it's not a vent after getting drunk.
"He came to me that day... I didn't push him away. I thought that if I slept with someone else, I would be able to get rid of the messy emotions. But no, I became more messy... What I thought at that time It's just that I don't want to end, I still want to be with you, so I escaped. But that's wrong. Even though it's two years late, I still want to tell you—"
It doesn't matter if you are late, as long as Xuesheng is willing to talk.
"Xiao, I'm sorry. I should tell you the matter between the two of us frankly, instead of trying to solve it by myself in this disloyal way. I'm sorry, I shouldn't have caused you so much harm because of my psychological problems .And after that...I can't let you go, I long for your response, but I haven't thought about whether you want me or not, and whether you really like me. Just disappear and reappear casually like this, I'm sorry."
He finally waited for Xue Sheng's clear apology.
"I'm sorry, but I like you, it's true. It hasn't changed until now."
The feelings that were firmly locked in the box were carefully opened with a key after a long time.Zhang Xiao stared blankly at Xuesheng's eyes, and suddenly laughed.He shook his head, and suddenly felt that his understanding of Xuesheng had been biased for a long time.
What kind of snow spirit, what kind of perfect senior, Kitazawa Yukio is just a very ordinary person.There are many shortcomings, it will make people angry, because I have never liked anyone, so I don’t know how to fall in love, and I approach him cautiously amidst countless mistakes.Although it was a bit late, he was very glad that he came to this place on his own initiative and heard this passage.
"Senior," Zhang Xiao forced himself to remain expressionless, "You are such an idiot."
"Yeah, I'm an idiot." Xuesheng grinned, that smile was as pure as the one he showed when he waved to him in the first night, "Xiao, thank you." Thank you for giving me the opportunity to share these Tell you all.
Even if Xuesheng didn't finish speaking, Zhang Xiao could still understand what Xuesheng wanted to express.He shook his head, the corners of his lips were softer than ever before: "Thank you too, senior."
Thank you for allowing me to leave this city and this country with no regrets.Thank you for letting me talk about such a short but unforgettable love.
"Actually, I never said that, senior. When I was in the drama club..."
"It's not the first time we met, right?" Xue Sheng interrupted Zhang Xiao with a smile.There was some vivid cunning in his smile, "You stared blankly at me for so long in that snow, do you think I won't feel it?"
Zhang Xiao scratched his cheeks, inexplicably feeling a little blushing.
"Thank you that day too, Xiao." Xue Sheng's voice sank.He pouted his head and looked at Zhang Xiao intently, "Thank you for appearing in front of me when I was at a loss because of the freedom that was about to end."
Freedom is always relative.To be bound willingly is also a kind of freedom.
Facing Shang Xuesheng's gaze, Zhang Xiao couldn't help laughing with Xuesheng.
"That's right." Xuesheng took out something from his pocket, gently put it on the table and pushed it to Zhang Xiao, "I'll return this to you."
That was the key Zhang Xiao gave him two years ago.
Zhang Xiao stared blankly at the key.In a few days, this key will no longer belong to him, and everything will come to an end.
He actually couldn't remember what kind of mood he had when he handed over the key.
Zhang Xiao put the keys away seriously, raised his head and smiled at Xuesheng: "Senior is indeed still a senior."
The key was in the palm of my hand, and the edges and corners scratched a little.
It's just like Xuesheng's indelible and colorful stroke that he will never forget in his whole life.
The last Shinkansen back to Tokyo leaves after [-]:[-].Regardless of the senior doctor's dissatisfaction, Xuesheng insisted on asking for leave and insisted on sending Zhang Xiao to the station.
Standing in front of the gate, Zhang Xiao couldn't help but glance sideways at Xuesheng's appearance.Because he was too eager to rush out of the hospital, Xuesheng, who was always gentle and perfect, had messy hair, and the coat and clothes he put on casually were not buttoned properly, looking a bit embarrassed.
As if sensing Zhang Xiao's gaze, Xue Sheng also turned his head to look at him.But Zhang Xiao took a step forward at this time, turned slightly sideways, and said with a smile: "Senior, just send it here."
Xue Sheng opened his mouth, as if he wanted to say something.Those eyes full of reluctance pierced Zhang Xiao's heart like needles, but Zhang Xiao forced himself not to look away.
They knew each other well, after this glance, they didn't know when they would see each other again.Love is just the most fragile emotion in life, which can be easily influenced by reality.And they seem to be unable to escape such a rough and long distance, even just now, they still admitted with a smile that they love each other.
Maybe in the long life after that, I can find someone I love more, but it will never be the person in front of me again.
"Senior," Zhang Xiao took the initiative to break the silence, "work hard. This is not a prison, this is the home you chose."
"Yeah." So Xuesheng also laughed, "You too. Akatsuki can do well in everything, whether it's in Tokyo or back to your hometown. I believe in you."
Zhang Xiao bowed seriously, swiped his card and walked into the station.
Zhang Xiao scolded Kitazawa Xuesheng in his heart more than once for being a coward.But isn't he?He knew that he was more timid than Xuesheng, so when he ran into Xuesheng that time, he pretended to be deaf and dumb, and swallowed all his resentment back.Things have become like this, he can't say that he is not responsible.
But what if?Zhang Xiao didn't want to be so timid all the time. If so, wouldn't he have made no progress in the past two years?
finished?No, it's not over yet, and it's not time to hand in the papers yet.
Zhang Xiao suddenly turned around and ran back.He was extremely thankful that he didn't have any luggage and could run back to the gate as fast as possible.Before Xuesheng left——
However, he forgot that Xuesheng would not leave.The man kept watching his back.
Seeing him running back, Xue Sheng subconsciously ran forward a few steps until the gate of the gate stopped them.
At that moment, Zhang Xiao seemed to really understand the meaning of only two people left in the world.I can't hear the sounds around me, and except for the people in front of me, all the scenery loses its original color.Xuesheng's light-colored eyes are full of love, just like the hand that he held him.It was so cold that it made people shiver, but the force was so strong, as if he was afraid that he would not be able to grasp it again in the blink of an eye. It hurt him a little, but he could clearly feel his existence.
That seemed to say that Zhang Xiao's current decision was not a mistake.
He took a deep breath and tremblingly uttered a flight number.Facing Shang Xuesheng's eyes, his expression was firmer than ever before: "The day after tomorrow, at Haneda Airport. I'll just wait half an hour before you board the plane. Come and see me off, senior."
After speaking, he firmly broke away from Xuesheng's hand, turned and left without looking back.
The platform is not indoors, and you can see the night sky that has lost any light.Standing outside the yellow line, Zhang Xiao raised his head and stared into the darkness.I don't know when it will start snowing again.
Fortunately, the snow wasn't too heavy, enough for the snow elf who didn't bring an umbrella to go back to where he was supposed to go.
He rubbed his fingertips secretly.That bit of cold touch still remains, which makes people nostalgic.
The author has something to say: I have never been to Akita, and there is no Kitazawa Hospital in reality. Please forgive me if there are bugs.
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☆、FINAL
The cherry trees downstairs are bare.
Zhang Xiao stood under the cherry tree blankly, looking up at the room in a daze.
He remembered that in spring, he and Xuesheng watched the cherry blossoms there, ate sweet tea and drank slightly bitter matcha.He thought that when Xia Tian first came, they all lost their composure because of that junior. On the way back, Zhang Xiao bought cherry blossom-flavored jelly and the two of them ate it together. In the end, they both agreed that it was tasteless. As expected, the egg creme brulee was more delicious.
He thought of Qiu Xuesheng standing in the corridor, reading a book while waiting for him to come back, wearing glasses with low prescription and a knitted sweater, he looked like the most perfect college senior.He remembered that they spent New Year's Eve together in the first winter, eating hot hot pot, and at that moment, he handed over the key.
And now, he was saying goodbye to this little house.
With a shallow smile, Zhang Xiao turned and left.
I have lived here for four years, and apart from memories, the last thing left is a backpack and a small box.
The process of checking luggage is already familiar.There is still an hour until boarding.
Zhang Xiao took out his phone and looked at it, but there was no new information.After thinking about it, he found a place close to the security check and sat down.
The lights at the airport are always bright and not dazzling.Zhang Xiao looked up in a daze, and couldn't help thinking, why did he choose to go back from Haneda Airport this time?I used to fly from Narita Airport.
When buying a plane ticket, he comforted himself that the airport he arrived at would be closer to his home, and it would be more convenient for his family to pick him up, but he knew in his heart that these were all excuses.
It's all because Akita Airport only has flights to Haneda.
Thinking of this, Zhang Xiao couldn't help laughing.Before he left for Akita to return the potted plants to Xuesheng, he might have vaguely expected Xuesheng to send him off.It's really amazing to like this kind of feeling, and I can't hide it from anyone or myself.Even if you cover your mouth, it will come out of your eyes.Even if you are blindfolded, the heart is an organ that betrays itself and beats fast.
Zhang Xiao stroked his hair anxiously, and sighed.He glanced at his watch, only to feel that the waiting time was too long.
In fact, he himself didn't know exactly what kind of result he wanted for calling Xuesheng over.He also wanted to be a coward, not to make a decision, but to follow Xuesheng's pace.
Even if... it wasn't the full stop that he longed for deep in his heart, it would be good to see Xuesheng for the last time before leaving here.He knew maybe Xue Sheng thought the same way.
This humble like.
Time passed minute by minute.Zhang Xiao raised his hand, but there was still no new message on the phone.
coward.He spoke silently to the darkened screen.
He stood up and looked around the airport subconsciously.The people around were hurrying with their heads down, and he was just one of them.
Coming alone, leaving alone, staying here for four years, he left nothing behind.
He walked towards the security checkpoint.
"Wait a moment--"
Someone grabbed his wrist violently.
The man couldn't control his strength and pulled him into his arms.It hurt a little, Zhang Xiao wondered if the two of them had bumped their heads together just now, he lay in that person's arms, a little dizzy.There were small exclamations and whispers all around, but Zhang Xiao had no time to take care of it.
All he could feel was the strength of that person tightly encircling him, as well as those hands that were constantly trembling from fear.
They caught up.Is this fate?
Just take it as fate.So, be honest.
Blinking, Zhang Xiao lightly stroked Xuesheng's back to comfort Xuesheng.After a long time, they slowly separated and met each other's eyes.
Xuesheng looked really embarrassed.His eyes were red, his lips were buzzing with tension, and it took him a long time to hold back the words:
"I... I originally planned to arrive two hours before your departure. I originally thought that if you come early, I can take you upstairs to eat curry rice; if... If you come late, I will ... At least I will tell you everything I want to say."
Xue Sheng seemed to be really running in a hurry, and his short hair, which was trimmed short because of his busy schedule, looked messy.He was panting heavily, his breathing was very unstable, and he looked even a little shorter than him, but his eyes were still locked on him, like a big dog who was afraid of his master abandoning him.
"But...but it's snowing over there in Akita...so...the flight is delayed a little...but it's okay...it's good that I caught up...Akatsuki, I..."
Xuesheng hadn't finished speaking yet.Because Zhang Xiao really put his hand on Xuesheng's head as if he was comforting a frightened pet dog, stroking it again and again.Facing Shang Xuesheng's bright but terrified eyes, Zhang Xiao smiled lightly: "Senior, take your time, don't worry."
He also wanted to wait for Xuesheng to finish what he wanted to say before leaving.
Hearing this, Xue Sheng was stunned.He straightened his back unconsciously, and the breath that was chaotic due to tension and haste gradually became calm.He slowly held Zhang Xiao's hand, and seeing that Zhang Xiao didn't resist, he took out a braided rope from his pocket and tied it carefully: "This is the safety rope I asked for from the shrine, the witch said It has the effect of blessing you with success. I... haven't given you anything, I can only keep those two potted plants well."
"...Is that all?" Zhang Xiao asked lightly.
"No." Unexpectedly, Xue Sheng did not back down this time.After binding the blue and white rope, he took a step forward and stuck it closer to Zhang Xiao.For some reason, the smile on the corner of his lips was a little more cramped, but it was still gentle and harmless, "What I say next may make you unhappy, and it may seem a little selfish, but I still want to tell you .”
"En." Zhang Xiao responded, with no emotion in his tone.
"Akita and Akatsuki's hometown are really far apart. Everyone says that Akita is a small place. I didn't really feel it before, but this year I have experienced too much. After all, Akita and Tokyo can be separated by a four-hour drive. I feel irritated. I didn’t expect there would be a farther place, and there are no direct flights to the two places we will be in later.” After a pause, Xue Sheng pulled the corner of his mouth, and his smile became a little more bitter.However, that bit of pain was as fleeting as Zhang Xiao's illusion, and when he fixed his eyes again, Xue Sheng's face unexpectedly showed firmness.
Where did he get his confidence?Probably guessing what Xuesheng said, Zhang Xiao secretly wanted to laugh, but still pressed his lips together, waiting for Xuesheng to speak later.
"I think the distance is so far, maybe I should let you go, don't make you sad, but... I can't do it. I can't do it, Akatsuki. I don't want to imagine you forgetting that I'm with someone else, I don't want to be a stranger with you." Xue Sheng couldn't help putting his hand on Zhang Xiao's shoulder.
Looking at Xuesheng, Zhang Xiao felt that Xuesheng was not much taller than him.The soles of the boots he wore today were a bit thick, just enough for him to be at the same level as Xue Sheng.
They have always been equals.
"My Chinese is already pretty good, and I can talk in your mother tongue in the future. I can put together all my vacations and fly from Akita to Haneda Airport, and then fly to you. If you want, we can also be in Meeting at Haneda Airport...Even if we can only see each other once in a month or even three months, as long as I can see you, as long as I can hug you, as long as I can see every season and every kind of you, I am fine." Maybe Because of nervousness, Xuesheng unconsciously squeezed Zhang Xiao's hand very tightly, even a little painful.
"However, Xiao, what I want you to know is that these are just my thoughts. I have no intention of imposing them on you. If... If you don't want to, then I don't mind." Xue Sheng bit his teeth Lips, "I will bless you. Just don't give me back the safety rope, please? Just treat it as a New Year's gift for you. After all...after today, we won't see each other for a long time."
Zhang Xiao looked at Xuesheng calmly, without answering.He just silently watched the calm and windy clouds on Xuesheng's surface disintegrate slowly, and the panic and bewilderment surfaced again.It seemed that a century had passed before Xue Sheng took the initiative to take a step back slowly.He lowered his head to take a breath before raising his head.The corners of his mouth just barely pulled up——
The person in front of him closed the distance between the two faster than him.
Zhang Xiao raised his hands and hugged Xuesheng's back tightly.His lips leaned against Xuesheng's ear, his voice rose slightly, with some unconcealable ridicule: "Senior...you are really a little silly sometimes."
"...Huh?" Xue Sheng asked in a daze.
"Don't you remember? The graduation ceremony is at the end of next month. I'll be back to attend, so it's not a long time." It's not even as long as the three months when I didn't see each other after being drunk.
"..."
Although he couldn't see Xuesheng's expression, Zhang Xiao guessed that Xuesheng was silently shy.He chuckled, and didn't let go of Xuesheng, but raised his hand a little higher, and rubbed the big dog's head.
"Kitazawa Yukio, I like you very much."
His voice was very soft, but extremely clear and firm.
In the past year, he has clearly said "like" to Xuesheng many times, but for some reason, he feels that this is actually the first time he has confessed to Xuesheng.
No grudges, just as pure as the first two months.
Humans are greedy creatures.Even if you say that you can be satisfied if you don't want much, how can you not long for spiritual communion after being entangled with the person you like.
"Try again. One last time."
Unreservedly, wholeheartedly.Don't care about the geographical distance that is almost far away in the eyes of ordinary people, let's talk about a real love.
Before Xuesheng came back to his senses, Zhang Xiao pushed Xuesheng away.Under Xuesheng's confused but surprised eyes, Zhang Xiao smiled with the corners of his mouth curled up.He made a gesture of wiping his neck, his eyes crookedly smiling:
"If you dare to mess around, I will kill you."
After speaking, he waved his hand and walked into the security checkpoint without looking back.Most of the people around had seen the interaction between him and Xue Sheng just now, and quietly cast their gazes at him.
But Zhang Xiao didn't care at all, just touched his lips, thinking a bit regretfully, he really wasn't handsome enough, he should have kissed Xuesheng forcefully just now.
But it doesn't matter, anyway, we can meet again at the end of next month.
Thinking about it, Zhang Xiao couldn't help laughing.He took out his mobile phone, and sure enough, there were several unread messages over there.There are no words, and the sky is filled with all kinds of love.Subconsciously touched the braided rope on his wrist, Zhang Xiao couldn't help but laughed along with it.
It's a graduation ceremony you've been looking forward to.
Zhang Xiao couldn't see his expression.So he didn't know how similar the sly, charming and high-spirited smile he showed just now was to the Xuesheng he met for the first time.
He didn't know that Xue Sheng, who was watching him go, turned around and made a childish victory gesture after seeing his back disappear from sight.He walked towards the station with a little jump, as childish as a child who had just turned three years old.
Two months of secret love, one month of entanglement, one year of strangers, one year of ignorance.
And then it's all over.
From now on, it's just 1 minute of love.
The author has something to say: Nope! !Afterwards, there will be special episodes that will drop from time to time, refills and refills! ! !
☆, extra
One step, two steps, and soon the end will be seen.
As soon as he walked out the door, Zhang Xiao saw the figure of that person at a glance.The man's gaze was firmly locked on the door, and the moment he saw Zhang Xiao, his eyes became bright.He smiled and waved at Zhang Xiao, and walked up to him in two or three steps.
"Tired?" Xue Sheng's voice was as gentle as ever.
Zhang Xiao shook his head.He sideways avoided Xuesheng's movement to carry his backpack, and said with a smile: "Senior, I'm not a girl, so let me carry this weight myself."
Dazed for a moment, Xuesheng withdrew his hand and smiled a little embarrassedly: "Well...then let's go, I came by car."
Zhang Xiao raised his eyebrows in surprise.Narita Airport is far away from the urban area, Zhang Xiao originally asked Xuesheng to wait for him in the urban area, but Xuesheng came to pick him up no matter what, Zhang Xiao did not object.After all, he also had selfish intentions, wanting to see Xuesheng sooner.
Unexpectedly, Xuesheng came here by car himself.
Quickly regaining consciousness, Zhang Xiao responded, and followed Xuesheng's steps forward.He could vaguely feel the gazes on them, as well as other people's whispers: "That's great, I've never had anyone drive me to the airport to pick me up..."
It's pretty good.Thinking about it, Zhang Xiao couldn't help curling the corners of his mouth, and quietly moved closer to Xuesheng.
As soon as the door was closed, the person sitting in the driver's seat leaned over and pressed him up.Zhang Xiao was startled, but finally hugged Xuesheng's neck obediently.
Letting Xuesheng turn his longing into deep love, Zhang Xiao only felt that the root of his tongue was a little numb when they parted.He cleared his throat, raised his hand in embarrassment to wipe his body fluid, and then turned his gaze back to Xuesheng: "Why? It's only been over a month, and it's not like there was no contact in the middle."
They've been truly apart for a lot longer than that.
Xuesheng just smiled and shook his head.He tightened his palms and squeezed Zhang Xiao's fingers even tighter: "This is different. I never dared to expect to be with you forever... This is the first time we have been separated for such a long time since we communicated with each other."
When you get more, how can you not become more greedy.Although they communicate with each other every day, both of them have a character that understands the severity and can endure, and they also understand that this kind of life will continue for a long time in the future.
But it's not easy to see one side, so let's indulge.
Thinking of this, Zhang Xiao raised the corner of his mouth, raised his hand as if comforting his own pet, and slowly smoothed Shun Xuesheng's somewhat messy hair, but gently pushed it away when Xuesheng couldn't help but leaned over to ask for another kiss. over him.He looked at this gentle and calm doctor in front of others and looked at himself with a little aggrievedness. He just lowered his head to cover up the smile in his eyes, and put on his seat belt: "Okay, let's go to the city center first."
Xuesheng let out an "oh" in a daze, but sat down obediently.He started the engine: "Speaking of which, because I was so excited to meet Akatsuki, I didn't even ask you where you're going to live this time."
Zhang Xiao raised his eyebrows: "Where does senior want me to live?"
As expected, Xue Sheng pursed his lips.He drove out of the airport in silence like this, until the car drove steadily onto the highway, and then slowly opened his mouth: "If you don't want to live there, we can book a hotel near the school."
Zhang Xiao knew exactly what Xuesheng was referring to.Not surprising, because there, that Xuesheng once handed over the key to him
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