thirteen letters

[An Bao, Zhan Xinjia.

Don't make fun of me for writing these letters with you as the target. I really don't have any friends other than you who I am willing to talk to. My interpersonal relationship has not been very good, and you understand it.

I just washed out the photos from my trip some time ago today, and the scenery over there is really beautiful.

Do you still remember the trip we agreed to take this year?We even stayed up for two whole nights and made a very detailed guide. Although I didn’t have you in the end, I still followed that guide and drove the Sichuan-Tibet line alone.

Self-driving into Tibet from the southern line of Sichuan-Tibet, took a picture of the spectacular "No. [-] Glacier" Hailuogou, felt the fascination for the snow-capped holy lake and the simple Tibetan village at Xinduqiao, and stayed in the "last piece of pure land on the blue planet" In Daocheng Yading, I was reluctant to leave after writing the notes. The cattle and sheep in the Maoya prairie made me want to stay here and spend my life indifferent to the world. Ranwu Lake, Midui Glacier, Lulang Forest Wait, until the last stop in Lhasa, if I hadn't received Kuang Xia's series of fatal calls, I would really be reluctant to return.

I also met a lot of interesting people on the way, wrote some diaries, and started writing on the way back, writing them all into a new manuscript, which has already been handed over to the publishing house.Everything is going smooth.

By the way, I am now sitting in the book bar we used to go to when we first came to City B. I don’t know if you still remember, this book bar is only 10 minutes away from your former workplace. At that time, I sat in Wait here for you to get off work, read manuscripts and watch videos.This place is so familiar that I feel that as soon as I turn my head, I can see you pushing the door and walking towards me with a smile. ]

He stopped writing and looked out the window. Not far away, there was a building with small trouser legs, which was the place where that person used to work.He just waited day after day like this, but the difference is that now that person will never appear again, leaving him alone with emotion, the relationship of ten years is gone as soon as it is said.

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"Are you waiting for your partner here again?" The young proprietress came with a tray and put down a cup of warm sweet milk, "Same as usual~"

He lifted his head from the scribbled paper and thanked him with a smile, but the deadline was approaching, and he really didn't have much time to chat with the lady boss. The lady boss obviously understood, so she put down the sweet milk and left.

Sitting like this often lasts the whole afternoon. After drinking the sweet milk, the proprietress will occasionally bring refreshing lemonade, or some new drinks for him to be a guinea pig, and force him to give an evaluation.

"咚咚" sound of dull glass knocking, he turned his head and smiled at the man at the other end of the glass like a conditioned reflex, then turned his head in a daze and continued to work on his manuscript, to see if there was any need for the work that took an afternoon Revise.

The man seemed to be familiar with his state, he just smiled helplessly and quickly walked into the shop and sat opposite him: "Baby, how long do you need?"

"Probably, about half an hour."

The man raised his hand and looked at his watch, it was already 05:30.

"I'll go pack some of your favorite food and come back. You wait here for me obediently." After the man finished speaking, he hurried out of the store. The proprietress watched the man leave with envy.

"Sister, they are such a sweet couple."

"Yeah, remember to look for this standard when you look for a partner in the future."

"Hey, where can I find my condition?"

This same-sex couple is like this most of the time. Occasionally, the two of them will pack up their things leisurely, go somewhere to have a meal together, or discuss going to the mall to buy some food and cook it at home.

Living like this is much better than others. At that time, everyone was really envious, thinking that they could support each other and go through that life.

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He erased the memories that popped up in his mind suddenly, and continued to write with his head down.

[The proprietress is still the same one, she still remembers me, we talked a lot about the past, the present and the future, except you.She probably saw that she had always been a gentle and considerate person.

Oh, by the way, I have already sold that house, and the money is stored in the card we used to share. I don’t know if you still have the secondary card, but it doesn’t matter, even if you lose it, it will be given away one day into your hand.Kuang Xia's funeral has been finished, and her cemetery is in Heyuan in City B. I also bought the place next door to her, and I plan to let myself live in it in the future, so that we will be close friends when we live , You can still be a companion after death, you won't be alone.

An Bao, I don't think of you as easily as I used to. People are probably like this. Time can take away many things, including the heart-piercing love that goes deep into the bone marrow.I actually saw your wedding invitation letter, I wonder if you are relieved, neither Kuang Xia nor I messed up.

Forgive me for not being able to wish you happiness on the spot.

I bought a train ticket for tomorrow, intending to slowly prepare myself mentally on the way, to accept the past that has been isolated for nearly ten years, look at the past, walk around and miss it, and satisfy my regrets.

I don't know if I will meet you, or your lover, and passing by in the same city is probably the best ending for us.

Fu Ruibai. ]

He put down the pen, carefully folded the white paper full of words, sealed it into a plain white envelope, and stuffed it into the dark compartment of the backpack.

"Are you going?"

He turned around with a smile and looked at the proprietress who spoke: "Yes, thank you for your hospitality."

"Welcome to come again next time~"

"Yes, I will."

He packed his backpack, left enough money, turned and left this bookstore with many memories.

"Ah, lady boss, that customer left a lot of money just now, didn't you say that the bill is free?" The little cleaning girl walked towards the lady boss with absolutely enough money.

The proprietress took it and counted tremblingly, and the little girl watched the proprietress suddenly burst into tears.

"what happened?"

——"No, it's nothing. It's just sad that we will never see each other again."